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Once seen … the unconscious desire of flirting …. interferes
with reality … destroying a little bit the story … but also revealing …. a truth which we dislike. But …
But …
But …
we can’t control our unconscious side. Would be wonderful if we could do it.
In the end … we should analyze and define such episodes … and ask ourselves …. how we could redefine … all these facts. Maybe … just with wisdom …. on both sides.
And see the concept itself of interference … just as … part of life … of our ability or disability of connecting … for 100%.
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Jumping from one universe to another … a contemporary art … but probably
also a must.
I keep analyzing people around myself.
And i do like that by a long, long time … like many others ….
but I recently realized i do that because … i need to understand how this world works and i still believe into an innocent way that … the others know the answers i don’t know.
And i analyze … almost everyone.
Probably the biggest mistake i do is that i judge them ….
right away after analyzing the first details.
I see people … even the simplest persons i know … having in the same time … parallel lives. They act in a way … at work.
in another way with the people from their neighborhood…. and many times totally different when they arrive at home. We use to say that it’s all related with the duality of the human being … but i realize it’s more than that.
It’s such a large spectrum of different personalities … and we carry all those masks.
All the time.
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Day by day … and … keep wondering why the hell we do that.
A different mask … for this every different environment we
are living in.
Is that wrong?!
Well … i believe not.
It’s a way of readapting each time when we enter into all those parallel universes we live in.
And … damn it … i see all so clear when it comes about the others … but when it’s about me …. I am always blind.
I daily do one million things … and have to deal with so many different environments … but …
Well … i just try to readapt each time.
Sometimes i just fail, sometimes i do it ok … and i even have moments when i do it … very good.
The concept itself with parallel universes sounds weird … but maybe it’s not.
Many … simple reject it … but …
I realize i live in tens of such universes … and i must carry lots of marks that will allow me to act in totally different ways … but …
I somehow did not accepted yet that this daily activity of jumping from one universe into another … is kind of a contemporary art.
And i should learn this art … and practice it better and better.
Until …
Well …
Maybe i should accept that this is probably … a must … for anyone living today … and also that this is not … optional.
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Exploring forbidden paths
a way allowing us to taste the beauty of life
Truth be told the human being always wanted … what does not have today … or never had before. Whatever that means …
We also have an unconscious weird desire to have what others have … or what everyone around us told us that is forbidden to have.
It’s … difficult to understand why we act as that … but in the end it all becomes the proof of our addiction for parallel lives. We respect … reality.
We don’t really want to switch it forever with something else … but still … we dream about those desires.
We name them fantasies … or the illusions from our minds …
but in the end we realize we can’t stop us to not dream
about that anymore.
We analyze the world.
Again and again.
And there are lots of things that we like, but we don’t have … and even … don’t look like we can have … this life time. The dreams remains … in our souls.
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Some close people … keep repeating us that … those paths we dream about … are forbidden paths.
We don’t agree with them … but don’t say a word in reply.
We keep being … silent.
But the dreams of those fantasies … are still there.
We balance in our thoughts … on and on and on …. between
reality and those forbidden paths.
Today … i start asking myself … what if one day … we should simple give ourselves the freedom to explore those forbidden paths?!
Simple enter and see what we defined as the beauty of those
parallel worlds?!
What will happen?!
Will someone punish us?!
Will we lose the status of … human being?!
What is the meaning of the word … forbidden?!
What is the real purpose of not allowing us to explore those worlds?!
And who is not allowing us to do that?!
Society?!
The people around us?!
Even us?!
Why?!
Why not to try … at least to explore?!
Maybe we should allow to do that … at least in secret.
Allow to open locked doors … and see how those worlds look like.
Well … at least as an experiment.
And maybe … we’ll realize that other parallel universes are … better and it was ok to taste the beauty of life.
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Never bother to ask permission
for living your life as you want ... from anyone
In my country … we have lots of traditions which comes from the past … when it comes about weddings.
The most weird one is that … after the ceremony … when the party starts … some of the guests come and steal the bride. The bridegroom needs later on to negotiate with those people and pay a price for the bride.
I saw many times that … but it’s difficult for me to understand the meaning of all those weird traditions.
The funny thing is that few days ago … a guy which i know by a long time … told me a similar story from the wedding of a close friend of him.
Nobody wanted to do that at the wedding … so he wrote on whatsapp to the bride to pretend that she goes to the toilet and then they run away together.
They went few miles away from the wedding saloon and stopped in the middle of nowhere … near a small forest. They had to wait 30- 40 minutes and then go back … so they had to do something meanwhile.
He always liked her … and the truth was that sometimes she was flirting with him too …
Looking into her eyes … he started to kiss her.
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She did not say … no.
They continued … and ended up making love into the fields with flowers.
It was all … like in a movie.
The whole episode … was absolutely amazing for him … but also for her.
They come back to the wedding … both having a big smile on
their faces … and it was so damn obvious that something
happened between them.
But he did not cared.
And she did not bothered also of anything people might say
not even of her new husband. The party continued.
All was perfect into that night … except the fact that both Elvis and Sophia … these were there names … keep wondering … how the hell it could be so amazing to be together.
He was married … and now she was married too. So … why the hell …. they did not tried before … this experience?!
Well …
The questions remained … but there was no answer for neither of them.
The only thing that they decided is to simple repeat the experience from … the fields.
And they did it with passion … each time. In fact … with more and more passion.
They ignored all the details from the real life … that might keep repeating them to simple … stop.
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They somehow realized that for being happy … we don’t need to ask permission from anyone.
And of course … in their case … no one would give them this permission.
A weird experience … caused by a weird tradition … proved to be in fact the revealing of the fact … before entering into an universe which we believe we will leave for the rest of our lives … maybe we should ask ourselves twice if that is the path that we want to follow for real.
And maybe a much powerful question is … are we ready to get rid of our fantasies?!
Or we still believe that we have the fundamental right to do
whatever we want … whenever we want …. with whoever we want.
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Conscious / unconscious. A weird balance … that is controlling but also ruining our lives.
I analyze with obsession … everything and everyone … from the scene of my real life.
And truth be told … i like Emily … so i was admiring and also analyzing her … a lot.
She was so damn beautiful … that everyone around … was admiring her.
Every man … that saw her charm … was keep looking and looking and looking at her.
and truth be told … she adored this game. Everything made her … feel amazing.
She was beautiful indeed … but so, so many confirmations coming and coming … everyday … gave her an amazing feeling.
I had moments when i believed that she loves to flirt with those men … but no …
She was flirting only sometimes …. but very rarely. She simple adored to be … adored.
Emily was looking for a certain profile of man … and not just a man.
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The period of flirting … without doing anything at all … gave her time to analyze if this is what she was expecting into her life.
And being a woman with a life experience … she had a very clear image for what she wanted for herself.
Her life was continuing … and she was keep looking for that … perfect relationship.
Men were adoring her all the time … and the game was amazing for her desire to feel beautiful … even if the mirror was confirming her everyday that she was indeed … a very beautiful woman.
Well … all until one day … when she finally met what she was looking for … by years.
But as always … the Universe is laughing of our silly desires and this is what really happened in Emily’s case. Instead of that prototype of … perfect man … she got 2.
Yes … 2 nice men.
The game of flirting … started again and she could not stop herself to do it in the same time … with both of them.
It was all the representation of her … unconscious desire to be with the perfect man … in the perfect relationship. But one of the 2 guys … hurried everything.
Kissed her … and in a moment of intense excitement … she did not refused him.
They started making love … and it was all like a hollywoodian love story.
But … even if all was perfect … she could not stop the other story.
It all became a game of living into 2 parallel universes … and maybe a total nonsense.
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And the game continued on and on and on.
Until one day … when she finally accepted that … she lost control of everything.
Maybe she had to admit that she wanted part of first guy … and another part of the second one.
And also .. that she adored … again and again … to be wanted with passion … by the both of them.
On the scene of real life … she was acting amazing with the chosen guy.
She was indeed in a hollywoodian love story movie … acting like an a great actress.
All was perfect … except the fact that she was always balancing between her conscious - unconscious thoughts. She could not control anything … anymore.
Weird energies … coming from the back of the stage were putting her into the position of being happy and unhappy… into the same time.
And realizing … the lost of control … she consciously decided to close the connection …. with the other man. But it was probably too late.
He was not accepting that.
He could not understand why she gave her so many signs … while flirting … and could also not accept the total … nonsense.
Lots of stupid things … started to happen.
And it all looked like a game that was not controlled anymore … by anyone.
The chosen guy … decided to simple stop.
Stop … and watch the show.
The hollywoodian love story … or what looked like that …
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being ruined by all this balance of conscious - unconscious desires and thoughts … started to be metamorphosed into a cartoon movie.
And yes … little by little … it was all revealed … and became clear for everyone.
In the end … a game … remains a game … even in front of perfect case scenarios.
Somehow it was too late to stop this dance of energies … cause everyone involved wanted to be … happy … But …
Well … probably … they could pretend … nothing really happened … and these parallel stories did not existed. And maybe … just what it is in the present moment is real. But … maybe it was too late … and we should learn to know when we should stop playing with the people around us.
no matter how much we want something … we should probably understand the meaning of the our actions.
Yes … it’s just a decision to stop playing with other’s people emotions … and if we do it … we must realize that it’s like playing with … the fire.
and the consequences will 100% appear.
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People run away in parallel realities
cause they just feel miserable into the present moment
I met her again in the lobby of the hotel … and being surprised that she was alone with her luggages …. waiting for
a taxi … dared to ask … “Why are you leaving from this amazing place?! Why are you leaving alone?!”
She smiled into a sarcastic way and replied … “This fucked up shit will not be my story”.
I smiled to her … not really understanding what she wanted to say to me.
But behind that smile … i saw her … sadness.
… a profound sadness.
We were here more couples.
The place has amazing … the weather, the hotel, the food … everything was just great.
I really felt very good … and could not understand … all what she was telling me … defining everything as a total … nonsense.
But she simple wanted to run away … into a parallel reality … one that had nothing to do with our vacation in there … and with her husband.
… i could not understand… this nonsense.
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