defining to me so, so many details … and she appeared to me. Was kind of an … interference
Brian is a friend of mine by a long, long time.
He lives close to my house, but has also a house in the south of Greece …. where he lives most of the time.
Even if he is a married guy with 3 children … Brian is still dreaming about of a certain profile of lady that he would want to have into his life.
But what it’s really funny …. and i find it quite weird is that
every time he is defining me that perfect woman … i somehow met her on the scene of my life.
She appears from no where … and then disappears.
It’s like i am seeing some ghosts … that are a reflection of Brian’s dreams.
I actually talked so much with him about this subject …. that
more and more ladies like that are appearing to me.
It’s 100% … kind of an interference.
Maybe i could define this as an illusory karmic interference. It’s illusory … cause i don’t really believe those ladies are destined to me.
I define it as karmic … even if it looks as a nonsense … cause
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i believe i have a karmic connection with Brian … and we influence each other a lot.
And i define it as interference … cause like any man over 40
adoring my discussions with my friend … i allowed this interference with my own life.
I am aware of all that … but the question is … how many other interferences i allowed into my life into an … unconscious way?!
Hmm ….
I don’t even want to answer that question … cause i won’t probably like the answer.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
107
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
The right people appears … at the right time … but unfortunately … some of them are disappearing … even if we like it or not
I never saw in my life another person like my friend Brian … that has this chance of meeting so many people … but also enjoy to interact with all of them.
I must also say that i envy him a little bit … cause all the time i see that he is in the company of so, so many ladies. Any man at our age … would envy him.
But you see … Brian is a weird combination of introvert and extrovert … very difficult to be defined.
Today i see him introvert …. and few days later i realize he is
so .. so extrovert.
His behavior it’s a little bit illusory … but even if me and Paul talked so much about him, could not find a logical explanation for all what he is doing.
You might believe that he is probably having love affairs with all those ladies .. but hell noooo … He is just socializing with them.
I can not understand him.
Paul … either.
And none … of our friends.
How the hell … he could have so many ladies into this life … and do … nothing?!
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IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Well … maybe me and Paul were dominated by some weird perceptions that so, so many other men over 40 ... have … but still … what is the meaning of his illusory behavior?!
One day … when we were at the coffee shop … i dare to ask him … “Brian … how is it possible to have so, so many ladies around you … but actually never taste … at least one of them?!
How can you do that?!”
Brian smiled … answering … “You see … even if looks so weird
all those ladies that you see around me … don’t give me the energy i am looking for.
I dream of a certain type of connection.
But … to be honest with you … i met that lady that i dreamed so much.
She was extremely beautiful … the expression of absolute calmness … and an amazing soul.
Unfortunately … she was married.
I’ve worked with her for months … but never dared to tell her that i like her a lot.
I could see into her eyes that she likes me a lot also … but …. we never … said it …
We just let our eyes … whisper that … but not saying it … made all so unclear …
Recently she left … to another country, but before leaving she said that … it might be possible as her to come back … one more time in 1-2 months later.
She appeared at the right time … but unfortunately she was married … same as me.
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We were too shy … to say it loud that we like it.
I don’t even know if all i am saying it’s just an illusion or not
but … i still like her a lot … and can’t stop thinking of her. Last time when we talked … she replied that she does not know for sure if she will be ever coming back or not.
I smiled to her … same as i am smiling now to you … writing her back that … i let the universe decide whatever will go on
but i’d love to see her …. at least one more time.
I think … that probably … i was clear enough …” “Brian … you’re an idiot!
You could just say …. damn it … i like you … a lot!!
Why the hell … you don’t say it?
Why you don’t clarify it?!
You wait as her to disappear forever … and keep this secret for a lifetime?!
What the fuck is in your mind?!”
“Hmm! The Universe sent her to me … then she left … and now i can’t stop thinking of her.
She could be that person that i was dreaming about by such
a long … long time … but i fail connecting to her for real …
into the scene of the real life.
I am an idiot … i know.
I feel that she likes me too … but … i am afraid of saying it load.”
I laugh a little bit of my friend.
The Universe sent so many ladies into his life … and when the right one arrived … he was so afraid of telling her how much he liked her … that he lost her … maybe forever.
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IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
They probably had a karmic connection from a past life … but
still … they spoiled the chance of reconnecting for real now.
I find it a …. non sense … what they both did …. but maybe this is just an illusory perception of mine.
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IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Sometimes … it’s
all a chain reaction
John is a close friend of mine.
He’s a real estate investor … same as me.
One day … John wrote his phone number on a piece of paper
and gave it to a lady from the street … telling her that if she ever needs accommodation into his town … he can help her anytime.
Katherina … smiled … but also looked weird at him …. asking herself … how the hell … a real estate investor could not have a business card.
The funny thing is that few days later … she called him …. sending him a client … a friend of her.
But John almost refused the client … cause he had another client for that property.
Life being weird … things changed …. in the last moment …. That client of him refused … so he called Karherina’s friend. And in the end … the other lady came …
Her name was Briana.
John liked her … and they socialized a lot.
What happened next was that Briana started to bring her friends into the new building John owned close to the city center.
In one point most of his tenants were … her friends.
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I smiled with John realizing that starting from giving the telephone number to an unknown lady … in the middle of the streets … it all became a chain reaction and he reached his business on a very good level.
The building was making good money … but it was more than that.
His new tenants became his new friends.
He started to spend lots of time with them … and if you would ask me …. I could probably say that somehow he entered into a new chapter of his life.
He was speaking only about that group.
And it was only related to the reality from there.
John could not speak anymore about anything else … and even if i tried to do something to take him out from there … with our philosophical talks … everything was related with that … energetic field … where he stayed all the time.
In my opinion … i could dare to say that he became kind of a prisoner … and it was funny to see that he enjoyed that. This chain reaction that appeared after he wrote his phone number of a piece of paper … created for John a totally new reality … like a parallel universe … and i could not do anything to take him from there.
Maybe it was all something … karmic for him … and i could not do anything to interfere.
I knew that chain reactions are very, very powerful … but still …
I knew there is something going on …. that most probably
will totally redefine him … but whatever i would say … John
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was not hearing me.
He continued talking on and on and on …. just about that
reality …. and i found it so … damn … illusory.
I’ll probably write again the end of this funny story of my friend that became … like all of us … prisoner of a reality … induced by a chain reaction of events.
Today i look at him … and ask myself … what the hell is “my prison”?!
Why i see so clear the things at John … but suffer of blindness when it comes by myself?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
114
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Sometimes … karmic events are happening. They look so damn real … but we end up realizing …. It was all an illusion. … a karmic one
I wrote the book “It’s all an illusion … a karmic one” … illustrating somehow my life, but also my perception about this abstract concept called … life.
I know i am here to have some lessons.
Most of them i would dare to define as … karmic … even if i afraid of them all the time.
At the end of each karmic event … i smile all the time realizing it was all just an illusion. It’s what i name … karmic illusion.
But all the time … i’m afraid of all those moments.
I find them annoying … and difficult to stand them.
Like all the others books written by me … i dare to say that this is going to be one more unfinished book.
I stop writing on it … because i could write for many, many years in a row … and it will still be unfinished.
I’ve illustrated my perceptions … just to teach the others that
they could do the same.
It’s a process.
A process that could make us understand … once defined ….
that even if karma looks as a bitch …. It’s all just an illusion
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IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
… cause in fact … it’s more a teacher that it’s revealing us … the spiritual secrets of life.
Instead of being afraid on the scene of the real life … we should just ask ourselves … what is this karmic lesson about? What is the message behind the message?! Should we smile … like in front of an illusion?!
Or … at least stop being afraid?!
I have one million questions into my mind … about life … about the illusions … but also about karma … but maybe i should redefine the question and ask myself … what is the karmic illusion that we see on the scene of life.
I let the book unfinished … like many other things from my life … but i’d love to see it completed by others .
Could become a book of contradictory perceptions … defining the undefined … the illusion.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
116
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Thank you one more time to all the karmic characters from the scene of my life! Thank you … for annoying me!
Thank you … for driving me crazy!
Thank you … for making me lose my minds … so that in the end i could understand i was just … an idiot … believing that the karmic illusion was … real. Without all those events … i could never understand …. the illusion … of what we believe so often … it’s real.
Thank you … and fuck you … one more time!
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117
Brian is a friend of mine by a long, long time.
He lives close to my house, but has also a house in the south of Greece …. where he lives most of the time.
Even if he is a married guy with 3 children … Brian is still dreaming about of a certain profile of lady that he would want to have into his life.
But what it’s really funny …. and i find it quite weird is that
every time he is defining me that perfect woman … i somehow met her on the scene of my life.
She appears from no where … and then disappears.
It’s like i am seeing some ghosts … that are a reflection of Brian’s dreams.
I actually talked so much with him about this subject …. that
more and more ladies like that are appearing to me.
It’s 100% … kind of an interference.
Maybe i could define this as an illusory karmic interference. It’s illusory … cause i don’t really believe those ladies are destined to me.
I define it as karmic … even if it looks as a nonsense … cause
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
106
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
i believe i have a karmic connection with Brian … and we influence each other a lot.
And i define it as interference … cause like any man over 40
adoring my discussions with my friend … i allowed this interference with my own life.
I am aware of all that … but the question is … how many other interferences i allowed into my life into an … unconscious way?!
Hmm ….
I don’t even want to answer that question … cause i won’t probably like the answer.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
107
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
The right people appears … at the right time … but unfortunately … some of them are disappearing … even if we like it or not
I never saw in my life another person like my friend Brian … that has this chance of meeting so many people … but also enjoy to interact with all of them.
I must also say that i envy him a little bit … cause all the time i see that he is in the company of so, so many ladies. Any man at our age … would envy him.
But you see … Brian is a weird combination of introvert and extrovert … very difficult to be defined.
Today i see him introvert …. and few days later i realize he is
so .. so extrovert.
His behavior it’s a little bit illusory … but even if me and Paul talked so much about him, could not find a logical explanation for all what he is doing.
You might believe that he is probably having love affairs with all those ladies .. but hell noooo … He is just socializing with them.
I can not understand him.
Paul … either.
And none … of our friends.
How the hell … he could have so many ladies into this life … and do … nothing?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
108
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Well … maybe me and Paul were dominated by some weird perceptions that so, so many other men over 40 ... have … but still … what is the meaning of his illusory behavior?!
One day … when we were at the coffee shop … i dare to ask him … “Brian … how is it possible to have so, so many ladies around you … but actually never taste … at least one of them?!
How can you do that?!”
Brian smiled … answering … “You see … even if looks so weird
all those ladies that you see around me … don’t give me the energy i am looking for.
I dream of a certain type of connection.
But … to be honest with you … i met that lady that i dreamed so much.
She was extremely beautiful … the expression of absolute calmness … and an amazing soul.
Unfortunately … she was married.
I’ve worked with her for months … but never dared to tell her that i like her a lot.
I could see into her eyes that she likes me a lot also … but …. we never … said it …
We just let our eyes … whisper that … but not saying it … made all so unclear …
Recently she left … to another country, but before leaving she said that … it might be possible as her to come back … one more time in 1-2 months later.
She appeared at the right time … but unfortunately she was married … same as me.
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109
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
We were too shy … to say it loud that we like it.
I don’t even know if all i am saying it’s just an illusion or not
but … i still like her a lot … and can’t stop thinking of her. Last time when we talked … she replied that she does not know for sure if she will be ever coming back or not.
I smiled to her … same as i am smiling now to you … writing her back that … i let the universe decide whatever will go on
but i’d love to see her …. at least one more time.
I think … that probably … i was clear enough …” “Brian … you’re an idiot!
You could just say …. damn it … i like you … a lot!!
Why the hell … you don’t say it?
Why you don’t clarify it?!
You wait as her to disappear forever … and keep this secret for a lifetime?!
What the fuck is in your mind?!”
“Hmm! The Universe sent her to me … then she left … and now i can’t stop thinking of her.
She could be that person that i was dreaming about by such
a long … long time … but i fail connecting to her for real …
into the scene of the real life.
I am an idiot … i know.
I feel that she likes me too … but … i am afraid of saying it load.”
I laugh a little bit of my friend.
The Universe sent so many ladies into his life … and when the right one arrived … he was so afraid of telling her how much he liked her … that he lost her … maybe forever.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
110
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
They probably had a karmic connection from a past life … but
still … they spoiled the chance of reconnecting for real now.
I find it a …. non sense … what they both did …. but maybe this is just an illusory perception of mine.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
111
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Sometimes … it’s
all a chain reaction
John is a close friend of mine.
He’s a real estate investor … same as me.
One day … John wrote his phone number on a piece of paper
and gave it to a lady from the street … telling her that if she ever needs accommodation into his town … he can help her anytime.
Katherina … smiled … but also looked weird at him …. asking herself … how the hell … a real estate investor could not have a business card.
The funny thing is that few days later … she called him …. sending him a client … a friend of her.
But John almost refused the client … cause he had another client for that property.
Life being weird … things changed …. in the last moment …. That client of him refused … so he called Karherina’s friend. And in the end … the other lady came …
Her name was Briana.
John liked her … and they socialized a lot.
What happened next was that Briana started to bring her friends into the new building John owned close to the city center.
In one point most of his tenants were … her friends.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
112
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
I smiled with John realizing that starting from giving the telephone number to an unknown lady … in the middle of the streets … it all became a chain reaction and he reached his business on a very good level.
The building was making good money … but it was more than that.
His new tenants became his new friends.
He started to spend lots of time with them … and if you would ask me …. I could probably say that somehow he entered into a new chapter of his life.
He was speaking only about that group.
And it was only related to the reality from there.
John could not speak anymore about anything else … and even if i tried to do something to take him out from there … with our philosophical talks … everything was related with that … energetic field … where he stayed all the time.
In my opinion … i could dare to say that he became kind of a prisoner … and it was funny to see that he enjoyed that. This chain reaction that appeared after he wrote his phone number of a piece of paper … created for John a totally new reality … like a parallel universe … and i could not do anything to take him from there.
Maybe it was all something … karmic for him … and i could not do anything to interfere.
I knew that chain reactions are very, very powerful … but still …
I knew there is something going on …. that most probably
will totally redefine him … but whatever i would say … John
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113
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
was not hearing me.
He continued talking on and on and on …. just about that
reality …. and i found it so … damn … illusory.
I’ll probably write again the end of this funny story of my friend that became … like all of us … prisoner of a reality … induced by a chain reaction of events.
Today i look at him … and ask myself … what the hell is “my prison”?!
Why i see so clear the things at John … but suffer of blindness when it comes by myself?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
114
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Sometimes … karmic events are happening. They look so damn real … but we end up realizing …. It was all an illusion. … a karmic one
I wrote the book “It’s all an illusion … a karmic one” … illustrating somehow my life, but also my perception about this abstract concept called … life.
I know i am here to have some lessons.
Most of them i would dare to define as … karmic … even if i afraid of them all the time.
At the end of each karmic event … i smile all the time realizing it was all just an illusion. It’s what i name … karmic illusion.
But all the time … i’m afraid of all those moments.
I find them annoying … and difficult to stand them.
Like all the others books written by me … i dare to say that this is going to be one more unfinished book.
I stop writing on it … because i could write for many, many years in a row … and it will still be unfinished.
I’ve illustrated my perceptions … just to teach the others that
they could do the same.
It’s a process.
A process that could make us understand … once defined ….
that even if karma looks as a bitch …. It’s all just an illusion
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
115
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
… cause in fact … it’s more a teacher that it’s revealing us … the spiritual secrets of life.
Instead of being afraid on the scene of the real life … we should just ask ourselves … what is this karmic lesson about? What is the message behind the message?! Should we smile … like in front of an illusion?!
Or … at least stop being afraid?!
I have one million questions into my mind … about life … about the illusions … but also about karma … but maybe i should redefine the question and ask myself … what is the karmic illusion that we see on the scene of life.
I let the book unfinished … like many other things from my life … but i’d love to see it completed by others .
Could become a book of contradictory perceptions … defining the undefined … the illusion.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
116
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Thank you one more time to all the karmic characters from the scene of my life! Thank you … for annoying me!
Thank you … for driving me crazy!
Thank you … for making me lose my minds … so that in the end i could understand i was just … an idiot … believing that the karmic illusion was … real. Without all those events … i could never understand …. the illusion … of what we believe so often … it’s real.
Thank you … and fuck you … one more time!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
117
