That negative energy from home … is dissolved … and becomes … irrelevant.
You smile … walking on the streets of Venice … feeling again how beautiful life can be.
And you thought those ugly scenarios of life, that were repeated on and on and on …. by such a long time … is something that could be defined even … as karmic.
But now you can smile again … cause the new worlds you are connecting at … give you amazing vibes.
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The trick worked … or at least karma disappeared… for a while.
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From time to time you can
also meditate together with your close friends.
A walk in the woods …. and a
long talk … might help a lot.
Once a month i take a walk in the woods with a dear friend which i know by about 3 years.
We don’t speak for one month at all … and then when we meet we tell to each other what happened during this time. Spend 1-2 hours … and it’s really amazing.
I use to tell her all the time … laughing … “we come in the woods and instead of having sex … we just talk.” She replies … smiling … “You wish …”
We are so close as connection that we can connect in the next few seconds after we meet.
I tell her my story … and she tells me her own story.
The exercise is amazing, cause being so close we can treat with honesty everything when we analyze and define our lives.
We try to identify the karmic patterns … and mostly if in the last 30 days we went on a positive path.
We somehow meditate together … seeing each other’s reality from totally different perspectives.
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And the most important thing is that we try to practice honesty while doing that.
We end the walk … concluding … then one month later …. we
meet again.
But what is happening is that we don’t always like what the other is saying.
And still … we continue this exercise …
The nature … helps a lot … to be in harmony … but when we go deep inside …
The good part is that i like her a lot … and also practicing this exercise together.
Is quite helpful … for my existence.
Seeing life from other perspectives really helps a lot … and maybe this is why i still read books … but when i talk with my friend is about my own life … so … And the exercise helps her a lot … too.
At the end … we say all the time … laughing … “will have sex next time when we come here in the forest” … then we leave. I always believed that for a beautiful life we should always try to find tips and tricks that might help us … to understand our existence … and be able to enjoy it.
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“Beautiful … but unhappy.
Total nonsense …
And even worst …
she ignored me ….”
(An unknow)
“We’ve been flirting from time to time.
My fantasies regarding her … well …
I could actually write a book … regarding that .. . but maybe is useless today.
She’s probably mad … on me.
We became closer day by day … and everything was running perfect.
I was telling all the time … that i was looking for a combination between illicit love and friendship. Being married … same as me … she agreed.
It was all like a long, long prelude … but i was patient … and i liked it.
Unfortunately … one day … that bitch from my past … a lady that i loved a lot, but ended up with a big disappointment on both sides … wrote her.
And instead of telling her about my beautiful side … she explained her a lot of things about what she defined over the years as … my dark side.
And guess what … she fucked my new connection.
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Why?!
I just ask … why?!
I was becoming closer and closer with her … but just few lines … and everything was … fucked up.
Even if she observed my positive side … letting her know that i have a dark side also … she disliked it.
So … maybe that bitch … was so powerful … or still loved me and did not agreed to be in a new connection … So … my question … why?! Why?! Why?!
I liked her … Gabriel!”
I was reading his letter and i was smiling.
Then i read it again … and i was laughing.
Maybe i saw myself in the shoes of that guy … and i was laughing in fact … of myself.
Or maybe i was understanding the karmic factors that …. we
like it or not … are influencing reality … My friend … had a problem.
He liked a beautiful lady … then another person which he defined as a bitch today …. but she used to like her a lot in the past … comes and fuck up everything.
So … i ask the same question … why?!
Well … maybe karma is not allowing us to follow some paths
for reasons difficult to be defined now …. but … at the right time … everything is revealed.
And if it is not love is karmic …. but however reality would look like … we should just embrace it … cause that is the real path destined to us …
Today … i trend to believe that …. letting the Universe define reality in any way … is probably the only wise choise for our lives …
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So … smile … and continue the journey.
Some questions are … useless …
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When it’s on and on and on … it ‘s karmic. Just … pay attention
It was all looking like i was playing around, but the situations were looking the same.
Time passed … but … nothing changed.
On the timeline of my life i saw the same annoying people … which i hated by such a long, long time and even if scenarios might appear different sometimes … there was no real chance.
In fact … it was all a message … but … i could not see it.
And i continue living and walking into a circle … repeating the same script without seeing any way out.
I started to ask myself … why?! … just why?!
But one day i decided to stop complaining … realizing that the Universe is whispering me something. The pattern was … so damn simple.
Whenever i was seeing something happening on and on and on …. i had to pay attention to that …. being most probably a karmic message.
But then i was realizing is even worst as that.
I started to see the message … and still i was not capable of changing anything at all on the scene of my life. The message became clear … and even much clear.
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One day happened that someone sent me a quote written by Allan Watts … “Muddy water is best cleared by leaving it alone.”
Passing of time … analyzing and defining all what was going on … i understood that there is need of a deep change inside of myself … so that reality to be redefined.
Meditating, not being able to stand anymore the ugly reality
closed my eyes and ask for guidance. But who i was speaking with?!
Was someone hearing me?!
What was the change i had to do?!
How could i fight … with a karmic situation?! How could i get rid of that reality?!
Well … there were moments when i would pay absolutely any price … just as my life to be different …. to see an over night change … but …
A piece from the puzzle … was missing …
But i was lucky … cause one day a friend came to me … saying about relationship … “If it is not love … it’s karmic.” So … what if i make a switch …. and instead of fighting with a karmic situation … i just embrace it … with love?!
Will anything change?!
I had to do an experiment … and treat with love someone … i totally disliked … or hated.
There were enough people like that in my life … so … i just had with who to start the experiment …
But you see … it’s so damn difficult to make the switch.
How could i treat a person with love … if i totally disliked that person?!
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Theory was … so damn simple … but when it comes about practice ….
Time was passing … and my situation was not improving at all … and i understood i have no option at all.
If i wanted as my life to be redefined i had to embrace all the karmic situations … and … treat all those people with infinite love … and infinite understanding.
That was probably … a great trick … but when it comes about real life … i was still acting silly … or i could say …. stupid … The real change had to be done deep inside me …
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I am so weird, but at least i know to say … hello and … good bye
Few months ago i met a nice couple.
They were about 60-65 … very interesting people. We’ve met in the night at 9 pm … they rented a house of mine and we stayed together and talked for hours … till the midnight came.
They were in here … in my country … to complete a business and delayed everything for 6 months.
But what is funny about this story is that even if we started as we would be friends from another lifetime … in the end they left, not even saying good bye to me. I found it as a … total … total nonsense.
Why a relationship that started so well … continued ok … but ended so weird … not even having the chance of saying good bye.
I was not mad or sad … that they left like that …. but i was
trying to understand what is behind the reason why things happened that way.
Was it something karmic that we’ve met?!
Did i had to understand something from that?!
Well … the only weird thing … which i could define karmic … was the way they left.
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Not even a word about … their departure.
No … good bye.
Maybe i invest too much time and energy in socializing with
people … and i have too many expectations from the souls
from the timeline of my life.
I wrote them … but no reply.
I did not said anything about their weird way of acting, so that we will be embarrassed of any situation … but … still … no reply.
So … it was a closed connection.
But you know me …. i analyze too much …
The relationship itself was not an important profound relationship … but still … a nice connection…
I was meditating… trying to find the logical reasons … why things happened that way.
Well … it was a total … nonsense …. but then i remembered
that the nonsense was … karmic.
And karmic means … a powerful message sent by the Universe.
Even if i considered myself as being so weird … at least i knew to say … hello and … good bye.
So … maybe i had to learn the art of leaving without saying … good bye, which could be translated as … hahahaha … bingoooo … cutting connections … useless connections.
Yes … sometimes we just need to cut connections … not even bothering of saying … good bye.
And i started to ask myself … what connections i had to cut?! I started to laugh … cause there were so many useless connections that i had to end … not even bothering of say good bye …
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They were stealing my focus … of following a new path that i had in mind for myself.
After analyzing and defining what i named … my life … the plan of redefining everything became …. priority.
And still … i was continuing losing my time … saying hello and good bye … but i was not realizing … at least not yet … that trying to be so polite … i was wasting precious time …
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There is a reason why we meet … every person from the time line of our lives
In many books i read a theory that says the fact that everything we see, or it happens in our lives … is actually a mirror.
This is actually an interesting theory … but while walking on the streets, seeing a homeless person … being in a terrible condition … i’ve asked myself … is this me?!
So … if everything is a mirror, the homeless person was a reflection of myself.
I smile … disliking the theory.
Then i walk few more steps … and i remember i also disliked when i met someone that was lying to me, someone that was cheating on me … etc, etc.
So … was that a reflection also?!
I defined it at that time as something karmic, then i remember that … if it’s not love … it’s karmic. But what that does it mean?!
Well … as karma to stop being around … to not see anymore those people, which were in fact just reflection of my inner self, i had to embrace those sides seen inside of me … and see how i could redefine myself. Disliking was in fact … rejecting.
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Loving myself more … no matter what i was seeing … analyzing myself … was probably the key.
So … there was a reason why i was seeing all those people ….
but i had to understand and accept those ideas.
and also clarify with myself the concept of reflection. I started to know the theory … so well … but…
In the end … i understood that all i really had to do was to pay … a huge attention …. to all i disliked.
the rest will come by itself.
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I was looking at the ruin and i
suddenly understood the importance of not allowing ourselves to become like that
I was in a park and while walking i suddenly saw an old property.
I love houses … especially this type of house.
It was probably the house of some very rich people that lived 1-200 years ago in there.
I started to inspect everything and asked myself … why the hell no one takes care to rearrange this building?!
I look … and suddenly realized that the roof had damages and the water coming inside was actually the element that destroyed the house.
I know a lot about houses and saw over the years many old properties like that … in much better condition … and i was really sorry for this one …
But … my kid asked me to continue the walk … and then i see Tunde.
Last time when i saw her … i was 27 … so one century ago … but i was not 100% it was her. Looked so … so … changed.
A totally different vibe than the one i used to know …
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We started to chat … presenting our kids … but she looked to me like a person having … mental problems.
