I smile ... and i continue my pathless path of studying the non sense.
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Motivation is just a theoretical concept ... unless you start practicing what you are talking about.
The concept ... “the painter that never paints” ... is kind of a theoretical concept ... explaining the profile of many, many people from all around the world that has the knowledge to make a plan to start an amazing life, but ... don’t do anything in that direction.
During the years i met lots of people that knew all the motivational quotes in the world, but they never did anything for real to start new paths for their lives.
Not a specific path ... but any new path ... cause probably anything should be better as what they have now.
But i would certainly define them as experts in motivation, same as i knew that my friend ... the painter ... was a great one ... even if she was never painting.
She was very talented, cause i saw her paintings ... but she did not practice her talent.
In the same way ... the rest of us ... even if we know so, so many theoretical concepts ... we just don’t practice anything from what we are talking about. Motivation is just ... a trend.
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Sounds good ... and even makes us feel good talking about it
... but we don’t find any connection between theory and practice.
We just don’t know how to do it.
Everybody is talking about it ... but no one is really implementing those beautiful concepts.
And we end up ... knowing all the time what to do in life, but never really ... make any change at all. ... and life continues in a silly way.
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Staying in a place where you know you are just needed ... but not welcomed ... a very difficult position to be understood
We use to spend our lives wherever life takes us.
We know that maybe we should be in a different place, but ... we accept the place where we’ve been placed by the Universe.
In fact ... it’s a mix between accepting, but also staying in a confort zone ...difficult to be defined ... cause we feel needed in there.
It might be about a marriage, where we actually are needed for bringing money for raising children, or job where colleagues don’t like us, but we are very good professional and they need us in the team etc etc.
We are just needed ... and sometimes even a lot, but not welcomed.
We don’t see any joy ... but still ... all we have to do is continue doing our ... job ... cause in the end is a job ... and
a duty.
Maybe is about dharma ... or even about karma, but even if the feeling of being needed is a good one ... we still dream to be welcomed also in that place where we spend our lives.
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But many, many times ... we just need to ignore what we feel inside of us ... smile ... and continue the path.
Only remembering for a second ... the desire of being part for real of that environment ... creates a sadness inside of us ... but there is nothing to do in that direction.
Maybe it is also a life lesson ... for both sides ... but as long as you still stay in there ... even if it is a position difficult to be understood ... the only thing left to do is just to do ... your duty.
Nothing more!
This is the path of the present ... and maybe an important one ... but don’t worry, cause at the right time ... new paths will appear for you.
Just smile ... and keep walking on the timeline of your life!
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My mind ... a collection of nonsense thoughts
After years and one million plans ... i realized that my mind is full with ... nonsense thoughts.
In fact ... it was actually a huge collection of nonsense thoughts.
... and it was difficult to admit it ... same as i would admit that i have a huge problem ... that i ignored for years ...
cause the nonsense was part of my life by such a long time. I was not following any certain direction ... or maybe i was following too many directions in the same time ... but whatever i was doing .... something was wrong and i could not understand ... what.
The feeling given by the nonsense ... was so powerful that i could’t stand it anymore ... so one day i just decided to say it ... loud ... “Universe ... just STOP!”.
The nonsense ... was in fact my searching ... for a path difficult to be understood for my mind from that time ... but i was continuing searching.
I felt it was a nonsense all what i was doing .... and it all
became a journey to a pathless path. The meaning of all those thoughts?! The meaning of all those actions?!
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The meaning of the nonsense itself?!
Well ... i knew all what i had to do ... but i was continuing to stay on that path.
Later ... i just realized ... that all what i am doing was ...
experiencing life, trying to understand it. But no one ever told me to also ... enjoy it!
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Jumping from thinking to ... no thoughts at all ... a wild decision.
We think a lot, no matter who we are.
They say we have thousands of thoughts a day ... but i am sure that most of them are unconscious thoughts that we have no clue there are in our minds.
We just feel them as weird feelings coming from ... nowhere ... having absolutely no idea of why we feel in the way we feel.
All those thoughts define our vibes, but not even for a
second ... we do not realize that we could actually stop this
machinery of thoughts.
Just ... stop.
Nothing more.
A difficult decision, but in the end should be a decision that would help stop the process itself of overthinking ... that is ruining our lives.
Bad vibes would not continue forever.
They will just ... evaporate ... and let an empty space for beautiful moments.
Stopping the thoughts .. especially when we are on a difficult time ... will help us see that the world is not that silly
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problematic moment.
Will let us disconnect from negativity ... if we are in there, but also let us see that negativity and positivity are 2 paths that in many cases ... we are the ones that decided to follow. The balance between beautiful and ugly thoughts could be stoped ... and even if might look as a wild decision ... is a wise one.
Truth be told ... thoughts can control us.
But we can also control ... the thoughts, just by deciding today ... it is the right time ... for a beautiful life.
I know you knew all those facts ... but i just wanted you to remember ... to not act in life as my friend, the painter ... that great painter that never paints.
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You could be your own ... therapist
I was wondering why should we bother to pay a therapist, when in fact we could do the process of connecting to ourselves ... just by deciding that.
I mean ... if we can’t understand that a stranger can just start with us a process of a inner guidance ... but the connection itself can be done only and only ... by us ... it means we haven’t understood anything at all.
I know that the word ... therapy ... sounds weird ... but we could name this process ... the process of exploring the inner world till the moment when we just meet ... the soul. But why is this so important?!
Well ... the soul, your own soul ... is the connection ... the gateway to the Universe.
Being connected with it ... you are totally protected and under the right influence of energies.
So ... what we call therapy ... is the initiation of finding that gateway ... so that you should be always totally connected to the Infinite.
It all might look as a non sense ... but is not.
Becoming your own therapist ... can be done by asking the right questions, analyzing and defining life, being opened with yourself ... and embracing everything you see when you
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look inside of you ... the beautiful, but also the dark side of your spirit.
Might be a long journey and giving you the freedom of becoming the one you really want to be ...is probably the first important step.
But any important journey, even like one of 1000 miles ...
starts with a first step.
You knew all those things ... but you ignored them ... by such a long time ... same as i did.
So ... i should say that the trick for a beautiful life is connecting to the inner self ... and probably this can be done by becoming kind of a therapist ... your own therapist.
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My new job ... observing the world
I had lots of plan over the years.
In fact ... i had so many fucking plans, that i could even write a book of 1000 pages with all those plans.
I invested all the time and energy on making them become real ... and guess what?!
After using so many motivational tricks to give me the power of succeeding everything i had in mind ... defined as very important life plans ... i saw the plans becoming ... real. But it was horrible.
Worked for weeks, or months, or even years and the pleasure of seeing that dream becoming true ... lasted 15 minutes.
Then ... yeah ... i just realized i want something else. Later ... being honest with myself ... i admitted it’s all ... a non ending game of desires.
My plans were in fact an infinite list with desires and i lived with the illusion that having them for real i will become happy.
Such a silly ... philosophy ... but i believed for years that this
was the path.
A new plan.
And a new one.
And then ... new ones.
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Motivation taught me to accomplish all those dreams, but no one ever told me that dreams and goals will never really make us happy for real.
And i started to have moments when i believed that motivation is a ... lie ... but that only till the moment when i understood that to follow the right dreams and goals ... we just need to have the right principles and values in life.
I realized ... i am not understanding anything at all, but i just knew that accomplishing the desires will make me happy just for a little bit more than 15 minutes.
I needed a ... change ... and i stoped and ... started to observe the world ... so i can redirect my mind to the right principles and values.
Now ... i just explore the world and i hope for better days in my life.
So ... i have only one job ... to observe and connect to the world i see around me.
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I know all i have to do
I see all the paths
But ... i am just playing around So ... probably ... just the magic could make me continue on the right journey
I am wondering ... why if so many people from all around the world are almost experts in personal growth ... still we don’t have a plannet with happy people?! They know all the quotes.
Some ... read tens ... or hundreds ... or even thousands of books about the subject ... and still if you study them ... and define their lives in a honest way ... you will actually describe their journey on a pathless path.
And maybe ... erratic is the best word that defines them ...
by such a long, long time.
But how someone ... having all those theoretical knowledge ... can we still have this erratic behavior?! ...
which actually is a behavior that is unpredictable, or may be considered irregular or illogical for the situation. Well ... theory is theory.
Practice is ... different.
We learn all kinds of things ... and same as we did in
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school ... we don’t know how to mix our theoretical thoughts ... with the real life.
We know all we have to do ... and we even do the opposite of what we should do ... without realizing that we spoil ourselves.
The concept of ... the painter that never paints ... is dominating our lives in fact ... cause we don’t really want to live beautiful moments and feel alive.
We just .... pretend we want an amazing life and prefer to
dream.
Is much easier ... and truth be told ... the confort zone ... is always seen as a safe area ... and we love it.
In the end ... just magic could change this journey called life ... cause we will never do anything for following other different paths.
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A path could be in fact
... a test ... not a real path
So ... the Universe opened for him new paths.
He loved that ... and especially one of the paths.
It was about a lady ... one that he adored.
She looked like an angel, but lately he defined her as ... the devil itself.
He chanced so much his mind about ... her.
Months ago was speaking so, so nice about that love ... but not anymore.
Today he was ignoring her presence on this plannet ... even if he loved her so much.
There were moments when he was actually balancing between defining her angel and devil ... but today he was sure ... it was all a test.
And actually ... a test came from the Universe, trying to make him understand the illusion and the duality of life. The path ... to her soul .... was not a path.
The path itself ... was just a test ... with a difficult message behind.
And still ... for such a long time ... he believed in her ... and loved her so much.
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Yesterday ... everything was different ... he was hating her. But today ... the ignorance is dominating his soul ... and the balance of his emotions ... stoped.
He was glad and calm ... but still was not agreeing the need
of tests in life.
Not for ... him.
It was too real ... but not a path to follow.
