... and you’ll be just as me ... a writer ... that writes about all types of theoretical models ... but is never tasting the life for real.
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“Dr. Ian Gray: What's your favorite flower?
Sofi: Dandelions.
Dr. Ian Gray: Okay. Why?
Sofi: 'Cause, they're free, wild, and you can't buy
them.”
I heard that to understand life better ... it helps a lot if you read biographies ... of great people ... but i would add today to this concept that it should help a lot to study the ordinary people also ... the ones that had not the chance to be defined as important persons.
Years ago ... i read the life of a lawyer from New York.
His name was John Spencer ... and even if he was not well known all over the world, he was actually a great lawyer of the 1980s.
John had a good friend ... Paul Zilberstein ... a great broker from Wall Street ... and they were talking a lot about ... ladies ... and the importance of them in men’s lives.
Paul was always “tasting” ladies, even if he was a married guy ... but John avoided that all the time even if he was also teaching law at the university and was surrounded by lots of beautiful young students.
Sometimes Paul was visiting John at his law office, or at university and was saying to him ... “Please lie to me that
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you are having at least one love affair with those amazing ladies that are appearing on the timeline of your life ...
otherwise i can just say that you are blind, stupid or you are an alien from Mars”.
John was not listening to those ideas came from Paul ... or was just politely replying ... “The subject is not in my are of interests! I have lots of other important things to do in my life”.
In fact ... somehow Paul was playing the role of the devil and John was pretending that he was an angel ... but that only till one day when 2 ladies ... a blonde and a brunette were coming to him ... proposing him to have a beautiful love affair.
John did not refused those 2 amazing women ... and started to experience what Paul asked him to do by such a long time. The 2 experiences ... 2 temptations came in the same
time ... from the most unexpected persons he ever thought about ... redefined his perspective about how to live his life. He totally erased his dogmatic ideas from his mind starting to love experiencing the beautiful side of life ... and even if he was married he realized that he was looking for the free ... and wild side of his soul.
So ... in the end the angel ... listened to the devil ... or should i say ... that John discovered that he wanted to explore the so called dark side of his life ... the one of freedom and wildness ... the one of doing what he actually wanted to do by years ... but did not had the gut to do it. The real fact is that in the end John is not feeling that he is doing something evil ... but he was only trying to understand all the feelings from his soul.
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He knew about those feelings .... but a strange blonde and a
silly brunette had to reveal all he was feeling by such a long time ... an adventure where he will feel free ... but also wild ... an experience that money can never buy.
Adrian G Dumitru
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The evil can lead you to a much
better path than the path you are following now
Many times I was on the edge of a precipice ... but later I found out that everything was just in my mind.
I could see the evil and amplify it to the maximum. I was overwhelmed with negative emotions ... and everything had turned black ... and I didn't even think I still had the right to hope.
I was immersed in some thoughts that were mine, but far from what I could have been on the stage of life ... and I still thought I was on the edge of the abyss.
But my own thoughts were lying to me ... and I believed them ... because they were just my thoughts.
But one day I realized that it's not my thoughts or emotions ... and that I can change what I am at any time ... smiling and accepting everything that happens.
But it lasted a long time ... almost half my life and I still didn't know where I was ... because I hadn't actually found myself.
I was running in a million directions ... incoherently ... believing that I was following a plan and that I was actually
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on the right track, but eventually I realized that I actually had to stop and I find myself.
Everything was a disaster around me ... and I still believed it's because of my thoughts ... but rather it was all generated by identifying with those thoughts. But I wanted the change.
I wanted it ... intensely.
And in fact I had no other choice ... because everything was a disaster ... and maybe only the change could be my hope. One day ... seeing the annoying repetitiveness of everything that happens ... I realized the positive valences of the evil in my life.
I went back into the past ... and it really was like that. Everything that had been bad in my life ... especially the very, very bad things from the past ... made me stop ... from everything ... to abandon those paths that were not meant for me and to go to what was actually meant for me.
It was very difficult to accept the concept ... but in the negativity lay a kernel of positivity.
I knew it ... I had seen it ... but I didn't accept it, hating everything that was negative in my life.
Slowly ... negativity received other values for my destiny ... and I began to see with hope whatever would have happened wrong.
And paradoxically it was ... that I had even begun to see with joy the appearance of evil ... knowing that a new change was coming ... of mine or of my whole life ... waiting for the curvature for new cool things that I was going to experience in soon.
I had begun to understand the paradox.
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It was all about acceptance ... accepting everything that was happening and embracing all the experiences of life.
Adrian G Dumitru
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You need to know what to ask for to the Universe ... otherwise you'll be wasting your time
Isabelle was a very nice lady.
39 years old, beautiful, adored by many men ... but somehow avoided by luck ... in terms of authentic sentimental life.
Although she had many experiences ... she never got married ... but she clearly knew what she wanted.
She believed in the law of attraction and of using it for our desires ... asking the Universe in hard thoughts what we want, but she still didn't know exactly how to ask.
She had read a lot about it, but what she really wanted didn't appear in her life yet.
Conceptually she knew everything ... but somehow despite the fact that she met ... almost what she wanted ... there was always a piece of the puzzle missing.
It was never ... that much-coveted storyline ... but what Isabelle always ignored was that she hadn't really asked for it.
She had defined so many details ... but she had forgotten the essentials ... that the story itself should be based on sincerity
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and love ... and that everything should lead to ... happiness. And that's what we all do ... and when we seem to have everything ... we still feel that something is not ok ... that something is missing.
And we realize ... what's missing is really ... the essentials. We got lost in the details ... and missed the real road to what we really wanted.
You see ... there are many who say that God is in details ... but also many who say the opposite that the Devil is in all those details.
But it's hard for us, as ordinary people ... to actually understand what's going on ... disappointed that we seem to be getting what we wanted ... but .... But Isabell ... was confident.
She realizes that she is almost on her way to nowhere ... and although she sees that her story is repeated indefinitely ...
she smiles seeing in her life a guy who seems to be the best partner that she could have ... but that's beyond that he's a little bit ... married.
She smiles ... and accepts his presence in her life.
It's like the first time she laughs at her desires, realizing how she wastes her time asking the Universe wrongly.
She ... opens her mind but also her soul ... and she realizes that she must continue any path of life with acceptance and joy ... giving up stupid ideas and details.
In the end ... all that matters is whether a story is beautiful or ugly ... whether it gives you life and makes you happy ...
whether it heals your soul or sinks you further. Maybe this new experience ... probably totally inappropriate ... with a married man ... is what she needs to
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be prepared for a beautiful relationship in the future. Maybe the role of this episode ... is to understand the authenticity of a relationship and detachment from all that dogmatism means ... and on the other hand to understand that in order to be happy ... happiness itself is not about details, definitions and other nonsense .
Happiness simply happens ... when we open our hearts ... we accept and submit to experiences.
And without realizing it ... joy begins to appear in her heart.
It is for the first time when she lives without expectations ...
because what expectations can you have when a married man appears in your life ?!
How could you go on the road with expectations ... when you know clearly that you are on a journey for a path to nowhere ?!
But ... Isabelle realizes that not all those men from her life hurt her ... but her expectations ... all those details required of the Universe.
By giving up expectations ... in fact our vain projections ... we make room for the authentic intentions of the Universe in our lives.
She ... smiles ... and accepts him ... and even opens the door to her soul ... wondering if she's getting an angel or a demon.
Life goes on ... even in a much beautiful way .... than we
might think ... but we just need to forget about all our silly expectations.
Adrian G Dumitru
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As long as temptation exists in your mind or soul ... there is this risk ... welcomed anyway
... as reality to be redefined for you
Victoria lived on the west coast of England ... and lived with her little girl and her husband, who was over 20 years older than her.
Initially ... she had been happy with the marriage, but even though it had only been 7 years since they had been together ... she felt like she was suffocating in that relationship ... and life passes her by.
She continued to be submissive and loyal to her family and husband, but something was missing from her life ... and even though she knew what ... she was hiding it more and more.
Her social media posts ... showed an adorable woman's soul. He was 30 ... but she didn't seem to have lived through what her life had meant.
The days passed and she also saw how the soul ... that diamond inside of her ... was slowly fading.
The pictures still said about her ... that she was alive ... but she was struggling a lot ... to convey this message ... being
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completely unlucky enough to live in a beautiful energetic environment.
Occasionally ... Victoria was also talking to Jerry, an online acquaintance ... who had tried unsuccessfully to corrupt her countless times.
They had talked a lot ... and eventually became friends ...
Jerry starting to care about her.
One day he called her and said bluntly ... "Listen Victoria ... I understand that maybe I'm not what you need, but look at you how lifeless you are ... you really can't go on so ... you have to have the courage to open the pandora's box and start living occasionally. Maybe my role in your life is to whisper to you ... just do it! ”.
Jerry was a kind of little devil ... who tempted Victoria ... but it was worse than that .... cause she felt the same way by a long time.
She needed to do something to feel fulfilled as a woman ... and it was hard to accept that kernel of temptation in her soul.
So Jerry was the daemon or Victoria ?! ... cause all he did was mentioning something she already knew about her. But was there something wrong with Jerry ?!
He sees in her a friend ... who suffers and dies as a soul every day ... doing nothing to heal herself.
He doesn't want to hurt her ... advising her to cheat on her husband ... but only to find a person who, at least for a while, will give her the energy she needs so much. But Victoria thinks and does nothing.
Maybe she's waiting for the universe to save her ... or maybe her role in this life ... is to live the way she is now.
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But my philosophical question ... not moralistic, that i am far from being able to speak of morality ... is ... do we have the right to decide, regardless of the circumstances ... whether we have the right of being happy ... or life only needs to be lived and accepted exactly as it is ?!
Hard to answer ... and I'm firmly convinced that the answers will always be ... in opposite directions.
Adrian G Dumitru
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You can’t jump from one story to another one ... right away.
There is a time needed to heal yourself first ... then with the joy in the soul and the opened heart ... life can be restarted.
One of the biggest mistake an individual can do after a divorce, or a break up ... is to jump from one relationship to another ... just for healing the soul much easier ... which in fact can be a totally illusory action.
It’s like we have a car accident ... and we call the emergency
Adrian G Dumitru
53
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“Dr. Ian Gray: What's your favorite flower?
Sofi: Dandelions.
Dr. Ian Gray: Okay. Why?
Sofi: 'Cause, they're free, wild, and you can't buy
them.”
I heard that to understand life better ... it helps a lot if you read biographies ... of great people ... but i would add today to this concept that it should help a lot to study the ordinary people also ... the ones that had not the chance to be defined as important persons.
Years ago ... i read the life of a lawyer from New York.
His name was John Spencer ... and even if he was not well known all over the world, he was actually a great lawyer of the 1980s.
John had a good friend ... Paul Zilberstein ... a great broker from Wall Street ... and they were talking a lot about ... ladies ... and the importance of them in men’s lives.
Paul was always “tasting” ladies, even if he was a married guy ... but John avoided that all the time even if he was also teaching law at the university and was surrounded by lots of beautiful young students.
Sometimes Paul was visiting John at his law office, or at university and was saying to him ... “Please lie to me that
Adrian G Dumitru
54
MY RELATIONSHIP WITH THE DEVIL REDEFINED MY LIFE
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you are having at least one love affair with those amazing ladies that are appearing on the timeline of your life ...
otherwise i can just say that you are blind, stupid or you are an alien from Mars”.
John was not listening to those ideas came from Paul ... or was just politely replying ... “The subject is not in my are of interests! I have lots of other important things to do in my life”.
In fact ... somehow Paul was playing the role of the devil and John was pretending that he was an angel ... but that only till one day when 2 ladies ... a blonde and a brunette were coming to him ... proposing him to have a beautiful love affair.
John did not refused those 2 amazing women ... and started to experience what Paul asked him to do by such a long time. The 2 experiences ... 2 temptations came in the same
time ... from the most unexpected persons he ever thought about ... redefined his perspective about how to live his life. He totally erased his dogmatic ideas from his mind starting to love experiencing the beautiful side of life ... and even if he was married he realized that he was looking for the free ... and wild side of his soul.
So ... in the end the angel ... listened to the devil ... or should i say ... that John discovered that he wanted to explore the so called dark side of his life ... the one of freedom and wildness ... the one of doing what he actually wanted to do by years ... but did not had the gut to do it. The real fact is that in the end John is not feeling that he is doing something evil ... but he was only trying to understand all the feelings from his soul.
Adrian G Dumitru
55
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He knew about those feelings .... but a strange blonde and a
silly brunette had to reveal all he was feeling by such a long time ... an adventure where he will feel free ... but also wild ... an experience that money can never buy.
Adrian G Dumitru
56
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The evil can lead you to a much
better path than the path you are following now
Many times I was on the edge of a precipice ... but later I found out that everything was just in my mind.
I could see the evil and amplify it to the maximum. I was overwhelmed with negative emotions ... and everything had turned black ... and I didn't even think I still had the right to hope.
I was immersed in some thoughts that were mine, but far from what I could have been on the stage of life ... and I still thought I was on the edge of the abyss.
But my own thoughts were lying to me ... and I believed them ... because they were just my thoughts.
But one day I realized that it's not my thoughts or emotions ... and that I can change what I am at any time ... smiling and accepting everything that happens.
But it lasted a long time ... almost half my life and I still didn't know where I was ... because I hadn't actually found myself.
I was running in a million directions ... incoherently ... believing that I was following a plan and that I was actually
Adrian G Dumitru
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on the right track, but eventually I realized that I actually had to stop and I find myself.
Everything was a disaster around me ... and I still believed it's because of my thoughts ... but rather it was all generated by identifying with those thoughts. But I wanted the change.
I wanted it ... intensely.
And in fact I had no other choice ... because everything was a disaster ... and maybe only the change could be my hope. One day ... seeing the annoying repetitiveness of everything that happens ... I realized the positive valences of the evil in my life.
I went back into the past ... and it really was like that. Everything that had been bad in my life ... especially the very, very bad things from the past ... made me stop ... from everything ... to abandon those paths that were not meant for me and to go to what was actually meant for me.
It was very difficult to accept the concept ... but in the negativity lay a kernel of positivity.
I knew it ... I had seen it ... but I didn't accept it, hating everything that was negative in my life.
Slowly ... negativity received other values for my destiny ... and I began to see with hope whatever would have happened wrong.
And paradoxically it was ... that I had even begun to see with joy the appearance of evil ... knowing that a new change was coming ... of mine or of my whole life ... waiting for the curvature for new cool things that I was going to experience in soon.
I had begun to understand the paradox.
Adrian G Dumitru
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It was all about acceptance ... accepting everything that was happening and embracing all the experiences of life.
Adrian G Dumitru
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You need to know what to ask for to the Universe ... otherwise you'll be wasting your time
Isabelle was a very nice lady.
39 years old, beautiful, adored by many men ... but somehow avoided by luck ... in terms of authentic sentimental life.
Although she had many experiences ... she never got married ... but she clearly knew what she wanted.
She believed in the law of attraction and of using it for our desires ... asking the Universe in hard thoughts what we want, but she still didn't know exactly how to ask.
She had read a lot about it, but what she really wanted didn't appear in her life yet.
Conceptually she knew everything ... but somehow despite the fact that she met ... almost what she wanted ... there was always a piece of the puzzle missing.
It was never ... that much-coveted storyline ... but what Isabelle always ignored was that she hadn't really asked for it.
She had defined so many details ... but she had forgotten the essentials ... that the story itself should be based on sincerity
Adrian G Dumitru
60
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and love ... and that everything should lead to ... happiness. And that's what we all do ... and when we seem to have everything ... we still feel that something is not ok ... that something is missing.
And we realize ... what's missing is really ... the essentials. We got lost in the details ... and missed the real road to what we really wanted.
You see ... there are many who say that God is in details ... but also many who say the opposite that the Devil is in all those details.
But it's hard for us, as ordinary people ... to actually understand what's going on ... disappointed that we seem to be getting what we wanted ... but .... But Isabell ... was confident.
She realizes that she is almost on her way to nowhere ... and although she sees that her story is repeated indefinitely ...
she smiles seeing in her life a guy who seems to be the best partner that she could have ... but that's beyond that he's a little bit ... married.
She smiles ... and accepts his presence in her life.
It's like the first time she laughs at her desires, realizing how she wastes her time asking the Universe wrongly.
She ... opens her mind but also her soul ... and she realizes that she must continue any path of life with acceptance and joy ... giving up stupid ideas and details.
In the end ... all that matters is whether a story is beautiful or ugly ... whether it gives you life and makes you happy ...
whether it heals your soul or sinks you further. Maybe this new experience ... probably totally inappropriate ... with a married man ... is what she needs to
Adrian G Dumitru
61
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be prepared for a beautiful relationship in the future. Maybe the role of this episode ... is to understand the authenticity of a relationship and detachment from all that dogmatism means ... and on the other hand to understand that in order to be happy ... happiness itself is not about details, definitions and other nonsense .
Happiness simply happens ... when we open our hearts ... we accept and submit to experiences.
And without realizing it ... joy begins to appear in her heart.
It is for the first time when she lives without expectations ...
because what expectations can you have when a married man appears in your life ?!
How could you go on the road with expectations ... when you know clearly that you are on a journey for a path to nowhere ?!
But ... Isabelle realizes that not all those men from her life hurt her ... but her expectations ... all those details required of the Universe.
By giving up expectations ... in fact our vain projections ... we make room for the authentic intentions of the Universe in our lives.
She ... smiles ... and accepts him ... and even opens the door to her soul ... wondering if she's getting an angel or a demon.
Life goes on ... even in a much beautiful way .... than we
might think ... but we just need to forget about all our silly expectations.
Adrian G Dumitru
62
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As long as temptation exists in your mind or soul ... there is this risk ... welcomed anyway
... as reality to be redefined for you
Victoria lived on the west coast of England ... and lived with her little girl and her husband, who was over 20 years older than her.
Initially ... she had been happy with the marriage, but even though it had only been 7 years since they had been together ... she felt like she was suffocating in that relationship ... and life passes her by.
She continued to be submissive and loyal to her family and husband, but something was missing from her life ... and even though she knew what ... she was hiding it more and more.
Her social media posts ... showed an adorable woman's soul. He was 30 ... but she didn't seem to have lived through what her life had meant.
The days passed and she also saw how the soul ... that diamond inside of her ... was slowly fading.
The pictures still said about her ... that she was alive ... but she was struggling a lot ... to convey this message ... being
Adrian G Dumitru
63
MY RELATIONSHIP WITH THE DEVIL REDEFINED MY LIFE philosophical essays
completely unlucky enough to live in a beautiful energetic environment.
Occasionally ... Victoria was also talking to Jerry, an online acquaintance ... who had tried unsuccessfully to corrupt her countless times.
They had talked a lot ... and eventually became friends ...
Jerry starting to care about her.
One day he called her and said bluntly ... "Listen Victoria ... I understand that maybe I'm not what you need, but look at you how lifeless you are ... you really can't go on so ... you have to have the courage to open the pandora's box and start living occasionally. Maybe my role in your life is to whisper to you ... just do it! ”.
Jerry was a kind of little devil ... who tempted Victoria ... but it was worse than that .... cause she felt the same way by a long time.
She needed to do something to feel fulfilled as a woman ... and it was hard to accept that kernel of temptation in her soul.
So Jerry was the daemon or Victoria ?! ... cause all he did was mentioning something she already knew about her. But was there something wrong with Jerry ?!
He sees in her a friend ... who suffers and dies as a soul every day ... doing nothing to heal herself.
He doesn't want to hurt her ... advising her to cheat on her husband ... but only to find a person who, at least for a while, will give her the energy she needs so much. But Victoria thinks and does nothing.
Maybe she's waiting for the universe to save her ... or maybe her role in this life ... is to live the way she is now.
Adrian G Dumitru
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But my philosophical question ... not moralistic, that i am far from being able to speak of morality ... is ... do we have the right to decide, regardless of the circumstances ... whether we have the right of being happy ... or life only needs to be lived and accepted exactly as it is ?!
Hard to answer ... and I'm firmly convinced that the answers will always be ... in opposite directions.
Adrian G Dumitru
65
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philosophical essays
You can’t jump from one story to another one ... right away.
There is a time needed to heal yourself first ... then with the joy in the soul and the opened heart ... life can be restarted.
One of the biggest mistake an individual can do after a divorce, or a break up ... is to jump from one relationship to another ... just for healing the soul much easier ... which in fact can be a totally illusory action.
It’s like we have a car accident ... and we call the emergency
