I simple … open the notepad app from my phone … and write.
I might look a totally unorganized person … cause i speak now about stars and galaxies … and the next second about how to get rich … or how to seduce a beautiful lady.
But if we should honestly analyze our daily thoughts … we would see this large spectrum of thoughts … or emotions. Now we think or feel something … but few hours later we see everything in a totally different style.
Is almost a nonsense to define what we think or feel in a certain way.
…. Totally useless.
So … i somehow came to the conclusion that i should let my mind and heart … be wild … and have an unlimited freedom in absolutely any direction.
And that might be also the reason … why me … as a married man write about … love stories.
I mean … it’s ok to write about life … but love?!
How the hell a married man … can talk about love stories?! Yes … a nonsense.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
14
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE philosophical essays
Or … maybe i haven’t said the whole truth … and i really know what the love stories are.
Being married i somehow need to write as the writers from the communist times … writing always in an abstract way … so that will not be judged later.
I am still laughing remembering that a friend invited me when he launched his book with love poems.
When i arrived the first thing his spouse told me was … “Don’t worry! It’s not what it looks like. It’s a book of love poems with his feelings before we’ve met.
It’s written long time before … just published now.”
I had to be polite …. knowing the real truth ….saying to her
for protecting my friend … “Yes indeed! I really thought so! Now makes total sense … cause i did not understood what love poems had to do with the one i know today. Is something from his past … when we … both of us … did not knew him yet”
Most probably … my friend would do the same for me.
.. but still .. my wife was not happy reading my books about … love.
Were books with love essays … telling the same story from 1000 perspectives … on and on and on.
And i always concluded that a love story … no matter if it’s related with morality or not …. It’s kind of a weird therapy. One for healing … our souls.
No matter of age, sex, nationality, profession, education etc etc. … the meaning of the love stories … even if they might look too abstract in certain situations … is to understand the concept of love … of loving … and connecting to another soul … in a totally unconditional way.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
15
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE
philosophical essays
It’s a life lesson that looks in the end as a … therapy … somehow for becoming better souls.
… those souls that know what love is and its miraculous … powers.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
16
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE
philosophical essays
Being unhappy is just a silly … option. No one ever bothered to tell you that you have many, many other options.
All the time when i start to write about love, i actually do it from the perspective of a married man.
If i would define the profiles of all the men i know … most of the married ones … i see them unhappy at home … most of the times.
Is something almost … illogical.
Many of them i know for many, many years.
I saw them before the marriage also … but now … vibrationally speaking …. they look like in the ultimate stage of an unhealed disease.
But what is funny with all those people, including myself … is that the next second when they leave their homes … no matter where they should go … they start being alive again. So … they live in a weird emotional balance … of being unhappy in the connection with the spouse … and being … at least ok … after leaving their homes.
It’s a total nonsense … remembering also that no one forced them to get married.
And … i see 3 profiles of married man … one of them being myself also.
Number one … the man becomes totally dominated by the feminine spirit.
It’s a modern form of slavery.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
17
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE philosophical essays
Might sound …. one more time weird …. but that’s the real
truth.
Today i see them … like kind of robots that live their lives … being dead inside.
The connection with their own souls … is totally lost.
The second profile … is the one that saw the mental software of their parents years ago …. doing their dharmic job in this
world … by taking care of children and family … but on the other hand allow themself to be … happy from time to time … when they go to a sexual massage session … or to an escort. Or they flirt with any woman that … accepts that.
Basically … they accept the unhappiness as part of this scenario … called marriage … but also see it just as a temporary … option.
The next second when they leave their homes … seeing any sign of hope regarding happiness … they follow that direction … not being afraid of any consequences.
This is probably the profile that is judged most of the times … being defined by many … as a jerk.
The last profile is probably …. the most luckiest one.
Somehow … the Universe allow them to leave the connection forever.
Divorce becomes a blessing … and i saw so, so many people totally redefined after such an episode.
I laugh … seeing them crying … cause i know that their toxic life ended.
The path they follow now … is the one of therapy.
It’s hard …. and the soul is crying all the time … but therapy
is … always difficult.
But my real question is why those connections … that used to
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
18
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE
philosophical essays
be so beautiful into the beginning … they are so fucked up in the end?!
Why the first profile accepted to be totally dominated by those ugly energies?!
Why the second profile accepted to live between this emotional balance of happiness and unhappiness?!
But why the ones that are living the chance of a new life … are so afraid?! … and cry?!
Why can’t we have an analyze all the time of what is really going on … and simple redefine the connection with the spouse?!
Why do we bother to live toxic lives … and in front of the freedom of being alive again … we are so afraid … and cry?! Well … maybe we are all idiots … same as the women are defining us by centuries …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
19
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE
philosophical essays
Just do nothing … anymore
at least for a while!
my new hobby and perspective over life
I was on the beach.
I was watching at the sea and was connecting to the beautiful vibe induced by the wave.
I was even asking myself … what do i love more?! … the water or the waves?!
Or maybe the horizon line that i was trying to touch all my life.
I’ve felt a little bit stressed about the new book i started to write with Nolene.
I did not knew her well … but i’ve connected to her energy … and i just love her style.
But … most probably that style is totally contradictory with mine.
I will be soon in the position of having 30 books published … but after the 2 of them i abandoned the idea of having a plan for the them.
… or follow kind of a table of contents.
I actually just let my thoughts and feelings come out of myself … and it was such a chaotic process …. damn it!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
20
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE philosophical essays
But little by little … connecting to the waves of the sea … i started to be more relaxed.
I’ve been always … a weird person …. with weird thoughts …
so at least … whatever i will write will not be boring … and maybe if i will be lucky enough … i will connect to some vibes that will inspire me ideas that will actually reveal beautiful truths about life.
So … i started to write … in my chaotic style.
But i am not worried.
I already read few pages written by Nolene … and i strongly believe that at the end … the balance of contradictory thoughts will be very interesting. So … is it good??
Is it wrong?!
Well … who the hell knows.
There is no absolute truth anyway … so …
Nolene is a coach … a great one ….believing in the need of
her profession in helping the people that are looking for a tremendous change in there lives … and i was the one that believed that after a certain spiritual level … connected with the inner soul … we can somehow start a process of … self therapy.
The sea … was helping me a lot.
I started to feel the energy of waves … and that became the fuel … for my writings.
And i was pretending i was a writer … but i was playing the both roles … being the patient, but also the therapist … my own therapist.
I wanted to find out what is the meaning of life, why are we here in this Universe … why do we pay attention to so many
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
21
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE philosophical essays
details if all the great philosophers of the word ended their books with the conclusion … that all is … just illusory.
So … my main target … should probably be … to think how can i obtain the awakening … and the absolute truth. But how can you get out of the illusion?!
Only few people from the history of the world … succeeded that …. and all they did … was to disconnect from the
standards … and stop acting like the others around. So … i had to do the same .. to start this process. I could dare at least to think that … i will start this philosophical journey.
My new desire … was a little bit ridiculous… but that was my new plan … for my life.
The only problem was that i was not used to do nothing …. or
think of nothing at all.
But again … the waves were whispering me … the new plan.
Doing nothing … had to become my new plan.
A plan … for revealing for myself and the others … the
absolute truth about love.
Then i started to laugh.
The therapist from inside of me started to laugh … of this childish thinking.
The patient …. became annoyed.
“Why do you laugh of me?!”
“You silly boy … you succeeded everything by now in life … but … you’ll never know how to adapt yourself … at doing … nothing.
You simple … don’t have this ability.
You know why?! Cause you love … the chaos.
It helps you forget about … yourself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
22
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE philosophical essays
But who knows … i’ll let you continue this illusory journey of understanding …. The illusion of life.”
Then … i said … “Stop! Just stop! Stop to any thought! I don’t need any thought to understand the Universe!”
I simple need to connect to it …. and the beach and the sea
was the perfect place for starting that. And i hope … the rest will come by itself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
23
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE
philosophical essays
The forbidden fruit is always very … sweet
Flirting is somehow … a way of connecting to the vibes that we like a lot … forgetting a little bit about morality
I had the chance over the years to meet lots of people … men and women … and to understand the spectrum of so different … philosophies of life.
I also had the chance in social media to connect with people from all around the world.
We might look different as color of the skin, religion, social interests, etc etc … but when we act in the connection with the opposite sex there is not such a big difference between someone that is living in New York … or someone from a african tribe.
We do act almost the same way … all of us.
And what i also realized is that there are not so many happy people on this plannet.
Many of us … in fact much too many …. started to believe
that unhappiness is a non ending feeling … difficult to get rid of.
And even worst … that there is no medicine against that. Until one day … when we give us the freedom to get out of this prison with invisible walls … and we realize that even if
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
24
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE philosophical essays
it’s immoral … we love to taste … the forbidden fruits of morality.
That might have on million scenarios …. and having a love
affair with a married person, same as you … might be a very interesting one.
And everything is so damn … beautiful, cause gives such a powerful energy.
It’s the amazing energy of the beginning.
Totally forgetting about unhappiness … life is beautiful again … and again … and again.
So why did they told us to not taste … this forbidden fruit of love?!
Just to keep us … unhappy forever?!
A simple flirt … that everyone is doing … is becoming more and more … and that energy is so, so … sweet.
So … we see it was all a way of connecting to beautiful vibes
vibes that might be beautiful … even if deep inside us … we know they are illusory.
Some are just flirting … some find the courage to connect for real to those energies, no matter of the moral aspects of the story … but all … men or women … and i would say at least 99% … have in mind the desire for connecting to such stories.
So … my question is … what do we find behind the forbidden fruit that morality told us about?!
What types of energies?!
Should we taste the … forbidden fruit?!
I know that we are not allowed …. not even to do it … but still … the desire of sweet energies that will give us beautiful vibes … can’t be deleted from our minds.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
25
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE
philosophical essays
Maybe … sex … is about
learning to connect to the present moment
I wrote so many books about love … but what is funny is that i almost never used the word … sex … in any of them.
I somehow conclude that what actually missing in my life was
love … but kind of infinite love … cause i still don’t understand the meaning of hundreds of written pages about the subject.
All my other books … even if they have a motivational trend
and carry another title that might look totally irrelevant for love stories … are still about love.
I probably avoided the word … sex … from my books, even if i know its importance … but i always considered that we should keep the right balance between love … and sex. Technically … we could have it with anyone of the opposite sex … but … maybe that’s not all.
We should go deeper and deeper … and see the meaning of everything … and actually find out what … connection means. And ask ourselves … why the hell we usually lose our focus so easy …. but when it comes about sex … we know to connect so easily to the present moment.
I smile remembering that in the book “Think and grow rich”, by Napoleon Hill …. a full chapter is about sex and describes the fact that all successful people from the world were very
I might look a totally unorganized person … cause i speak now about stars and galaxies … and the next second about how to get rich … or how to seduce a beautiful lady.
But if we should honestly analyze our daily thoughts … we would see this large spectrum of thoughts … or emotions. Now we think or feel something … but few hours later we see everything in a totally different style.
Is almost a nonsense to define what we think or feel in a certain way.
…. Totally useless.
So … i somehow came to the conclusion that i should let my mind and heart … be wild … and have an unlimited freedom in absolutely any direction.
And that might be also the reason … why me … as a married man write about … love stories.
I mean … it’s ok to write about life … but love?!
How the hell a married man … can talk about love stories?! Yes … a nonsense.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
14
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE philosophical essays
Or … maybe i haven’t said the whole truth … and i really know what the love stories are.
Being married i somehow need to write as the writers from the communist times … writing always in an abstract way … so that will not be judged later.
I am still laughing remembering that a friend invited me when he launched his book with love poems.
When i arrived the first thing his spouse told me was … “Don’t worry! It’s not what it looks like. It’s a book of love poems with his feelings before we’ve met.
It’s written long time before … just published now.”
I had to be polite …. knowing the real truth ….saying to her
for protecting my friend … “Yes indeed! I really thought so! Now makes total sense … cause i did not understood what love poems had to do with the one i know today. Is something from his past … when we … both of us … did not knew him yet”
Most probably … my friend would do the same for me.
.. but still .. my wife was not happy reading my books about … love.
Were books with love essays … telling the same story from 1000 perspectives … on and on and on.
And i always concluded that a love story … no matter if it’s related with morality or not …. It’s kind of a weird therapy. One for healing … our souls.
No matter of age, sex, nationality, profession, education etc etc. … the meaning of the love stories … even if they might look too abstract in certain situations … is to understand the concept of love … of loving … and connecting to another soul … in a totally unconditional way.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
15
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE
philosophical essays
It’s a life lesson that looks in the end as a … therapy … somehow for becoming better souls.
… those souls that know what love is and its miraculous … powers.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
16
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE
philosophical essays
Being unhappy is just a silly … option. No one ever bothered to tell you that you have many, many other options.
All the time when i start to write about love, i actually do it from the perspective of a married man.
If i would define the profiles of all the men i know … most of the married ones … i see them unhappy at home … most of the times.
Is something almost … illogical.
Many of them i know for many, many years.
I saw them before the marriage also … but now … vibrationally speaking …. they look like in the ultimate stage of an unhealed disease.
But what is funny with all those people, including myself … is that the next second when they leave their homes … no matter where they should go … they start being alive again. So … they live in a weird emotional balance … of being unhappy in the connection with the spouse … and being … at least ok … after leaving their homes.
It’s a total nonsense … remembering also that no one forced them to get married.
And … i see 3 profiles of married man … one of them being myself also.
Number one … the man becomes totally dominated by the feminine spirit.
It’s a modern form of slavery.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
17
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE philosophical essays
Might sound …. one more time weird …. but that’s the real
truth.
Today i see them … like kind of robots that live their lives … being dead inside.
The connection with their own souls … is totally lost.
The second profile … is the one that saw the mental software of their parents years ago …. doing their dharmic job in this
world … by taking care of children and family … but on the other hand allow themself to be … happy from time to time … when they go to a sexual massage session … or to an escort. Or they flirt with any woman that … accepts that.
Basically … they accept the unhappiness as part of this scenario … called marriage … but also see it just as a temporary … option.
The next second when they leave their homes … seeing any sign of hope regarding happiness … they follow that direction … not being afraid of any consequences.
This is probably the profile that is judged most of the times … being defined by many … as a jerk.
The last profile is probably …. the most luckiest one.
Somehow … the Universe allow them to leave the connection forever.
Divorce becomes a blessing … and i saw so, so many people totally redefined after such an episode.
I laugh … seeing them crying … cause i know that their toxic life ended.
The path they follow now … is the one of therapy.
It’s hard …. and the soul is crying all the time … but therapy
is … always difficult.
But my real question is why those connections … that used to
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
18
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE
philosophical essays
be so beautiful into the beginning … they are so fucked up in the end?!
Why the first profile accepted to be totally dominated by those ugly energies?!
Why the second profile accepted to live between this emotional balance of happiness and unhappiness?!
But why the ones that are living the chance of a new life … are so afraid?! … and cry?!
Why can’t we have an analyze all the time of what is really going on … and simple redefine the connection with the spouse?!
Why do we bother to live toxic lives … and in front of the freedom of being alive again … we are so afraid … and cry?! Well … maybe we are all idiots … same as the women are defining us by centuries …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
19
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE
philosophical essays
Just do nothing … anymore
at least for a while!
my new hobby and perspective over life
I was on the beach.
I was watching at the sea and was connecting to the beautiful vibe induced by the wave.
I was even asking myself … what do i love more?! … the water or the waves?!
Or maybe the horizon line that i was trying to touch all my life.
I’ve felt a little bit stressed about the new book i started to write with Nolene.
I did not knew her well … but i’ve connected to her energy … and i just love her style.
But … most probably that style is totally contradictory with mine.
I will be soon in the position of having 30 books published … but after the 2 of them i abandoned the idea of having a plan for the them.
… or follow kind of a table of contents.
I actually just let my thoughts and feelings come out of myself … and it was such a chaotic process …. damn it!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
20
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE philosophical essays
But little by little … connecting to the waves of the sea … i started to be more relaxed.
I’ve been always … a weird person …. with weird thoughts …
so at least … whatever i will write will not be boring … and maybe if i will be lucky enough … i will connect to some vibes that will inspire me ideas that will actually reveal beautiful truths about life.
So … i started to write … in my chaotic style.
But i am not worried.
I already read few pages written by Nolene … and i strongly believe that at the end … the balance of contradictory thoughts will be very interesting. So … is it good??
Is it wrong?!
Well … who the hell knows.
There is no absolute truth anyway … so …
Nolene is a coach … a great one ….believing in the need of
her profession in helping the people that are looking for a tremendous change in there lives … and i was the one that believed that after a certain spiritual level … connected with the inner soul … we can somehow start a process of … self therapy.
The sea … was helping me a lot.
I started to feel the energy of waves … and that became the fuel … for my writings.
And i was pretending i was a writer … but i was playing the both roles … being the patient, but also the therapist … my own therapist.
I wanted to find out what is the meaning of life, why are we here in this Universe … why do we pay attention to so many
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
21
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE philosophical essays
details if all the great philosophers of the word ended their books with the conclusion … that all is … just illusory.
So … my main target … should probably be … to think how can i obtain the awakening … and the absolute truth. But how can you get out of the illusion?!
Only few people from the history of the world … succeeded that …. and all they did … was to disconnect from the
standards … and stop acting like the others around. So … i had to do the same .. to start this process. I could dare at least to think that … i will start this philosophical journey.
My new desire … was a little bit ridiculous… but that was my new plan … for my life.
The only problem was that i was not used to do nothing …. or
think of nothing at all.
But again … the waves were whispering me … the new plan.
Doing nothing … had to become my new plan.
A plan … for revealing for myself and the others … the
absolute truth about love.
Then i started to laugh.
The therapist from inside of me started to laugh … of this childish thinking.
The patient …. became annoyed.
“Why do you laugh of me?!”
“You silly boy … you succeeded everything by now in life … but … you’ll never know how to adapt yourself … at doing … nothing.
You simple … don’t have this ability.
You know why?! Cause you love … the chaos.
It helps you forget about … yourself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
22
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE philosophical essays
But who knows … i’ll let you continue this illusory journey of understanding …. The illusion of life.”
Then … i said … “Stop! Just stop! Stop to any thought! I don’t need any thought to understand the Universe!”
I simple need to connect to it …. and the beach and the sea
was the perfect place for starting that. And i hope … the rest will come by itself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
23
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE
philosophical essays
The forbidden fruit is always very … sweet
Flirting is somehow … a way of connecting to the vibes that we like a lot … forgetting a little bit about morality
I had the chance over the years to meet lots of people … men and women … and to understand the spectrum of so different … philosophies of life.
I also had the chance in social media to connect with people from all around the world.
We might look different as color of the skin, religion, social interests, etc etc … but when we act in the connection with the opposite sex there is not such a big difference between someone that is living in New York … or someone from a african tribe.
We do act almost the same way … all of us.
And what i also realized is that there are not so many happy people on this plannet.
Many of us … in fact much too many …. started to believe
that unhappiness is a non ending feeling … difficult to get rid of.
And even worst … that there is no medicine against that. Until one day … when we give us the freedom to get out of this prison with invisible walls … and we realize that even if
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
24
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE philosophical essays
it’s immoral … we love to taste … the forbidden fruits of morality.
That might have on million scenarios …. and having a love
affair with a married person, same as you … might be a very interesting one.
And everything is so damn … beautiful, cause gives such a powerful energy.
It’s the amazing energy of the beginning.
Totally forgetting about unhappiness … life is beautiful again … and again … and again.
So why did they told us to not taste … this forbidden fruit of love?!
Just to keep us … unhappy forever?!
A simple flirt … that everyone is doing … is becoming more and more … and that energy is so, so … sweet.
So … we see it was all a way of connecting to beautiful vibes
vibes that might be beautiful … even if deep inside us … we know they are illusory.
Some are just flirting … some find the courage to connect for real to those energies, no matter of the moral aspects of the story … but all … men or women … and i would say at least 99% … have in mind the desire for connecting to such stories.
So … my question is … what do we find behind the forbidden fruit that morality told us about?!
What types of energies?!
Should we taste the … forbidden fruit?!
I know that we are not allowed …. not even to do it … but still … the desire of sweet energies that will give us beautiful vibes … can’t be deleted from our minds.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
25
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE
philosophical essays
Maybe … sex … is about
learning to connect to the present moment
I wrote so many books about love … but what is funny is that i almost never used the word … sex … in any of them.
I somehow conclude that what actually missing in my life was
love … but kind of infinite love … cause i still don’t understand the meaning of hundreds of written pages about the subject.
All my other books … even if they have a motivational trend
and carry another title that might look totally irrelevant for love stories … are still about love.
I probably avoided the word … sex … from my books, even if i know its importance … but i always considered that we should keep the right balance between love … and sex. Technically … we could have it with anyone of the opposite sex … but … maybe that’s not all.
We should go deeper and deeper … and see the meaning of everything … and actually find out what … connection means. And ask ourselves … why the hell we usually lose our focus so easy …. but when it comes about sex … we know to connect so easily to the present moment.
I smile remembering that in the book “Think and grow rich”, by Napoleon Hill …. a full chapter is about sex and describes the fact that all successful people from the world were very
