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Or maybe this story …. about love is eternal.
I look into the past … deep, deep inside and i know it’s all about previous lives.
Yes … the past … looks eternal.
The future … also.
It’s like i am staying in front of … the eternity … just looking at them.
But into the same time i am balancing into my perceptions … not knowing if the concept of eternity is real or not.
And i have lots of moments of believing it’s all so damn illusory …. but looking again at the couple … realizing it’s
indeed a story about love …. I wonder myself why this story
was repeated into so, so many lives?!
Maybe this man … and this lady … did not realized yet … what a love story is about?!
So … can a love story … be karmic?!
Yes … maybe … yes.
But what is the karmic message?!
I look again at the couple.
I see the love into their eyes … and maybe the only mistake they make … is that they don’t remember the past.
They feel it … cause they had an amazing feeling from the first second they saw each other … but can’t remember anymore about those previous lives.
And the message about love is … repeated.
On and on … and on.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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The handicap of being a philosopher
is that … no matter if it is about happiness or unhappiness … you already know it’s all an illusion.
I am not a philosopher.
No …
I tried to be … but being so active on the stage of my life … i did not had the time to become a … philosopher for real. But …. I think a lot.
I analyze and define my life … all the time… so i could say … i am a …. thinker.
Yes … that’s a better definition for myself. Unfortunately… time made me realize that whatever i feel strong and real today … later on i realize it was all … illusory and just an illusory interpretation of a reality … which was not what i though it was.
And i could even say that things became worst … and worst. The idea that … it’s all an illusion and a pathless path started to dominate me.
It totally redefined my thinking and my way of interpreting life … but also made me be more a spectator of my own life. Today … no matter if bad or good things happen… i simple smile.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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I am not allowing my emotions to induce me the feelings that reality … or what i define as reality … is in fact … real.
And it’s not what i just say that it’s an illusion … but the truth
the real, real truth is that the meaning of all it’s actually to send me a karmic message so that i could actually follow better paths for my life.
A better journey for my daily life … but also a better journey for my spiritual side of my inner soul.
So … being a philosopher… or a simple thinker that believes reality it’s an illusion … it’s a handicap?!
Or … a good result of my trend of always trying to understand the present moment?!
I only smile … not really understanding if i’ve reached a point when i am actually anchored into the absolute values.
I’ve recently wrote a book called … “The illusion of being part of an illusion” … and i’ve spent lots of time asking myself if the title is a good one … or a nonsense.
But … you see … i was actually always living with the feeling that i live an illusion … so the question was … maybe it’s illusory the fact that i have such a thought?!
Is it really true that … life is an illusion?! Of this type of philosophy is just … stupid?!
Well …. so difficult to have an absolute truth, but all i knew was that i finally succeeded to disconnect from my feelings …. which were making me all the time have a silly emotional dance … that most of the time was ruing my soul.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Determination can’t help us get rid of … karmic stories
Truth be told …. it’s not so easy to see people that are very
determined in life … to get what they really want … but … when you see them … you can analyze deeper and deeper so that you can understand… this tremendous power which makes us obtain all our desires.
But i recently saw a movie … which was kind of a parody of what we name today … motivation.
A very successful lady from Los Angeles … named Sarah … married … with kids … and in fact looking like a person having all what a human being can have … was still unhappy. The only thing that gave her good vibes was the fact that she daily got more and more money.
She just loved …. seeing money coming.
On the other hand her husband was not anymore …. by years
… what she wanted from a man.
So … somehow she came into a situation when she felt that even if she had all she ever wanted … in fact … she had absolutely… nothing.
It was somehow ridiculous … but she felt that more and more often … realizing that motivation made her follow a pathless path.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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But it was more than this … cause one day this obsession of getting more money … put her into the position of having huge legal problems.
It was the first time when she started to ask herself … does it really worth to follow motivation…. and believe this is a good path for my life?!
Well …. somehow it was a little bit late for such a question …
cause her marriage was not giving her the happiness she wanted … and even contrary … and the desire of more and more money … ruined a little bit her life.
In fact … even if her life was looking from outside …. as
perfect … it was not really like that.
She started to feel that motivation … brought her … of course combined with her huge determination…. that type of perfect
life from motivational movies … but not … the happiness. She wanted that … and that … and that … and that … and that … but she forgot the essential … and the reply from the Universe came.
She forgot that the meaning of life is … probably to enjoy being here … but the long path to success induced by motivation … did not brought her anything related to … happiness.
Now … been in kind of a karmic story … all being fucked up around herself …. she finally realized … it was all useless.
All that energy spent to get the so called success … ruined her life.
She could not sleep anymore into the nights.
She could not do anything … and deep inside herself … the karmic moment from the present became stronger and stronger.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Unfortunately… determination could not save her anymore … from such a situation.
She had to redefine herself … but did not knew how. She could not accept that determination must be used to make a tremendous change … deep inside herself … and not into her reality from the outside world.
But … the Universe did not allowed her to waste her life anymore.
Tortured her mind and soul … daily … with this karmic influences … in all the areas of her life. And days were passing…
… then weeks.
then months … and the torture was bigger and bigger. She could not accept that the model of success … induced by the motivation that she studied so much …. was a pathless path.
But … no matter what she believed …. Karma was laughing behind her back … continuing the ruin of her reality … having the only real purpose to make her understand that the direction of her determination… must be totally be changed.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Honesty can get us out of … karmic stories
I’ve recently been asked if i am … a honest person.
I smiled … and gladly i even wanted to say that “yes … i am a honest person!” …. but something stopped me and i’ve replied just … “Well … “.
It was indeed so difficult to answer for such a question.
but somehow i’ve realized i was afraid of giving this answer …. to my friend.
i mean … a honest answer.
I’ve started to meditate … and i’ve seen myself balancing between say … yes and no.
Had indeed into my mind the memory of lots of moments when i’ve acted as a honest person … but also moments when i was not like that … or afraid of saying the truth … just like it was.
My life … not even into the present moment … was not looking as it should look like … but ….
And i’ve started to wonder what is the influence of honesty … and its impact into my life.
Why i’m so dominated by the duality of life and am honest … but also have moments when i am afraid to be like that?!
I could not get a real answer … that i could say to my friend
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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so i told her the real truth … “I am a honest person … but also a one that has moments when uses the trick of hiding the truth.”
I left my friend … and i’ve continued meditating.
I’ve realize that i am having the life i have today … only and only … cause i don’t define the truth about the present moment … with honesty.
Yes … i could stop myself … to avoid the truth … or maybe even redefine my whole perspective about a reality which is dominated … by lies.
cause first of all i was dishonest with myself.
In front of others …. most probably i’ve been dominated by
certain fears of not ruining certain connections with certain souls from the scene of my life … but …. why the hell i was dishonest with myself?!
Well … maybe i was afraid of losing a karmic reality which i liked and disliked into the same time.
I was probably afraid of redefining my life.
Honesty was … the key … yes … that magic key that could make me … get out of karmic scenarios … but even if i knew what i had to do … i was simple …. delaying all.
Or maybe … i was not dishonest…. but too coward to be
honest.
And the paid price … were the karmic stories which i was living.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Karmic characters don’t disappear when we want.
They just … don’t …. bother of our
opinion … or wishes …
And even if they disappear… they will reappear into another form.
Recently… it was in my power to ask someone to leave from our group.
He became impolite with many of us … especially after drinking his daily bottle of whiskey … which he adored to consume …. on and on and on.
I simple … whatsapped him … with a long message and he came to me … asking to stay one more day with us … but smiling … and said no.
Many times into my past … i had this obsession of getting rid of people which i disliked from the scene of my life … but now i was doing it cause some other people were asking me to do it.
What is funny is that i remembered the moment … when the guy came.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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He was balancing into his thoughts … not knowing if he will stay with us or not … and after asking him 3 times … what he decided … he replied just … “Maybe”.
I knew into that moment that he was going to be … karmic.
… probably for all of us.
But i’ve made so many times the mistake of fighting with those karmic characters…. that i promised myself that i’ll look
in the mirror and just say “You’re an idiot!” … if i’ll do it again.
Today … i was just smiling in front of this guy.
He was not a bad soul … but was acting as an idiot after drinking again and again … whiskey.
He was speaking ugly to all the ladies and kids around himself … and one day even told them he will kill them. Everyone was complaining to me about him … but i knew he was karmic and if i’ll get rid of him too soon … he will reappear anyway in another form. I simple let him … do his show.
He … like in any karmic story … he was doing it … on and on and on.
He … was sending a message … but nobody was hearing him. They hated him for threatening them all the time … and saying … “I will kill you!”.
And in a moment of awakening I’ve understood that he was not going to kill anyone … but he was maybe trying to redefine them …. and kill that way of being and acting on the stage of life.
Redefine their way of seeing … the ugly side of the human being.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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I let the story … simple continue … for enough time … so that everyone will see the message … but they were annoyed more and more.
They were asking me everyday … to ask him to leave … so in
the end … i just did it.
But … i smiled to him.
He was hugging some of his friends … and i even asked him if i he will hug me too as good bye … but he refused.
I started to laugh …. but what i’ve forgot to mention is that
one day before … i’ve been acting bad to him also … terrorizing him a little bit.
I was doing it … into a theatrical way … asking him … on and on … if he wants me to show him … that i am crazy too. Seeing this unseen side of myself … he got scared … and suddenly became … a good boy.
Even promised … he will start to act ok to everyone.
But … i knew deep inside myself … that all was … Karmic.
He …. was sent by the Universe … to ….
To … what?!
Hmm … i was still wondering what is going on … but realize it’s too late.
My stupid karmic friend … had been doing enough stupid things … and everyone insisted to ask him to leave … so i’ve done it.
But … i did it with love …. also explaining to people that he
will reappear into another form anyway … disguised as another man, or a woman … or even a child. And … will send … the same message.
“I’ll kill you!” … could have another connotations … but we were not seeing that.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Maybe it was all a story about … redefining ourselves … and “kill” … our perceptions.
But … maybe … we could not see … the message … which is ok … even normal for the usual blindness of the human being.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Honesty … might
be a handicap
Not so long time ago … a friend came to me … asking to help her with a good lawyer … cause she had some huge legal problems.
