But the ruin is just something that reminds us of the past ... not an architectural monument ... and somehow is the same case in a love
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story.
So ... can the castle be rebuild on the foundation of that ruin?! Could they start again ... from the disaster of the present moment ...
just remembering the beauty of those gorgeous moments spent together?!
Well ... they could not see the way of doing it ... but just closing the eyes ... they saw each other embracing, kissing ... touching ... being again a couple .... one from a fairy tale.
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She feels you all the time ...
She looks you everywhere ...
And she guess ...
You are also feel the
same at the same time ...
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Life is too beautiful to
spend it in a chat room
She was so beautiful.
Her look hypnotized him all the time.
Her touch made him lose his mind.
Just looking at her body, he was imagining so, so many things.
Her vibe was great.
But ... she also loved him ... even a lot.
The only problem is that their story was possible only in special conditions and not so often as they wanted.
She was a prisoner and he needed to learn how to act in a relationship with someone that is trapped in a prison for life.
Many times ... they could use only the chat ... and nothing more, but he wanted her so much.
He wanted to smell her perfume, he wanted to touch her ... to feel her ... in fact to feel the infinite again. But he needed to wait ... too much.
He supposed in fact to wait for a lifetime, but the options were quite simple ... have simple relationships ... with no meaning at all ... or have the absolute connection, but wait for her.
The Universe was laughing of him, cause was sending what he asked for ... but she was a prisoner.
It was too tough for him just to silently wait in the chat room ... staying in there for hours, just waiting as one day to see her for few
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minutes.
He started to hate that chat room ... hated it from all his heart ... but the chat room was the only option to remain together. The things were clear.
He could accept the fact that life is too beautiful to remain trapped in a chat room ... but go to a non sense direction, or stay with her in those conditions ... and go in a direction that they have no idea about.
They needed to wait ... to accept life just as it is ... living with no expectations at all ... and hope that one day things will be beautiful again.
In love with a prisoner ... dreaming about freedom and the wisdom to know at the next chance how to enjoy an amazing opportunity.
He had in fact ... no option ... cause he loved her too much. #adriangdumitru
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You knw what??
He achieves so much ...
He becomed my universe ...
Center of my thoughts ...
Subject in my poems ...
Also masterpiece in my art work ...
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Sexuality ... the key for
an amazing relationship
Napoleon Hill used to say ... “You either control your mind or it controls you” ... but i wonder myself what is going on with the other half of our spirit ... the heart.
What is really going on when you actually lose control over the reactions of the heart?!
Which one is actually much difficult to be mastered ... the mind or the heart?!
What means to be tough?!
To control one of them?!
Or both?!
But ... what is really happening when you lose control on both of them?!
The mind, which is rational could say ... go to the right and the heart could say ... go to the left.
Well ... i have 2 friends ... a couple ... that makes me laugh all the times with their reactions.
They broke up one million times and even made an agreement between the 2 of them to cut the energetic cords that connected their hearts ... just as the amazing ... but also impossible connection to be closed.
All ... it was a non ending story .. a non sense balance ... “I hate
you!” versus “I love you”.
The show ... had no end.
But the Universe was laughing of them ... on and on and on.
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The love story ... that fairy tale that they wanted so much ... became an impossible love story ... trapped in an parallel universe where time did not existed anymore.
So ... prisoners into the fairy tale, but also into a reality defined by some strange rules that could not allow them be together for real ... there was just one escape ... enjoy the love story.
After millions of plans ... thousands of hours of talking and thinking ... only one thing was clear ... not all the paths goes into the directions that we know about.
There were only 2 things to do ... talking for hours and define the power of the sexuality they had together ... the one that make everything be so amazing.
They became ... somehow ... the prisoners of this world of sexuality ... but they did not regret anything.
Before the one million plans ... sexuality was on an amazing level.
After failing to all the one million plans ... sexuality was even better.
So .... the meaning of the path?!
Let’s say ... enjoying the connection ... not caring about anything else!
Life is too short to spend so much time thinking ...
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She takes the steps …
No matter how little ...
She clams ....she choose to hold on ...
Something will come in her life ...
She wants ...
She adores ...
She loves ...
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We are totally dominated
by our own desires
We live a life that we name ... ours.
But my question is ... are those really our lives?! ... or is just something totally dominated ... by the desires from inside of us?! Can we actually identity us so much with those desires?!
Is the human spirit the same thing with this illusory need of having the desires accomplished?!
The definition of what the desire is .... should be ... a strong feeling of
wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen. But i could almost say, from my life experience, that the term desire is almost the same with the term ... obsession ... in many of the occasions.
And the funny thing is that there is a point where we start to even have contradictory desires.
Is the case of a love story, when people start to act in a weird way ...
having an unwanted balance between being or not being with that person.
So ... is even worst.
The individual, being in love ... totally loses the control on himself and becomes ... dominated by contradictory desires.
The result ... well ... a total mess and we have no idea where all of those are going to take us.
But being in total control of all those emotions ... we end un ... being
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metamorphosed into ... lost souls ... walking on a pathless path or at least a path ... that we have no ideea where it will take us. Actually the waves of the desires ... mixed with the destiny itself ...
creates an abstract cocktail ... but while drinking it ... can’t even define if it is a good taste or not.
And ... life goes on ... but remaining the prisoners of our thoughts ... #adriangdumitru
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I feel just empty inside ...
I no longer care about anything ...
I made bad decisions always ...
Infect, i'm failure ...
I'm fail in love with myself ...
I'm just always going with flaws ...
Feeling empty … inside
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“I miss you a lot, but i don’t want you back in my life! Never again!”
He was just ... leaving.
Always abstract ... he was very difficult to be understood ... but somehow she was feeling his soul all the time.
He was in love with her and she was having the infinite while being in his arms.
It was the perfect love story.
It was like someone wrote the script ... thinking at all the best
elements of a love story.
It was a real magic.
But soon ... they realized is just a fairy tale and fairy tales can happen only in parallel universes, not in the real life. Reality ... was different.
And as the love story to continue ... they had to do lots of compromises ... even unacceptable ones.
They were thinking all the time ... how could they live in the paradise?!
Well ... they could do it only from time to time, only if they were
paying a huge price ... the one of unacceptable compromises.
He thought a lot.
She did the same.
Refused to meet ... then both asked to meet one more time ... the
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final date.
They missed each other too much ... to just stop being lovers. Later on ... tries to explain that even if he loves her so much ... and misses her a lot ... he doesn’t want her back in his life. She agrees ... while crying in her inner soul.
She cried too many times ... not understanding where it actually
takes this love story of them.
It was the end ... of the end.
But ... maybe tomorrow ... “Never again!” ... will be metamorphosed into ... “Let’s do it one more time ... the last time”.
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No situation in this life is perfect.
But Allah promises us this: “with every one hardship, He will give us many reasons to find ease.” Every test comes with gifts.
And every gift comes with tests. See the gifts, and we will find ease. See the Giver, and we will pass our tests.
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Awakening can be obtained
at the end of the love story
Meaning of life is probably to understand what is defined as illusion ...
the illusion of life.
But is too difficult to understand the concept if you are not a buddhist monk ... or at least a priest.
For all the others ... the rest of us ... there is still one chance to understand the illusion.
Without realising ... there are moments in life when it happens that we ... fall in love.
Sometimes of the most unexpected person.
But we fall in love ... and the emotions just overwhelm us ... in such a strange way ... that we actually don’t even understand what is really going on.
Before falling in love, we see everything in a logical way ... but after that moment ... we just lose control on everything ... including us. Is almost no way out and all we think about is just about the connection with that person ... the love story itself.
People will start to not recognize us ... not understanding what is really going on ... but we are lost in a labyrinth ... the one of love. And we stay in that state ... defined by us as the absolute state ... for days, weeks or even months.
But ... one day ... the magic just disappears.
We somehow ... wake up.
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At the end ... we realize it was all an illusion.
We were in love ... and adored that person more than a human being can adore God.
We can’t believe we were so blinds.
We thought we saw the perfection ... but we were only blinds at so, so many details.
Before the illusion ... we did not believed in the concept of illusion, but after the illusion ... we realize that the love story .... that fairy tale ... was the illusion of our lives.
It was amazing ... but it was an illusion.
The story ended ... we wake up ... and believe that we even achieved the awakening.
Not even for a second ... think of the hypothesis that the whole life is an illusion and the meaning of the love story was to define the concept of life ... lived as an illusion.
We wake up ... but we are still in a dream.
Life continues ... and we totally forget what was going on.
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I don’t feel ...
I don’t feel you love
me anymore ...
I don’t feel you love me ...
I don’t feel you love ...
don’t feel you...
I don’t ... i don’t
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