Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
50
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
The shadow
I can see the shadow
That reminds me of ... the past I close my eyes
And i remember those moments
But i open my eyes
And i see the future
Which i hope it will not be
... just a shadow
I smile
Seeing this mix of hope and desire
Which is actually a reflection of that shadow And i laugh
Seeing the shadow ... of the shadow Reminding me of the past ... much too often
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
51
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
The beautiful & the dark side
First he saw her beautiful side
And he was so in love
.... then ... he saw the whole truth
But looking at the other side
He understood ... the illusion
And his soul became ... a ruin again
Disappointed ... and losing his minds
Not wanting to ever see her again
... but still she was the one
That metamorphosed his ruined soul
Into ... the most happiest human being
I ever saw ... in my life
So ... was the illusion the key to happiness?
Or ignoring the truth like a naive person?
Well ... whatever the answer is
Both sides ... were part of her soul
And had to accept her being ... just as she was Even if deep inside him
He always felt the illusory side ... of life
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
52
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Absolute symbols
We see the beauty in so different forms
And we even believe that the human creation
Has absolute …. values
Ignoring what we already know
by such a long, long time. And all those volatile forms Simple disappear … one by one Making us realize we actually … admired … illusions
But new things, people, circumstances Make us believe all the time
That … everything is real Illusory is defined as real
… even if we know that it’s all an illusion The real gateway to the Universe
… remains hidden
Cause we are too busy believing … in illusory
Ignoring that we should search better For finding the real … absolute symbols
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
53
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Desire to us....
We are same in heart.....
Same in mind.....
Desire to us .....
We know all corners of
ours .....
Desire to us....
We found the tool to
soothe our mess....
Desire to us ....
We are for sure.....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
54
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Speaking alone
In front of a wall
Becomes a better idea
That … speaking to them
It was so useless
Telling them … all those thoughts
and deep feelings They ignored you
but also offended you For being so … weird
But in fact … you’ve been … just you The real you
That’s why speaking alone In front of a wall Becomes the … real option Cause only that …. You
the one hided deep inside your soul
Can really understand … and agree with you Telling to the others
all what you think … or feel Becomes … a silly habit And nothing more
The only real friend … is you
the other you
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
55
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
You …
You are mist ......
You are illusion......
But the illusion of my love......
And the mist of my
imagination.......
You are dominant all over my dreams.....
and desires ......
You are always common in all my
demands....
You are me.....
Means .....you are the mirror of my
all desires and
thoughts......
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
56
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
She...
She was depressive
Then she became … happy
She was annoying
Then she became … so pleasant She was so silly
Then she suddenly understood the real values
She hated … a lot
Everything around
Cause she could not control anything at all … from the real life
But … then she realized she has the power
To ignore everything from the timeline of her life … if she is really happy
And near that soul she became … happy
Until one day when she realized
He was just … a ghost
A ghost hidden so well
… deep inside of her soul
Now it was too late to get rid of him
but too soon to understand The meaning of his existence
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
57
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Soulmates
Being soulmate means you are.....
together to make each other better.....
Be a peace of each other .....
Build each other .....
Fill each other.....
Being a soulmate means to … sublimate each other.....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
58
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Her feelings
His thoughts
… simple illusions
We talked so much
About her feelings
the deep ones And … his desires
his many desires But the time proved It was all illusory
Her feelings today are totally different His desires … also
They both changed
But still having the same thought That’s all an illusion
And still … the path of life continues Feeling and thinking different
…. contradictory things So … we alway change Even the soul is changing Forgetting about … the absolute
continuing to practice … the illusion
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
59
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
The balance of the 2 sides
Day by day
I discover new and new things
I see other sides
That i never saw before
And i accept that
But i continue watching
At the things i like … and also
At the ones … i dislike
I realize it’s all a part of the whole picture
Judging … is useless
I don’t use my time anymore as that
Even if i did it before
I simple … smile
Watching everything …. as a show
Cause i also noticed many times before
That what i dislike today
Is the key for a better … tomorrow
Even if it is too abstract to accept it
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
60
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
You...
You are.....
You are .....
You are.....
You are soul.....
You are feed of my soul.....
You are my best good
fortune......
You are my worth......
You are my stature.......
You are my happiness....
You are my craze......
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
61
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Following the real … path
I was chasing success
And i was following only …. my interests
For many, many years
Until i found out
… it’s all useless
Cause all i see is an illusion
There is no real difference
Between a prince … and a pauper
Even if they look so different
And i see today other paths … to follow But i still don’t have the guts
…. For chasing the real values of life
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
62
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Becoming my own therapist I write my thoughts
And it all became like … a therapy
But it was so damn difficult
To be honest with … myself
I lied my own self for such a long, long time
That a lie was always looking
In front of my eyes
…. As absolute truth
But today …. being the therapist
and also the patient It’s weird … i know
And still …. I feel like a great therapist Cause i started to feel better
I have a different vibe today
Which started to be … even amazing
sometimes
And i continue doing it
Writing my nonsense thoughts
Living with the hope that
I will be totally … healed.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
63
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
The scenario … i’ve created
It’s an illusion
That i’ve generated by a long, long time
I created the scenario
I dreamed for it
I badly wanted it
And one day … it became real
Or it looked … real
All being in fact an … illusion
I know i have to learn the art
of connecting to the Universe And ask for guidance
But … i just delay everything Cause i want to taste
…. at least one more time The illusion
That damn illusion … that looks so real Today i should name myself
an artist … in love with the illusory Drawing all the time the guideline Of … nonsense scenarios.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
64
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Intentions
I’ve started to have … no intentions at all I ignore everything around
Except … the desire of enjoying life And suddenly things started to change …. All around me
I also decided to forget about controlling … my illusory daily life
And things started to change … one more time
I let this spiritual wind … control
What i can’t control
Having no idea what this nonsense from my life … really means
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
65
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
…. Just love
No plans
No expectations
Simple living the present moment That’s the only thing left to do
But they used to have so many plans In fact … millions of plans
And they just failed million of times In the end realizing that there is … no need of any plan at all
And they should just enjoy the connection … and the love story itself
Removing the illusory need of expectations
Everything changed into a beautiful way
And the new plan was
… just no more plans
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
66
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Days … and days
Every new day i redefine all my theories
about what i call life Today i believe something But the next day my views Are totally different
Yeesss … it’s all a reflection of
my emotional balance
Of believing and not believing
In the beautiful and the dark side …. Of my own life
But i continue the journey
Carrying this large spectrum of theories
Being in love … but also hating them
Seeing … and not seeing
The real purpose
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
67
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Seeing that i can’t find that great happiness
the one that i was searching for years I suddenly realize that i actually live In a prison with invisible walls
But i still had a hope inside of my soul And asked the Universe … to let me taste That amazing vibe i was chasing for
At least from a moment … in a while So … am i asking too much?!
To be allowed to taste … life?!
Just like i would taste a cake from time to time Or a magic pill … that should allow me
to feel the happiness.
And even if it’s all illusory i would still … want to try it
At least from time to time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
68
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Walking into the woods
I have a weird feeling
It’s like the first time when it’s ok That i am not following … any direction It’s like a journey on a pathless path … but a beautiful one
I feel the great vibe of the nature And … i just love it
It all gives me … an amazing feel
I continue having no direction
Cause everywhere i should go
It does not make any difference
Joy is … everywhere
I feel it
… i really feel it
And it’s so damn good
… my walk of … having no destination
Or maybe it’s the first time when i understand That i should enjoy … the journey
And forget about … the final destination
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
69
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
As like....
Spring,Summer ,
Autumn ,winter....
We are also
Beings of seasons.....
We exist....
We bloom....
We expire....
We melt or harden .......
Or in other words we pass away....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
70
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
The illusion … of us
We tried again
And we failed … again
Yes … we always fail
Again … and again … and again
But i keep wondering why
Why the hell is happening that?!
I wish it would be different
And it could be … a non ending story …. but is not
We stop … and then restart
… and stop again
The days when the ruin is seen into our souls
That’s the only moment when we understand
We can’t leave without …. the illusion
… the illusion of us.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
71
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
It ends or it doesn't ...
No matter....
I surrender to joy.....
I surrender to love...
I surrender to peace....
Now I allow new miracles....
Now I allow new dreams....
Now I decide....
I ll stop blaming myself for my failure...
Now I'll stop to despise more.....
Now it becomes unavoidable that I ll never love myself for
my achievements ....
For my current assets ...
It ends or it doesn't..
No matter.....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
72
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Volatility is … beautiful
The volatility of our story
Was the key for happiness
Of every moment spent together
I named that … illusion
But i believe it was not
Cause all those moments
Were so damn beautiful
That i don’t want to name them anymore … illusions
Even if in fact … they really are like that But found a better definition
