Instead of being wise ... and really get rid of her ... i decided to let myself overwhelmed by negative emotions and remained trapped in a totally non sense war.
... and i am sure that many of us ... do the same silly mistake i was doing.
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Some scenarios are happening simple because of ... interferences ... but still ... maybe we need them ... as experiences
It says that if you are a not a wealthy person, but you’d love to be like that ... the best scenario should be to start spending time with wealthy people ... and the energy of abundance will come to you.
The opposite example is ... spend time with negative people .... and unfortunately your life will be fulfilled with negative energies.
But i think you all knew that.
What i wanted to ask you ... was .... what if we will actually
start to manifest ... things that we did not thought about ....
or to be more clear ... the desires of the people from the timeline of our lives will be revealed to us ... even if we liked it or not?!
We should look beyond reality ... and dare to ask this question.
And how we actually deal with that?!
Imagine your closest friend dreams all his life to win to the lottery and one day you win ... one million dollars.
Or your cousin, that you spent all your childhood together ...
and you are also close friends ... even today .... wants a
certain profile of lady ... as a love story ... and even if that is not in your area of interest ... you end up falling in love with
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such an amazing lady. How do we explain that?! Interferences of the law of attraction?! ... or a mistake made by the Universe?!
Or simple ... a nonsense?!
Well ... is hard to really understand ... and usually in philosophy and spirituality all we explain about a certain subject is just a perception .... but truth be told ... any
interaction between human beings means exchange of energy.
And dreams ... are potential energy ... so what we do is ....
absorb in an unconscious way ... desires that are not ours.
In the end ... our lives ... becomes an illogical scenario ... difficult to be understood ... but maybe is time to ask ourselves ... is this my desire?! Is this really my dream?! ....
or i just like something ... because i heard so many times the story .... that i actually manifested that in my life.
... or maybe we were simple initiated into the concept ... because we had to follow that path also. ... but who the hell knows the real truth?!
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I was watching the show ... but i suddenly realized i am also on the scene ... and i am the one that wrote the script
During my lifetime i was arguing with lots ... lots .... lots of
people.
Is like i have a handicap regarding this issue, or i simple love to practice ... arguing ... as a way of communicating to people.
The bad part of my nonsense story is that i always understood that is wrong to do that ... but i was still doing it. And the lesson itself kept appearing to me ... on and on and on.
I knew the theory.
I knew all what i have to do ... but i failed in so many of the occasions.
It was simple ridiculous.
I knew that i should simple become a witness on the stage of my life ... but somehow ... maybe ... i just loved to be ... the actor.
Maybe i loved as .... life to be much interesting ... and i was
seeing harmony as something ... boring.
... everyday became ... a show ... and i suddenly realized that i’m am on the scene as an actor .... but i am also the one that wrote the script of the show.
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I was the actor .... but also the scenarist.
... an un talented actor.
.... and a crazy scenarist.
But my whole life was a total mess ... and indeed everyday was ... a show.
I was wondering ... how could i be so idiot to act this way?! I was actually practicing the nonsense ... as an art.
And even if i knew that all i see in the real life is just a reflection of my inner world ... still ... i was acting ... the same way ... everyday.
So .... let me present myself ... one more time ... i am a
scenarist ... of silly scenarios ... and if you want a crazy
life ... just contact me anytime you want ... and i can counsel you how to not have a boring life.
It will be an amazing ... journey for a while ... until you’ll get crazy.
At least this is what i feel that happened to me.
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Sometimes in life ... only a sorcerer can save you
New York
1984
Paul and Brian were 2 brothers ... living in the amazing urban jungle from Manhattan.
Both of them were successful businessmen ... but totally different styles.
One day Brian is called at IRS and accused by fraud.
The next day he is also called to Police and accused by few other more things.
Everything was related to a very old business and he could not believe that after so many years ... IRS and Police found out those details.
He goes to Paul, tells him the story ... and ask for an advice ... to get out of this ugly story.
Paul smiles ... “Listen ... i will give you a lawyer ... but is almost useless.
They have all the details.
You just have ... no chance.
But ... i can send you to a ... great Sorcerer. He will most probably solve your problem.” Brian becomes ... angry. “It’s ridiculous!
It’s a total nonsense what you are saying!
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How the hell can help me a sorcerer?!”
“Well ... you like it or not ... that is your only option. Just think about it!”
In the end ... Brian goes to the Sorcerer, but also to the lawyer.
Few months later ... Paul has a problem and is called to court by one of his client.
He goes to the trial alone.
After he goes our from the court ... Brian is calling.
“Tell me!
How was it?!”
“Well ... i’ve been alone ... most probably it looks like i have no chance to win ... but i will win.
I’ve been into the court without a lawyer ... but why should i pay a lawyer ... if i have a Sorcerer?!”
“You’ve been to a court in Manhattan ... without a lawyer, believing that the help from the Sorcerer will help you?! It’s a nonsense ... what you are saying”
Then ... everyday ... Brian was calling Paul asking details about the trial.
One day ... being annoyed ... Paul calls the Sorcerer:
“Listen ... to me!
This silly idiot is calling me everyday to ask about the trial.
I tell him that i don’t need a lawyer ... since i have a Sorcerer
... but he keeps annoying me telling that i have no chance without legal suport”
The Sorcerer was laughing load.
“So you are telling me ... that even if he was actually saved by me from Police and IRS ... he still does not believe ... in
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magic”
“Hell ... no!
He still does not believe it ... even if he saw it in his case” “Well ... it’s too difficult to convince people that magic is real. And is a nonsense to lose our time and energy to prove them that we are right.
Most probably ... the Universe will keep repeating that lesson to him.
At the right time ... he will understand that we need to search also for suport from a magic side.
Leave him alone ... but tell him as next time when he will need magic ... just search for another Sorcerer. I will not help him anymore.”
Remembering this story ... i was thinking about the balance of my thoughts ... of believing and not believing in magic, but also its need in certain situations from life. I was Paul ... but also Brian.
Too bad ... that we believe in magic ... only when no one else can help us.
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Sometimes in life ... what you get might be exactly what you wanted .... but is in
disguised in a total ... nonsense
I remember i wrote a book called “PHILOSOPHY OF NOTHING: Had everything, but I actually had nothing ...had nothing, but I actually had everything” ( ) which is kind of a collection of love essays.
In the book i explain how many times in life we have everything ... but we don’t feel any joy at all because of that ... but also there are times when it looks like we have nothing at all, but we feel that the whole Universe belongs to us.
The whole concept of the book is related with the meaning of a love story in our lives.
The book was inspired to me by my dear friend Adam, a great banker from London.
We’ve been in school together in the 80’es and we still chat very often ... mainly about philosophical stuff.
Adam is close to 50, very wealthy ... the best prototype of success from London ... looking good, divorced ... and maybe i should define him as the british version of Casanova from our times.
He was always dating with lots of ladies ... using dating apps or social media.
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But the weird thing is that ... Adam was presenting himself to all those ladies as a simple worker from Hide Park.
For years i considered that what he was doing was a total nonsense ... but discussing more and more with him i started to understand that actually .... Adam wanted as those ladies
to see in himself a soul ... not a wealthy banker. Should be quite easy for him ... knowing the feminine psychology ... and also being so well educated ... to attract them.
With his success ... any lady would love to have such a partner ... but they were all blinds ... not really seeing in themselves the desire of connecting to a soul, not to a wealthy banker.
Smiling .... telling jokes, but also giving them details of how
he was working as a gardener in Hide Park ... he was in fact making fun of them ... all of them.
He almost lost his hope that one day he is going to meet that dreamed woman ... with a beautiful soul ... that will know to treat him as a human being and not as a cash machine.
His life story was not only about success as a banker, a guy that succeeded to make a quatuum jump from an ordinary person to being the owner of an important bank from UK ... but it was also the life story of a modern Casanova.
Was explaining me all the time ... but even if he actually had everything he ever wanted ... he was feeling that he had ...
nothing ... cause he could not meet that lady he wanted so much.
We were laughing all the time ... listening to his stories ... telling me ... for example ... of a lady that liked him a lot …
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but ended the story with him cause he was not the profile she was looking for.
She wanted a wealthy guy ... a banker could be probably perfect ... and she refused to continue a love story with an ordinary guy ... that was a simple gardener.
But you see ... Adam was not lying to them. He was indeed a great gardener.
He was personally taking care of his roof garden from his penthouse from the city center of London. He was doing this for years.
Today ... most probably he could write a best seller with a collection of stories ... telling about all those datings he had over the years.
But he considered ... it was all ... a total nonsense. In the end ... he gave me the idea of actually writing about ... the nonsense from a love story.
You see ... sometimes the Universe is laughing of us ...
sending us exactly what we wanted .... but in an in disguised
way ... but we are too blinds to see that.
So ... maybe the name of my book ... “Philosophy of nothing” is a good one after all.
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Truth be told ... we don’t have the guts to say what we think or what we feel
Long time ago .... i wrote few books with love essays.
I was involved in many groups from social media and i was chatting about the subject with lots of people from all around the world.
I remember that this is how me and Susan became friends ...
and we even wanted to write a book together.
She was living in Barcelona with her husband by already 6-7 years and she was looking to me like a person really fallen in love.
I was reading 3 of her books ... with love essays ... which were in fact different stories that were trying to analyze and define what love is really about.
When i was almost finishing the 3rd book i was calling her and said:
“Susan! Listen to me!
Something is looking ... weird.
I might not really understand all what you are writing .... or
maybe i don’t understand very well english ... but i have a feeling that you are the main character from your books ...
and the man that you love so ... so ... much ... is not your husband.
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I know ... might sound as a nonsense ... but this is what my intuition tells me.”
Susan was laughing ... but in a second she became very serious ... telling me:
“I swear ... i will kill you .... if you dare to tell that to
someone else.
I don’t know how you found out ... but ... yes ... you are right.
I am in love ... by another man.
He inspired me for months ... and this is actually how i became a writer.
I could not speak with anyone ... so i decided to write all what i thought or felt.
It was the only way in how i could express everything what was going on with me.
But i was afraid as my husband to find out ... and this is how i came with all those stories ... which looked like simple fiction ... but in fact in all of them .. it was me ... and the love of my life.”
I could not believe what i was hearing.
“Susan! I am from an ex-communist country ... and this is the way the writers wrote their thoughts and feelings ... between 1949 and 1989.
They were writing all kinds of abstract stories ... and your love story looks to me .. also abstract.”
“Well my dear ... you are right ... but still ... i am not having the guts ... at least not yet ... to express ... in a normal way .... all is happening inside of my soul.
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I know ... everything sounds as a nonsense, not only for
