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Maybe there is no need of reply ... the Universe will take care of all the details
Truth be told we do not have the power of Jesus to forgive the people that hurt us.
Being so angry we would even kill them ... if that should be legal.
Lots of negative emotions are overwhelming us ... cause in fact not us ... but the Ego was so hurt that is almost impossible to forget and forgive all what had happened. We want an ugly reply to that person, even if we know that revenge is not the real option.
We heard the story of forgiveness in the church, at the wise people ... but we never really understood its meaning.
So ... revenge sounds like an amazing option, or at least this is what the Ego believes.
But the Soul and the Ego have an inner battle ... arguing about what they should really do as a reply to the person that hurt us so ... so much.
We can not define if we can actually have the power to forgive .... but we cannot forget ... that is for sure.
A balance of emotions telling us how we should act in such a situation ... is dominating the mind ... but not even for a
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second ... we don’t actually think that in fact the Universe will arange at the right time everything ... in the proper way. Replying ... becomes just an option ... not a must.
And, in fact, an option that we should just ignore, but nobody was ever told us, how we could actually calm the Ego ...
cause it will always remember that incident .... and once it
does it ... all the negative emotions will come back to overwhelm the soul.
So ... the Ego gets mad and the soul ... becomes dominated by all those negative reactions.
In the end ... we just realize that we are not under the control of our own being, but still find a total nonsense the power that Jesus had to forgive the people that hurt him. The balance of emotions continues ... ruining us emotionally, just because we don’t really know to let the Universe take care of all the details ... even of our negative emotions.
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I refuse to be ... Sisyphus again and again.
I don’t want to play that role anymore.
Had enough for this life!
In Greek mythology Sisyphus or Sisyphos was the founder and king of Ephyra. He was punished for cheating death twice by being forced to roll an immense boulder up a hill only for it to roll down every time it neared the top, repeating this action for eternity.
When i first heard the story, i believe i was in the first grade in school ... and found it a total non sense.
Over the years i was hearing the story again and again ...
but it took me 30 years to really understand its real meaning.
And one day ... i just realized i am ... same as Sisyphus ...
losing my life rolling all kinds of boulders on and on and on.
I was doing that in all my businesses.
I was doing that in fact ... in all the areas of my life. I knew the story, i felt i am Sisyphus ... but i was not accepting it.
It was too much to accept ... the eternity of those actions ...
even if i knew they will never stop appearing in my life. I was in a kind of prison ... with invisible walls ... but the
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prison was build by ... me and in there the curse of all the repetitive actions were following me for years.
But i was in fact ... in illusion and i did not had any idea at all what an illusion was.
No one was forcing me to roll the boulder up the hill only for it to roll down every time it neared the top.
I could just smile and say ... stop ... is enough, but the shadow of my Sisyphus was following me everyday ... everywhere.
I could even present myself as ... Sisyphus ... and lost maybe more than half of my life acting in this silly way. And i knew i had to stop by years ... but something was stoping me to say ... just stop!! Is enough!
That something ... was me ... and my silly way of acting in life!
But hiding this fact for years ... was just the easier solution!
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Rewriting the script
... the best therapy ever
There is an interesting way, that we could even name self-therapy .... and which we can use to redefine all the things and situations from our lives.
You see ...usually at a car accident because of the reaction of a second ... that we didn’t have right in that needed moment ... the accident happened.
And we start thinking and thinking and thinking ... what if ...
But the accident happened.
You see it, tens or even hundreds of times and you are so mad cause you did not had that reaction.
In the same way ... there are many situations, that we could define as accidents ... and after we regret a lot that we did not reacted in the proper way.
We somehow consider it is too late ... but is never too late in life.
Seeing everything again, in the eyes of your mind ... but redefining the script for a second, while you stay in bed, before falling sleep ... is probably a way of saving the whole situation.
You could visualize how you react ... what you say and how you act ... in the same scene.
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But what we never think about, even if it is so damm clear ... is that many, many situations we could simple redefine the next day ... just after visualizing the whole story in a totally different way.
We could react ... of course ... in a beautiful way ... to our boss, our spouse, our neighbor ... and to all the ones that offended or hurt us in any other way.
But ... yes there is a but ... and as i mentioned ... “beautiful way” ... should be the new path.
Yes ... re writing the script of ugly moments from your life ...
should make sense only and only if you have the power to rediscover the beautiful side of life. The ugly ones you already saw.
But the reaction ... makes sense only if you know to act in a proper way ... but many times we just don’t.
The reaction is in fact a revenge or even a much uglier way of acting ... as a human being.
We just .... don’t know and don’t care of the laws of the
Universe.
We ignore the duality of life ... and the fact that with the real connection to the inner soul ... we could actually choose all the time ... the amazing side of life.
We could simple ... re write any script ... of any event that hurt us, but need to have in mind the real ... path. And we know it ... but don’t have the guts to follow it.
But maybe we should meditate more ... cause re writing the script ... is the best therapy ever.
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“Are you drunk?! Why don’t you accept reality ... just as i told you it is?!”
An unknown guy ... totally disliking his life at home, near his wife ... starting to drink.
In fact he was reading books, writing essays and drinking wine ... about a bottle a day.
The wife was calling him ... “alcoholic” ... “drunk” ... the opposite of how you should actually name a person having such a addiction if you want to save him. But the wine was inspiring him.
He was writing books after books ... but still he remained a totally unknown guy.
He was totally disconsidered by the people from his life ...
because it was so obvious his lost way of living life.
Even if he was a businessman by so many years, he had lots of clients that were not paying him ... and one day something weird happened.
A client ... just comes to him, pays him 50 cents instead of 500 dollars and mentions that will pay him anything else. Even had the gut to mention to him that he will beat him, but also call him to court after.
Well ... the unknown writer became really, really mad ... and he could not even sleep in the night ... not even for a second
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... but he could not change reality in any possible way. The client was humiliated him ... like no other person again .... realizing he is so weak and lost.
But the next day ... even if he was feeling the same way ... he was realizing that the problem was not his client ... but the connection between him and his soul.
He was lost .... of his soul.
He was angry ... but had to be angry on him, not on his client.
Bur even if he knew the real path of what he had to do ... he calls his client ... asking if he was re evaluating the situation ... but the guy was laughing and replying ... “Are you drunk?! Why don’t you accept reality ... just as i told you it is?!”
The writer could not believe it.
He was not drinking anymore by almost a year ... but he was called in the same way as his wife use to do.
It was funny ... cause he accepted that the wife knew his weaknesses ... but the client?!
Was it so obvious ... his way of being, but also acting so lost on the stage of life?!
Well ... guess it was .... but the client was connected to him
and even if he was not a honest person ... he used humiliation as a way of waking him up. But maybe it was late ... much too late.
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Practicing the non attachment
... the best path to follow
Truth be told we take everything too serious.
We believe that all that we see is real ... not understanding that in fact in many, many ocasions ... it’s just a story with all types of silly emotions ... from all sides.
And all those emotions ... looks so damm real ... that not even for a second we can’t really see the real ... reality. Today it all looks as a disaster ... but tomorrow, looking into the past ... you just smile.
One year later ... you laugh of how idiot you could be ...
believing in all those emotions.
But why the emotions are influencing us in such a terrible way?!
Well ... because they are 2 types of emotions ... positive and negatives ... or maybe we should name them real and fake. The positive ones reveals us the beauty of life.
When you are overwhelmed of positivity ... you just embrace everything ... with non attachment, but when negativity appears in your soul ... the whole outer world looks like started to be against you ... and everything related to you. But what we don’t really see is that the negative emotions can be defined also as ... fake, cause being in that energy
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field we are actually not connected anymore with our inner soul.
We are lost.
We don’t have guidance anymore ... but we continue walking
... to nowhere.
And on this path ... negativity is just everywhere ... till one day when we realize that for a better life we just need to stay connected to the Infinite Source.
I know it sounds ... even as a religious cliche ... but once you succeed to stay connected to your inner self ... you will see no balance anymore between positivity and negativity. It will all stop.
The right guidance will appear ... and you will see real path to follow.
The feeling of being lost ... will just disappear ... maybe forever and you will understand how to practice the art of non attachment in your life ... or should i say your new life?! I am sure it all looks so illusory ... cause negativity always appears real and positivity does not appear so often ... but maybe you should try it ... at least as an experiment.
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Being offended ... a clear signal that i am weak inside of me
I have days and days.
Sometimes i am ok ... sometimes i am ... super ... but i also have times when i feel weak.
And i am almost ashamed ... when i have this feeling, but could not understood what was really going on.
But one day ... realizing that i am on a philosophical pathless path ... and accepting it ... i started to analyze and define those silly situations.
Well ... the result was quite funny.
I’ve saw the statistical datas ... and realized something unbelievable ... all the times when i’ve been offended by the people that were on the timeline of my life ... it was in the days when i felt weak.
But why did i had this feeling?!
What was really going on?!
Could i fix that?!
Should i be glad that those people were offending me ... showing the fact that i am not on the right path?!
To be honest ... it was quite annoying ... and i totally disliked those events from my life ... but those were true facts.
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And in fact ... i had to pay attention to all those exterior elements that were displaying so clearly the emotional position where i was.
All those people that were hurting me for almost no
reason ... were in fact the teachers that the Universe sent to my life.
I started to understand Dalai Lama that was saying ... “You enemies are your best teachers!” ... but when i first read that in one of his books i considered it a total nonsense.
Today ... the statistical datas were showing that i don’t know to stay totally connected to my soul ... and this is the reason why i have this dance of emotions ... this silly dance of emotions.
After meditating ... a lot ... i close my eyes and said ... “Thank you to all my enemies for being present on the scene of my life. Thank you for guiding me on understanding the illusion of life”.
I could not believe that i was saying it ... but just after that ... i felt released of all negativity from inside of me. The enemies ... all those people that were offending my Ego ... showed me the path to my Soul ... cause a good connection with the soul is actually a good connection with the Infinite.
And suddenly ... life smiled to me again ... showing its beautiful side.
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The secret of a beautiful life is keeping the right balance of emotions inside of your inner soul
I was reading a lot about success.
Then about the law of attraction ... but i could not find so many references about ... being on the pathless path of life. I smile remembering that i was chasing for success ... even using the amazing law of attraction ... without realizing that first i need to have the right balance of emotions in my soul. I actually started on the path to success, without realizing for a second that i need to prepare myself before even thinking of following any path.
