I invested so much money … but also so much time and energy … as in the end to be profoundly disappointed.
I felt like Sisyphus… cause tenants were coming ant leaving.
At the end …. the houses were … a total mess.
After 6 months … new houses were looking like houses built 15-20 years ago … and never renovated. Garbage … everywhere.
Yes …. all the time … at the end i was seeing lots, lots of
garbage.
I was frustrated and … annoyed.
What i defined as the best model of financial independence … was actually a nightmare.
But one day … while meditating why am i so unlucky … i remember about my book “Analyze. Define. Redefine” … I realized it’s all a karmic message.
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I define it as karmic … cause it was repeated on and on and on …. but i was suffering of a spiritual blindness which was not allowing me to see … the hidden message.
Hmm … why so much garbage?!
What was the message?!
… the hidden message … i mean …
Each time … i had to clean the garbage… the tenants were doing into my houses.
So …. It was all about … garbage.
Hahaha …. but maybe …. inner garbage?!
I was already started the process of self therapy, but … i was not honest enough with myself. Yes … i was lying myself … a lot.
It was a lot of spiritual garbage into my soul … generated by me, but also by the exchange of energy i was having in my interaction with the others.
I ignored it by years …. but today was appearing to me into a
… weird form.
I disliked it so, so much … but i could not ignore it anymore. … and really had to do … something …
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Stress … the gateway to important hidden messages
Are u annoyed by stressful situations?!
… or a completely stressful life?
Well … i’ve been like that many, many times.
In fact … many years in a row … until i discovered that
everything annoys me … it’s actually a hidden message
whispered by my intuition.
But what is the intuition?!
Well …. most probably the gateway to the Universe … and
actually a way of communication with the Supreme Intelligence.
Or … maybe we use too … powerful words.
Or … maybe not.
You see …. stressful situations are usually repetitive things
that are repeating on and on and on … trying to whisper something.
I could even say that stress has … karmic values.
Today … i m not afraid of stress anymore.
I am just analyzing what stresses me … and try to define
what is really going on.
Why do i feel that?!
Why i feel unsecure?!
What do i need to change … not to feel like that anymore?!
How reality should be redefined?!
Can i see a hidden message?
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Can i change my perceptions about stress?!
Too many questions …
Yes … i know the theory … but on the stage of the real life … i act the same as all the others.
Even if i analyze and define a lot …. I simple don’t have the
power to redefine my reality … changing the things that annoys me … or at least my perceptions about them.
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To get that vibration you dream about … you most probably need … first to disconnect from everything around you
Buddha went to the forest for years to obtain the awakening and then got back into the society. Jesus was in the desert for 40 days.
And many other great thinkers spoke a lot about a kind of … a fox hole.
But of course … we are ordinary people.
Comparing ourselves with Buddha, Jesus or any other great thinkers is even …. hilarious.
On the other hand … no matter of the spiritual gap between us and them … that does not mean we can’t start a journey on a spiritual path.
Could be religious also … even if i personally believe that the path of religions are not so … opened.
The main idea is to start seeing beyond the self … but also … beyond the dogmatism taught to us by society by such a long, long time.
Disconnect from the world and try to connect mainly to the inner self.
Start this process which i defined as … self therapy … and find in the connection with the soul … the gateway to the Universe.
Understand the meaning and the power of … intuition.
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Find other vibration levels.
Understand them.
Actually … understand the power of disconnecting from the Ego …. and connect to the inner self.
Ego is related with the outside world … but the soul … is related with the real self.
The funny thing is that … you’ll start to have a weird balance
of living between those 2 universes … which will probably be very annoying in the beginning … but the time will allow you to master it … and enjoy living in both sides.
So ….disconnecting becomes a trick of not following the influences around you.
See the world … deeper.
Discover other paths … on the guidance of intuition.
And then … seeing such a large spectrum of vibrational levels
make the matching between your dreams … and those types of vibes … and remain connected to the decision of following the new path.
Yes … it will be an impact on everything you see around you. Disconnecting from certain energies … will make some people from the stage of your life simple … disappear… but over all … the change of vibes that you’ll feel so strong … will worth doing it …
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Writing … a great way of understanding yourself
When i started to write … i was actually letting myself to speak in front of myself … load … very, very load. With … honesty and probably … gut.
But one of the big mistakes i’ve done is that is that i let too many people that knew me … to find out about my presence in social media.
I let them read, analyze and define my thoughts.
Worst … was probably that also my wife found my books … and that was really, really … bad.
Yesterday … after publishing the book “The refugees … a story about change” … reading part of it … she lost her minds.
Deleted all my books from the computer and while i was leaving our house … she threw with stones in me.
So … finding out my thoughts … what really was in my mind … was … a catastrophe…
But what all those people … including my wife did not realized is that all those thoughts of mine … are just ideas … and many of them are so, so contradictory with the ones i had in the near past.
I was just speaking load … about my perceptions … and i had just a large spectrum of thoughts … that neither myself … could understand what i really believe …
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I could be defined as a … person with a sick mind … as my wife defines me.
…. and probably not only her.
Or … i could be defined as a … thinker.
Saying philosopher …. I believe it’s too much … but still i was
investing a lots of time into meditating …
Little by little … they started to hate me … but it was funny cause more people that did not knew who i was … were reading my books.
Some … even wrote me … giving me confidence with their nice words about my writings.
But … all i was doing … was following a therapy … analyzing and defining my thoughts.
I was actually not writing books … but followed a process of self therapy.
I was the doctor … but also the patient …
All what i was doing was … trying to understand myself. Did i succeed?!
Did the process of self therapy ended?!
Well … no …
I continue it …. on and on and on ….
But i realized one very important thing … i need to cut the connection with all the ones that were judging me for … my thoughts.
I had to allow myself to explore the world … the outer, but also the inner world.
And writing …. helped me a lot …
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Following all the paths that life has to offer
to us … not even bothering to consider them as pathless paths … most probably … a wise decision
Many times in my life … after analyzing all what was going on
i felt that i am following a useless path … and i am wasting my life.
Then … i took the decision to go in a totally different direction.
And it was the same story repeated on and on and … on. In one point i started to find it … totally ridiculous …. having such a life.
So i started to analyze everything … a lot.
I defined my life in one million ways … and still … i was not happy about what is going on.
The concept of pathless path appeared so often into my mind
and it was so damn annoying.
I felt … without a purpose … and if i had a purpose it was all … so damn illusory.
Analyzing into a philosophical, but also a spiritual way all what was going on … was so, so …
I actually can’t find the proper word … but every time when i went deeper and deeper … i realized it was annoying and intriguing me … more and more.
The funny thing was that … statistically … whatever was going on … i somehow felt … all the time that it was useless.
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So … my favorite directions in life was what we philosophically name … pathless paths.
I started to totally dislike those thoughts … and all those analyzes.
The process of self therapy was inducing me very … very bad vibes.
But again … i asked myself … why?!
So … what could i do?!
I simple continued to analyze … define … and then be annoyed that i identified a new pathless path that i followed?! Having enough … one day … i decided to simple … stop judging anything around myself.
Accept … all what was going on … as having the purpose to … help me understand the lessons of life … which in the end was helping me to realize … the meaning of the life itself. What looked like a pathless path … was actually a representation of the illusion … of having a purpose.
In the end …. I understood that i won’t redefine my life … as
easy as i would want … but i could understand … and accept that everything had a clear purpose.
… even those so called … pathless paths.
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Counting … analyzing a lot every detail becomes useless sometimes. So … maybe the best thing to do is to synchronize with the scenario of our lives … and … simple … enjoy it
I am personally the kind of person that is analyzing all what is going on around myself, but also inside of myself.
I analyze and define everything … but truth be told many, many times … i miss the essential.
I wrote the book “Analyze. Define. Redefine” … with the purpose of helping the others to understand their lives … just by understanding who they are and how they can create a change … so that they become who they really want to be. But you see .. somehow … i believe i made a mistake … and that was keeping the records too much …. counting everything … every smile, every mistake … everything.
I was analyzing too much into a microscopic way … all the details … without realizing about the connection between myself and the Universe.
Counting all the details … and defining everything … i was actually drawing the limits of my life …. and felt myself stuck into those limits.
I started to believe that the present moment defines … but also dominates my being.
Not understanding the connection between me and the
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Universe …. but also the fact that any detail could be
redefined in any second.
Hmm …
So …. even if i thought i know everything … in fact … i just
knew about those borders of my life … which i believed that are the same thing with my inner being. But …
Well … a parameter was indeed wrong … and my theory about analyze, define, redefine … was partially true. So … what was wrong?!
Most probably …. the fact that if i am someone today … it
does not mean that i’ll be that someone forever … neither if i am a good … or a bad guy.
I should not allow to be dominated by the details that are defining me today.
Counting anything … becomes useless … even if i believed that it measures the evolution i was making. So?!
What the hell should i do?!
What is the real path that i should follow … philosophically and spiritually?!
Should i stop counting?!
Should i stop judging myself?!
Should i stop analyzing?!
Well … maybe … i should just be more … open mind … and allow the Universe manifest anything …. including my dreams.
And maybe forget about those limits of mine.
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When it’s overwhelming
might take you to total blockage
but it’s all part of a plan
I never asked myself … what the hell should i do in front of a storm?!
In fact … i did not even bothered myself to ask cause i know that all i would do is to hide somewhere … watch …. and wait as everything to stop.
But you see … life is so damn abstract … cause i never recognize… those storms from my life.
I just see myself …. overwhelmed.
And that’s not all …. I feel stuck… having kind of a mental
blockage … that continues on and on and on.
I see it.
I realize its presence.
But i simple can’t do anything … to become myself again. It’s like all those exterior factors are dominating me … and it’s a story with no end.
And as always …. I try to remember … it’s all an illusion….
and the only thing i should have in mind is that i need to understand this story with the energies around myself. Actually understand why they dominate me … in such a way … that i simple become something similar with … a stone … The good thing is that no matter what … i continue analyzing … defining … but still not being able to redefine the story …
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which i find it similar with a storm. But … is it really necessary to do it?!
Maybe i should simple stay relaxed … do nothing … and wait as the storm from my life … to stop.
After long meditations … i came to the conclusion that sometimes … doing nothing … is probably the best thing we can do.
Watch the storm … allow as the show to happen … in the way it needs to happen … and not allow us be influenced of anything we see on the scene of life.
