I smiled hearing the speech to her friends … even if i was not sure that Alice and Beatrice were really understanding the message.
I realized i followed too many times the path of … pleasure … ignoring that the joy will always be a much better option. Somehow i did not even understood the difference between the 2 concepts that indeed many times looks so similar. Listening to Inna … had kind of an awakening … and i agreed with her in my mind … even if we never bothered to discuss to each other.
And i smile admitting that those girls inspired many of my other essays, cause they always used to speak so damn load …. that i could not ignore their talks.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
41
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… my illusory search for a beautiful life
A kid can always teach you what love is about …. but also what means
the power of beautiful intentions
I always wondered what is the meaning of the kids presence in the life of the adults.
I mean the message … behind the message.
Of course an adult between 25- 45 is at the best age when can take care of the children …. but still … i want to go
deeper and find out the real meaning of this type of connection.
And is funny seeing people that were not good parents … to
be good grandparents.
But why?!
Just because they failed … and they want to try one more time and succeed?!
Well … today i believe that us … the adults take life much too seriously … and totally lose that naivety of a child.
The adult forgets the meaning of love, its importance and what really means the power of beautiful intentions … but you see … the kid …. just by being on the timeline of the adult is keep reminding about the beautiful side of life.
No matter of the problems a mature person has … the kid is somehow whispering … “Don’t take it so seriously.”
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
42
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
Yes … life is beautiful … but we let ourselves overwhelmed by lots of illusory problems or circumstances.
We forget about the importance of a beautiful vibe …. and
seeing the positive side of life.
The kids … and their presence remind us of that naivety we used to have at their age … when we were not overwhelmed of problems.
The vibe was great all the time.
Any silly event … was a joy … and we found the beauty of life in everything around us.
All … it’s somehow in total contradiction with what we feel and how we act today … but the vibe of the kids will always whisper us … that we should remember about … those times. And maybe it’s time to try …. to connect and listen to … our kids.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
43
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… my illusory search for a beautiful life
Stress is the illusory fear of not controlling
what we name reality. But we could redefine it … as the illusory fear of not controlling a reality that might also be … a beautiful one
I was in the parking of a supermarket to meet a lady that had to give me something.
Another lady i knew wanted to salute me from her car, but i did not saw her.
So i met the person i had to met, stayed with her for 10 minutes and then just left.
What is funny is that few days later the other friend … that was in her car, on the parking of the super market … writes me and asks:
“I was wondering … why are you so stressed?!”
I smiled … and replied:
“Me stressed?! No. Not at all. Why do you think so?!”
The next second she sends me the movie with me and the other lady while i was in the parking.
I was watching the movie … and indeed i was looking like a stressed person.
Carla was laughing this time … and then called me … “ I wanted to salute you, but you did not saw me. Then i saw
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
44
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… my illusory search for a beautiful life
you so stressed that i said is better to film you and send you the movie.
Like that you have the chance to analyze and define yourself
then just redefine if there is something you don’t like. You were looking all the time around as no one to see you … but why you were so afraid to be seen?!
If i would not know you .. i would even say that you wanted to buy or sell drugs in the parking of the supermarket and you were afraid not to be seen.”
I smiled … cause i knew Carla was right.
The meaning of the movie was so damn relevant.
I was stressed …. not having a good vibe … thinking always of all sorts of silly things … and the movie Carla just sent to me … was the clear expression of that.
I simple had to close my eyes, meditate and find the reason
why my vibe was looking so bad.
And indeed it was a time for me … where i just proved that i could not control reality and what was going on … into my own life.
But suddenly …. I started to realize how lucky i was cause
Carla send me that movie.
She was so inspired to do it.
Now i had the prove of what was going on with myself and there should be no excuse to not analyze myself into a deeply way.
Or maybe looking again and again at the movie i could redefine my attitude … as the illusory fear of not controlling a reality that might also be … a beautiful one. I had to chance my focus.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
45
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… my illusory search for a beautiful life
Be more optimistic.
Expect better results from myself.
Keep in mind that the most important thing is to … have a good vibe all the time and eliminate everything means stress, fear … anxiety.
Unfortunately … we are not so lucky to be filmed … same as Carla did with me this time … to have the clear prove of what is going on with ourselves … but still … we could close our eyes and visualize at the end of the day everything was going on … and how we could redefine life … and especially the vibe that we carry into our souls.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
46
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
Many of us live in prisons with
… invisible walls
Seeing that i can’t find that great happiness
the one that i was searching for years I suddenly realize that i actually live In a prison with invisible walls
But i still had a hope inside of my soul And asked the Universe … let me taste That amazing vibe i was chasing for At least from a moment … in a while So … am i asking too much?!
To be allowed to taste … life?!
Just like i would taste a cake from time to time Or a magic pill … that should allow me
to feel the happiness.
And even if it’s all illusory i should still … want to try it
At least from time to time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
47
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… my illusory search for a beautiful life
And the question is … can LOVE
be named the new religion?!
Nicolas used to write poems.
Then he started to write essays … and succeeded even to publish 3 books with his writings.
He lived in the south of France, close to Nice, France, which in my opinion was the perfect place for a writer.
His life looked as perfect from the outside, but i found it strange that even if i knew that he was married … he never said to me about his wife.
But one day, talking with him about the meaning of his love poems … Nicolas started to tell me how he became … a poet … without even imagining he could ever do that.
“You see my wife is a beautiful lady. It might look that we have the perfect life together.
The huge problem that i have with her is that she has serious mental problems.
Today she is ok … tomorrow she is not.
And she has this weird emotional balance which destroys me. I am ok as long as i am not at home, but when i come back i never know what is going to happen.
I lost my good vibe so, so many times … and you know how hard it is to have a good vibe.
Then i met Bety … and she was the one that made me
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
48
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… my illusory search for a beautiful life
survive emotionally.
All the love poems and essays i wrote are a reflection of all those emotions i felt in Bety’s arms.
But i have moments when i feel like a jerk.
If i abandon my wife … it will not be ok cause she is a sick person.
Also my religion is not allowing me to divorce and leave my family.
On the other hand i feel that i am using Bety for keeping a great vibe all the time … which defines me as a jerk … one more time.
The people from my church found out what i do … and look
so weird at me.
What shall i do?!
Do i have the right to chase for a great vibe … or i should obey to my religion and end the love story with Bety?! I really don’t know what shall i do”
I was smiling listening to Nicolas, especially hearing that in the actual modern era someone is still thinking of obeying to his religion.
“Nicolas! … my dear friend … i don’t want to speak with you like a motivational speaker telling you about the importance of your daily vibe … but i would like to ask you kind of a philosophical question … don’t you think it is the time for the modern human being to abandon all the religions of the world … and treat love … as the new religion?!”
And i was not joking … really believing that we should consider that the new … real religion that we should follow.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
49
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
Just eliminate everything means low frequency … and your life will be totally chanced
Life itself has 2 sides.
A beautiful … and an ugly one.
Believing that we can make a clear selection between those 2 sides is almost childish … but not trying should be silly. First we should look for a better life.
Eat better, take care of your health, stay around good people ….and simple try to explore that good part of life.
And when you feel … that “better” had come … you could have in mind the idea of … beautiful … a beautiful life. Somehow the definition of that kind of life is basically starting with the total absence of ugly things in our stories. And we easily conclude that all we must have in mind is simple … eliminate everything means … low frequency. Theoretically is easy.
You have a clear list with what you must do or not do … but applying all those things … is too tough.
For example … you succeed to stop drinking alcohol, to eat just healthy food all the time, to make sport, to think positive
and still … can’t eliminated everything is low frequency. You meet someone in the traffic that annoys you, the wife is driving you crazy, the problems generated by the colleagues from work are huge …. and you always end up fucking your
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
50
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… my illusory search for a beautiful life
vibe.
All those efforts we’ve done to eliminate bad behavior and habits become … useless.
We already entered on a low frequency program … by letting ourselves overwhelmed by another type of low frequency factors.
So … you completed the whole list with requests so that you
can fly on an orbit with beautiful vibes … but still … you
realize you let the outside factors from the timeline of your
life anchor you … on things that are not allowing yourself to
have a beautiful life.
In fact … even worst.
You become dominated by those exterior factors and realize you are the prisoner of an ugly story.
It’s all in total contradiction with what you planned for your
life.
Why?!
Well … you had to decide to never allow the connection
between you and those negative factors from your life.
But … you allowed it.
The solution?!
I believe today … it’s all a decision.
If it ‘s more important …. and we really want a beautiful life
we should simple ignore negativity. And we should never …. connect to it.
So … dear friends … just pay attention to all the details from the timeline of your life … cause following a beautiful path … will be extremely easy.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
51
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
Analyzed, defined … but still why never redefined?!
Maybe it’s time to ignore everyone around and just …. visualize the path to
that self that we want to become
David lives in Iceland by already 20 years, since he got married with Ellis.
Together they have 3 beautiful kids and an amazing house with ocean view.
From outside David … describing himself … was appearing to me as having the perfect life … but the truth was totally different than i thought.
Little by little also started to tell me about his love affair with his secretary … but also the fact that both of them … his wife and the mistress … were making lots of pressure on him … ending up all the time defining him as a … jerk, a devil … a etc etc etc.
David found one day by accident my book … “Analyze, define
redefine” …. but was annoyed a little bit … and this is the reason he wrote me … that i did not wrote about how we are analyzed, defined … but never redefined by the people around us.
We are somehow stamped, usually in a negative way … and
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
52
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… my illusory search for a beautiful life
we keep hearing on and on and on ….the same definition of
us … till one day when we simple have enough of it … and just leave.
Same happened with David.
One day, without saying a word … he took a flight to a poor country in Africa and started to get involved into a humanitarian organization … helping the people which were starving in there, finding water resources … but also building schools and actually the first high school from the area were he was.
Everyone around … saw in David … an angel … and there were also lots of people that were naming him … a saint … seeing him involved so much into the help of that district.
I was smiling … understanding the rhetorical questions David had for me.
He found it funny that in Iceland he worked so hard to have a wealthy life … for that amazing house with ocean view …. and
after years of sacrifices ... his wife started to define him in such a horrible way.
Then … he found for few years all what he needed in Anna’s arms. Being his private assistant she was with him all the time when he left the country with business purposes.
But again … everything ended up in the same way as happened with his wife …. being defined by Anna maybe even worse as at home.
In Africa …. he started to feel good about himself.
This was the real David … the one that was always trying to do all his best to help the others and create a beautiful life for them.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
53
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
He wanted to bring happiness to everyone from the timeline of his own life …. but somehow he failed to create this vibe for the closest people from his life.
I realized i followed too many times the path of … pleasure … ignoring that the joy will always be a much better option. Somehow i did not even understood the difference between the 2 concepts that indeed many times looks so similar. Listening to Inna … had kind of an awakening … and i agreed with her in my mind … even if we never bothered to discuss to each other.
And i smile admitting that those girls inspired many of my other essays, cause they always used to speak so damn load …. that i could not ignore their talks.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
41
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
A kid can always teach you what love is about …. but also what means
the power of beautiful intentions
I always wondered what is the meaning of the kids presence in the life of the adults.
I mean the message … behind the message.
Of course an adult between 25- 45 is at the best age when can take care of the children …. but still … i want to go
deeper and find out the real meaning of this type of connection.
And is funny seeing people that were not good parents … to
be good grandparents.
But why?!
Just because they failed … and they want to try one more time and succeed?!
Well … today i believe that us … the adults take life much too seriously … and totally lose that naivety of a child.
The adult forgets the meaning of love, its importance and what really means the power of beautiful intentions … but you see … the kid …. just by being on the timeline of the adult is keep reminding about the beautiful side of life.
No matter of the problems a mature person has … the kid is somehow whispering … “Don’t take it so seriously.”
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
42
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
Yes … life is beautiful … but we let ourselves overwhelmed by lots of illusory problems or circumstances.
We forget about the importance of a beautiful vibe …. and
seeing the positive side of life.
The kids … and their presence remind us of that naivety we used to have at their age … when we were not overwhelmed of problems.
The vibe was great all the time.
Any silly event … was a joy … and we found the beauty of life in everything around us.
All … it’s somehow in total contradiction with what we feel and how we act today … but the vibe of the kids will always whisper us … that we should remember about … those times. And maybe it’s time to try …. to connect and listen to … our kids.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
43
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
Stress is the illusory fear of not controlling
what we name reality. But we could redefine it … as the illusory fear of not controlling a reality that might also be … a beautiful one
I was in the parking of a supermarket to meet a lady that had to give me something.
Another lady i knew wanted to salute me from her car, but i did not saw her.
So i met the person i had to met, stayed with her for 10 minutes and then just left.
What is funny is that few days later the other friend … that was in her car, on the parking of the super market … writes me and asks:
“I was wondering … why are you so stressed?!”
I smiled … and replied:
“Me stressed?! No. Not at all. Why do you think so?!”
The next second she sends me the movie with me and the other lady while i was in the parking.
I was watching the movie … and indeed i was looking like a stressed person.
Carla was laughing this time … and then called me … “ I wanted to salute you, but you did not saw me. Then i saw
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
44
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
you so stressed that i said is better to film you and send you the movie.
Like that you have the chance to analyze and define yourself
then just redefine if there is something you don’t like. You were looking all the time around as no one to see you … but why you were so afraid to be seen?!
If i would not know you .. i would even say that you wanted to buy or sell drugs in the parking of the supermarket and you were afraid not to be seen.”
I smiled … cause i knew Carla was right.
The meaning of the movie was so damn relevant.
I was stressed …. not having a good vibe … thinking always of all sorts of silly things … and the movie Carla just sent to me … was the clear expression of that.
I simple had to close my eyes, meditate and find the reason
why my vibe was looking so bad.
And indeed it was a time for me … where i just proved that i could not control reality and what was going on … into my own life.
But suddenly …. I started to realize how lucky i was cause
Carla send me that movie.
She was so inspired to do it.
Now i had the prove of what was going on with myself and there should be no excuse to not analyze myself into a deeply way.
Or maybe looking again and again at the movie i could redefine my attitude … as the illusory fear of not controlling a reality that might also be … a beautiful one. I had to chance my focus.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
45
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
Be more optimistic.
Expect better results from myself.
Keep in mind that the most important thing is to … have a good vibe all the time and eliminate everything means stress, fear … anxiety.
Unfortunately … we are not so lucky to be filmed … same as Carla did with me this time … to have the clear prove of what is going on with ourselves … but still … we could close our eyes and visualize at the end of the day everything was going on … and how we could redefine life … and especially the vibe that we carry into our souls.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
46
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
Many of us live in prisons with
… invisible walls
Seeing that i can’t find that great happiness
the one that i was searching for years I suddenly realize that i actually live In a prison with invisible walls
But i still had a hope inside of my soul And asked the Universe … let me taste That amazing vibe i was chasing for At least from a moment … in a while So … am i asking too much?!
To be allowed to taste … life?!
Just like i would taste a cake from time to time Or a magic pill … that should allow me
to feel the happiness.
And even if it’s all illusory i should still … want to try it
At least from time to time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
47
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
And the question is … can LOVE
be named the new religion?!
Nicolas used to write poems.
Then he started to write essays … and succeeded even to publish 3 books with his writings.
He lived in the south of France, close to Nice, France, which in my opinion was the perfect place for a writer.
His life looked as perfect from the outside, but i found it strange that even if i knew that he was married … he never said to me about his wife.
But one day, talking with him about the meaning of his love poems … Nicolas started to tell me how he became … a poet … without even imagining he could ever do that.
“You see my wife is a beautiful lady. It might look that we have the perfect life together.
The huge problem that i have with her is that she has serious mental problems.
Today she is ok … tomorrow she is not.
And she has this weird emotional balance which destroys me. I am ok as long as i am not at home, but when i come back i never know what is going to happen.
I lost my good vibe so, so many times … and you know how hard it is to have a good vibe.
Then i met Bety … and she was the one that made me
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
48
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
survive emotionally.
All the love poems and essays i wrote are a reflection of all those emotions i felt in Bety’s arms.
But i have moments when i feel like a jerk.
If i abandon my wife … it will not be ok cause she is a sick person.
Also my religion is not allowing me to divorce and leave my family.
On the other hand i feel that i am using Bety for keeping a great vibe all the time … which defines me as a jerk … one more time.
The people from my church found out what i do … and look
so weird at me.
What shall i do?!
Do i have the right to chase for a great vibe … or i should obey to my religion and end the love story with Bety?! I really don’t know what shall i do”
I was smiling listening to Nicolas, especially hearing that in the actual modern era someone is still thinking of obeying to his religion.
“Nicolas! … my dear friend … i don’t want to speak with you like a motivational speaker telling you about the importance of your daily vibe … but i would like to ask you kind of a philosophical question … don’t you think it is the time for the modern human being to abandon all the religions of the world … and treat love … as the new religion?!”
And i was not joking … really believing that we should consider that the new … real religion that we should follow.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
49
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
Just eliminate everything means low frequency … and your life will be totally chanced
Life itself has 2 sides.
A beautiful … and an ugly one.
Believing that we can make a clear selection between those 2 sides is almost childish … but not trying should be silly. First we should look for a better life.
Eat better, take care of your health, stay around good people ….and simple try to explore that good part of life.
And when you feel … that “better” had come … you could have in mind the idea of … beautiful … a beautiful life. Somehow the definition of that kind of life is basically starting with the total absence of ugly things in our stories. And we easily conclude that all we must have in mind is simple … eliminate everything means … low frequency. Theoretically is easy.
You have a clear list with what you must do or not do … but applying all those things … is too tough.
For example … you succeed to stop drinking alcohol, to eat just healthy food all the time, to make sport, to think positive
and still … can’t eliminated everything is low frequency. You meet someone in the traffic that annoys you, the wife is driving you crazy, the problems generated by the colleagues from work are huge …. and you always end up fucking your
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
50
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
vibe.
All those efforts we’ve done to eliminate bad behavior and habits become … useless.
We already entered on a low frequency program … by letting ourselves overwhelmed by another type of low frequency factors.
So … you completed the whole list with requests so that you
can fly on an orbit with beautiful vibes … but still … you
realize you let the outside factors from the timeline of your
life anchor you … on things that are not allowing yourself to
have a beautiful life.
In fact … even worst.
You become dominated by those exterior factors and realize you are the prisoner of an ugly story.
It’s all in total contradiction with what you planned for your
life.
Why?!
Well … you had to decide to never allow the connection
between you and those negative factors from your life.
But … you allowed it.
The solution?!
I believe today … it’s all a decision.
If it ‘s more important …. and we really want a beautiful life
we should simple ignore negativity. And we should never …. connect to it.
So … dear friends … just pay attention to all the details from the timeline of your life … cause following a beautiful path … will be extremely easy.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
51
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
Analyzed, defined … but still why never redefined?!
Maybe it’s time to ignore everyone around and just …. visualize the path to
that self that we want to become
David lives in Iceland by already 20 years, since he got married with Ellis.
Together they have 3 beautiful kids and an amazing house with ocean view.
From outside David … describing himself … was appearing to me as having the perfect life … but the truth was totally different than i thought.
Little by little also started to tell me about his love affair with his secretary … but also the fact that both of them … his wife and the mistress … were making lots of pressure on him … ending up all the time defining him as a … jerk, a devil … a etc etc etc.
David found one day by accident my book … “Analyze, define
redefine” …. but was annoyed a little bit … and this is the reason he wrote me … that i did not wrote about how we are analyzed, defined … but never redefined by the people around us.
We are somehow stamped, usually in a negative way … and
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
52
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
… my illusory search for a beautiful life
we keep hearing on and on and on ….the same definition of
us … till one day when we simple have enough of it … and just leave.
Same happened with David.
One day, without saying a word … he took a flight to a poor country in Africa and started to get involved into a humanitarian organization … helping the people which were starving in there, finding water resources … but also building schools and actually the first high school from the area were he was.
Everyone around … saw in David … an angel … and there were also lots of people that were naming him … a saint … seeing him involved so much into the help of that district.
I was smiling … understanding the rhetorical questions David had for me.
He found it funny that in Iceland he worked so hard to have a wealthy life … for that amazing house with ocean view …. and
after years of sacrifices ... his wife started to define him in such a horrible way.
Then … he found for few years all what he needed in Anna’s arms. Being his private assistant she was with him all the time when he left the country with business purposes.
But again … everything ended up in the same way as happened with his wife …. being defined by Anna maybe even worse as at home.
In Africa …. he started to feel good about himself.
This was the real David … the one that was always trying to do all his best to help the others and create a beautiful life for them.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
53
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… my illusory search for a beautiful life
He wanted to bring happiness to everyone from the timeline of his own life …. but somehow he failed to create this vibe for the closest people from his life.
