Actually ... she was telling me all the time that she was going to the mall ... to buy some new clothes ... and i was telling her what new books i’ve recently bought.
She was explaining to me the meaning of fashion on our personalities ... and i was telling her about the illusion of life ... that i loved so much to talk about.
Our relation somehow became ... a nonsense.
I was from one Universe and she was from a totally different ... world.
... but she still remained on the timeline of my life ... so we continue arguing if life itself is real or is just an illusion. “Listen to me! You want me to stop going to the mall ... and wear the clothes i have for another 5 years from now?!
In the moment when i will look as Cinderella ... you will be happier ... and consider myself a better human being?!” I smiled to her ... saying:
“Clara! I know you love clothes ... but you pay too much attention to the exterior world.
The inner self is more important than the illusory exterior self that we see with our eyes.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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That’s all what i had in mind ... when i was attacking you regarding the clothes that you buy all the time.”
Well ... Clara believed in the need of the beauty of our egos ... and i was trying to convince her about my philosophical views about life ... that all is just an illusion. Our discussions were a total nonsense ... because i payed too much attention of spirituality and Clara was believing too much in the importance of exterior self.
Today i somehow i realize that ... the right philosophical path to follow is somewhere between both directions ... but also that all our silly ideas are just ... simple perceptions.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Sometimes divorce is not an option ... but a must
There are countries in the world, where the divorce is simple ... not allowed.
But for the rest of the world ... the divorce is not seen anymore in the old style.
And maybe too many are seeing it even more as a healing process ... not as the end of the world.
It happens i have lots of divorced friends and i remember them before the divorce, but also after divorce was gone. Many, many of them are totally different persons today ...
and i believe that divorce was more a blessing than a nightmare.
But i remember that one day ... i told this philosophy i have to an old gentleman of 60 ... and he was really mad on me hearing it, cause he was at that time in the divorce process. In fact he never talked to me since that time, but it’s funny cause when i met him few years later ... accidentally ... i saw a totally different person.
It was 3 years after the divorce and he looked like a person with a beautiful vibe, having the whole future in front of his eyes.
Another guy i know ... which looks like an ok person, but also like a successful guy, told me about his divorce: “Most probably she could not stand me anymore. She was mad or
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nervous all the time ... and in fact she was acting like a person having serious mental problems.
I could not stand the situation anymore ... and even if we had kids together ... we had to divorce. Now she is ok, or at least she looks ok.”
You see ... that version i heard so, so many times ... that today i strongly believe that the moment before the divorce is actually a time when the energies of the couple are simple fucked up.
Divorce ... becomes a way of surviving ... and the decision to change ... the energies where the couple stays in.
Looks ugly .... i know ... and i also know that i judged many
times the nonsense of the divorce ... but there are indeed moments when it is not an option, but a must.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
71
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Knowing that you are not living
in the right place ... but still staying there ... a nonsense difficult to be understood
I live in Eastern Europe.
Things changed a lot around here, but only in the big cities of the country.
When you go 10-20 miles away from those places ... the places look the same as they looked in the communist times. But one day, i discovered accidentally a beautiful village 50 miles from the capital.
The houses were beautiful ... the streets, the city hall, the school, the cinema ... everything was totally different as i used to know that they usually look like.
Then i see ... a huge park ... which just looked amazing. I started to ask myself: “What is going on in here?! It’s a total nonsense.
It looks like a village from another country”
But then ... i see the refinery ... and i suddenly understand where the money came ... to make this place so damm beautiful.
The village was probably the most beautiful village from the country ... but probably the most polluted place from here. Everything looked amazing, but the toxicity of the place was killing them slowly.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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I started to wonder myself if they were aware of that ... but i
then realized that many times i stayed for long, long periods
of time in toxic environments.
And guess what?!
I was blind to see the toxicity of those environments.
My life looked perfect ... but i was destroyed little by little ...
by those “refinery” that were just near me.
But no ... let me tell you the truth ... is not that i was blind ... but i was pretending that i was blind.
I knew the real truth ... but i was expecting as things to change in a magic way ... without my interference.
Or ... maybe it was not about blindness ... but about too much silly optimism.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
73
She was explaining to me the meaning of fashion on our personalities ... and i was telling her about the illusion of life ... that i loved so much to talk about.
Our relation somehow became ... a nonsense.
I was from one Universe and she was from a totally different ... world.
... but she still remained on the timeline of my life ... so we continue arguing if life itself is real or is just an illusion. “Listen to me! You want me to stop going to the mall ... and wear the clothes i have for another 5 years from now?!
In the moment when i will look as Cinderella ... you will be happier ... and consider myself a better human being?!” I smiled to her ... saying:
“Clara! I know you love clothes ... but you pay too much attention to the exterior world.
The inner self is more important than the illusory exterior self that we see with our eyes.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
68
PRACTICING … THE NON SENSE … AN AS ART
Philosophical essays
That’s all what i had in mind ... when i was attacking you regarding the clothes that you buy all the time.”
Well ... Clara believed in the need of the beauty of our egos ... and i was trying to convince her about my philosophical views about life ... that all is just an illusion. Our discussions were a total nonsense ... because i payed too much attention of spirituality and Clara was believing too much in the importance of exterior self.
Today i somehow i realize that ... the right philosophical path to follow is somewhere between both directions ... but also that all our silly ideas are just ... simple perceptions.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
69
PRACTICING … THE NON SENSE … AN AS ART
Philosophical essays
Sometimes divorce is not an option ... but a must
There are countries in the world, where the divorce is simple ... not allowed.
But for the rest of the world ... the divorce is not seen anymore in the old style.
And maybe too many are seeing it even more as a healing process ... not as the end of the world.
It happens i have lots of divorced friends and i remember them before the divorce, but also after divorce was gone. Many, many of them are totally different persons today ...
and i believe that divorce was more a blessing than a nightmare.
But i remember that one day ... i told this philosophy i have to an old gentleman of 60 ... and he was really mad on me hearing it, cause he was at that time in the divorce process. In fact he never talked to me since that time, but it’s funny cause when i met him few years later ... accidentally ... i saw a totally different person.
It was 3 years after the divorce and he looked like a person with a beautiful vibe, having the whole future in front of his eyes.
Another guy i know ... which looks like an ok person, but also like a successful guy, told me about his divorce: “Most probably she could not stand me anymore. She was mad or
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
70
PRACTICING … THE NON SENSE … AN AS ART Philosophical essays
nervous all the time ... and in fact she was acting like a person having serious mental problems.
I could not stand the situation anymore ... and even if we had kids together ... we had to divorce. Now she is ok, or at least she looks ok.”
You see ... that version i heard so, so many times ... that today i strongly believe that the moment before the divorce is actually a time when the energies of the couple are simple fucked up.
Divorce ... becomes a way of surviving ... and the decision to change ... the energies where the couple stays in.
Looks ugly .... i know ... and i also know that i judged many
times the nonsense of the divorce ... but there are indeed moments when it is not an option, but a must.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
71
PRACTICING … THE NON SENSE … AN AS ART
Philosophical essays
Knowing that you are not living
in the right place ... but still staying there ... a nonsense difficult to be understood
I live in Eastern Europe.
Things changed a lot around here, but only in the big cities of the country.
When you go 10-20 miles away from those places ... the places look the same as they looked in the communist times. But one day, i discovered accidentally a beautiful village 50 miles from the capital.
The houses were beautiful ... the streets, the city hall, the school, the cinema ... everything was totally different as i used to know that they usually look like.
Then i see ... a huge park ... which just looked amazing. I started to ask myself: “What is going on in here?! It’s a total nonsense.
It looks like a village from another country”
But then ... i see the refinery ... and i suddenly understand where the money came ... to make this place so damm beautiful.
The village was probably the most beautiful village from the country ... but probably the most polluted place from here. Everything looked amazing, but the toxicity of the place was killing them slowly.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
72
PRACTICING … THE NON SENSE … AN AS ART
Philosophical essays
I started to wonder myself if they were aware of that ... but i
then realized that many times i stayed for long, long periods
of time in toxic environments.
And guess what?!
I was blind to see the toxicity of those environments.
My life looked perfect ... but i was destroyed little by little ...
by those “refinery” that were just near me.
But no ... let me tell you the truth ... is not that i was blind ... but i was pretending that i was blind.
I knew the real truth ... but i was expecting as things to change in a magic way ... without my interference.
Or ... maybe it was not about blindness ... but about too much silly optimism.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
73
