and this problem is not a problem for you ... but you could also be an ordinary person, same as me ... and auto protection could not exist for you ... because you just don’t know how to do it.
But ... let me tell you my decision.
I just promised to myself that i will practice so much the art of socializing that in the end i will understand how the energies work and instead of protecting myself ... i will send each time good vibes to all the people from my life.
Yes ... i know ... you might believe is an utopian scenario ... but starting any new connection with the simple intention of offering the positive energy from our souls ... might help a lot.
... and i continue my lovely hobby of socializing with all people i met ... even if might look as a dangerous thing to do during this life time.
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Everything looks bad ... is actually good even if it doesn’t look so
Long time ago i read this theory which actually sounds ... at least weird.
And i had been thinking of it a lot ... for a very long time.
In fact, all the times i had something strange happening in
my life, i was wondering ... is this the beginning of a
beautiful episode for my life or just a simple nightmare?!
But you see ... many times things were really out of
control ... and i lost my belief that this theory might be
real ... and that everything looks bad ... is actually good
even if it doesn’t look so.
And?!
Well ... in the end i had to be optimistic again ... just to survive ... and started to believe in the concept of the higher will ... but if i analyze the statistics of my crazy, ugly, dramatic, tough ... moments ... all those episodes were indeed the start of something that was the start of a journey to a positive path for my life.
But still ... the test itself is too abstract.
For example i know a story of 2 unhappy couples.
They were in the city, and had a car accident.
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They start having a fight ... and had to go to the police to solve the argue.
In one car ... the wife was driving, cause the husband was too old to still drive.
The difference between them was more of 25-30 years.
In the other car the husband was driving and he was arguing with his wife when the accident happened.
So ... the guy and the lady went at the police station, but there were so many people in there that ... they had to wait for hours.
And while waiting, they started to chat and discovered each other ... ending the discussion in a hotel room and becoming lovers for the next 10 years.
So ... an ugly event ... ended into a beautiful love story ...
even if it was an illicit love story.
Could they understand the meaning of the car accident in the beginning?!
Most probably ... not.
But without the accident to happen they could not meet each other ... and start their love story.
And the same happens for us in many, many occasions in life
... but even if we realize it ... we just treat everything as a simple coincidence.
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Don’t speak so much anymore!
Is useless!
Just do it ... whatever
you have in mind!
Years ago, somehow i was arguing with a guy, that after a while started to call and text me that he will kill me and my family.
But an important person that i met at that time told me ... if someone would really want to kill me, would never bother to inform me or anyone else.
I found the theory ... false at that time ... cause i was wondering too much how the story will end ... and maybe somehow i was afraid, considering real all what was going on.
Few weeks later ... i realized that the guy was just hating me
... and each time he was remembering me ... he was just texting that ... one day he will kill me.
But ... one day in the future ... he was believing that he will
have the guts to do it ... but it was just a belief ... a silly
one ... even if he looked so convinced of what he was saying.
Remembering that stupid guy from my past, i suddenly
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realized that i am much stupid as him ... and i was acting more ridiculous in lots of important occasions from my life. I was saying i will do that and that and that ... but in fact i never had the guts to do anything that i was saying ... and if i did something i did it in a mediocre way most of the times. I was just speaking too much ... and doing nothing of what i was saying i will do.
I was in fact ... a clown ... on the scene of life, but maybe i was too blind of seeing it.
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Today it happened again ... a new loogie in my face ... not a metaphorical one ... but a real one ... and i am still
asking myself why?!
Yes ... why do i deserve this?!
What have i done wrong that i deserve ... a new loogie in my face?!
Is it me ... or the Universe just want to teach me a lesson in a very powerful way?!
I know that life is actually a mirror of my soul ... but had i been so primitive that now i get all those loogies back?! What do i have to change to the inner personality ... so that those episodes to just stop?!
Again too many questions and even if i know most of the
answers to those questions ... i do nothing to really change
reality in a beautiful way.
But why?!
Well ... i lost my believe in magic, in the rules of the Universe
... in the real values of life.
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I just ... got lost ... and somehow maybe everything i’ve
done wrong, now it comes back to me in an ugly way.
And i should do what?!
Accept everything?!
Yes ... but accepting means to understand the real values that we need to follow in life ... to see the difference between good and evil ... and also to redefine everything we are.
A loogie in your face is just a blessing sign telling you that you follow the wrong direction.
But ... i know ... is too abstract to see everything as that ... cause a loogie is a loogie ... something that first of all can be defined as ugly ... even if we might refer to it into a metaphorical way.
And maybe we should always keep in mind that the meaning of life is also to understand all those tests that comes from the Universe.
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The trick is to
know what to ... ask
All the articles, books or movies about the law of attraction are telling us all kind of tricks about how to use that force ...
but never tell us the truth ... that we could desire a path that is not meant for us.
But the Universe lets us believe we know better what is important ... and in the same time is also laughing behind our back ... letting us decide for a while the path we believe is the right one to follow.
And we ask for one thing ... defining it as the most important
thing in the world.
Then another one.
And another one.
The Universe is watching us ... and while smiling ... defining us as ... the little funny box with desires ... still gives us some time to change our minds.
But we are stubborn and continue wanting so much all those desires, without thinking for a second that we should ask first the Universe ... what is the higher will.
And imagine instead of saying i want an amazing house, near a lake, a beautiful wife, 2 children, a good business, lots of
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other goods or properties .... we should just say:
“I want to follow the path to a beautiful and happy life ...
whatever that means”.
Is that too complicated to ask?!
What else should you want from life ... except happiness?! Why can’t you follow ... the higher will and just ask for guidance?!
Why is it so complicated to accept that?!
Why we always believe we are much better as the Supreme Intelligence?!
Well ... too many questions ... and you know all the answers to all those questions ... but you ... same as me ... can’t get rid of the silly habit of being stubborn.
And the silly story of our lives continues ... just because we don’t know how to ... ask.
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Not what hurt you is important, but which part of you was hurt
Truth be told we see hurt people everywhere.
You meet with an old friend, you just ask “How are you?!” ... and in the next minutes you will understand all the problems that person has.
And it’s funny seeing them blaming all the exterior factors from their lives.
They will tell you all kind of stories, about all the people from their past, but also from the present moment ... that actually could be accused of a real conspiracy against them .... but
they will never tell you anything about their contribution to the story.
In a second you start to understand that all you hear is just one part of the story.
The second part ... or should i say the real one ... is the one that reveals something else ... something totally different. You realize that not what thing or person hurt ... is important, but which part of that person is hurt.
Is it about love, money, sex, simple relationships with different persons .... is it about what?! Which is that part that was hurt?!
Why was it hurt?!
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Well ... it’s a sensitive side, but we just don’t want to admit it
... the fact that ... being humans ... we also have weaknesses.
And instead of fixing that parts, we just ignore or hide them ... until one day when someone is again hurting us ...
and in fact is doing nothing than revealing the sensitive parts.
We know what we need to do, but we treat the subject with a huge ignorance, believing that the time will fix everything ... but guess what?!
The episodes will be repeated on and on and on ... until the day we will understand that we need to talk with the inner self and solve the problem not with the persons that hurt us, but with that part of us that was hurt.
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We just need a little bit of
practice. This is the only reason
... why the Universe sends us into ... problems and illusions.
Once upon a time ... there was a philosopher that had the main target in life to study ... the illusion.
He was focused so much on the idea that he started to see illusions everywhere ... and told everyone about this concept. But one day ... a very funny thing happened.
He was suddenly contacted by an amazing lady ... that was telling him right away that he loves him a lot and ... and that he is the love of her life.
In fact ... she was repeating that so often the fact that she was infinitely loving him ... that he started to be amazed he was so lucky cause she appeared in his life.
But the philosopher ... had a close friend, a sorcerer which had a magic ball where he could see the real reality of life, but also ... a lady friend that was so connected to energies ...
that she could tell you right away what was really happening in your life, but also what is going to happen into the future. The guy was speaking a lot with his 2 friends, especially
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about the amazing lady that appeared in his life.
But that only till one day when his lady friend ... annoyed by listening so much about that fabulous love story ... tells him ... “Listen ... you are so fucking blind ... and i had enough listening to this shit. She is just ... an amazing whore ... and nothing more than this”.
Disappointed by what he was hearing ... the philosopher goes to his friend, the sorcerer ... that after hearing the story
... confirms him that he saw in the magic ball that the lady that he loved so much ... had sexual relationships with other men also ... in the same time when he was with him. He was ... totally annoyed.
The universe was laughing of him ... sending in his life ... such a beautiful lady ... that lied to him in such an amazing way.
And ... suddenly he realized that this was actually the big test ... the test of illusions.
He studied so much ... the concept of the illusion of life, but he was fooled by this lady that appeared from ... nowhere. The philosopher failed the .... test.
He was sad ... but it was so clear now.
He somehow knew it ... but could not accept that the big love story of his life .... was just a big lie ... a silly illusion.
But you see ... some concepts ... to be better understood ....
we need some practice also.
To live and experience ... what the illusion really is.
Just the theoretical study ... is useless ... and somehow the Universe, loving us ... is revealing the ... truth ... in such an abstract way ... making us believe that the illusion is so damm ... real.
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And then we continue life ... forgetting all that happened ...
jumping from one illusion to another one.
But maybe this is how it works and how we need to experience life.
Adrian G Dumitru
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Your enemy is not your nightmare
... but a reflexion of the negative side that you carry in your soul
We all have a negative and a positive side ... but we hide too much ... both of them, ignoring the fact that we are in here to experience the whole spectrum of what life means.
And is funny cause it happens as sometimes to experience beautiful things ... but sometimes we just experience very ugly episodes ... which annoys us ... cause most of the times we don’t know the meaning of those situations .... and we just can’t accept them.
Some enemies are appearing on the scene of life ... and we dislike them so, so much.
We actually hate them ... not realizing that their presence on our timeline is to make us understand ... what the soul is about.
But then .... the enemy ... becomes ... enemies and we start
to believe that we live in such a hostile Universe.
But ... let me tell you my decision.
I just promised to myself that i will practice so much the art of socializing that in the end i will understand how the energies work and instead of protecting myself ... i will send each time good vibes to all the people from my life.
Yes ... i know ... you might believe is an utopian scenario ... but starting any new connection with the simple intention of offering the positive energy from our souls ... might help a lot.
... and i continue my lovely hobby of socializing with all people i met ... even if might look as a dangerous thing to do during this life time.
Adrian G Dumitru
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Everything looks bad ... is actually good even if it doesn’t look so
Long time ago i read this theory which actually sounds ... at least weird.
And i had been thinking of it a lot ... for a very long time.
In fact, all the times i had something strange happening in
my life, i was wondering ... is this the beginning of a
beautiful episode for my life or just a simple nightmare?!
But you see ... many times things were really out of
control ... and i lost my belief that this theory might be
real ... and that everything looks bad ... is actually good
even if it doesn’t look so.
And?!
Well ... in the end i had to be optimistic again ... just to survive ... and started to believe in the concept of the higher will ... but if i analyze the statistics of my crazy, ugly, dramatic, tough ... moments ... all those episodes were indeed the start of something that was the start of a journey to a positive path for my life.
But still ... the test itself is too abstract.
For example i know a story of 2 unhappy couples.
They were in the city, and had a car accident.
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They start having a fight ... and had to go to the police to solve the argue.
In one car ... the wife was driving, cause the husband was too old to still drive.
The difference between them was more of 25-30 years.
In the other car the husband was driving and he was arguing with his wife when the accident happened.
So ... the guy and the lady went at the police station, but there were so many people in there that ... they had to wait for hours.
And while waiting, they started to chat and discovered each other ... ending the discussion in a hotel room and becoming lovers for the next 10 years.
So ... an ugly event ... ended into a beautiful love story ...
even if it was an illicit love story.
Could they understand the meaning of the car accident in the beginning?!
Most probably ... not.
But without the accident to happen they could not meet each other ... and start their love story.
And the same happens for us in many, many occasions in life
... but even if we realize it ... we just treat everything as a simple coincidence.
Adrian G Dumitru
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Don’t speak so much anymore!
Is useless!
Just do it ... whatever
you have in mind!
Years ago, somehow i was arguing with a guy, that after a while started to call and text me that he will kill me and my family.
But an important person that i met at that time told me ... if someone would really want to kill me, would never bother to inform me or anyone else.
I found the theory ... false at that time ... cause i was wondering too much how the story will end ... and maybe somehow i was afraid, considering real all what was going on.
Few weeks later ... i realized that the guy was just hating me
... and each time he was remembering me ... he was just texting that ... one day he will kill me.
But ... one day in the future ... he was believing that he will
have the guts to do it ... but it was just a belief ... a silly
one ... even if he looked so convinced of what he was saying.
Remembering that stupid guy from my past, i suddenly
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realized that i am much stupid as him ... and i was acting more ridiculous in lots of important occasions from my life. I was saying i will do that and that and that ... but in fact i never had the guts to do anything that i was saying ... and if i did something i did it in a mediocre way most of the times. I was just speaking too much ... and doing nothing of what i was saying i will do.
I was in fact ... a clown ... on the scene of life, but maybe i was too blind of seeing it.
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Today it happened again ... a new loogie in my face ... not a metaphorical one ... but a real one ... and i am still
asking myself why?!
Yes ... why do i deserve this?!
What have i done wrong that i deserve ... a new loogie in my face?!
Is it me ... or the Universe just want to teach me a lesson in a very powerful way?!
I know that life is actually a mirror of my soul ... but had i been so primitive that now i get all those loogies back?! What do i have to change to the inner personality ... so that those episodes to just stop?!
Again too many questions and even if i know most of the
answers to those questions ... i do nothing to really change
reality in a beautiful way.
But why?!
Well ... i lost my believe in magic, in the rules of the Universe
... in the real values of life.
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I just ... got lost ... and somehow maybe everything i’ve
done wrong, now it comes back to me in an ugly way.
And i should do what?!
Accept everything?!
Yes ... but accepting means to understand the real values that we need to follow in life ... to see the difference between good and evil ... and also to redefine everything we are.
A loogie in your face is just a blessing sign telling you that you follow the wrong direction.
But ... i know ... is too abstract to see everything as that ... cause a loogie is a loogie ... something that first of all can be defined as ugly ... even if we might refer to it into a metaphorical way.
And maybe we should always keep in mind that the meaning of life is also to understand all those tests that comes from the Universe.
Adrian G Dumitru
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The trick is to
know what to ... ask
All the articles, books or movies about the law of attraction are telling us all kind of tricks about how to use that force ...
but never tell us the truth ... that we could desire a path that is not meant for us.
But the Universe lets us believe we know better what is important ... and in the same time is also laughing behind our back ... letting us decide for a while the path we believe is the right one to follow.
And we ask for one thing ... defining it as the most important
thing in the world.
Then another one.
And another one.
The Universe is watching us ... and while smiling ... defining us as ... the little funny box with desires ... still gives us some time to change our minds.
But we are stubborn and continue wanting so much all those desires, without thinking for a second that we should ask first the Universe ... what is the higher will.
And imagine instead of saying i want an amazing house, near a lake, a beautiful wife, 2 children, a good business, lots of
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other goods or properties .... we should just say:
“I want to follow the path to a beautiful and happy life ...
whatever that means”.
Is that too complicated to ask?!
What else should you want from life ... except happiness?! Why can’t you follow ... the higher will and just ask for guidance?!
Why is it so complicated to accept that?!
Why we always believe we are much better as the Supreme Intelligence?!
Well ... too many questions ... and you know all the answers to all those questions ... but you ... same as me ... can’t get rid of the silly habit of being stubborn.
And the silly story of our lives continues ... just because we don’t know how to ... ask.
Adrian G Dumitru
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Not what hurt you is important, but which part of you was hurt
Truth be told we see hurt people everywhere.
You meet with an old friend, you just ask “How are you?!” ... and in the next minutes you will understand all the problems that person has.
And it’s funny seeing them blaming all the exterior factors from their lives.
They will tell you all kind of stories, about all the people from their past, but also from the present moment ... that actually could be accused of a real conspiracy against them .... but
they will never tell you anything about their contribution to the story.
In a second you start to understand that all you hear is just one part of the story.
The second part ... or should i say the real one ... is the one that reveals something else ... something totally different. You realize that not what thing or person hurt ... is important, but which part of that person is hurt.
Is it about love, money, sex, simple relationships with different persons .... is it about what?! Which is that part that was hurt?!
Why was it hurt?!
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Well ... it’s a sensitive side, but we just don’t want to admit it
... the fact that ... being humans ... we also have weaknesses.
And instead of fixing that parts, we just ignore or hide them ... until one day when someone is again hurting us ...
and in fact is doing nothing than revealing the sensitive parts.
We know what we need to do, but we treat the subject with a huge ignorance, believing that the time will fix everything ... but guess what?!
The episodes will be repeated on and on and on ... until the day we will understand that we need to talk with the inner self and solve the problem not with the persons that hurt us, but with that part of us that was hurt.
Adrian G Dumitru
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We just need a little bit of
practice. This is the only reason
... why the Universe sends us into ... problems and illusions.
Once upon a time ... there was a philosopher that had the main target in life to study ... the illusion.
He was focused so much on the idea that he started to see illusions everywhere ... and told everyone about this concept. But one day ... a very funny thing happened.
He was suddenly contacted by an amazing lady ... that was telling him right away that he loves him a lot and ... and that he is the love of her life.
In fact ... she was repeating that so often the fact that she was infinitely loving him ... that he started to be amazed he was so lucky cause she appeared in his life.
But the philosopher ... had a close friend, a sorcerer which had a magic ball where he could see the real reality of life, but also ... a lady friend that was so connected to energies ...
that she could tell you right away what was really happening in your life, but also what is going to happen into the future. The guy was speaking a lot with his 2 friends, especially
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about the amazing lady that appeared in his life.
But that only till one day when his lady friend ... annoyed by listening so much about that fabulous love story ... tells him ... “Listen ... you are so fucking blind ... and i had enough listening to this shit. She is just ... an amazing whore ... and nothing more than this”.
Disappointed by what he was hearing ... the philosopher goes to his friend, the sorcerer ... that after hearing the story
... confirms him that he saw in the magic ball that the lady that he loved so much ... had sexual relationships with other men also ... in the same time when he was with him. He was ... totally annoyed.
The universe was laughing of him ... sending in his life ... such a beautiful lady ... that lied to him in such an amazing way.
And ... suddenly he realized that this was actually the big test ... the test of illusions.
He studied so much ... the concept of the illusion of life, but he was fooled by this lady that appeared from ... nowhere. The philosopher failed the .... test.
He was sad ... but it was so clear now.
He somehow knew it ... but could not accept that the big love story of his life .... was just a big lie ... a silly illusion.
But you see ... some concepts ... to be better understood ....
we need some practice also.
To live and experience ... what the illusion really is.
Just the theoretical study ... is useless ... and somehow the Universe, loving us ... is revealing the ... truth ... in such an abstract way ... making us believe that the illusion is so damm ... real.
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And then we continue life ... forgetting all that happened ...
jumping from one illusion to another one.
But maybe this is how it works and how we need to experience life.
Adrian G Dumitru
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Your enemy is not your nightmare
... but a reflexion of the negative side that you carry in your soul
We all have a negative and a positive side ... but we hide too much ... both of them, ignoring the fact that we are in here to experience the whole spectrum of what life means.
And is funny cause it happens as sometimes to experience beautiful things ... but sometimes we just experience very ugly episodes ... which annoys us ... cause most of the times we don’t know the meaning of those situations .... and we just can’t accept them.
Some enemies are appearing on the scene of life ... and we dislike them so, so much.
We actually hate them ... not realizing that their presence on our timeline is to make us understand ... what the soul is about.
But then .... the enemy ... becomes ... enemies and we start
to believe that we live in such a hostile Universe.
