THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls ...
but one single thought.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
1
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
ADRIAN GABRIEL DUMITRU
ARIJ EMAAN
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Year: 2022
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
2
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Treat everything happens ... no matter how bad it might look like ... as an amazing experience that is going to redefine your life into a beautiful way. You’ll be surprised of the result!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Illusion surrounds me everywhere ......
But this illusion prove so soothing.....
When I try to convert it into reality......
It bring peace with in me
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
3
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
INTRODUCTION
To understand the world where you live in… you need to understand first the people from the timeline of your life. And once you start to understand it …. you suddenly realize
that most of the feelings, desires and maybe thoughts were only … illusory things that dominated your life.
Me and my dear Arij started a philosophical journey … which we sometimes even name philosophical dance.
While dancing, we opened our hearts …. being very honest to
each other … and concluded to a single thought …. one that
defined life as an … illusion.
Writing down all what we have in our souls …. we ended with
a book in our hands …. all being in fact the philosophical
poems of our hearts.
Arij … as a young lady was listening to me … trying to understand how a man thinks.
Me …. on the other side …. I was very happy to hear the
female spirit and see the other side of the story, the one that a man can’t usually see.
And the illusion … whispered to us so, so many times … that we had what to talk for many months in a row.
Today is weird … and even funny to read one more time all what we wrote … and even if everything was written from the soul … still so many contradictory tendencies make us wonder if we should define volatility of feelings, desires and
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
4
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
thoughts …. as evolution or part of the illusory process of
believing we are … alive.
We smiled … we laughed … and we always continued analyzing and defining all that we felt inside of our souls. Reading again all those poems … reading in fact the masculine and the feminine view about the inner world … the own inner world … we realized in the end that maybe we are not so different as we thought.
We had … one single thought … and kept it in mind all the time.
Opening our eyes … or closing them … we saw the inner and the outside world … always … illusory.
We wanted to redefine this …. but we never succeed.
All we could do … was simple … smile in front of everything … and continue the philosophical dance. But … we just … love doing it.
On …. and on … and on.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
5
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Treat everything happens ... no matter how bad it might look like ... as an amazing experience that is going to redefine your life into a beautiful way. You’ll be surprised of the result!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Illusion surrounds me everywhere ......
But this illusion prove so soothing.....
When I try to convert it into reality......
It bring peace with in me
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
6
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
It reflect our essence ....
Thought seems as
Mirror.....
It is difficult to face it
Sometimes .....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
7
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Hoping ... to understand the world
Imagine we could understand the world.
... just by watching it.
Imagine the infinite power you’d have.
You’d not be afraid anymore.
You would enjoy it.
You would love ... any new day that starts.
And there are moments when you believe that you have ...
the connection.
But you wake up again and again ... living just in the illusion.
You smile.
... but still hope.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
8
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
There is no need of music .....
If you have a partner
With same thoughts/taste .....
There is not need of confusion.....
If you have a partner with same thoughts/taste..
There is no need to feel uncertainty ....
If you have a partner with same thoughts /taste....
There is no need to scare ....
If you have partner with same thoughts/ taste....
There is no need to create boundary ....
If you have a partner with same thoughts/taste...
There is don't need of hesitation......
If you have a partner with same thoughts/taste...
There is don't need of meaningfulness ...
If you have partner with same thoughts /taste
There are only need of automatanism ...... intimacy.....
Craze.....
Love....
And love....
And love.....
And love......
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
9
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Synchronicity ... was the key
I never thought about it.
... and i lost so many beautiful moments.
I wanted as the whole world to belong to me.
... but had no idea i will not find happiness as that.
I smile.
... cause i don’t even regret ... that i don’t regret.
I could simple .. act better ... with her.
... but the dream ended as an illusion.
A great one.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
10
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Two souls having
Same thoughts....
Same beats.....
same vision....
Same dreams ....
Same desires.....
Same Feelings ....
Same Emotions.....
They are exactly alike....
But they are different in wording.....
In connection.....
And also
In destiny.....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
11
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
To live with your man in shelter is becoming
Highly blessing if you are
Like minded ... One shelter
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
12
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
No plans ... than seeing the joy
No more plans
Is useless ...
I simple want to change the script
... of what i name life.
Will it be easy?!
... hell no.
But ... i want to try it.
And ... the new plan is
... just no more plans,
Except ... enjoy the life itself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Enjoying the life as it is
becoming genuine
Vocation.......
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
13
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Two in one
Means......
Becoming a soulmate.....
live in the deepest core of your man....
With wholly.....
With resolutely ......
With possessing ....
With depending....
With reducing ....
With addicting.....
Where certainty ,understanding and imagination are filled with
doubt indecision.....
Where you win your heart....
And you drained out all
Your scares.....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
14
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Making a living is not synonymous With
Making a life.....
You can live whole
Life ....
In one moment.....
Arij Emaan
But i can’t
I tried
One million times
... and still i am not alive
I look like ... but i am not
I need a “device” ... or a circumstance to feel the joy again Maybe it’s all ... cause i spent too much time making a living.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
15
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Is love ... an illusion?!
All the love books with novels or poems
Were written by people that could not live that love story in the way they dreamed.
But you see ... their writings taught us what love is about.
They lived an illusion ... but a beautiful one.
And they showed us ... the path to that ... journey. Should we be mad or thankful?!
Well ... life is an illusion ... so why we should not simple ... enjoy it?!
Open your heart ... and dare to love.
The illusion?! Or what?!
... the love itself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
16
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Sooner or later
We ... see the illusion
But it’s already too late
Cause we tasted from it
We thought is real
We defined it
Positive or negative reality
But it was .... just what it was
... an illusion
And nothing more
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
17
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
An endure struggle....
An Unsolved.....
To solved.....
Is to solved.....that is unsolved........
That is the meaning of life.....
So aim to be as solvable on
the soul.....
The two being really
one....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
18
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
I am so close .....
But I look distance.....
I look separate ....
I look despair......
I'm wearied of......
I'm at my lowest....
I'm erratic......
There are chaos....
I seek solution.....
seek salvation.....
need support
to connect....
I want to build a bond
With the soul....
that is settled from
Universe.....
In an ancient order....
The two being really one....
Really one.....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
19
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
I am ...
I am what i believe i am
... but also who they believe i am I am defined by how i act in life
But also ... the way they see me acting I am ... a perception.
And i hate that the only thing i can’t be
Is the one .... i dream to become
Maybe ... i should just dare.
And redefine the concept of ... perception Like that i would become
.... whoever i dream to become.
But ... don’t have the guts
At least .... not yet
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
20
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
If it’s all of illusion
And i have the perception of it
But ... do i still live ... in illusion?!
Can i escape from this labyrinth?!
Maybe ... i should just smile
Connect with the moment
Enjoy it
... and nothing more.
Cause it all becomes
... the art of tasting and enjoying Illusory moments Believing ... it’s all real.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
21
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
look
analyze
define
... but still nothing change
I close my eyes
I redefine all ... i used to daily see
And i smile ... cause it all looks different I open my eyes again
... and the smile disappears right away Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
22
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
I look again
And ... know that i must
... always connect
But ... i simple can’t
Even if i had days when i did it
I should love any script of life
And all the persons i usually meet
But ... i simple can’t
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
23
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
I always knew it
I saw that dark side
And not so often that beautiful one
.... but i was wondering
Who was the real .... me?!
Could i stop this silly balance
... between those ... 2 faces of mine?!
Maybe yes
Maybe ... no
Or maybe that was the meaning of life
To just explore
... both sides
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
24
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Intentions
My intentions
My real intentions
... thought that define me
But is useless, cause i don’t really Know how to act on the stage
No matter ... what my intentions are And whatever is going on
The actions ... or the absence of actions
Become more powerful
Than my intentions.
... the real ones
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
25
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Seeking a soul that give
peace....
Soul that match with
my desires ......
Soul on deck that assist .....
that know depth.....
Arij Emaan
But what if you found
... that magic soul
... and you can’t see that yet
You keep searching
But ... the time will end
And you keep ignoring that.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
26
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls ...
but one single thought.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
1
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
ADRIAN GABRIEL DUMITRU
ARIJ EMAAN
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Year: 2022
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
2
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Treat everything happens ... no matter how bad it might look like ... as an amazing experience that is going to redefine your life into a beautiful way. You’ll be surprised of the result!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Illusion surrounds me everywhere ......
But this illusion prove so soothing.....
When I try to convert it into reality......
It bring peace with in me
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
3
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
INTRODUCTION
To understand the world where you live in… you need to understand first the people from the timeline of your life. And once you start to understand it …. you suddenly realize
that most of the feelings, desires and maybe thoughts were only … illusory things that dominated your life.
Me and my dear Arij started a philosophical journey … which we sometimes even name philosophical dance.
While dancing, we opened our hearts …. being very honest to
each other … and concluded to a single thought …. one that
defined life as an … illusion.
Writing down all what we have in our souls …. we ended with
a book in our hands …. all being in fact the philosophical
poems of our hearts.
Arij … as a young lady was listening to me … trying to understand how a man thinks.
Me …. on the other side …. I was very happy to hear the
female spirit and see the other side of the story, the one that a man can’t usually see.
And the illusion … whispered to us so, so many times … that we had what to talk for many months in a row.
Today is weird … and even funny to read one more time all what we wrote … and even if everything was written from the soul … still so many contradictory tendencies make us wonder if we should define volatility of feelings, desires and
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
4
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
thoughts …. as evolution or part of the illusory process of
believing we are … alive.
We smiled … we laughed … and we always continued analyzing and defining all that we felt inside of our souls. Reading again all those poems … reading in fact the masculine and the feminine view about the inner world … the own inner world … we realized in the end that maybe we are not so different as we thought.
We had … one single thought … and kept it in mind all the time.
Opening our eyes … or closing them … we saw the inner and the outside world … always … illusory.
We wanted to redefine this …. but we never succeed.
All we could do … was simple … smile in front of everything … and continue the philosophical dance. But … we just … love doing it.
On …. and on … and on.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
5
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Treat everything happens ... no matter how bad it might look like ... as an amazing experience that is going to redefine your life into a beautiful way. You’ll be surprised of the result!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Illusion surrounds me everywhere ......
But this illusion prove so soothing.....
When I try to convert it into reality......
It bring peace with in me
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
6
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
It reflect our essence ....
Thought seems as
Mirror.....
It is difficult to face it
Sometimes .....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
7
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Hoping ... to understand the world
Imagine we could understand the world.
... just by watching it.
Imagine the infinite power you’d have.
You’d not be afraid anymore.
You would enjoy it.
You would love ... any new day that starts.
And there are moments when you believe that you have ...
the connection.
But you wake up again and again ... living just in the illusion.
You smile.
... but still hope.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
8
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
There is no need of music .....
If you have a partner
With same thoughts/taste .....
There is not need of confusion.....
If you have a partner with same thoughts/taste..
There is no need to feel uncertainty ....
If you have a partner with same thoughts /taste....
There is no need to scare ....
If you have partner with same thoughts/ taste....
There is no need to create boundary ....
If you have a partner with same thoughts/taste...
There is don't need of hesitation......
If you have a partner with same thoughts/taste...
There is don't need of meaningfulness ...
If you have partner with same thoughts /taste
There are only need of automatanism ...... intimacy.....
Craze.....
Love....
And love....
And love.....
And love......
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
9
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Synchronicity ... was the key
I never thought about it.
... and i lost so many beautiful moments.
I wanted as the whole world to belong to me.
... but had no idea i will not find happiness as that.
I smile.
... cause i don’t even regret ... that i don’t regret.
I could simple .. act better ... with her.
... but the dream ended as an illusion.
A great one.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
10
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Two souls having
Same thoughts....
Same beats.....
same vision....
Same dreams ....
Same desires.....
Same Feelings ....
Same Emotions.....
They are exactly alike....
But they are different in wording.....
In connection.....
And also
In destiny.....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
11
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
To live with your man in shelter is becoming
Highly blessing if you are
Like minded ... One shelter
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
12
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
No plans ... than seeing the joy
No more plans
Is useless ...
I simple want to change the script
... of what i name life.
Will it be easy?!
... hell no.
But ... i want to try it.
And ... the new plan is
... just no more plans,
Except ... enjoy the life itself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Enjoying the life as it is
becoming genuine
Vocation.......
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
13
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Two in one
Means......
Becoming a soulmate.....
live in the deepest core of your man....
With wholly.....
With resolutely ......
With possessing ....
With depending....
With reducing ....
With addicting.....
Where certainty ,understanding and imagination are filled with
doubt indecision.....
Where you win your heart....
And you drained out all
Your scares.....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
14
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Making a living is not synonymous With
Making a life.....
You can live whole
Life ....
In one moment.....
Arij Emaan
But i can’t
I tried
One million times
... and still i am not alive
I look like ... but i am not
I need a “device” ... or a circumstance to feel the joy again Maybe it’s all ... cause i spent too much time making a living.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
15
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Is love ... an illusion?!
All the love books with novels or poems
Were written by people that could not live that love story in the way they dreamed.
But you see ... their writings taught us what love is about.
They lived an illusion ... but a beautiful one.
And they showed us ... the path to that ... journey. Should we be mad or thankful?!
Well ... life is an illusion ... so why we should not simple ... enjoy it?!
Open your heart ... and dare to love.
The illusion?! Or what?!
... the love itself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
16
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Sooner or later
We ... see the illusion
But it’s already too late
Cause we tasted from it
We thought is real
We defined it
Positive or negative reality
But it was .... just what it was
... an illusion
And nothing more
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
17
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
An endure struggle....
An Unsolved.....
To solved.....
Is to solved.....that is unsolved........
That is the meaning of life.....
So aim to be as solvable on
the soul.....
The two being really
one....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
18
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
I am so close .....
But I look distance.....
I look separate ....
I look despair......
I'm wearied of......
I'm at my lowest....
I'm erratic......
There are chaos....
I seek solution.....
seek salvation.....
need support
to connect....
I want to build a bond
With the soul....
that is settled from
Universe.....
In an ancient order....
The two being really one....
Really one.....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
19
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
I am ...
I am what i believe i am
... but also who they believe i am I am defined by how i act in life
But also ... the way they see me acting I am ... a perception.
And i hate that the only thing i can’t be
Is the one .... i dream to become
Maybe ... i should just dare.
And redefine the concept of ... perception Like that i would become
.... whoever i dream to become.
But ... don’t have the guts
At least .... not yet
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
20
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
If it’s all of illusion
And i have the perception of it
But ... do i still live ... in illusion?!
Can i escape from this labyrinth?!
Maybe ... i should just smile
Connect with the moment
Enjoy it
... and nothing more.
Cause it all becomes
... the art of tasting and enjoying Illusory moments Believing ... it’s all real.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
21
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
look
analyze
define
... but still nothing change
I close my eyes
I redefine all ... i used to daily see
And i smile ... cause it all looks different I open my eyes again
... and the smile disappears right away Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
22
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
I look again
And ... know that i must
... always connect
But ... i simple can’t
Even if i had days when i did it
I should love any script of life
And all the persons i usually meet
But ... i simple can’t
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
23
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
I always knew it
I saw that dark side
And not so often that beautiful one
.... but i was wondering
Who was the real .... me?!
Could i stop this silly balance
... between those ... 2 faces of mine?!
Maybe yes
Maybe ... no
Or maybe that was the meaning of life
To just explore
... both sides
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
24
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Intentions
My intentions
My real intentions
... thought that define me
But is useless, cause i don’t really Know how to act on the stage
No matter ... what my intentions are And whatever is going on
The actions ... or the absence of actions
Become more powerful
Than my intentions.
... the real ones
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
25
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
Seeking a soul that give
peace....
Soul that match with
my desires ......
Soul on deck that assist .....
that know depth.....
Arij Emaan
But what if you found
... that magic soul
... and you can’t see that yet
You keep searching
But ... the time will end
And you keep ignoring that.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
26
THE ILLUSION
Her feelings & his desires. 2 souls … but one single thought
