I was indeed limited of my opinions about the huge prices ….
and probably Paul had such open views about anything … cause he saw that the investments into things that bring joy to the soul … are great investments.
Brian was thinking …. listening to us.
He was somehow in his perceptions …. between me and Paul
balancing between paying and not paying so huge prices for amazing vibes.
Our talk become in the end … a spectrum of contradictory ideas … and probably Brian became more confused. Maybe even me and Paul … analyzing and defining the subject … influenced too much each other.
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But i was in a hurry and had to leave from the coffee shop … so i shaked hands with the 2 of them …. smiled … and say …
“ Listen … don’t get me wrong … i agree about the theory that a vacation to an amazing place helps our vibe a lot … but i just don’t want to pay those huge prices.
So … i want …. but i don’t want ….
Maybe till next time when we meet …. I’ll come with a new theory …. or change my limited perceptions.”
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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philosophical essays
The opposite of
chaos is … stillness
I was at the coffee shop … but this time near the sea, in a town from northern Greece.
The fire from my house … which happened one day before ….
totally ruined my day … but looking at the sea i started to remember again of Infinite … and of the tremendous powers of the Universe.
I knew that 20 years ago …. I had nothing … and now i have
lots of real estate properties … and that was only because the Universe allowed and wanted as this to happen.
It was the second accident like that … which happened in a very weird way … making me wonder what the hell is this ….
nonsense …. and why it destroys one more time my
optimism.
But the vibe of the place where i was … was amazing.
It was a town … not so well known … but the right place to give me a great vibe … and make my soul disconnect from the weird energies from the scene of the real life … from home.
And i knew the Universe guided me there … just to relax a little bit.
So … i started to film my coffee … but suddenly realized that across the street 2 policemen brought 2 prisoners.
The beautiful building near the coffee shop … was actually a
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court room …. and those guys went to see the judge.
Most probably they did something illegally and police arrested them for that.
I could be arrested too if in that fire from the house … the tenants would have died.
So … comparing with those guys … i was lucky.
The Universe allowed them to be arrested so that they learn a life lesson …. but for me … i just had to pay some money to fix the damages.
All looked really bad … but not so bad as the situation of those 2 arrested men from across the street.
And still … the main advantages of those guys … is that they stoped… in whatever they were doing.
Most probably …. I will not stop.
I will continue my chaotic life which is going to generate more and more … bad things into my life.
I still don’t understand that the opposite of chaos is … stillness.
20 minutes later the guys got back to the car.
Probably the judge did not released them.
They were still prisoners … with the guardians near them. I had the illusion i am a free person …. but i’m actually the prisoner of that terrible chaos generated by my desires.
But for the moment … still nothing stops me.
So … who the hell is in a better position?!
Me …. the prisoner of chaos … or those guys that were
arrested?!
Well … i am sure karma … will probably teach me soon … that the opposite of chaos is … the stillness ….
So … too bad … cause i can’t understand the signs.
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Wherever i would be … it will all be the same.
I tried to change the places … so, so many
times … but … it was just … useless. The only update i need to do is the one for a better connection with my soul.
Ella is a dear friend of mine from South Africa.
She writes me from time to time … talking about love stories. Long time before … i wrote about 10 books about love … and she still believes i’m kind of a guru into relationships, when in fact i’m just kind of a writer that wrote stories about his failure …
But all the talks we have … helped me a lot in understanding the feminine philosophy.
I would even dare to say that i became a better writer because … of her.
For example … recently she wrote me about Jim … a guy that she met on a dating app.
He looked like a very nice guy … but you see … Ella had enough of making plans with those guys from the internet. It the beginning … it was all different. She believed in those ... dates.
But today … no.
Not anymore.
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She would like to simple date …. make absolutely no plan …
and not even choose a certain place to go.
Just meet in one point on the street, walk … decide together a coffee shop or a restaurant ... or if she thinks it’s a good connection .. she would even like to jump into the car … and go … another city … in a short trip.
You see … Ella went over the years to many exotic destinations … but that did not really touched her soul. She most probably had enough … pretending that she can still believe the fact that a place can change … anything. She came to a point …. when she feels that she wants more a change … deep inside her soul.
Probably felt being a prisoner of this game of dating … with so, so many guys that were not able to touch her soul. Believing a certain place will change her vibe into an amazing way … was useless today in her opinion.
She came to a point where she was chasing for a mix of an amazing place in the company of an amazing person. But all based on … spontaneity.
No more plans.
She was not believing in the power of … the plans.
That was in her opinion a … false way of living.
All her dates … failed.
Probably the failure from the love stories … made me and her … become friends.
I personally totally forget about those 10 books i wrote … about love.
It represents a closed subject from my life … but Ella … was still chasing for that amazing … experience.
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But she also knew that it was useless dreaming at a certain place … or meeting a certain type of profile.
She was not in the prison of those thoughts anymore.
I escaped from that prison with invisible walls. … by a long, long time … and even wanted to forget about all those 10 books i wrote about love … but … Yes … i admired my friend Ella.
I admired her … cause she finally realized that for an amazing vibe … it’s not about a certain place or a person … but about the connection we could have with that scene of life … no matter what that would mean. We could be … and feel just … great …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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We become so often the prisoners of circumstances that we once … loved.
David is a friend of mine from Australia.
I already know him by more than 3-4 years … and sometimes we spend time together talking about … life. My life … his life … but also life … in general.
He recently wrote … explaining to me that he does not feel good anymore in his group of friends.
All of them were new people that he met this year … and he even told me … not so long time ago …. that he enjoys spending his time with them.
But you see … the same David … 6 months later he tells me that he does not like … to stay with them anymore. He even mentioned that he dislikes it … a lot.
And i said … “David! It’s a little bit weird!
Don’t you think so?!
After 6 month you tell me something … totally contradictory.
Does not make any sense at all … what you tell me.”
Same persons.
Same scene.
Nothing really changed into this scenario … but David is not feeling good with his friends anymore.
And what he is trying to tell me … even if he is not finding the proper words …is that he is not feeling good anymore … into an energetic field that he once liked a lot.
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So i continued asking him …”David …. what do you think it’s
the message behind the message?!
What can you do regarding that?!
Why do you still stay with them … if you don’t like it anymore?!
In the end it’s a nonsense to stay with them if you don’t like it.
Why do you feel trapped like a prisoner in there?!
We play around with the questions … but we can’t still define
the situation.”
“Well … Gabriel!
Maybe i changed.
Maybe i became a different person.
Maybe i realized i don’t have the same values as they do … but still … i wanted to be part of a close group of friends. Maybe i was pretending i was not seeing how they really are
preferring to just know that i have someone to spend time with …”
“But … David …. It’s better to be alone … than being in the wrong company.
Imagine you have a group of friends that are alcoholics …. and you spend your time with them.
What do you think you’ll become in the end?!
So … if you spend lots of time with people not having the right values for you … what do you think will happen to you into the end?!
Will you be strong enough to be able to redefine their values
or they will redefine you?!
What you actually don’t like at them?!
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Why you feel like a prisoner … but in the same time i see you also as the guardian that is watching as you … not to leave that energetic field?!
What really changed into this 6 months?!”
I was walking on the streets of my city … and asked myself … what is the real truth in David’s case?!
Somehow he really was today the prisoner of some circumstances from his past … circumstances that he used to
love not so long time ago. Maybe David changed.
Maybe he is on another frequency level that has nothing to do with his so called … friends.
He cannot stand that energy of the group … but the old David is not letting him leave.
So he became kind of a hybrid being … a mix of the old and the new … David.
You see … i am trying to define the nonsense … but maybe it’s not a nonsense.
Being a prisoner … but also the guardian it’s part of this game … which we name … the process of real change. It’s kind of a battle.
The prisoner wants to become free … but the guardian is not letting him do that.
Analyzing and defining David’s case … i’ve asked myself … on million times …. what if i am like him?!
What if he is actually a reflection of me …. carrying a coded message … for my own being?!
But maybe same as David … i know to analyze and define … but never really know to redefine myself …. and i remain captive into my past … in that cell that the old me … worked
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so much to build.
And i continue life … pretending i am changed … but still being connected with my old self …. which by the way … i dislike a lot.
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Truth be told we stay in ugly stories … cause we don’t have the guts to dream at other scenarios.
And life continues into an ugly way
… on and on and on.
I see lots of u happy people … everywhere around me. Also my connections from social media put me in contact with people from all around the world …. and i found the
same scenario everywhere … It’s what we call … unhappiness.
Today i would define this weird concept …. as a disease.
A disease much more difficult … than cancer.
A disease … like an incurable virus …. that you can get from
the people around yourself.
But why people decided to stay in unhappiness?! And why when they become conscious about their unhappiness … why they accept it?! Why they don’t try to get rid of it?
Why unhappiness became … kind of a prison?!
A prison from where it looks … so impossible to get out ….
So what keeps us prisoners there?!
Why we can’t decide to get rid of those ugly stories?! Why we can’t simple decide to define those feelings … analyze them … so that in the end to redefine everything?!
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Why those thoughts, feelings and ugly emotions keep us captive into a world which we totally dislike?!
What is the secret that could help us to solve this issue of escaping from this weird prison with invisible walls?! So … defining?!
Analyzing?!
and then … redefine all?! Hmm … is it so damn simple?!
Why we let life continue … on and on and on like that … if we dislike unhappiness?!
Well… i personally asked myself that for so, so many years in a row.
The only conclusion came into my mind … was that i lost my ability to dream.
to dream at other stories.
at … beautiful scenarios for my life.
I just let my soul be dominated by … the ugly circumstances ….
Dreaming is not even an option which i could consider …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Prisoner of a love story …. he discovers in
the end that he can be in a love story with everyone and everything from
the scene of his life.
And he became … a free man … again.
James is a friend of mine from South Africa.
For an unknown reason … lots of people from this far away country read my books.
But … this is how i’ve connected with James.
He wrote me 2- 3 years ago … telling me about something that looked like an amazing love story … but … ended feeling himself trapped into … what he defined as … a prison with invisible walls.
He somehow felt that lost the control … over himself … and totally disliked that.
For a while .. the love story was amazing.
But later … feeling himself as a prisoner … he started to meditate more and more of why he stays in such a story … if his mind and soul is balancing all the time between feeling amazing and horrible.
And this balance of contradictory emotions made him feel
ruined …. emotionally.
and probably Paul had such open views about anything … cause he saw that the investments into things that bring joy to the soul … are great investments.
Brian was thinking …. listening to us.
He was somehow in his perceptions …. between me and Paul
balancing between paying and not paying so huge prices for amazing vibes.
Our talk become in the end … a spectrum of contradictory ideas … and probably Brian became more confused. Maybe even me and Paul … analyzing and defining the subject … influenced too much each other.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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But i was in a hurry and had to leave from the coffee shop … so i shaked hands with the 2 of them …. smiled … and say …
“ Listen … don’t get me wrong … i agree about the theory that a vacation to an amazing place helps our vibe a lot … but i just don’t want to pay those huge prices.
So … i want …. but i don’t want ….
Maybe till next time when we meet …. I’ll come with a new theory …. or change my limited perceptions.”
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
18
I WAS THE PRISONER … BUT ALSO THE GUARDIAN
philosophical essays
The opposite of
chaos is … stillness
I was at the coffee shop … but this time near the sea, in a town from northern Greece.
The fire from my house … which happened one day before ….
totally ruined my day … but looking at the sea i started to remember again of Infinite … and of the tremendous powers of the Universe.
I knew that 20 years ago …. I had nothing … and now i have
lots of real estate properties … and that was only because the Universe allowed and wanted as this to happen.
It was the second accident like that … which happened in a very weird way … making me wonder what the hell is this ….
nonsense …. and why it destroys one more time my
optimism.
But the vibe of the place where i was … was amazing.
It was a town … not so well known … but the right place to give me a great vibe … and make my soul disconnect from the weird energies from the scene of the real life … from home.
And i knew the Universe guided me there … just to relax a little bit.
So … i started to film my coffee … but suddenly realized that across the street 2 policemen brought 2 prisoners.
The beautiful building near the coffee shop … was actually a
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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court room …. and those guys went to see the judge.
Most probably they did something illegally and police arrested them for that.
I could be arrested too if in that fire from the house … the tenants would have died.
So … comparing with those guys … i was lucky.
The Universe allowed them to be arrested so that they learn a life lesson …. but for me … i just had to pay some money to fix the damages.
All looked really bad … but not so bad as the situation of those 2 arrested men from across the street.
And still … the main advantages of those guys … is that they stoped… in whatever they were doing.
Most probably …. I will not stop.
I will continue my chaotic life which is going to generate more and more … bad things into my life.
I still don’t understand that the opposite of chaos is … stillness.
20 minutes later the guys got back to the car.
Probably the judge did not released them.
They were still prisoners … with the guardians near them. I had the illusion i am a free person …. but i’m actually the prisoner of that terrible chaos generated by my desires.
But for the moment … still nothing stops me.
So … who the hell is in a better position?!
Me …. the prisoner of chaos … or those guys that were
arrested?!
Well … i am sure karma … will probably teach me soon … that the opposite of chaos is … the stillness ….
So … too bad … cause i can’t understand the signs.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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philosophical essays
Wherever i would be … it will all be the same.
I tried to change the places … so, so many
times … but … it was just … useless. The only update i need to do is the one for a better connection with my soul.
Ella is a dear friend of mine from South Africa.
She writes me from time to time … talking about love stories. Long time before … i wrote about 10 books about love … and she still believes i’m kind of a guru into relationships, when in fact i’m just kind of a writer that wrote stories about his failure …
But all the talks we have … helped me a lot in understanding the feminine philosophy.
I would even dare to say that i became a better writer because … of her.
For example … recently she wrote me about Jim … a guy that she met on a dating app.
He looked like a very nice guy … but you see … Ella had enough of making plans with those guys from the internet. It the beginning … it was all different. She believed in those ... dates.
But today … no.
Not anymore.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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She would like to simple date …. make absolutely no plan …
and not even choose a certain place to go.
Just meet in one point on the street, walk … decide together a coffee shop or a restaurant ... or if she thinks it’s a good connection .. she would even like to jump into the car … and go … another city … in a short trip.
You see … Ella went over the years to many exotic destinations … but that did not really touched her soul. She most probably had enough … pretending that she can still believe the fact that a place can change … anything. She came to a point …. when she feels that she wants more a change … deep inside her soul.
Probably felt being a prisoner of this game of dating … with so, so many guys that were not able to touch her soul. Believing a certain place will change her vibe into an amazing way … was useless today in her opinion.
She came to a point where she was chasing for a mix of an amazing place in the company of an amazing person. But all based on … spontaneity.
No more plans.
She was not believing in the power of … the plans.
That was in her opinion a … false way of living.
All her dates … failed.
Probably the failure from the love stories … made me and her … become friends.
I personally totally forget about those 10 books i wrote … about love.
It represents a closed subject from my life … but Ella … was still chasing for that amazing … experience.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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philosophical essays
But she also knew that it was useless dreaming at a certain place … or meeting a certain type of profile.
She was not in the prison of those thoughts anymore.
I escaped from that prison with invisible walls. … by a long, long time … and even wanted to forget about all those 10 books i wrote about love … but … Yes … i admired my friend Ella.
I admired her … cause she finally realized that for an amazing vibe … it’s not about a certain place or a person … but about the connection we could have with that scene of life … no matter what that would mean. We could be … and feel just … great …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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We become so often the prisoners of circumstances that we once … loved.
David is a friend of mine from Australia.
I already know him by more than 3-4 years … and sometimes we spend time together talking about … life. My life … his life … but also life … in general.
He recently wrote … explaining to me that he does not feel good anymore in his group of friends.
All of them were new people that he met this year … and he even told me … not so long time ago …. that he enjoys spending his time with them.
But you see … the same David … 6 months later he tells me that he does not like … to stay with them anymore. He even mentioned that he dislikes it … a lot.
And i said … “David! It’s a little bit weird!
Don’t you think so?!
After 6 month you tell me something … totally contradictory.
Does not make any sense at all … what you tell me.”
Same persons.
Same scene.
Nothing really changed into this scenario … but David is not feeling good with his friends anymore.
And what he is trying to tell me … even if he is not finding the proper words …is that he is not feeling good anymore … into an energetic field that he once liked a lot.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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So i continued asking him …”David …. what do you think it’s
the message behind the message?!
What can you do regarding that?!
Why do you still stay with them … if you don’t like it anymore?!
In the end it’s a nonsense to stay with them if you don’t like it.
Why do you feel trapped like a prisoner in there?!
We play around with the questions … but we can’t still define
the situation.”
“Well … Gabriel!
Maybe i changed.
Maybe i became a different person.
Maybe i realized i don’t have the same values as they do … but still … i wanted to be part of a close group of friends. Maybe i was pretending i was not seeing how they really are
preferring to just know that i have someone to spend time with …”
“But … David …. It’s better to be alone … than being in the wrong company.
Imagine you have a group of friends that are alcoholics …. and you spend your time with them.
What do you think you’ll become in the end?!
So … if you spend lots of time with people not having the right values for you … what do you think will happen to you into the end?!
Will you be strong enough to be able to redefine their values
or they will redefine you?!
What you actually don’t like at them?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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philosophical essays
Why you feel like a prisoner … but in the same time i see you also as the guardian that is watching as you … not to leave that energetic field?!
What really changed into this 6 months?!”
I was walking on the streets of my city … and asked myself … what is the real truth in David’s case?!
Somehow he really was today the prisoner of some circumstances from his past … circumstances that he used to
love not so long time ago. Maybe David changed.
Maybe he is on another frequency level that has nothing to do with his so called … friends.
He cannot stand that energy of the group … but the old David is not letting him leave.
So he became kind of a hybrid being … a mix of the old and the new … David.
You see … i am trying to define the nonsense … but maybe it’s not a nonsense.
Being a prisoner … but also the guardian it’s part of this game … which we name … the process of real change. It’s kind of a battle.
The prisoner wants to become free … but the guardian is not letting him do that.
Analyzing and defining David’s case … i’ve asked myself … on million times …. what if i am like him?!
What if he is actually a reflection of me …. carrying a coded message … for my own being?!
But maybe same as David … i know to analyze and define … but never really know to redefine myself …. and i remain captive into my past … in that cell that the old me … worked
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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so much to build.
And i continue life … pretending i am changed … but still being connected with my old self …. which by the way … i dislike a lot.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
27
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philosophical essays
Truth be told we stay in ugly stories … cause we don’t have the guts to dream at other scenarios.
And life continues into an ugly way
… on and on and on.
I see lots of u happy people … everywhere around me. Also my connections from social media put me in contact with people from all around the world …. and i found the
same scenario everywhere … It’s what we call … unhappiness.
Today i would define this weird concept …. as a disease.
A disease much more difficult … than cancer.
A disease … like an incurable virus …. that you can get from
the people around yourself.
But why people decided to stay in unhappiness?! And why when they become conscious about their unhappiness … why they accept it?! Why they don’t try to get rid of it?
Why unhappiness became … kind of a prison?!
A prison from where it looks … so impossible to get out ….
So what keeps us prisoners there?!
Why we can’t decide to get rid of those ugly stories?! Why we can’t simple decide to define those feelings … analyze them … so that in the end to redefine everything?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
28
I WAS THE PRISONER … BUT ALSO THE GUARDIAN
philosophical essays
Why those thoughts, feelings and ugly emotions keep us captive into a world which we totally dislike?!
What is the secret that could help us to solve this issue of escaping from this weird prison with invisible walls?! So … defining?!
Analyzing?!
and then … redefine all?! Hmm … is it so damn simple?!
Why we let life continue … on and on and on like that … if we dislike unhappiness?!
Well… i personally asked myself that for so, so many years in a row.
The only conclusion came into my mind … was that i lost my ability to dream.
to dream at other stories.
at … beautiful scenarios for my life.
I just let my soul be dominated by … the ugly circumstances ….
Dreaming is not even an option which i could consider …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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philosophical essays
Prisoner of a love story …. he discovers in
the end that he can be in a love story with everyone and everything from
the scene of his life.
And he became … a free man … again.
James is a friend of mine from South Africa.
For an unknown reason … lots of people from this far away country read my books.
But … this is how i’ve connected with James.
He wrote me 2- 3 years ago … telling me about something that looked like an amazing love story … but … ended feeling himself trapped into … what he defined as … a prison with invisible walls.
He somehow felt that lost the control … over himself … and totally disliked that.
For a while .. the love story was amazing.
But later … feeling himself as a prisoner … he started to meditate more and more of why he stays in such a story … if his mind and soul is balancing all the time between feeling amazing and horrible.
And this balance of contradictory emotions made him feel
ruined …. emotionally.
