I was seeing the whole picture …. but … even if all was clear
that i needed to live some experiences of life … moments which maybe would carry important life lessons for myself … i was doing all my best … to avoid as things to happen … into the way they needed to happen.
I knew that Karma will whisper me on and on and on … the same message … having the purpose of a deep … change. I knew … i need to readapt myself … and try to redefine my soul … for my own spiritual evolution … but …
Well …
Time was passing … and i was becoming an artist … in avoiding everything … to happen … the way it had to happen. The Universe … was letting me to … win.
Even … again and again …
But all the time … it was proven … that what had to happen
was happening anyway.
I was not listening … the messages.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
45
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I was pretending… i was not seeing what is going on.
But the lessons …. the repetitive messages were repeated …
on and on …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
46
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It s a new day!
Let’s enjoy it!
There is nothing else
… that we could do better!
I’ve recently felt myself … again … into a karmic story.
And it was so damn annoying to feel as a prisoner of a reality …. which i totally disliked.
I felt the energies … beyond the scene of life.
I felt … i was into … the wrong place … feeling also into the same time … i have to be there.
The concept of karmic story … i already knew by a long time
and i knew its rules … and still … i was playing stupid on the scene of life.
The feeling of being trapped into a prison with invisible walls
was … so, so difficult to endure …
I was waking up … doing the same things … everyday.
And more annoying became the fact that even if it was
Monday … or Sunday … it all looked … the same.
I was living … a repetitive daily … karmic scenario … and i was losing any hope that anything might be changed.
I felt indeed … prisoner into a prison with invisible walls … but could not visualize any way out for myself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
47
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philosophical & spiritual essays
And i was waking up .. saying … “Damn it! A new day …. It
will all be the same … again and again and again … “
In the same time … a dear friend … seeing i am unhappy and disappointed of life … was sending me daily messages … saying … “It’s a new day! Let’s enjoy it … “
Time was passing … and the quality of my life was not improving.
Yes … nothing changed.
I was living the same scenario … and all i was aware of … it was the fact that i knew it’s all karmic … cause nothing really changed or improved into my life.
Or maybe i could even say … it was worst … and worst … everyday.
But … one day … i’ve woke up and took the decision of … having … a change.
And already knowing my outside world will not change … i’ve asked myself …. what if i should actually try to redefine my
perception about …. my reality.
Accept … all what is going on.
Embrace … all those repetitive experiences.
Try to understand what the Universe is whispering me ….
And my new mantra became ….”It s a new day!
Let’s enjoy it!
There is nothing else … that i could do better!”
I was becoming conscious of the fact that i was waking up … and the next second … i’ve started to repeat … this mantra … Little by little … my reality improved …. but what was funny it
was the fact that i was realizing that not my reality needs to be improved … or totally redefined … but my perceptions
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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regarding … the karmic scene … of life.
Anything else was … irrelevant …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
49
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We can’t get rid of some of the
people from the scene of our lives … as we would want to … but we could pay a little bit of attention at the messages … they are whispering to us ….
I had lots of moments … when i wanted to totally disconnect from some persons … which were annoying me … a lot …. but
more i was trying … more i was understanding … it’s almost impossible.
Or at least not today … and not even into the near future. But i was continuing to … try get rid of those people …. not really realizing their karmic role into my life.
They were so, so … annoying.
They were … driving me so, so crazy … that i’ve started to realize that deep inside my soul … lives … a devil … which i had no idea that it existed by such a long time.
And i was keep trying to get rid of that … and of that … and that.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
50
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There were moments when i really succeeded it … but later on i’ve understood that one “deleted” person from my life … was soon replaced by another one … which was even … more and more annoying.
The story was repeated one time … 2 times … 7 times … 137 times … till i’ve realized that no matter what i was doing …. I could not get rid of a certain type of profile from my life.
The situations were … worst and worst.
Well … nothing improved … and even if the message was repeated on and on and on … all it was … useless … At least for myself …
This stupid habit of getting rid of people … was indeed useless … cause they simple reappeared into another form ….
but i was pretending i was not seeing and realizing that. But … one day … as an experiment … i tried to change … at least a little bit … my perceptions about all those karmic characters… which i believed … so strongly…. that were making my life … horrible.
I was looking at them … and ask … “What do you want from me?! Why don’t you leave me alone?! Why do you act as a ghost?!”
But again … nothing really changed.
I was only pretending… i want to find out what is going on … and why those people are into my life …
I was indeed an idiot … and even worst … I was acting like … a great idiot …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Staying away of
karmic energies … a nice trick for a better reality
I was into a restaurant… near the sea.
Close to us … was a nice playground for kids.
The atmosphere … was good … in both places.
People were enjoying the food … while also drinking a glass of wine …. and some of champagne.
The kids … were playing … allowing their parents … to relax.
All was … indeed looking like a good place for adults … but
also for kids.
I was alone.
I was drinking my coffee and i was keep asking myself ….
why my life was looking the way it was looking?!
I felt …. like many other times … probably …. like many
others …. prisoner of a reality which a totally disliked.
Suddenly…. I see at the playground… 2 girls playing together.
One of them was not allowing to the other to open a door … of a little house … from there.
I saw all what was happening … being a little bit shocked … also considering the young age of the girls …
I saw how … the older girl was enjoying the fact that the little
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
52
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
one was crying … not being allowed to open that door … and enter into the .. tiny house.
It all probably looks to many that it was just an irrelevant episode … from the scene of my life.
A nonsense … like all the other nonsenses … that i should not even bother to mention into my writings.
But analyzing more … I’ve suddenly realized that into my life there were lots of people like this girl … people which were not allowing me to open … new doors … that would take me to new realities.
The nonsense of this episode allowed me to finally understand that it’s probably time to stay away of those people.
Ignore them … as much as i could.
Disconnect from their … intentions of not allowing me to … look for new paths … for my life.
I smile … finally seeing the meaning of such an episode … and the fact that i should pay attention to all the karmic energies from my reality.
I smile … understanding …. so, so late …. that i was not wise
enough … to see the impact of karmic forces … which were dominating my scenario … which i was following.
I was smiling … cause i could not do … anything else … except to pay more attention… to all the details.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
53
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philosophical & spiritual essays
The meaning of karmic stories is usually to guide us … on the path of change.
Like many others i totally disliked … all the time …. the
karmic stories from my life.
But … you see … time made me understand that i need to accept the presence of those karmic elements into my life.
I know … i need to … experience them … so that i understand … life.
I know … these are annoying stories … but …
Today … i simple analyze… more … all what is going on. I do my best to not pretend anymore ... while talking to myself … and define the unseen truth … which the Universe is whispering me about.
But what is funny … and in fact ridiculous…. is that even if i
start to understand the meaning of all what is going on … i simple avoid the …. change i need to do.
I write as a simple person … or what is defined usually …. as
a nobody … trying first of all to understand my own life … but also to make all the others as myself …. that are following
the path of philosophy and spirituality… to realize … what is in fact the meaning of … life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
54
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philosophical & spiritual essays
Most probably the biggest mistake i do is that i call it …. my
life.
I know i should only call it … life … and to understand it as a concept … but i can’t …
I balance between trying to be a philosopher… or even a person with strong spiritual beliefs… and a … victim of the circumstances from the scene of my life.
I should simple stop … being dominated of illusory emotions that make me … strongly believe … that life is ugly. No … life is not ugly.
My own life … looks ugly.
Life itself is not ugly.
I could even say … it’s beautiful.
But refusing to accept the karmic messages whispered by the Universe … being repeated on and on and on … i come to this point when i simple refuse … the change. I know it’s time … but i delay all.
I believe i know better what i have to do.
And my karmic experiences become stronger and stronger … until a point when i totally dislike them. I fact … i hate all my karmic experiences.
I just hate them.
I could accept … all what I’ve understood in my analyzes.
I know to define life …. by a long time.
I know to make deep analyzes … but …
Well … even if i wrote the book … “Analyze. Define. Redefine”
and most probably i partially know the theory with all what i have to do … i totally ignore the concept of change. I simple … don’t want to do it.
Why?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
55
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
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Because i don’t want … and i keep ignoring all the signs … from the Universe … pretending… i am blind.
I refuse the guidance… to the path of change and even if i start pretending i’ve changed … the real truth is that … i am just a great actor.
One that is only … pretending.
And all becomes … a charade … but the Universe is smiling … and then laughing .. behind my back.
On and on and on … and i keep complaining… that i am … a victim.
…. which is … ridiculous….
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
56
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Love karmic stories … look so damn real … but are in fact only illusory connections … having a totally different purpose that we might think.
Time allowed myself to see lots of love stories.
And i also experienced… few.
Today … after writing 12-13 books about love … i’ve stoped doing it … and i only analyze and define what i see around myself.
I look at love stories which i see on the scene of my life … at
people i know by a long time … or at couples i see on the
streets … and look … in love.
I look deep…
I look into their eyes … and try to understand what i probably missed when i was in love.
Try to see … everything from outside … trying in fact to understand both of them.
their needs.
their desires.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
57
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and also the connection… which many times looks as … an illusory connection to the infinite.
I look … and i continue to analyze and define all what i see … Somehow … i see my stories … from past.
I see many of my mistakes … my desires …. my dreams …. my disillusions ….
The only thing i am aware now is that … all what i saw as a connection … into the end i’ve defined it into a contradictory way …and probably had the purpose to send me a karmic message.
And there are times … when i believe i knew the meaning of those stories … but also moments when i thought …. I don’t understand anything at all.
I even meditated …. a lot.
At that time … and even into the present moment. More and more …
I was walking on the streets … or in parks … or stayed in my favorite coffee shop and kept analyzing all the couples … that looked … being in love.
I was wondering …. how they will be in 6 months?!
but in one year from now?!
I don’t even dare to ask what will be in 3-5 years from today?!
And … still … what is the sense of those love stories … which look like nonsenses to all the ones that don’t really know what love is?!
I write …. and i still have a doubt if i know what love is about
… or not.
It’s a little bit ridiculous…. considering i’ve wrote so many
books with love essays … but …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
58
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
Recently…. I’ve started to believe that the whole meaning of
that i needed to live some experiences of life … moments which maybe would carry important life lessons for myself … i was doing all my best … to avoid as things to happen … into the way they needed to happen.
I knew that Karma will whisper me on and on and on … the same message … having the purpose of a deep … change. I knew … i need to readapt myself … and try to redefine my soul … for my own spiritual evolution … but …
Well …
Time was passing … and i was becoming an artist … in avoiding everything … to happen … the way it had to happen. The Universe … was letting me to … win.
Even … again and again …
But all the time … it was proven … that what had to happen
was happening anyway.
I was not listening … the messages.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
45
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
I was pretending… i was not seeing what is going on.
But the lessons …. the repetitive messages were repeated …
on and on …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
46
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
It s a new day!
Let’s enjoy it!
There is nothing else
… that we could do better!
I’ve recently felt myself … again … into a karmic story.
And it was so damn annoying to feel as a prisoner of a reality …. which i totally disliked.
I felt the energies … beyond the scene of life.
I felt … i was into … the wrong place … feeling also into the same time … i have to be there.
The concept of karmic story … i already knew by a long time
and i knew its rules … and still … i was playing stupid on the scene of life.
The feeling of being trapped into a prison with invisible walls
was … so, so difficult to endure …
I was waking up … doing the same things … everyday.
And more annoying became the fact that even if it was
Monday … or Sunday … it all looked … the same.
I was living … a repetitive daily … karmic scenario … and i was losing any hope that anything might be changed.
I felt indeed … prisoner into a prison with invisible walls … but could not visualize any way out for myself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
47
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
And i was waking up .. saying … “Damn it! A new day …. It
will all be the same … again and again and again … “
In the same time … a dear friend … seeing i am unhappy and disappointed of life … was sending me daily messages … saying … “It’s a new day! Let’s enjoy it … “
Time was passing … and the quality of my life was not improving.
Yes … nothing changed.
I was living the same scenario … and all i was aware of … it was the fact that i knew it’s all karmic … cause nothing really changed or improved into my life.
Or maybe i could even say … it was worst … and worst … everyday.
But … one day … i’ve woke up and took the decision of … having … a change.
And already knowing my outside world will not change … i’ve asked myself …. what if i should actually try to redefine my
perception about …. my reality.
Accept … all what is going on.
Embrace … all those repetitive experiences.
Try to understand what the Universe is whispering me ….
And my new mantra became ….”It s a new day!
Let’s enjoy it!
There is nothing else … that i could do better!”
I was becoming conscious of the fact that i was waking up … and the next second … i’ve started to repeat … this mantra … Little by little … my reality improved …. but what was funny it
was the fact that i was realizing that not my reality needs to be improved … or totally redefined … but my perceptions
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
48
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regarding … the karmic scene … of life.
Anything else was … irrelevant …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
49
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
We can’t get rid of some of the
people from the scene of our lives … as we would want to … but we could pay a little bit of attention at the messages … they are whispering to us ….
I had lots of moments … when i wanted to totally disconnect from some persons … which were annoying me … a lot …. but
more i was trying … more i was understanding … it’s almost impossible.
Or at least not today … and not even into the near future. But i was continuing to … try get rid of those people …. not really realizing their karmic role into my life.
They were so, so … annoying.
They were … driving me so, so crazy … that i’ve started to realize that deep inside my soul … lives … a devil … which i had no idea that it existed by such a long time.
And i was keep trying to get rid of that … and of that … and that.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
50
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
There were moments when i really succeeded it … but later on i’ve understood that one “deleted” person from my life … was soon replaced by another one … which was even … more and more annoying.
The story was repeated one time … 2 times … 7 times … 137 times … till i’ve realized that no matter what i was doing …. I could not get rid of a certain type of profile from my life.
The situations were … worst and worst.
Well … nothing improved … and even if the message was repeated on and on and on … all it was … useless … At least for myself …
This stupid habit of getting rid of people … was indeed useless … cause they simple reappeared into another form ….
but i was pretending i was not seeing and realizing that. But … one day … as an experiment … i tried to change … at least a little bit … my perceptions about all those karmic characters… which i believed … so strongly…. that were making my life … horrible.
I was looking at them … and ask … “What do you want from me?! Why don’t you leave me alone?! Why do you act as a ghost?!”
But again … nothing really changed.
I was only pretending… i want to find out what is going on … and why those people are into my life …
I was indeed an idiot … and even worst … I was acting like … a great idiot …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
51
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
Staying away of
karmic energies … a nice trick for a better reality
I was into a restaurant… near the sea.
Close to us … was a nice playground for kids.
The atmosphere … was good … in both places.
People were enjoying the food … while also drinking a glass of wine …. and some of champagne.
The kids … were playing … allowing their parents … to relax.
All was … indeed looking like a good place for adults … but
also for kids.
I was alone.
I was drinking my coffee and i was keep asking myself ….
why my life was looking the way it was looking?!
I felt …. like many other times … probably …. like many
others …. prisoner of a reality which a totally disliked.
Suddenly…. I see at the playground… 2 girls playing together.
One of them was not allowing to the other to open a door … of a little house … from there.
I saw all what was happening … being a little bit shocked … also considering the young age of the girls …
I saw how … the older girl was enjoying the fact that the little
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
52
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
one was crying … not being allowed to open that door … and enter into the .. tiny house.
It all probably looks to many that it was just an irrelevant episode … from the scene of my life.
A nonsense … like all the other nonsenses … that i should not even bother to mention into my writings.
But analyzing more … I’ve suddenly realized that into my life there were lots of people like this girl … people which were not allowing me to open … new doors … that would take me to new realities.
The nonsense of this episode allowed me to finally understand that it’s probably time to stay away of those people.
Ignore them … as much as i could.
Disconnect from their … intentions of not allowing me to … look for new paths … for my life.
I smile … finally seeing the meaning of such an episode … and the fact that i should pay attention to all the karmic energies from my reality.
I smile … understanding …. so, so late …. that i was not wise
enough … to see the impact of karmic forces … which were dominating my scenario … which i was following.
I was smiling … cause i could not do … anything else … except to pay more attention… to all the details.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
53
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
The meaning of karmic stories is usually to guide us … on the path of change.
Like many others i totally disliked … all the time …. the
karmic stories from my life.
But … you see … time made me understand that i need to accept the presence of those karmic elements into my life.
I know … i need to … experience them … so that i understand … life.
I know … these are annoying stories … but …
Today … i simple analyze… more … all what is going on. I do my best to not pretend anymore ... while talking to myself … and define the unseen truth … which the Universe is whispering me about.
But what is funny … and in fact ridiculous…. is that even if i
start to understand the meaning of all what is going on … i simple avoid the …. change i need to do.
I write as a simple person … or what is defined usually …. as
a nobody … trying first of all to understand my own life … but also to make all the others as myself …. that are following
the path of philosophy and spirituality… to realize … what is in fact the meaning of … life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
54
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
Most probably the biggest mistake i do is that i call it …. my
life.
I know i should only call it … life … and to understand it as a concept … but i can’t …
I balance between trying to be a philosopher… or even a person with strong spiritual beliefs… and a … victim of the circumstances from the scene of my life.
I should simple stop … being dominated of illusory emotions that make me … strongly believe … that life is ugly. No … life is not ugly.
My own life … looks ugly.
Life itself is not ugly.
I could even say … it’s beautiful.
But refusing to accept the karmic messages whispered by the Universe … being repeated on and on and on … i come to this point when i simple refuse … the change. I know it’s time … but i delay all.
I believe i know better what i have to do.
And my karmic experiences become stronger and stronger … until a point when i totally dislike them. I fact … i hate all my karmic experiences.
I just hate them.
I could accept … all what I’ve understood in my analyzes.
I know to define life …. by a long time.
I know to make deep analyzes … but …
Well … even if i wrote the book … “Analyze. Define. Redefine”
and most probably i partially know the theory with all what i have to do … i totally ignore the concept of change. I simple … don’t want to do it.
Why?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
55
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
Because i don’t want … and i keep ignoring all the signs … from the Universe … pretending… i am blind.
I refuse the guidance… to the path of change and even if i start pretending i’ve changed … the real truth is that … i am just a great actor.
One that is only … pretending.
And all becomes … a charade … but the Universe is smiling … and then laughing .. behind my back.
On and on and on … and i keep complaining… that i am … a victim.
…. which is … ridiculous….
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
56
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
Love karmic stories … look so damn real … but are in fact only illusory connections … having a totally different purpose that we might think.
Time allowed myself to see lots of love stories.
And i also experienced… few.
Today … after writing 12-13 books about love … i’ve stoped doing it … and i only analyze and define what i see around myself.
I look at love stories which i see on the scene of my life … at
people i know by a long time … or at couples i see on the
streets … and look … in love.
I look deep…
I look into their eyes … and try to understand what i probably missed when i was in love.
Try to see … everything from outside … trying in fact to understand both of them.
their needs.
their desires.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
57
KARMIC ENERGIES … SEEN AS INFLUENCES THAT ARE REDEFINING OUR LIVES
philosophical & spiritual essays
and also the connection… which many times looks as … an illusory connection to the infinite.
I look … and i continue to analyze and define all what i see … Somehow … i see my stories … from past.
I see many of my mistakes … my desires …. my dreams …. my disillusions ….
The only thing i am aware now is that … all what i saw as a connection … into the end i’ve defined it into a contradictory way …and probably had the purpose to send me a karmic message.
And there are times … when i believe i knew the meaning of those stories … but also moments when i thought …. I don’t understand anything at all.
I even meditated …. a lot.
At that time … and even into the present moment. More and more …
I was walking on the streets … or in parks … or stayed in my favorite coffee shop and kept analyzing all the couples … that looked … being in love.
I was wondering …. how they will be in 6 months?!
but in one year from now?!
I don’t even dare to ask what will be in 3-5 years from today?!
And … still … what is the sense of those love stories … which look like nonsenses to all the ones that don’t really know what love is?!
I write …. and i still have a doubt if i know what love is about
… or not.
It’s a little bit ridiculous…. considering i’ve wrote so many
books with love essays … but …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
58
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philosophical & spiritual essays
Recently…. I’ve started to believe that the whole meaning of
