They needed to get lots of permits … but Tom was not so happy hearing that.
In fact i ever heard him saying to the consultant …”No! It’s too much. I simple don’t want to pay that price!”
I smiled knowing that the guy was making money with the restaurant.
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Of course … the price was huge, but it was for its survival. I really believed that Tom had to reconsider his position … but …
Few weeks later … i go to have an important business meeting into that place … and surprise …. the restaurant was closed … permanently.
I could not believe it.
The authorities decided to close it, cause Tom was not completing the process of getting all his legal papers in order. Tom knew what he had to do … but … still, even if he was making money with the place … considered that the price was ….. huge.
It was actually a price for saving his business … but …
Even if he was warned that authorities might come and close the place permanently … Tom played around with his luck … and one day … he came in the position of losing his business, which run very, very well.
I was sad for him …. then i smiled, understanding how silly
he could act.
How can we define a price too high for saving our ass?!
How can we be so idiots?!
But i smile cause i understand that for Tom it was something karmic … an important life lesson.
He was warned … but ignored all the warnings explained by the consultant.
A totally ridiculous behavior.
I could even say … a total nonsense, realizing that understanding the nonsense from our lives we find the key for defining a better path to follow in life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
117
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
And on the other hand, most probably … it will never be … a price too high … if it comes about our survival.
Well … theory is so simple, but when it comes about practice …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
118
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
The people from the timeline of our
lives are just a reflection of the inner soul …. but it’s all like … looking in the mirror and not
recognizing what we see …
I look at some of them … and i like a lot the way they are … but i also look at many others and …. they are so annoying … and totally dislike them.
I studied a lot theory and i know that all i see it’s just a reflection of the inner self, but … still … i don’t want to consider that … a true fact.
In fact i could say that i dislike this theory a lot.
But you see … the Universe was playing behind my back. Sooner i started to see more and more people that i dislike … which i realized it was ridiculous … but also a clear sign that it’s time to meditate on what is behind this issue. So what was the message behind the message?!
Was it something karmic all what was going on?!
The funny thing is that one day a lady came to me and said
“Listen! If you dislike the fact that i am here … i will leave. It’s up to you”.
The Universe was speaking to me through the voice of that person … and still i could not understand what was going on.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
119
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
I smiled.
Started to analyze my life … in fact, my full life.
I defined all what i liked and disliked and was amazed of the fact that many of the things that i did not liked were also part of myself.
In fact … it was not that i disliked those people, but i disliked that reminded me of my negative side.
Actually reality, with all the people from the timeline of my life, were a reflection of my soul … and defined exactly the spiritual position where i was.
Those people i liked or disliked … were in fact the balance between and positive and negative side of myself. All i could do was to pay attention to those details.
Measure all the time … who is dominating my reality.
The positive or the negative side?!
But what if what we define as positive or negative is just a perception?!
And still wonder … could i improve my life?!
Could i see … just beautiful people on the timeline of my life?!
Or also accept all those annoying souls which i did not liked at all?!
What did i had to redefine into my life?!
Well … maybe my perception about those people?!
Maybe i could redefine them as … karmic characters from the timeline of my life.
But did i understood the term … karmic?!
Or … ?!
It was so damn simple …. all being just a life lesson.
Karmic meant … lesson.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
120
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
But i was so silly … and could not see it.
People i liked and disliked … in fact … the whole spectrum of the human being was in fact … defining my timeline. I was that … spectrum.
I had to meditate more … and understand what i should change to myself.
The only funny thing was just that i could not cure my spiritual … blindness.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
121
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
We judge at the others what we actually don’t like at … ourselves.
I know by almost a year a guy … Gabriel.
I made some businesses with him and from time to time i met him to exchange ideas.
But after a while i realized we always met in front of a certain super market.
He was always in there in the night.
One week … we met 3 days in a row … and still … he asked to
meet at that place again.
I started to find it weird.
But one time, i came earlier, called him and he went out of the casino, which was across the street.
I suddenly realized that even if he was a guy that worked a lot … every night he was coming and gambling at the casino. Gabriel looked at me ashamed and says … “You catched me! Please don’t tell anyone about that.
You see … every night i am coming in here … but every Sunday, i go to the monastery and pray to cure myself of this desire … which i know by a long time that it is a disease.”
I was listening to this guy, that was having the same name as myself and wondered … what is the meaning of his presence into my life?!
What karmic message the Universe was sending to me?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
122
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
And i say … nooo … it’s a non sense.
I was not gambling.
I was not going to casinos.
But still …. I was feeling that the Universe was trying to
whisper me something.
What was it?!
What is the meaning if this connection between me and Gabriel?!
One morning … i was drinking my coffee …. and suddenly the
answer came to me.
I was looking a lot like Gabriel, even if i was not going to casinos.
Same as him, i was working a lot … but my gambling was my non ending investment in the real estate. I did not knew to stop.
Comparing to myself, Gabriel knew that this stupid desire of getting rich … was actually a disease … and was hoping of a cure that could come from monastery … but me?! Well … i was proud of being a real estate investor.
I was actually proud of my courage of gambling.
My casino … was the real estate market … and i loved it, even if it ruined my life so, so many times.
I started to smile … realizing that i judged Gabriel for being so stupid … working so much and then gambling every penny at the casino … but i was doing the same.
So … judging was … an unconscious karmic process …. so
abstract and so difficult to be understood … and i could not see the message behind the message.
Gabriel … caring the same name as myself … was my reflection.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
123
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
… my karmic reflection.
Looked for a second into my past … and suddenly remembered of all those people that i was judging. Were them also … my karmic reflections?!
Well … all what i know now is that all what we judge … carries a powerful message.
So … i started to analyze more … how i was acting in life … but also those perceptions i had over all what i was seeing on the timeline of my life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
124
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
Only love has that tremendous power to close the karmic stories. Don’t ignore that fact!
Truth be told karma is … annoying.
Most of the times it looks as a bitch, even if in fact it is just a life lesson … but we can’t see it.
Sometimes the representation of this concept appears as a circumstance that is repeated on and on and on.
Or might be a person … that we might even see as a …. Devil
itself.
I am smiling now remembering that the moment when i read in a book written by Dalai Lama that …. “our enemies are our greatest teachers” … i found the saying ridiculous.
Yes … karma is annoying, because we come into a position when we don’t like reality … and not being able to control the situation itself, everything becomes more and more frustrating.
Everything is repeated one million times and we don’t understand that we need to understand the abstract message sent by the Universe.
We start hating that and anyone involved into that process … that later on … in fact maybe years later …. we have the power to define it … a karmic story.
But you see … more we hate it … much stronger it comes …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
125
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
till the moment when everything is overwhelming and dominates every second of our lives.
We find no way out … and we make the mistake of hating reality and everything involved into that reality more and more and more.
And again it all becomes a circle.
We hate it, but that situation is repeated continuously.
We meditate … analyzing and defining the situation, but still … nothing has the power to redefine what is going on.
In the end …. realizing that nothing works … we somehow
understand that even hating is … useless, cause it will not help in anyhow.
We still meditate ….
Then the answer comes.
We somehow see that we need to metamorphose that hate for reality into something totally different … and that is love. It’s almost too late … or maybe it’s never too late.
And the funny thing is that the change of attitude … embracing reality just as it is … is in fact … the key for a beautiful life.
Little by little everything is … redefined … and it was so, so damn simple.
A new reality … defined by love.
I’m not saying that this is the absolute truth, but please meditate more on the tremendous power of love … Might help you a lot!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
126
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
You can read one million books, but if it’s karmic …. you
won’t escape so easily.
Hahaha
Truth be told each time when we have a problem we would do anything just to escape … and get rid of that situation which is actually annoying us so deeply.
We start to meditate, analyze and define everything.
We talk with friends and other people … just to find a better advice …. that could have magical powers and save our asses.
But … well …. nothing helps for real.
There are also people being in very complicated karmic stories that even start to read … lots, lots of books, but again
the life lesson is not ending .. or at least not so easy as we would want.
We are annoyed … and unhappy. We see the world collapsing.
We would even believe that we have the energy to read one million books to find the answer … but …
Well … not even for a second … we bother to ask ourselves what we do … wrong?!
The experience itself … continues.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
127
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
On and on and on.
It’s all karmic … and maybe we don’t find the energy to accept that.
We look for solutions … theoretical solutions, but … still carrying the stupid idea that we can trick the Universe. Until when?!
Somehow it all probably depends of a moment of honesty … when we see that instead of searching for advices in books or at friends, it’s all about … having an open heart, embrace everything the Universe offered us … and treat with love all the people and circumstances from the timeline of our own life.
Little by little … the karmic key is revealed.
We start to see … beyond the self.
Redefining all our intentions … into positive ones … totally detached by the ego … the ghost of karma disappears. All those advices from friends were almost … useless. Also … all those books we read over the years.
Just experiencing the moment, understanding the lesson behind karma … realizing we need to change deep inside us
and be better souls … is probably the only solution in front of the karmic stories.
Well … too bad we see it so, so late … and we suffer so much.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
128
In fact i ever heard him saying to the consultant …”No! It’s too much. I simple don’t want to pay that price!”
I smiled knowing that the guy was making money with the restaurant.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
116
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
Of course … the price was huge, but it was for its survival. I really believed that Tom had to reconsider his position … but …
Few weeks later … i go to have an important business meeting into that place … and surprise …. the restaurant was closed … permanently.
I could not believe it.
The authorities decided to close it, cause Tom was not completing the process of getting all his legal papers in order. Tom knew what he had to do … but … still, even if he was making money with the place … considered that the price was ….. huge.
It was actually a price for saving his business … but …
Even if he was warned that authorities might come and close the place permanently … Tom played around with his luck … and one day … he came in the position of losing his business, which run very, very well.
I was sad for him …. then i smiled, understanding how silly
he could act.
How can we define a price too high for saving our ass?!
How can we be so idiots?!
But i smile cause i understand that for Tom it was something karmic … an important life lesson.
He was warned … but ignored all the warnings explained by the consultant.
A totally ridiculous behavior.
I could even say … a total nonsense, realizing that understanding the nonsense from our lives we find the key for defining a better path to follow in life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
117
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
And on the other hand, most probably … it will never be … a price too high … if it comes about our survival.
Well … theory is so simple, but when it comes about practice …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
118
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
The people from the timeline of our
lives are just a reflection of the inner soul …. but it’s all like … looking in the mirror and not
recognizing what we see …
I look at some of them … and i like a lot the way they are … but i also look at many others and …. they are so annoying … and totally dislike them.
I studied a lot theory and i know that all i see it’s just a reflection of the inner self, but … still … i don’t want to consider that … a true fact.
In fact i could say that i dislike this theory a lot.
But you see … the Universe was playing behind my back. Sooner i started to see more and more people that i dislike … which i realized it was ridiculous … but also a clear sign that it’s time to meditate on what is behind this issue. So what was the message behind the message?!
Was it something karmic all what was going on?!
The funny thing is that one day a lady came to me and said
“Listen! If you dislike the fact that i am here … i will leave. It’s up to you”.
The Universe was speaking to me through the voice of that person … and still i could not understand what was going on.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
119
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
I smiled.
Started to analyze my life … in fact, my full life.
I defined all what i liked and disliked and was amazed of the fact that many of the things that i did not liked were also part of myself.
In fact … it was not that i disliked those people, but i disliked that reminded me of my negative side.
Actually reality, with all the people from the timeline of my life, were a reflection of my soul … and defined exactly the spiritual position where i was.
Those people i liked or disliked … were in fact the balance between and positive and negative side of myself. All i could do was to pay attention to those details.
Measure all the time … who is dominating my reality.
The positive or the negative side?!
But what if what we define as positive or negative is just a perception?!
And still wonder … could i improve my life?!
Could i see … just beautiful people on the timeline of my life?!
Or also accept all those annoying souls which i did not liked at all?!
What did i had to redefine into my life?!
Well … maybe my perception about those people?!
Maybe i could redefine them as … karmic characters from the timeline of my life.
But did i understood the term … karmic?!
Or … ?!
It was so damn simple …. all being just a life lesson.
Karmic meant … lesson.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
120
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
But i was so silly … and could not see it.
People i liked and disliked … in fact … the whole spectrum of the human being was in fact … defining my timeline. I was that … spectrum.
I had to meditate more … and understand what i should change to myself.
The only funny thing was just that i could not cure my spiritual … blindness.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
121
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
We judge at the others what we actually don’t like at … ourselves.
I know by almost a year a guy … Gabriel.
I made some businesses with him and from time to time i met him to exchange ideas.
But after a while i realized we always met in front of a certain super market.
He was always in there in the night.
One week … we met 3 days in a row … and still … he asked to
meet at that place again.
I started to find it weird.
But one time, i came earlier, called him and he went out of the casino, which was across the street.
I suddenly realized that even if he was a guy that worked a lot … every night he was coming and gambling at the casino. Gabriel looked at me ashamed and says … “You catched me! Please don’t tell anyone about that.
You see … every night i am coming in here … but every Sunday, i go to the monastery and pray to cure myself of this desire … which i know by a long time that it is a disease.”
I was listening to this guy, that was having the same name as myself and wondered … what is the meaning of his presence into my life?!
What karmic message the Universe was sending to me?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
122
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
And i say … nooo … it’s a non sense.
I was not gambling.
I was not going to casinos.
But still …. I was feeling that the Universe was trying to
whisper me something.
What was it?!
What is the meaning if this connection between me and Gabriel?!
One morning … i was drinking my coffee …. and suddenly the
answer came to me.
I was looking a lot like Gabriel, even if i was not going to casinos.
Same as him, i was working a lot … but my gambling was my non ending investment in the real estate. I did not knew to stop.
Comparing to myself, Gabriel knew that this stupid desire of getting rich … was actually a disease … and was hoping of a cure that could come from monastery … but me?! Well … i was proud of being a real estate investor.
I was actually proud of my courage of gambling.
My casino … was the real estate market … and i loved it, even if it ruined my life so, so many times.
I started to smile … realizing that i judged Gabriel for being so stupid … working so much and then gambling every penny at the casino … but i was doing the same.
So … judging was … an unconscious karmic process …. so
abstract and so difficult to be understood … and i could not see the message behind the message.
Gabriel … caring the same name as myself … was my reflection.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
123
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
… my karmic reflection.
Looked for a second into my past … and suddenly remembered of all those people that i was judging. Were them also … my karmic reflections?!
Well … all what i know now is that all what we judge … carries a powerful message.
So … i started to analyze more … how i was acting in life … but also those perceptions i had over all what i was seeing on the timeline of my life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
124
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
Only love has that tremendous power to close the karmic stories. Don’t ignore that fact!
Truth be told karma is … annoying.
Most of the times it looks as a bitch, even if in fact it is just a life lesson … but we can’t see it.
Sometimes the representation of this concept appears as a circumstance that is repeated on and on and on.
Or might be a person … that we might even see as a …. Devil
itself.
I am smiling now remembering that the moment when i read in a book written by Dalai Lama that …. “our enemies are our greatest teachers” … i found the saying ridiculous.
Yes … karma is annoying, because we come into a position when we don’t like reality … and not being able to control the situation itself, everything becomes more and more frustrating.
Everything is repeated one million times and we don’t understand that we need to understand the abstract message sent by the Universe.
We start hating that and anyone involved into that process … that later on … in fact maybe years later …. we have the power to define it … a karmic story.
But you see … more we hate it … much stronger it comes …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
125
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
till the moment when everything is overwhelming and dominates every second of our lives.
We find no way out … and we make the mistake of hating reality and everything involved into that reality more and more and more.
And again it all becomes a circle.
We hate it, but that situation is repeated continuously.
We meditate … analyzing and defining the situation, but still … nothing has the power to redefine what is going on.
In the end …. realizing that nothing works … we somehow
understand that even hating is … useless, cause it will not help in anyhow.
We still meditate ….
Then the answer comes.
We somehow see that we need to metamorphose that hate for reality into something totally different … and that is love. It’s almost too late … or maybe it’s never too late.
And the funny thing is that the change of attitude … embracing reality just as it is … is in fact … the key for a beautiful life.
Little by little everything is … redefined … and it was so, so damn simple.
A new reality … defined by love.
I’m not saying that this is the absolute truth, but please meditate more on the tremendous power of love … Might help you a lot!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
126
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
You can read one million books, but if it’s karmic …. you
won’t escape so easily.
Hahaha
Truth be told each time when we have a problem we would do anything just to escape … and get rid of that situation which is actually annoying us so deeply.
We start to meditate, analyze and define everything.
We talk with friends and other people … just to find a better advice …. that could have magical powers and save our asses.
But … well …. nothing helps for real.
There are also people being in very complicated karmic stories that even start to read … lots, lots of books, but again
the life lesson is not ending .. or at least not so easy as we would want.
We are annoyed … and unhappy. We see the world collapsing.
We would even believe that we have the energy to read one million books to find the answer … but …
Well … not even for a second … we bother to ask ourselves what we do … wrong?!
The experience itself … continues.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
127
IF IT'S NO LOVE IT'S KARMIC
philosophical essays
On and on and on.
It’s all karmic … and maybe we don’t find the energy to accept that.
We look for solutions … theoretical solutions, but … still carrying the stupid idea that we can trick the Universe. Until when?!
Somehow it all probably depends of a moment of honesty … when we see that instead of searching for advices in books or at friends, it’s all about … having an open heart, embrace everything the Universe offered us … and treat with love all the people and circumstances from the timeline of our own life.
Little by little … the karmic key is revealed.
We start to see … beyond the self.
Redefining all our intentions … into positive ones … totally detached by the ego … the ghost of karma disappears. All those advices from friends were almost … useless. Also … all those books we read over the years.
Just experiencing the moment, understanding the lesson behind karma … realizing we need to change deep inside us
and be better souls … is probably the only solution in front of the karmic stories.
Well … too bad we see it so, so late … and we suffer so much.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
128
