A special need of infinite love and understanding for both sides.
But we fail doing it.
And we fail doing it on and on and on … cause we are not really ready for those sessions of … self therapy.
Amazed of such a large spectrum of feelings and thoughts … understanding just a small piece of who we really are … we end up … running away by the inner soul.
We don’t like it …. but we do it.
Unfortunately … the ache … remains in there.
We pretend we don’t see it … and also don’t feel it … but still it’s there.
There is no real … remedy … unless we finally understand
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
34
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
that self therapy might be .. a good trick for that.
and a treatment that might help … a lot. Understanding the feeling of not liking to run away …. becomes to key of starting … the therapy that you hope will remove forever that pain you feel so deep inside yourself. And again … letting all the contradictory thoughts and feelings to come out of yourself … Is like a session of analyzing the … nonsense … which later on … you see that makes total sense.
Me and Arij … are doing this process by such a long time. We allow ourselves to talk …. let all those thoughts and feelings … come out of ourselves.
We might look … philosopher … and also lost souls … but maybe we are not.
We write all kind of things … many of them with no sense at all … but the only message we want to send to the public is just … give yourself the freedom to be wild … philosophically speaking.
Not running away … starting to embrace with infinite love and understanding … everything you are … becomes then … the remedy for that inner ache … which is so hard to be understood.
Yes … maybe the first step is just pay attention at the fact that … you don’t like to run away anymore.
The rest … will probably come by itself.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
35
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
There is nothing more powerful in this world … as the power of love.
And it really can create … miracles.
The only thing we must do is … believe in it.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
I had a friend named Rubi … and she was loved by a boy named Shed.
Shed also was in love with Rubi.... but there was a problem
… a huge one.
Rubi’s family refused Shed.
He tried his best to convinced them, but all was in vain.....
They totally disagreed with him.
But … one day … while walking on yard a poisonous snake was bit Rubi badly.
It was the most terrifying day for her.
A battle between life and death started.
She was in heavy pain.
… was moaned .
Her parents were also very worried .
They treated her .
They wanted to do anything for saving her life .
But living in backward sites … Instead shifting the patient to hospital, we use traditional method of cure.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
36
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
On the wound site we made cut …. so that poisonous blood
can flow.
And the patient has to stay awake for 24 hours.
The first 12 hours were spend crying, but now it was getting harder to wake up.
She was dominated by sleep.
The parents were confused.
They couldn't take any risk.
They were facing extreme critical situation.
When they looked at Rubi they were disappoint.
Now they were hopeless..... completely hopeless.
She was fainting in pain and unconsciously she started the
name …
She d
She'd
Shed ......
She wanted to meet him .
Maybe for the last time...
The parents were unhappy.
But they had to invite Shed for her daughter ,
For her love,
For her life .
So Shed came to see her.
He grabbed Rubies hand and sat down next to her.
Next 12 hours were passed peacefully .
Now she was no longer in danger.
Parents now understood everything.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
37
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
That day they had fixed thier married .
The poison of the snake was proved …. honey for thier life.
And all the darkness was gone from thier life .
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
38
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
You are my shelter person.......
You are my deep link.......
You are my faith......
You intuitive......
If I find you it means …. I found the lottery of life....
(Arij Emaan)
I read her weird poems … but i always end up realizing that i am the weird one.
I analyze the feminine spirit …. and i know for sure that it
was no accident to meet Arij.
She is guiding me … in understanding the secrets of a woman’s soul.
And it’s good cause she is at the other side of the world.
… there is no risk for me to fall in love with her.
But i continue reading her poems and write my thoughts about what i understood from them.
I am actually searching for the message … behind the message … and there are moments when i have the illusory belief that … all the secrets were revealed … just by reading her thoughts.
Arij becomes my guide … for understanding a world that … i proved so, so many times that i am not capable of understanding.
But i continue … this journey to the unknown.
I have moments … when i pretend that i really do understand … but i am such an idiot …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
39
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
And is funny ….cause she is thinking the same … reading my
nonsense thoughts.
She told that to me so many, many times.
Not directly … but i found that answer in her poems.
So … we continue playing around … presenting our thoughts and feelings to each other … hoping that one day … it might become clear … all what we are saying.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
40
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
“I guess you are in search ....
it seems you are finding something .....
Unless you find ….
You will never stop .....”
(Arij Emaan)
The human being is always in a weird search … for something
that can’t even be defined.
And we keep searching.
On and on and on.
But why?!
…. and search for what?!
Not being able to connect to the present moment … we end up creating parallel Universes.
Some people see in art …. the need of expressing the
abstract from inside the soul.
Some … feel the need of writing.
It’s so weird what they write … that decide to choose a pseudonym to hide their identity.
Some …. more pragmatical … decide to live one more love
story … or even more … in the same time. The list with those example … is infinite. But … again … why?!
If we would not judge all those people … maybe in a moment of deep honesty … we would realize that we somehow do the
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
41
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
same.
We search … and sometimes when we find that something … we start to build inside of us … an amazing Universe … which become the healing for the soul. But why parallel?!
Why not real?!
I smile … hearing the question.
Well … cause we are cowards.
We remain prisoners of an unwanted Universe …. and in
those little moments of escape …. We jump in those parallel
worlds.
We still remain cowards … but … a second of courage lets us … be alive from time to time.
We end up having an abstract behavior.
We keep searching on and on and on.
And even when we find something … we don’t know anymore how to stop ourselves.
Searching … becomes … the illusory medicine that helps us forget about the … present moment.
the unwanted present moment! (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
42
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Sorry … I'm feeling absent those days …
(Arij Emaan)
I was smiling chatting with her.
We somehow stoped for a while the project we had together.
She was absent.
But i understand … cause she is … so young.
I always saw in her … a great philosopher.
Arij stoped writing … but i am certain that she did not stoped thinking.
Deep inside her she is a philosopher.
She has philosophy in her …. blood.
So … i stoped judging her for stoping the project for a while.
I know that inside her mind … the project continued. Then i suddenly realized that i did this so, so many times before in my life.
I had so many big dreams, abandoned for a while.
Some … i totally forget about them, but some remained in my heart and i still think about them.
I continued everything … in that parallel world … from my inner soul.
All happened like that, cause one day … i just felt absent on
the stage of my own life.
I could not act anymore.
I did not saw the … purpose.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
43
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
But inside my mind … and my heart … everything continued.
I was present … in there … all the time.
So … it actually means … and i knew it by such a long time that … being absent it’s kind of a hobby … that even if looks like a total nonsense …. it’s actually a way of acting.
Maybe … just connecting to the perfect scenario … which is much easier to accomplish in the inner reality.
So … i closed my eyes … connected to my soul … and then connected to Arij also.
And we continued our philosophical … dance, telling to each other … the things that can’t be defined … and sometimes not even understood.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
44
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Let the philosophical dance … continue … it's do damn beautiful …
They accidentally met.
He liked her … and she liked him.
But … they could not really be … together.
And still … they liked each other.
So, he smiles … and whispers her … “What do you say about a dance?! It can be even a philosophical dance … but we should allow the passion … overwhelm us.” She looks as him … and smiles too.
“You are crazy … and i know it by such a long time.
You actually invite me … in a fantasy.
What if i accept?!
Cause … accepting … i might not get back anymore into the real world?!”
“But it’s just an … innocent dance?!
Might look like a fantasy … but it’s going to be so damn … beautiful.
Life itself … will be redefined.
It’s not that you would love it … but we will have an amazing experience.”
And he kept describing her … on and on and on … that beautiful fantasy.
She smiles again … but this time she started to be happy and annoyed in the same time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
45
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
“Damn it! You really take me … almost by force in your illusory world.
But indeed … it’s so damn beautiful.”
She felt his tremendous powers of … attracting her into that Universe.
Somehow … she agreed and disagree in the same time … with him.
Accepting the dance … she would be taken in a world … that she would not want to leave anymore.
Comparing with the real life … it was actually an invitation to the heaven.
“It’s just … a dance!” … he was whispering on and on and on.
And the truth is that the dance is not … immoral.
It can be defined as … a connection of hidden desires came from the both sides …
One day … she finally said … “Yes! Let’s dance!”
… and you won’t believe the happiness seen on his face … “We are already dancing by such a long, long time … my dear.
Maybe i should say … let the dance …. continue …. It’s so
damn beautiful.”
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
46
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
And … I keep wondering myself … what do I need more into my life?!
Maybe … a little bit of … everything?!
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Naturally ....
By birth, there is deficiency of
love
In me....
In my world....
In my nature ....
In my soul ....
In my heart....
In my mind .....
I need much more
Love ....
Value .....
esteem.....
Care ....
affection and
attention .....
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
47
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I can't face others
ignorance .....
disrespect ....
Carelessness....
Or hate.....
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
48
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
“Since I left you
I couldn't find
myself......”
(Arij Emaan)
I do believe that there are connections that are simple destroying your energy field …. and connections that are
meant to give you good vibes … and guidance to beautiful paths in life.
A love story could be such a sample.
Or … a beautiful friendship.
Everything means human interconnection … means exchange of energy.
So … our energetic level might be influenced into a negative or positive way.
Choosing to be in the right company is probably the best decision we could probably have … but how do we select the connections?!
Well … most probably simple …. analyzing and defining what
is going on when we are connected to those … people.
Or … disconnected to them.
What my dear Arij …. which writes so condensed … her
philosophical ideas …. wanted to say by …. “Since I left you …
I couldn't find myself......” is that some people gives us
guidance … energy … and positive influences.
And that might be a story about love, friendship … or any other type of connection.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
49
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Seeing the meaning … the results, understanding the flux of energies …. analyzing and defining them … becomes a must for a beautiful life.
Yes … we can become selective … with the connections … embracing of rejecting them.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
50
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
We live our live fogetting … that we should also explore the path … of happiness
But we fail doing it.
And we fail doing it on and on and on … cause we are not really ready for those sessions of … self therapy.
Amazed of such a large spectrum of feelings and thoughts … understanding just a small piece of who we really are … we end up … running away by the inner soul.
We don’t like it …. but we do it.
Unfortunately … the ache … remains in there.
We pretend we don’t see it … and also don’t feel it … but still it’s there.
There is no real … remedy … unless we finally understand
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
34
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
that self therapy might be .. a good trick for that.
and a treatment that might help … a lot. Understanding the feeling of not liking to run away …. becomes to key of starting … the therapy that you hope will remove forever that pain you feel so deep inside yourself. And again … letting all the contradictory thoughts and feelings to come out of yourself … Is like a session of analyzing the … nonsense … which later on … you see that makes total sense.
Me and Arij … are doing this process by such a long time. We allow ourselves to talk …. let all those thoughts and feelings … come out of ourselves.
We might look … philosopher … and also lost souls … but maybe we are not.
We write all kind of things … many of them with no sense at all … but the only message we want to send to the public is just … give yourself the freedom to be wild … philosophically speaking.
Not running away … starting to embrace with infinite love and understanding … everything you are … becomes then … the remedy for that inner ache … which is so hard to be understood.
Yes … maybe the first step is just pay attention at the fact that … you don’t like to run away anymore.
The rest … will probably come by itself.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
35
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
There is nothing more powerful in this world … as the power of love.
And it really can create … miracles.
The only thing we must do is … believe in it.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
I had a friend named Rubi … and she was loved by a boy named Shed.
Shed also was in love with Rubi.... but there was a problem
… a huge one.
Rubi’s family refused Shed.
He tried his best to convinced them, but all was in vain.....
They totally disagreed with him.
But … one day … while walking on yard a poisonous snake was bit Rubi badly.
It was the most terrifying day for her.
A battle between life and death started.
She was in heavy pain.
… was moaned .
Her parents were also very worried .
They treated her .
They wanted to do anything for saving her life .
But living in backward sites … Instead shifting the patient to hospital, we use traditional method of cure.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
36
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
On the wound site we made cut …. so that poisonous blood
can flow.
And the patient has to stay awake for 24 hours.
The first 12 hours were spend crying, but now it was getting harder to wake up.
She was dominated by sleep.
The parents were confused.
They couldn't take any risk.
They were facing extreme critical situation.
When they looked at Rubi they were disappoint.
Now they were hopeless..... completely hopeless.
She was fainting in pain and unconsciously she started the
name …
She d
She'd
Shed ......
She wanted to meet him .
Maybe for the last time...
The parents were unhappy.
But they had to invite Shed for her daughter ,
For her love,
For her life .
So Shed came to see her.
He grabbed Rubies hand and sat down next to her.
Next 12 hours were passed peacefully .
Now she was no longer in danger.
Parents now understood everything.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
37
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
That day they had fixed thier married .
The poison of the snake was proved …. honey for thier life.
And all the darkness was gone from thier life .
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
38
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
You are my shelter person.......
You are my deep link.......
You are my faith......
You intuitive......
If I find you it means …. I found the lottery of life....
(Arij Emaan)
I read her weird poems … but i always end up realizing that i am the weird one.
I analyze the feminine spirit …. and i know for sure that it
was no accident to meet Arij.
She is guiding me … in understanding the secrets of a woman’s soul.
And it’s good cause she is at the other side of the world.
… there is no risk for me to fall in love with her.
But i continue reading her poems and write my thoughts about what i understood from them.
I am actually searching for the message … behind the message … and there are moments when i have the illusory belief that … all the secrets were revealed … just by reading her thoughts.
Arij becomes my guide … for understanding a world that … i proved so, so many times that i am not capable of understanding.
But i continue … this journey to the unknown.
I have moments … when i pretend that i really do understand … but i am such an idiot …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
39
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
And is funny ….cause she is thinking the same … reading my
nonsense thoughts.
She told that to me so many, many times.
Not directly … but i found that answer in her poems.
So … we continue playing around … presenting our thoughts and feelings to each other … hoping that one day … it might become clear … all what we are saying.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
40
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
“I guess you are in search ....
it seems you are finding something .....
Unless you find ….
You will never stop .....”
(Arij Emaan)
The human being is always in a weird search … for something
that can’t even be defined.
And we keep searching.
On and on and on.
But why?!
…. and search for what?!
Not being able to connect to the present moment … we end up creating parallel Universes.
Some people see in art …. the need of expressing the
abstract from inside the soul.
Some … feel the need of writing.
It’s so weird what they write … that decide to choose a pseudonym to hide their identity.
Some …. more pragmatical … decide to live one more love
story … or even more … in the same time. The list with those example … is infinite. But … again … why?!
If we would not judge all those people … maybe in a moment of deep honesty … we would realize that we somehow do the
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
41
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
same.
We search … and sometimes when we find that something … we start to build inside of us … an amazing Universe … which become the healing for the soul. But why parallel?!
Why not real?!
I smile … hearing the question.
Well … cause we are cowards.
We remain prisoners of an unwanted Universe …. and in
those little moments of escape …. We jump in those parallel
worlds.
We still remain cowards … but … a second of courage lets us … be alive from time to time.
We end up having an abstract behavior.
We keep searching on and on and on.
And even when we find something … we don’t know anymore how to stop ourselves.
Searching … becomes … the illusory medicine that helps us forget about the … present moment.
the unwanted present moment! (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
42
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Sorry … I'm feeling absent those days …
(Arij Emaan)
I was smiling chatting with her.
We somehow stoped for a while the project we had together.
She was absent.
But i understand … cause she is … so young.
I always saw in her … a great philosopher.
Arij stoped writing … but i am certain that she did not stoped thinking.
Deep inside her she is a philosopher.
She has philosophy in her …. blood.
So … i stoped judging her for stoping the project for a while.
I know that inside her mind … the project continued. Then i suddenly realized that i did this so, so many times before in my life.
I had so many big dreams, abandoned for a while.
Some … i totally forget about them, but some remained in my heart and i still think about them.
I continued everything … in that parallel world … from my inner soul.
All happened like that, cause one day … i just felt absent on
the stage of my own life.
I could not act anymore.
I did not saw the … purpose.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
43
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
But inside my mind … and my heart … everything continued.
I was present … in there … all the time.
So … it actually means … and i knew it by such a long time that … being absent it’s kind of a hobby … that even if looks like a total nonsense …. it’s actually a way of acting.
Maybe … just connecting to the perfect scenario … which is much easier to accomplish in the inner reality.
So … i closed my eyes … connected to my soul … and then connected to Arij also.
And we continued our philosophical … dance, telling to each other … the things that can’t be defined … and sometimes not even understood.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
44
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Let the philosophical dance … continue … it's do damn beautiful …
They accidentally met.
He liked her … and she liked him.
But … they could not really be … together.
And still … they liked each other.
So, he smiles … and whispers her … “What do you say about a dance?! It can be even a philosophical dance … but we should allow the passion … overwhelm us.” She looks as him … and smiles too.
“You are crazy … and i know it by such a long time.
You actually invite me … in a fantasy.
What if i accept?!
Cause … accepting … i might not get back anymore into the real world?!”
“But it’s just an … innocent dance?!
Might look like a fantasy … but it’s going to be so damn … beautiful.
Life itself … will be redefined.
It’s not that you would love it … but we will have an amazing experience.”
And he kept describing her … on and on and on … that beautiful fantasy.
She smiles again … but this time she started to be happy and annoyed in the same time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
45
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
“Damn it! You really take me … almost by force in your illusory world.
But indeed … it’s so damn beautiful.”
She felt his tremendous powers of … attracting her into that Universe.
Somehow … she agreed and disagree in the same time … with him.
Accepting the dance … she would be taken in a world … that she would not want to leave anymore.
Comparing with the real life … it was actually an invitation to the heaven.
“It’s just … a dance!” … he was whispering on and on and on.
And the truth is that the dance is not … immoral.
It can be defined as … a connection of hidden desires came from the both sides …
One day … she finally said … “Yes! Let’s dance!”
… and you won’t believe the happiness seen on his face … “We are already dancing by such a long, long time … my dear.
Maybe i should say … let the dance …. continue …. It’s so
damn beautiful.”
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
46
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
And … I keep wondering myself … what do I need more into my life?!
Maybe … a little bit of … everything?!
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Naturally ....
By birth, there is deficiency of
love
In me....
In my world....
In my nature ....
In my soul ....
In my heart....
In my mind .....
I need much more
Love ....
Value .....
esteem.....
Care ....
affection and
attention .....
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
47
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I can't face others
ignorance .....
disrespect ....
Carelessness....
Or hate.....
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
48
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
“Since I left you
I couldn't find
myself......”
(Arij Emaan)
I do believe that there are connections that are simple destroying your energy field …. and connections that are
meant to give you good vibes … and guidance to beautiful paths in life.
A love story could be such a sample.
Or … a beautiful friendship.
Everything means human interconnection … means exchange of energy.
So … our energetic level might be influenced into a negative or positive way.
Choosing to be in the right company is probably the best decision we could probably have … but how do we select the connections?!
Well … most probably simple …. analyzing and defining what
is going on when we are connected to those … people.
Or … disconnected to them.
What my dear Arij …. which writes so condensed … her
philosophical ideas …. wanted to say by …. “Since I left you …
I couldn't find myself......” is that some people gives us
guidance … energy … and positive influences.
And that might be a story about love, friendship … or any other type of connection.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
49
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Seeing the meaning … the results, understanding the flux of energies …. analyzing and defining them … becomes a must for a beautiful life.
Yes … we can become selective … with the connections … embracing of rejecting them.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
50
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
We live our live fogetting … that we should also explore the path … of happiness
