UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Philosophical essays
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
1
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are Philosophical essays
Year: 2022
Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
2
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
“YOUR THOUGHTS SHAPE
YOUR VISION.
YOU SEE WHAT YOU
CHOOSE TO SEE.”
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
3
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
INTRODUCTION
I'm in doubt as always.....
I'm in doubt .....
Do I.....
Don't I.......
Should I......
Why won't I......
Why I......
Why shouldn't I.......
(Arij Emaan)
The human being has always been dominated … by contradictory thoughts and emotions.
Maybe one of the worst diseases from the history of the world … worst even as cancer … sometimes without any possible treatment is the … doubt.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
4
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
And is funny, cause the Universe is playing around with us … giving us so, so many contradictory … options.
I am laughing … going back in time and seeing myself in this weird situation of not being able to decide what to do … what to choose.
Today i somehow believe that it’s better to have … no option
or just one option, cause each time when i had 2 or more options … everything was too complicated.
I had to think too much.
… to meditate on and on and on.
And when i decided i was still overwhelmed by …. doubt. Instead of being happy for the life i had, i was unhappy …. In fact somehow ruined emotionally and mentally of all what was going on with me.
Everything was sometimes so amplified that i could not … continue the life itself.
The Universe letted me decide what to do … but i was not capable of seeing the path … the real one.
I was hearing into my head all the time … “What to do?! What to decide?! What should be the best?!”
But i did not know what to do … what to decide … and instead of being happy for having so many opportunities … my vibe was always fucked up.
And everything was like that cause i did not know how to close my eyes and connect to myself … asking to my intuition for guidance.
The undecided version of myself, was a result of the fact that i did not know anything about my soul … and how to be in total harmony with this inner self.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
5
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I did not know how to listen to all those voices … to my intuition … and keep the right balance between the inner and the outer world.
And instead of being happy and a soul dominated by joy … i was in this silly emotional balance … dominated by a non ending indecision.
I should name it today … the negative amplifier … and all what i want is just get rid of it. Nothing more.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
6
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Hey! We’ll build a new inner world with our thoughts .......
(Arij Emaan)
Imagine we could wake up one morning … with a great plan and a huge desire of … building a new world. I mean … a beautiful one.
I recently met a young child that was writing her thoughts everyday.
She is half ukrainian and half japanese and i was amazed that she was writing at the early age of 12. I saw the notebook.
I looked at the handwriting, but i could not understand what she wrote, cause she was writing in russian … so i’ve asked … “What do your write about?!”
“Fantasy” …. she replied.
I smiled … but deep inside me i was a little bit ironic … thinking … what the hell can this fantasy …. means?!
Few hours later … my dear Arij wrote me about the subject of our new book … “We’ll build a new inner world with our thoughts .......”
And again i was asking myself … what the hell that means?! But i smiled … realizing i was so silly …. not seeing the message the Universe is whispering to me.
I was missing … the point.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
7
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Arij was trying to tell me about the meaning of our writings and Yuka … was doing the same.
I had to change the topic of my writings and see the world of fantasy … that they were telling me about.
I had to build a new inner world with … my thoughts … but i was still blind and i could not connect to my real self … to do it.
And maybe all of us should follow that path.
We should just close our eyes … dare to dream again and again and again just as the young Yuka is succeeding to do it … at the age of 12 … believing in an unrealistically world … that might be one day … real.
So … it’s all about daring to believe?!
Or about … daring to dream?!
Maybe the world … the outer world … can’t be changed … not even in the position of being a king … but the inner world can anytime redefined … even as a kid.
Building such a new world … with out thoughts … should be … our new objective … and maybe the most important one. And i ask myself … should we do it?! Well … why not?!
So … let the new journey … begin.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
8
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I'm abnormal ....
I have two natures .....
One is in my favour ....
And the other one is against .....
One push me forward....
While other one pull me backward.....
One is Kittenish......
While the other one is abate.......
One is comfortable with me....
While the other one is not......
One is enlighten ....
While the other one is dark......
(Arij Emaan)
The human mind can understand lots of things … like complicated math formulas … or weird philosophical concepts
or anything that asks for intelligence …. and it is so weird that even if we are capable of seeing so many things that defines reality … we can’t understand … ourselves.
And when we try … most of the times … we just pretend. We are not honest … with … ourselves.
But imagine that one day you wake up, take a piece of paper and write all your thoughts.
the beautiful, but also the ugly ones.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
9
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
And you start to be honest … talk to yourself about everything … let the mind, but also the heart describe your being.
It all becomes … an acceptance … of all what you are.
The balance between liking and disliking yourself … drive you crazy.
More you go … deeper and deeper … your being is revealed
and you start to understand who you really are. And even if there are days when you like or dislike your thoughts and feelings you realize you can’t ignore anymore … your true self … the one hided so well … deep inside yourself. The process of … connecting to your own soul … starts … and there is only one thing to do … embrace everything your being means … even if is about the beautiful or the dark side of yourself.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
10
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I have nthing than an illusion …
That whispers me always ….
I understand it …
I want … shout it …
I want … write it …
I want … tell it …
I never reject it …
(Arij Emaan)
Truth be told about myself … i always loved money … since i was a kid.
And after years of chasing that … never feeling really satisfied about my life … i understood that i was on a pathless path …. and that money represent … just an illusory energy.
That was the point when i started to invest in the business of
renting houses, hoping that one day i will be living from
passive income.
And guess what?!
I succeeded doing that too … but i had so many problems dealing with my tenants …. that in the end i could not enjoy the money came from that business either.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
11
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I felt attracted by the energy of money on and on and on … hearing the non ending whisper of this illusion.
One day … being so annoyed by a tenant that was never paying me in time, delaying and not answering to my phone calls … i realize that Arij was right …. “I have nothing but an
illusion.....”
The real problem was that … i was too connected to the problem … or maybe i did not understood that all was just reflection of my inner self.
But i wanted to get rid of that non ending situation.
I was somehow chasing money … dreaming that there will be no price to pay for that.
And of course …. I proved to be so, so silly … believing that.
Seeing in the end that i find no solution for getting rid of this annoying client … and remembering about my friend … the sorcerer … i go to him … asking for an advice. Hearing the story … the sorcerer smiles.
“Is funny … you write only about illusions in your books … but your own life is fulfilled with illusions.
But … listen … for connecting to this guy … and give you a wise advice … i need to know few things about him. How could you describe him?!
Is he the same profile as the lady that annoyed you 2 months ago … and you also wanted to get rid of her?!” “Well ...” i said … “i don’t know how i could describe him … cause sometimes he is a nice guy … and sometimes he is just … a jerk.
He is looking a lot … with myself … and that drives me crazy even more.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
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UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
But i want to get rid of him.”
The sorcerer starts to laugh …. “So …. Is like you look into a
mirror, you don’t like the reflection … and you come to me complaining about that fact … asking for an illusory … help. Hahahaha”
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
13
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I see the dance … all around myself … the one of contradictory emotions
And i also see the dance inside of … myself I understand the meaning
But i simple don’t want to accept … the nonsense
And i become obsessed with … the dance Ignoring the fact that i could
ignore it and enjoy my life … in silence (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
It feels life is like a dance ??????
that held in floor......and see
We all are dancers….
Some of us are in sequence ....
While others are random.....
But all are in dance.....
And our fates throw us
turns.....
Downs and ups......
We all are in dance.....
Some are dancing for completion......
Some are dancing for lost....
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
14
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Some are dancing in lust......
Some are dancing in overcloy .......
We all are in dance....
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
15
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
When we look at the human beings from the timeline of our lives … analyzing and defining all we see in front of our eyes … maybe we should first try to connect to their souls … before saying anything we might think
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
I usually travel two to three hours daily......
I meet many more peoples daily.....I always put curious sight
on them …. always..... I feel confusion about .....I focus on
their out look, dressing, tone and face expressions .... I get
confuse ....Are they live a happy life or not...?? Are they
satisfied or not??
...so … today i have met a lady with her two little
children ....and my assessment was telling me that they were
poor.... they all wore old dresses .... and the lady was carried
a heavy bag on her hand..... she was looking weak, tired and
disappointed … and also silent.
I felt mercy for her …. ohh.
She was seating next to me, so after some time we start conversation …. and when I asked her about her
husband ..... immediately she smiled and replied ..... seeing
the shine of her eyes ....
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
16
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Then I felt shame on my confusion ....and I got surprise .....
The lady with dark circles, with worn dress, with old shoes, with her all imperfections ….
she was in love .....
And she was …. a pure soul.... involved in an amazing non
ending love story
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
17
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
When we look at the human beings from the timeline of our lives … analyzing and defining all we see in front of our eyes … maybe we should first try to connect to their souls … before saying anything we might think
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
I usually travel two to three hours daily......
I meet many more peoples daily.....I always put curious sight
on them …. always..... I feel confusion about .....I focus on
their out look, dressing, tone and face expressions .... I get
confuse ....Are they live a happy life or not...?? Are they
satisfied or not??
...so … today i have met a lady with her two little
children ....and my assessment was telling me that they were
poor.... they all wore old dresses .... and the lady was carried
a heavy bag on her hand..... she was looking weak, tired and
disappointed … and also silent.
I felt mercy for her …. ohh.
She was seating next to me, so after some time we started conversation …. and when I asked her about her
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Philosophical essays
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
1
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are Philosophical essays
Year: 2022
Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
2
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
“YOUR THOUGHTS SHAPE
YOUR VISION.
YOU SEE WHAT YOU
CHOOSE TO SEE.”
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
3
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
INTRODUCTION
I'm in doubt as always.....
I'm in doubt .....
Do I.....
Don't I.......
Should I......
Why won't I......
Why I......
Why shouldn't I.......
(Arij Emaan)
The human being has always been dominated … by contradictory thoughts and emotions.
Maybe one of the worst diseases from the history of the world … worst even as cancer … sometimes without any possible treatment is the … doubt.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
4
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
And is funny, cause the Universe is playing around with us … giving us so, so many contradictory … options.
I am laughing … going back in time and seeing myself in this weird situation of not being able to decide what to do … what to choose.
Today i somehow believe that it’s better to have … no option
or just one option, cause each time when i had 2 or more options … everything was too complicated.
I had to think too much.
… to meditate on and on and on.
And when i decided i was still overwhelmed by …. doubt. Instead of being happy for the life i had, i was unhappy …. In fact somehow ruined emotionally and mentally of all what was going on with me.
Everything was sometimes so amplified that i could not … continue the life itself.
The Universe letted me decide what to do … but i was not capable of seeing the path … the real one.
I was hearing into my head all the time … “What to do?! What to decide?! What should be the best?!”
But i did not know what to do … what to decide … and instead of being happy for having so many opportunities … my vibe was always fucked up.
And everything was like that cause i did not know how to close my eyes and connect to myself … asking to my intuition for guidance.
The undecided version of myself, was a result of the fact that i did not know anything about my soul … and how to be in total harmony with this inner self.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
5
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I did not know how to listen to all those voices … to my intuition … and keep the right balance between the inner and the outer world.
And instead of being happy and a soul dominated by joy … i was in this silly emotional balance … dominated by a non ending indecision.
I should name it today … the negative amplifier … and all what i want is just get rid of it. Nothing more.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
6
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Hey! We’ll build a new inner world with our thoughts .......
(Arij Emaan)
Imagine we could wake up one morning … with a great plan and a huge desire of … building a new world. I mean … a beautiful one.
I recently met a young child that was writing her thoughts everyday.
She is half ukrainian and half japanese and i was amazed that she was writing at the early age of 12. I saw the notebook.
I looked at the handwriting, but i could not understand what she wrote, cause she was writing in russian … so i’ve asked … “What do your write about?!”
“Fantasy” …. she replied.
I smiled … but deep inside me i was a little bit ironic … thinking … what the hell can this fantasy …. means?!
Few hours later … my dear Arij wrote me about the subject of our new book … “We’ll build a new inner world with our thoughts .......”
And again i was asking myself … what the hell that means?! But i smiled … realizing i was so silly …. not seeing the message the Universe is whispering to me.
I was missing … the point.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
7
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Arij was trying to tell me about the meaning of our writings and Yuka … was doing the same.
I had to change the topic of my writings and see the world of fantasy … that they were telling me about.
I had to build a new inner world with … my thoughts … but i was still blind and i could not connect to my real self … to do it.
And maybe all of us should follow that path.
We should just close our eyes … dare to dream again and again and again just as the young Yuka is succeeding to do it … at the age of 12 … believing in an unrealistically world … that might be one day … real.
So … it’s all about daring to believe?!
Or about … daring to dream?!
Maybe the world … the outer world … can’t be changed … not even in the position of being a king … but the inner world can anytime redefined … even as a kid.
Building such a new world … with out thoughts … should be … our new objective … and maybe the most important one. And i ask myself … should we do it?! Well … why not?!
So … let the new journey … begin.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
8
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I'm abnormal ....
I have two natures .....
One is in my favour ....
And the other one is against .....
One push me forward....
While other one pull me backward.....
One is Kittenish......
While the other one is abate.......
One is comfortable with me....
While the other one is not......
One is enlighten ....
While the other one is dark......
(Arij Emaan)
The human mind can understand lots of things … like complicated math formulas … or weird philosophical concepts
or anything that asks for intelligence …. and it is so weird that even if we are capable of seeing so many things that defines reality … we can’t understand … ourselves.
And when we try … most of the times … we just pretend. We are not honest … with … ourselves.
But imagine that one day you wake up, take a piece of paper and write all your thoughts.
the beautiful, but also the ugly ones.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
9
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
And you start to be honest … talk to yourself about everything … let the mind, but also the heart describe your being.
It all becomes … an acceptance … of all what you are.
The balance between liking and disliking yourself … drive you crazy.
More you go … deeper and deeper … your being is revealed
and you start to understand who you really are. And even if there are days when you like or dislike your thoughts and feelings you realize you can’t ignore anymore … your true self … the one hided so well … deep inside yourself. The process of … connecting to your own soul … starts … and there is only one thing to do … embrace everything your being means … even if is about the beautiful or the dark side of yourself.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
10
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I have nthing than an illusion …
That whispers me always ….
I understand it …
I want … shout it …
I want … write it …
I want … tell it …
I never reject it …
(Arij Emaan)
Truth be told about myself … i always loved money … since i was a kid.
And after years of chasing that … never feeling really satisfied about my life … i understood that i was on a pathless path …. and that money represent … just an illusory energy.
That was the point when i started to invest in the business of
renting houses, hoping that one day i will be living from
passive income.
And guess what?!
I succeeded doing that too … but i had so many problems dealing with my tenants …. that in the end i could not enjoy the money came from that business either.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
11
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I felt attracted by the energy of money on and on and on … hearing the non ending whisper of this illusion.
One day … being so annoyed by a tenant that was never paying me in time, delaying and not answering to my phone calls … i realize that Arij was right …. “I have nothing but an
illusion.....”
The real problem was that … i was too connected to the problem … or maybe i did not understood that all was just reflection of my inner self.
But i wanted to get rid of that non ending situation.
I was somehow chasing money … dreaming that there will be no price to pay for that.
And of course …. I proved to be so, so silly … believing that.
Seeing in the end that i find no solution for getting rid of this annoying client … and remembering about my friend … the sorcerer … i go to him … asking for an advice. Hearing the story … the sorcerer smiles.
“Is funny … you write only about illusions in your books … but your own life is fulfilled with illusions.
But … listen … for connecting to this guy … and give you a wise advice … i need to know few things about him. How could you describe him?!
Is he the same profile as the lady that annoyed you 2 months ago … and you also wanted to get rid of her?!” “Well ...” i said … “i don’t know how i could describe him … cause sometimes he is a nice guy … and sometimes he is just … a jerk.
He is looking a lot … with myself … and that drives me crazy even more.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
12
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
But i want to get rid of him.”
The sorcerer starts to laugh …. “So …. Is like you look into a
mirror, you don’t like the reflection … and you come to me complaining about that fact … asking for an illusory … help. Hahahaha”
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
13
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I see the dance … all around myself … the one of contradictory emotions
And i also see the dance inside of … myself I understand the meaning
But i simple don’t want to accept … the nonsense
And i become obsessed with … the dance Ignoring the fact that i could
ignore it and enjoy my life … in silence (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
It feels life is like a dance ??????
that held in floor......and see
We all are dancers….
Some of us are in sequence ....
While others are random.....
But all are in dance.....
And our fates throw us
turns.....
Downs and ups......
We all are in dance.....
Some are dancing for completion......
Some are dancing for lost....
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
14
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Some are dancing in lust......
Some are dancing in overcloy .......
We all are in dance....
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
15
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
When we look at the human beings from the timeline of our lives … analyzing and defining all we see in front of our eyes … maybe we should first try to connect to their souls … before saying anything we might think
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
I usually travel two to three hours daily......
I meet many more peoples daily.....I always put curious sight
on them …. always..... I feel confusion about .....I focus on
their out look, dressing, tone and face expressions .... I get
confuse ....Are they live a happy life or not...?? Are they
satisfied or not??
...so … today i have met a lady with her two little
children ....and my assessment was telling me that they were
poor.... they all wore old dresses .... and the lady was carried
a heavy bag on her hand..... she was looking weak, tired and
disappointed … and also silent.
I felt mercy for her …. ohh.
She was seating next to me, so after some time we start conversation …. and when I asked her about her
husband ..... immediately she smiled and replied ..... seeing
the shine of her eyes ....
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
16
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Then I felt shame on my confusion ....and I got surprise .....
The lady with dark circles, with worn dress, with old shoes, with her all imperfections ….
she was in love .....
And she was …. a pure soul.... involved in an amazing non
ending love story
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
17
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
When we look at the human beings from the timeline of our lives … analyzing and defining all we see in front of our eyes … maybe we should first try to connect to their souls … before saying anything we might think
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
I usually travel two to three hours daily......
I meet many more peoples daily.....I always put curious sight
on them …. always..... I feel confusion about .....I focus on
their out look, dressing, tone and face expressions .... I get
confuse ....Are they live a happy life or not...?? Are they
satisfied or not??
...so … today i have met a lady with her two little
children ....and my assessment was telling me that they were
poor.... they all wore old dresses .... and the lady was carried
a heavy bag on her hand..... she was looking weak, tired and
disappointed … and also silent.
I felt mercy for her …. ohh.
She was seating next to me, so after some time we started conversation …. and when I asked her about her
