But it was late … very, very late.
All those ugly energies already dominated our lives.
We haven’t understood the impact that the whole story with influences can have on us … and allow things to continue …
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till one day when we’ve understood… it’s too late. And i wonder why?!
…. why are we so stupids?!
Well … most probably we don’t understand the impact of all the things that happens around us.
We are not … profound enough to realize all what is going on.
And … this was my case too.
The scenario of my life … changed again and again and again … only because i’ve allowed to be dominated.
I somehow liked those energies … into the beginning, but later on i’ve realized the journey of my life is not going anymore into the direction i was dreaming about.
My life changed … without realizing … but the moment i start to think why … i see no logical explanation.
Maybe i thought … so illusory … that i can manage this trend of keep being influenced… but …
Most probably if someone would decide to go to a place as Chernobyl … that is still contaminated with radiation from the nuclear accident from the 80’s … would realize the risk of doing that.
Or maybe i should say … the huge risk.
The impact … on the health of that person … could be really … ugly.
But you see … nobody can see … the radiations from there.
All those energies … are invisible.
Coming back at the influences and the impact of those influences on us … from all the energies that surround us … trying to make the correlation with a visit to Chernobyl … we start to somehow understand what is going on.
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And still …. we should never want to go into a place as that …
and also … not stay there.
The example … reveals us … the story about influences …
the impact … but … coming back to our reality … we are blinds again.
We simple can’t see any way if how we could get rid … of domination.
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When we feel we
waste our time … we should just leave
I felt many times into this lifetime … that i am wasting my time.
Today … when i have this type of feeling … i understand that i am actually … wasting my life in here … on Earth. I’ve started to have much better … clarity.
I understand reality …
I understand that i am not on the right path of life …. but
even if all is so, so clear … i just continue … doing the same stupid things on and on and on. I act as … an idiot.
I know … on a theoretical level … all is going on for real … but … i still continue staying on those pathless paths.
I know i am wasting my time … but i allow as this story to continue.
… which is probably … a nonsense.
Yes .. i allow as the nonsense … to dominate my life … even if today … i am not so idiot anymore … as i used to be. But my question is … why the hell i do that?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Well … maybe i am afraid of being bored again.
I don’t want a boring life.
I simple don’t want that.
I feel the need of certain elements into my life … and that involves indeed as my reality to be a little bit dominated by stupidity.
And is funny … cause i allow myself to act stupid … just to remain prisoner into that scene of life. And i keep wasting my time.
Until?!
Well … who the hell knows … and in fact i stop asking myself
or if i do it … in fact … i just pretend i am doing it. All i actually do … is to delay all.
even if i know the truth that it’s all a waste of energy and time …. I allow to remain prisoner into that reality.
I am so afraid of being … bored … again.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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There are many moments when we feel like prisoners … but we should simple smile …
One guy wrote me one day … a very weird letter … explaining that after meditating for years, visualizing a scenario of a perfect life … he finally had one day that story.
But the funny thing was that … even if he liked everything he attracted… he became to be dominated by a weird feeling … that he became the prisoner of that world.
He had been created an universe … that was the mirror of all his dreams … but could not get rid of these stupid feelings … of being into a prison with invisible walls … that he could not leave anymore.
The guy wrote me after reading my book “My life in a prison with invisible walls” … identifying himself with my perceptions.
And the philosophical question was … what the hell we do if all those ideas, thoughts, dreams … create a reality … which induces us into the end the feeling of being … prisoners.
This guy … Tom … that wrote me this interesting letter … felt the same as me.
It was nice for him … to realize that … another ordinary
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person … thought the same about the desire of attracting a new reality … which into the end can become … a trap. And Tom … asked me … “What the hell should i do now?!”
I smiled … realizing that all what i could say to him was … to smile.
Yes … to smile in front of … our stupidity.
This disease of wanting all the time … something totally different than the real life.
A disease … disguised as a … desire.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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The sexual magnetism could dominate, but also … destroy everything
Few days ago … i’ve been in a scene … as a simple spectator
and had the chance to understand the tremendous power of sexual energy.
We were 3 men … and a very beautiful lady, that was arranging the tables at the coffee shop.
One of the guys was the lover of that lady … and the other one … a guest that came there with the family to enjoy a cake and a coffee.
The 3 of us … knew each other … by a long time … and stayed together only 2 … maximum 3 minutes … just to say hello.
But what was funny … and this is why i bother to write about such a scene … is that Tim, the guy that was there with his family … kept staring at the beautiful lady that was arranging the place.
He could not control anymore … his eyes.
He was staring like a 5 years old kid … but being an adult …. he was totally dominated by her sexual energy.
She had indeed a very beautiful body.
i could even say … she was a gorgeous lady.
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All men around … were admiring her … but my friend … simple lost control on himself … even if her lover was only 1 meter away.
I was looking into the same time … at all of them … and … The funny thing is that the lover was so wise … that only … smiled.
He was looking at our friend … that was starring to his girlfriend … and realized … the guy is just an idiot … and nothing more.
Soon … wife came and asked him to leave.
I look at the lover and ask … “It looks like you are not a jealous man. Anyone would probably just … make here a jealousy crisis … but not you …”
He smile … ironically … replying … “Well …. all men are
starring at her. In the beginning… even if i don’t suffer of jealousy… i became annoyed.
Her sexual energy … is at a very high level.
Men are admiring her … and all women are envying her. Her sexual magnetism dominates any scene of life when we are together.
I can’t change her focus … from sexuality.
It’s probably a normal need … for having clear confirmations …. about her beauty.
Or at least this is what i think.
Her sexuality … gives glamour to our relationship … but also
all those sexual channels … remained opened … and
attracting with her magnetism everyone around … just ruins
the beauty of our connection.
I could ask her to change.
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… to resoft herself … but i find it ridiculous.
Her sexual energy … that dominates all the scenes of life … where she appears … has a tremendous impact. And … she loves that.
She loves having … magnetism.
Probably a normal man … would lose his mind … seeing this happening everyday.
It’s probably useless … to define her … things that are clear … but also unclear.
The sexual energy … dominates everything from beyond reality.
She does not say anything … and actually don’t do anything … but her deep desire of being admired by everyone … controls … all.
I just continue being into a story …. which i like a lot … but i
am also understanding that our connection is not everything.”
I was listening to my friend … and liked all those perceptions.
he probably understood… he could not change anything at all.
He loved their love story … adore this amazing lady … but also accepted it’s useless to bother to … delete … her sexual magnetism.
It was a game … an illusory one … but she adored … dominating everyone around.
Well … maybe till one day when she will realize … that her lover had enough … and just disappeared without saying a word.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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The sexual magnetism could dominate, but also … destroy everything
Few days ago … i’ve been in a scene … as a simple spectator
and had the chance to understand the power of the tremendous power of sexual energy.
We were 3 men … and a very beautiful lady, that was arranging the tables at the coffee shop.
One of the guy was the lover of that lady … and the other one … a guest that came there with the family to enjoy a cake and a coffee.
The 3 of us … knew each other … by a long time … and stayed together only 2 … maximum 3 minutes … just to say and change few words.
But what was funny … and this is why i bother to write about such a scene … is that Tim, the guy that was there with his family … keep staring at the beautiful lady that was arranging the place.
He could not control anymore … his eyes.
He was staring like a 5 years old kid … but being an adult …. he was indeed dominated by her sexual energy.
She had indeed a very beautiful body.
i could even say … a gorgeous lady.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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All men around … were admiring her … but my friend … simple lost control on himself … even if her lover was only 1 meter away.
I was looking into the same time … at all of them … and … The funny thing is that the loser was so wise … that only … smiled.
He was looking at our friend … that was starring to his girlfriend … and realized … the guy is just an idiot … and nothing more.
Soon … wife came and asked him to leave.
I look at the lover and ask … “It looks like you are not a jealous man. Anyone would probably just … make here a jealousy crisis … but not you …”
He smile … ironically … replying … “Well …. all men are
starring at her. In the beginning… even if i don’t suffer of jealousy… i became annoyed.
Her sexual energy … is at a very high level.
Men are admiring her … and all women are starring at her. Her sexual magnetism dominates any scene of life when we are together.
I can’t change her focus … from sexuality.
It’s probably a normal need … for having daily clear confirmations.
Or at least this is what i think.
Her sexuality … gives glamour to our relationship … but also
all those sexual channels … remained opened … and
attracting with her magnetism everyone around … just ruin
the beauty of our connection.
I could ask her to change.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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… to resoft herself … but i find it ridiculous.
Her sexual energy … that dominates all the scenes of life … where she appears … has a tremendous impact. And … she loves that.
She loves having … magnetism.
Probably a normal man … would lose his mind … seeing this happening everyday.
It’s probably useless … to define her … things that are clear … but also unclear.
The sexual energy … dominates everything from beyond reality.
She does not say anything … and actually don’t do anything … but her deep desire of being admired by everyone … controls … all.
I just continue being into a story …. which i like a lot … but i
am also understanding that our connection is not everything.”
I was listening to my friend … and liked all those perceptions.
he probably understood… he could not change anything at all.
He loved their love story … adore this amazing lady … but also accepted it’s useless to bother to … delete … her sexual magnetism.
It was a game … an illusory one … but she adored … dominating everyone around.
Well … maybe till one day when she will realize … that her lover had enough … and just disappeared without saying a word.
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We should let intuition to dominate our reality.
Not be ashamed of that … and even consider it is a must … for a beautiful life.
Jonathan called me today … asking me if … he is an idiot ….
It was a weird question … especially coming from him … cause he is a very intelligent guy.
He asked this question to me … cause arriving at a date with a lady found on a dating app … he decided … in the last moment … to cancel all.
You see … my friend … was chasing for the perfect woman ….
by a long, long time.
He was probably dating with hundreds of ladies.
Any men would envy him for such a performance…. but … he
already had enough of dating and dating and dating.
He even compared himself with Sisyphus … which i found ridiculous …. but …
Now the question was … “Is he an idiot cause he cancelled all
into the last second?!”
… or maybe not.
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I’ve dared to ask him … “Maybe she was not so beautiful … or she was fat … or she had a handicap … “
“No! Probably not! But i felt … i need to cancel all. I even deleted her number … and left … not even mentioning that i will not come anymore.”
All those ugly energies already dominated our lives.
We haven’t understood the impact that the whole story with influences can have on us … and allow things to continue …
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till one day when we’ve understood… it’s too late. And i wonder why?!
…. why are we so stupids?!
Well … most probably we don’t understand the impact of all the things that happens around us.
We are not … profound enough to realize all what is going on.
And … this was my case too.
The scenario of my life … changed again and again and again … only because i’ve allowed to be dominated.
I somehow liked those energies … into the beginning, but later on i’ve realized the journey of my life is not going anymore into the direction i was dreaming about.
My life changed … without realizing … but the moment i start to think why … i see no logical explanation.
Maybe i thought … so illusory … that i can manage this trend of keep being influenced… but …
Most probably if someone would decide to go to a place as Chernobyl … that is still contaminated with radiation from the nuclear accident from the 80’s … would realize the risk of doing that.
Or maybe i should say … the huge risk.
The impact … on the health of that person … could be really … ugly.
But you see … nobody can see … the radiations from there.
All those energies … are invisible.
Coming back at the influences and the impact of those influences on us … from all the energies that surround us … trying to make the correlation with a visit to Chernobyl … we start to somehow understand what is going on.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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And still …. we should never want to go into a place as that …
and also … not stay there.
The example … reveals us … the story about influences …
the impact … but … coming back to our reality … we are blinds again.
We simple can’t see any way if how we could get rid … of domination.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
64
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When we feel we
waste our time … we should just leave
I felt many times into this lifetime … that i am wasting my time.
Today … when i have this type of feeling … i understand that i am actually … wasting my life in here … on Earth. I’ve started to have much better … clarity.
I understand reality …
I understand that i am not on the right path of life …. but
even if all is so, so clear … i just continue … doing the same stupid things on and on and on. I act as … an idiot.
I know … on a theoretical level … all is going on for real … but … i still continue staying on those pathless paths.
I know i am wasting my time … but i allow as this story to continue.
… which is probably … a nonsense.
Yes .. i allow as the nonsense … to dominate my life … even if today … i am not so idiot anymore … as i used to be. But my question is … why the hell i do that?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Well … maybe i am afraid of being bored again.
I don’t want a boring life.
I simple don’t want that.
I feel the need of certain elements into my life … and that involves indeed as my reality to be a little bit dominated by stupidity.
And is funny … cause i allow myself to act stupid … just to remain prisoner into that scene of life. And i keep wasting my time.
Until?!
Well … who the hell knows … and in fact i stop asking myself
or if i do it … in fact … i just pretend i am doing it. All i actually do … is to delay all.
even if i know the truth that it’s all a waste of energy and time …. I allow to remain prisoner into that reality.
I am so afraid of being … bored … again.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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There are many moments when we feel like prisoners … but we should simple smile …
One guy wrote me one day … a very weird letter … explaining that after meditating for years, visualizing a scenario of a perfect life … he finally had one day that story.
But the funny thing was that … even if he liked everything he attracted… he became to be dominated by a weird feeling … that he became the prisoner of that world.
He had been created an universe … that was the mirror of all his dreams … but could not get rid of these stupid feelings … of being into a prison with invisible walls … that he could not leave anymore.
The guy wrote me after reading my book “My life in a prison with invisible walls” … identifying himself with my perceptions.
And the philosophical question was … what the hell we do if all those ideas, thoughts, dreams … create a reality … which induces us into the end the feeling of being … prisoners.
This guy … Tom … that wrote me this interesting letter … felt the same as me.
It was nice for him … to realize that … another ordinary
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person … thought the same about the desire of attracting a new reality … which into the end can become … a trap. And Tom … asked me … “What the hell should i do now?!”
I smiled … realizing that all what i could say to him was … to smile.
Yes … to smile in front of … our stupidity.
This disease of wanting all the time … something totally different than the real life.
A disease … disguised as a … desire.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
68
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The sexual magnetism could dominate, but also … destroy everything
Few days ago … i’ve been in a scene … as a simple spectator
and had the chance to understand the tremendous power of sexual energy.
We were 3 men … and a very beautiful lady, that was arranging the tables at the coffee shop.
One of the guys was the lover of that lady … and the other one … a guest that came there with the family to enjoy a cake and a coffee.
The 3 of us … knew each other … by a long time … and stayed together only 2 … maximum 3 minutes … just to say hello.
But what was funny … and this is why i bother to write about such a scene … is that Tim, the guy that was there with his family … kept staring at the beautiful lady that was arranging the place.
He could not control anymore … his eyes.
He was staring like a 5 years old kid … but being an adult …. he was totally dominated by her sexual energy.
She had indeed a very beautiful body.
i could even say … she was a gorgeous lady.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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All men around … were admiring her … but my friend … simple lost control on himself … even if her lover was only 1 meter away.
I was looking into the same time … at all of them … and … The funny thing is that the lover was so wise … that only … smiled.
He was looking at our friend … that was starring to his girlfriend … and realized … the guy is just an idiot … and nothing more.
Soon … wife came and asked him to leave.
I look at the lover and ask … “It looks like you are not a jealous man. Anyone would probably just … make here a jealousy crisis … but not you …”
He smile … ironically … replying … “Well …. all men are
starring at her. In the beginning… even if i don’t suffer of jealousy… i became annoyed.
Her sexual energy … is at a very high level.
Men are admiring her … and all women are envying her. Her sexual magnetism dominates any scene of life when we are together.
I can’t change her focus … from sexuality.
It’s probably a normal need … for having clear confirmations …. about her beauty.
Or at least this is what i think.
Her sexuality … gives glamour to our relationship … but also
all those sexual channels … remained opened … and
attracting with her magnetism everyone around … just ruins
the beauty of our connection.
I could ask her to change.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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… to resoft herself … but i find it ridiculous.
Her sexual energy … that dominates all the scenes of life … where she appears … has a tremendous impact. And … she loves that.
She loves having … magnetism.
Probably a normal man … would lose his mind … seeing this happening everyday.
It’s probably useless … to define her … things that are clear … but also unclear.
The sexual energy … dominates everything from beyond reality.
She does not say anything … and actually don’t do anything … but her deep desire of being admired by everyone … controls … all.
I just continue being into a story …. which i like a lot … but i
am also understanding that our connection is not everything.”
I was listening to my friend … and liked all those perceptions.
he probably understood… he could not change anything at all.
He loved their love story … adore this amazing lady … but also accepted it’s useless to bother to … delete … her sexual magnetism.
It was a game … an illusory one … but she adored … dominating everyone around.
Well … maybe till one day when she will realize … that her lover had enough … and just disappeared without saying a word.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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The sexual magnetism could dominate, but also … destroy everything
Few days ago … i’ve been in a scene … as a simple spectator
and had the chance to understand the power of the tremendous power of sexual energy.
We were 3 men … and a very beautiful lady, that was arranging the tables at the coffee shop.
One of the guy was the lover of that lady … and the other one … a guest that came there with the family to enjoy a cake and a coffee.
The 3 of us … knew each other … by a long time … and stayed together only 2 … maximum 3 minutes … just to say and change few words.
But what was funny … and this is why i bother to write about such a scene … is that Tim, the guy that was there with his family … keep staring at the beautiful lady that was arranging the place.
He could not control anymore … his eyes.
He was staring like a 5 years old kid … but being an adult …. he was indeed dominated by her sexual energy.
She had indeed a very beautiful body.
i could even say … a gorgeous lady.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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All men around … were admiring her … but my friend … simple lost control on himself … even if her lover was only 1 meter away.
I was looking into the same time … at all of them … and … The funny thing is that the loser was so wise … that only … smiled.
He was looking at our friend … that was starring to his girlfriend … and realized … the guy is just an idiot … and nothing more.
Soon … wife came and asked him to leave.
I look at the lover and ask … “It looks like you are not a jealous man. Anyone would probably just … make here a jealousy crisis … but not you …”
He smile … ironically … replying … “Well …. all men are
starring at her. In the beginning… even if i don’t suffer of jealousy… i became annoyed.
Her sexual energy … is at a very high level.
Men are admiring her … and all women are starring at her. Her sexual magnetism dominates any scene of life when we are together.
I can’t change her focus … from sexuality.
It’s probably a normal need … for having daily clear confirmations.
Or at least this is what i think.
Her sexuality … gives glamour to our relationship … but also
all those sexual channels … remained opened … and
attracting with her magnetism everyone around … just ruin
the beauty of our connection.
I could ask her to change.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
73
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… to resoft herself … but i find it ridiculous.
Her sexual energy … that dominates all the scenes of life … where she appears … has a tremendous impact. And … she loves that.
She loves having … magnetism.
Probably a normal man … would lose his mind … seeing this happening everyday.
It’s probably useless … to define her … things that are clear … but also unclear.
The sexual energy … dominates everything from beyond reality.
She does not say anything … and actually don’t do anything … but her deep desire of being admired by everyone … controls … all.
I just continue being into a story …. which i like a lot … but i
am also understanding that our connection is not everything.”
I was listening to my friend … and liked all those perceptions.
he probably understood… he could not change anything at all.
He loved their love story … adore this amazing lady … but also accepted it’s useless to bother to … delete … her sexual magnetism.
It was a game … an illusory one … but she adored … dominating everyone around.
Well … maybe till one day when she will realize … that her lover had enough … and just disappeared without saying a word.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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We should let intuition to dominate our reality.
Not be ashamed of that … and even consider it is a must … for a beautiful life.
Jonathan called me today … asking me if … he is an idiot ….
It was a weird question … especially coming from him … cause he is a very intelligent guy.
He asked this question to me … cause arriving at a date with a lady found on a dating app … he decided … in the last moment … to cancel all.
You see … my friend … was chasing for the perfect woman ….
by a long, long time.
He was probably dating with hundreds of ladies.
Any men would envy him for such a performance…. but … he
already had enough of dating and dating and dating.
He even compared himself with Sisyphus … which i found ridiculous …. but …
Now the question was … “Is he an idiot cause he cancelled all
into the last second?!”
… or maybe not.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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I’ve dared to ask him … “Maybe she was not so beautiful … or she was fat … or she had a handicap … “
“No! Probably not! But i felt … i need to cancel all. I even deleted her number … and left … not even mentioning that i will not come anymore.”
