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I could not understand … what she defined as fucked up shit
cause i had a totally different perception about that trip. I was believing all was great … and she was keep repeating that all is a shit …
100% one of us had a wrong … perception.
Then I suddenly asked myself …. what if … both of us … are right?!
Well … i was speaking about the resort, the hotel, the food … the weather … but she realized she was indeed into the perfect place … with the wrong person.
The Universe was … laughing of her. I knew … the feeling.
having what many defined as the perfect life … but actually not connecting at all with that reality.
The escape?!
Well … maybe just run away … with the hope of entering into another parallel reality …
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A connection … an amazing one … can totally redefine us … but we need to ignore all the other universes we’ve visited before
I saw her again.
She was so, so changed …. and i was wondering what really
happened to her.
Actually … she became one more time … that amazing lady … carrying always a great vibe into her soul.
That beautiful Alice … that i used to know by years.
I kept looking at her and adored her … everything.
But … you must not misunderstand me …. I was looking at
her … into the same way i would be looking at a woman from a beautiful painting.
It was so obvious that … she was into a new relationship with someone else.
My friend … her lover from few years ago … could not make her happy anymore.
All was fine for a while … but then … i saw her so, so many times … unhappy.
or maybe i should say … having again and again an emotional balance … jumping on and on and on …. from beautiful to ugly inner worlds.
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But today … the new connection … totally redefined Aline. And maybe … all she had to do … was to forget about her past … about her emotional balance … about her unhappiness
and just be that amazing … Alice.
the one adored by …. everyone. It was all … so damn … simple.
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That inner desire of feeling adored
maybe a sin … or maybe just part of the game of playing around with
the energies around us.
Over the years … i had the chance to meet …. thousands of
ladies … and talking to them … i’ve realized that … understanding the feminine spirit … as a man … i understand the other side of … duality.
And for many years … i was listening and … disagree with all those ladies … but today …
Well … i’ve somehow became more a spectator of my life.
I talk to so many people … and i try to redefine the way i act in front of all what i see.
Yes … i try … to become a simple spectator … looking at this show … called life.
I try to understand … everyone … but indeed … the most difficult thing is to understand … all those ladies … i am in connection with.
For example … Emma … that i almost see everyday … has a huge desire of being adored by all the men from the stage of her life.
I am only her friend … so i dared to ask her … how can you be in a relationship with a man … doing this game of
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attracting the attention of all the men from this plannet?! Most probably … not any man … could accept that. Many … would even see it as a … sin.
and maybe would consider normal to be so, so jealous. But Emma just … adored to be adored.
It was a game … that gave her that so needed confirmation about being indeed … a very beautiful lady.
I was just wondering … how her lover could deal in front of … such a game.
Maybe he does not … love her.
Or maybe he loves her … but is not jealous… And still … every man around her … just adored Emma.
She had … an amazing magnetism.
On the street, in restaurants … everywhere … men … and even women looked at her.
Men … were adoring her.
Women … were probably envying her.
I was looking at Emma … indeed adoring her beauty and her vibe like all the other men from the stage of her life …. but i’ve wondered if she was understanding that many times …. she was playing with the fire.
She was inducing amazing illusions … but i also knew that all the ones that are inducing illusions to the others … are ending up … living an illusory life.
That huge desire of confirmation for her beauty …. that many, many other ladies were dominated of … were part of the game of playing around with the energies around us … but still … i could not define it positive or negative.
I continued my analysis … trying to understand the feminine spirit … but also the dance of energies beyond reality.
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and the difference of the perceptions between masculine and feminine philosophy of life.
And i smiled … realizing that Emma saw this game as the confirmation of her beauty … but on the other hand … as a man … i knew that all the ones adoring her … were having in their minds just the illusory sexual story they could have with her.
So … such a weird difference of perceptions … between how a man or a woman … see the games we are playing on the stage of our lives.
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Ignoring reality
… seen as an art
Many people ask themselves how they could get rid of the negative vibes from their scene of their lives.
And there are so, so many tricks for that … but ... in the end not so many succeed to apply them …
And yes … i hear so, so often that reality … just sucks.
I smile … and don’t really know if i should say to the public the fact that … after letting myself influenced and dominated so, so many times … maybe thousands of times … by the people and circumstances from from my life … i’ve realized that … ignoring everything i don’t like is the best weapon against… daily fucking my vibe.
But i only could do that … just from time to time … still having lots of moments of not being able to be wise enough and not connect anymore to any of those energies. I was meditating every night.
I was analyzing all the time … my life … my behavior … my way of being and acting … and finally accepted that … at least not to have an ugly reality … i should probably practice better and better the art of connecting and disconnecting to energies around myself.
I was not an artist … but i had to become one.
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And first step was to understand that ignoring .. what i thought could have a negative impact on myself … is a must. … and indeed i could even see it as an art.
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Sometimes the addiction for perfect love stories …. dominates our lives
I look around myself … and see lots … lots of people being in relationships… that don’t give them any good vibe.
So many …. but no one would really do anything to change
this ugly scenario.
Ofcourse except of the ones that love to taste from time to time … illicit love stories.
During the years … i’ve wrote a lot about the subject … but not really saying the real truth.
I’ve wrote so many stories … but not defined it … as an addiction.
… which it really is.
But i was writing … nice stories.
I wanted to actually paint all … in beautiful colors … giving life and value to those episodes. And i continued writing.
Is like i try to be the lawyer of those people … trying to justify … their immoral behavior … and i was writing and writing and writing.
Until one day … when i’ve asked myself … is this addiction …
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a representation of the fact that we still dream of the perfect love story?!
Is this a negative idea …. that is ruining our lives, or just
gives us energy to survive into the ugly reality?!
And i try … to be honest … while analyzing and defining all. … this chase … for happiness … in such an abstract form … metamorphosed into the end into … an addiction. I smile … seeing the real truth.
Looking at those parallel realities … continuing being or not being the lawyer that is justifying those illicit love stories ….
from parallel worlds … i conclude the sense itself … of all … is just for survival …. into a world we dislike.
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Negativity … an universe that we should stay away from it
When i talk about parallel universes … i talk in fact about parallel realities … which are in fact different perceptions about the same scene of life.
I’ve understood that hearing 2 little boys … brothers … that seeing a dog … one defined it as a “dangerous creature” … and one called him “cute little dog”.
The difference of perceptions was … huge … but the subject was the same.
It was like … even if we were in the same place … the 4 of us
the dog, me and the 2 brothers …. we actually lived totally different realities.
Realities which we actually … all of us … even if it was about the same idea … we defined so differently.
My analysis continued … and realized we have a negative perception … a neutral one - mine … and a positive one.
I could not guess what it’s in the mind of the dog … but most probably … it had its own perception about the scene.
So … my question was …. who the hell was right?! Which perception was true?!
Maybe all of them … or none.
I looked at the dog and … the little creature was looking at us
like we were some weird beings … came from Mars.
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The only thing i could be sure of … seeing this spectrum of contradictory perceptions was that we lived different realities. We were into the same place … but seeing all so different … I understood i need to stop judging … those perceptions.
All what i knew was that i should not allow myself to be influenced of anything around myself.
I can see the perceptions… respect them as opinions … but stay totally disconnected of anything.
In fact … remain in my own universe … and maybe very, very important … don’t allow people having negative perceptions about reality … make myself prisoner of their parallel worlds.
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Many of the attributes that we believe that defines us … are so damn illusory.
I hear people defining themselves or the others … in so, so many ways.
I hear positive ideas … but also lots of negativity.
I don’t even know how to deal with my theory of analyzing-defining-redefining … so that i don’t go to that Universe … where all it’s about gossiping.
I try to be a spectator of … reality … beginning to understand life … but also myself … realizing that all i see it’s just a reflection of my own being.
I continue playing this game … and listening to all those
thoughts of the people from the stage of my life … i ask
myself … is it really true that a man can be poor or rich,
smart or stupid, ugly or beautiful … etc etc … or … these are
just illusory attributes?!
I meditate …
More and more and more … seeing into the end … that all is just the game of … duality.
The same person that we define today as smart … tomorrow can do something stupid and we could redefine him as stupid.
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A rich person can lose the whole fortune, because of a natural calamity … or a war … and become a poor person … but also a person that has nothing … could win to lottery and become the richest person from community where stays.
So … however we should define someone … tomorrow could become the opposite … of all we’ve said.
We analyze … we define … but it’s all related to the present moment.
…. and also … all can be metamorphosed into another way ….
even if we believe it or not.
All our perceptions … become illusory.
It’s like we talk about multiple universes … and we see the journey of one person that jumping from one world …. to another.
The discussions … all those analyses … end up just defining us … the so called thinkers … as silly people that are wasting their lives … talking with an illusory clarity … about something that in fact … it’s so unclear.
It’s like we define an object today as black … then red … then pink … then blue … saying every time … that this is an absolute truth.
but so contradictory perceptions … all being true and false into the same time.
So … why we waste our time like that?!
Defining and defining … something that changes so, so often?!
Do we understand that the same person lives … and has this fundamental right to live in parallel universes?!
Can we accept this spectrum or contradictory perceptions …
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about the same thing or the same person?!
But … i continue my analyzes.
I continue telling … contradictory stories.
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I always let myself annoyed by the fact that other people which are around myself
live on another plannet.
but later on i realize
I’m so damn silly.
Recently someone asked me to find her a job.
And i found one … but she asked so many questions at the interview … that in the end … the owner of that company just changed his mind, even if they liked her … and needed her right away.
I was a little bit mad … about her behavior … but even if i said that i’ll not help her anymore, 2 weeks ago i found a better job … at a pizza restaurant.
All was running well at the interview, except the fact that the owner told us that for hiring her … she will need to cut her … amazing nails.
