husband ..... immediately she smiled and replied ..... seeing
the shine of her eyes ....
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
18
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Then I felt shame on my confusion ....and I got surprise .....
The lady with dark circles, with worn dress, with old shoes, with her all imperfections ….
she was in love .....
And she was …. a pure soul.... involved in an amazing non
ending love story.
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
19
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
If you are enjoying your present .... and
you have the capacity to accept things as they are …. you are
not running just for your desires....
(Arij Emaan)
But i continue chasing great vibes
Even if i find just illusory paths
And i live with the hope that … one day
I’ll find out the real trick for enjoying life
in fact my life … my own life Being detached of everything
but accepting and embracing all around myself
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
20
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Maybe it’s time to see perfection and imperfection as part of the same…. inner soul.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
I'm imperfect ....although I don't admit it ...but i'm.....
And one more thing that I felt about imperfect being like
me..... they always search their own flaws in others ...
In case of perfect imperfect, like dislike, good bad, wrong right …. they lost many more ..... they couldn't get thier own
inner happiness..... they always defunct.... they can't accept
things as they are … they just run for thier desires...... they
aren't accepting alternate, they just accept what they
want.....
I'm also one of them so today l just talk about me...
I want my all around perfect.....perfection is my
weakness ....you know, i look perfection in every aspect of
my life... I want a perfect home with perfect family ..... I also
want perfection in my personality, in my look, in my gossip, in my choice ... even I dream of a perfect partner .....from
my childhood to becoming an adult I always dreamed for a perfect partner.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
21
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I never liked ordinary people or things .... and I have rejected many more proposel ....in wait of perfect one...
I always ignore good in the hope of better.... sometimes it
stickup me to lost my good sense...... I never act normally ...
my mind set thousand directions for me, but in choosing the perfect one I always lost my actual and it make me wayless.....so when when things aren't happen according to
my plan I get anxious.... cause these are all my
imperfections ... but …. to be very honest I can't accept my
imperfections.....
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
22
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
In this world … for a beautiful life …. maybe it’s all about
knowing to connect with the souls around us …. but just with
the right ones.
And some connections … are really special.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
I always care for you....if we are together or not......if we are
far from each other or not..... i have no control on my
own .....you are dominant all over me always.....i was
unaware from that truth still yesterday....... when it was
reveal a heavy secret on me .....
Yesterday I have received a message from one of my oldest scool mate .....he said, he still remembers me....and now he
wants to marry me....
It was a great opportunity for me .. he is handsome ....he is
10 times richer than my guy ....he is well settle in "Dubai
"...therefore, has all what I had dreamed .....
So when he asked … “Would you… ??”
I wanted to type "yes"....but suddenly something had
happened inside myself.
....I felt tremulousness in my hand ......I have received a
message from my inside ....how can I do it?
How can I choose someone else ?
How ?......
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
23
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Can I ?
No .....
I can't ....
I can't ....
And I wrote "No".... After a while I blocked him … and my
soul was happy for that action...
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
24
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I'm bound in bonding with you …
I'm merging into my wholeness … from illusion to separateness ….
(Arij Emaan)
Being egocentric means many, many times being blind ….
from the spiritual point of view.
And this silly blindness you will see at almost all the people from the timeline of you life.
It is the one that creates the border between souls … this illusory line of separateness.
But at the right time … the blindness disappears… little by little.
And i saw people like that …
The path itself is a little bit funny … and might look like as a total nonsense …. all what i am writing.
You see … while writing my 10 books with love essays … i had the chance to connect with lots of people … men and women … from all around the world … people that were really in love by a person who was always defined as … a soul mate.
But … unfortunately i saw that most of all those stories … had always an … end.
I changed many thoughts with all those people … while being
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
25
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
in love … but also after the love story did not existed anymore.
They told me about the concept of … us … and how amazing is to be in love …. but later on … i heard so, so many times … “it was all an illusion!”
But a question came into my mind on and on and on …. why
the normal life stoped as the love story to totally dominate us for a while?!
What is the meaning of all that?!
Being in love …. Is it a total nonsense?!
Or … what we define at the end of the love story …. a chapter
of life about the illusion of being alive … is actually an introduction about something else …. much, much deeper.
And i saw few people … including myself … that realized that the concept of …. us … from the love story is somehow
metamorphosed into … a love story with all the people from the timeline of life.
I saw them being in love … of everybody … enjoying the moment … spent with anyone.
A total change … at 180 degrees.
The concept of … us … includes now every person that we actually meet and the love story … is actually a love story with anything means … a soul.
And even the concept of soul mates …. becomes deeper …
cause anyone can be seen as a soul mate.
The illusion of separateness … disappears.
And in fact … the illusion itself … disappears.
So … it all makes sense now … even if it looked so illogical.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
26
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
The day when we find out that there is nothing more important than the heart …. and that all is actually a gateway to the inner soul … that is a lucky day.
Awakening … the real one …. Is quite close.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
I have found the soul and heart.....
Now I just have the need to find the structure........
Yesterday, i saw an old man.
He was siting on the corner of the street … wore dusty
tattered clothes .....
He was playing with mud and was disinterested about the
world .....
He was devoted of feelings....
He was happy in himself, any type of beauty wasn't
impressing him....
He was touching the last limit of indifferently ......
I observed him for an hour … now I wish....
I wish I could take this look … i wish I could adopt this
structure ….
I wish I could be unaware of my surroundings .....
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
27
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
We’ll never be again the same person
we once thought we were.....
(Arij Emaan)
We define ourselves in a certain way most of the times, believing that we will remain as that forever.
But the time proves that we lose the child we used to be, we lose the teenager we used to be … we lose that young personality that had so many dreams regarding the future … In fact … we lose all those versions of ourselves …. the good or the bad ones.
So …. one day we simple realize that we are not anymore the
ones that we used to be … the ones that we thought we are. Time change everything … or maybe i should say … redefines the whole inner structures from ourselves.
And there are times when we like that … and times when we
dislike it … but the things are the way they are … and the only real things we are allow to do by the Universe is … to accept the new version we became …. or come on with a plan of reseting everything … and redefine ourselves.
But still ….we never get back to what we use to think we are. The time itself has a tremendous power … that is not allowing us to … get back that past version.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
28
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
And the real question is … should we care so much about the past, or who we used to be?!
Or?! … maybe we should let the time flow in its unique style
and look just into the present moment and the near future. Acceptance might be the key.
In fact … embracing and trying to understand, but also love any version of ourselves …. not really caring so much about the ones that we used to be … becomes a wiser decision.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
29
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Maybe another script … my dear?!
Hmm …
U can rewrite
U can recheck
U can correct
U can reject
never never never mind......
(Arij Emaan)
Imagine that you are in love … and you can write the script of your love story.
Let’s say you write all the details.
But .. still …. something appears in an unexpected way
between the 2 of you … and the connection is broken.
She loses her hope … and you might do the same.
In the end … seeing this cycle of loving and hating each other on and on and on … she agrees with any possible theory that you might come with … including the one … of a script … a new one.
You actually have the perfect case scenario … the feelings make you follow the right path you have to follow … but you thoughts …
Well … in a moment of awakening … you finally realize that ….the thoughts … are always braking the connection you
have together.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
30
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Not letting the feelings make the right guidance … and allowing contradictory thoughts to ruin you emotionally … is quite silly.
You know it …. but you allow it to happen.
And somehow that’s why the idea of re writing the script of the love story …. makes sense.
Even if …. yeeesss … it’s a total nonsense.
But we don’t really understand all what is going on.
The balance of contradictory emotions … being more a
balance between you thoughts and feelings … is not allowing
you to enjoy the story.
Same as Arij was saying …
“U can rewrite
U can recheck
U can correct
U can reject”
… but .. still …. is not enough.
Ruined emotionally … seeing that you love her so, so much … and can’t live in the story … but neither out of the love story
you understand that the only thing left to do … and that is to let your feelings control the emotional dance you 2 have together.
and totally forget your thoughts!
Somehow … you see that everything is perfect …. in a love
story … but also in any other important chapter of your life … as long as you follow the heart … not the mind.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
31
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I have met a man who has heavy
Personality .....
But he is so wobbler in front of her lady.....
So I got conclusion ....
Sensually men are the slaves of women.....
(Arij Emaan)
It’s very interesting seeing the perspective of the opposite sex.
Chatting with my dear Arij … i smile … somehow understanding the views of the feminine spirit. Don’t get me wrong … cause i am not sarcastic. I really am … not.
But i still smile … and then laugh … when Arij is defining the sensuality of a man … as kind of a slavery. So … is it true or not?!
Maybe it’s just a trick so that we connect to the feminine spirit.
Or maybe … we really become dominated by them … and the only real option is to show our sensitive side … to remain in that connection.
And indeed i saw many men … acting like that.
It’s not my case … but … maybe i am not yet capable of showing the sensual part of my soul.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
32
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I prefer … a heavy personality … even if it’s a total nonsense acting like this in life.
So … should i make a change with myself?!
Should i care of what Arij has to say?!
What really means …. sensuality?!
well … probably i simple don’t want to try that. Not yet.
Or maybe the past … reminds me of my illusory emotions that made me become the slave … of a love story that i don’t even want to talk about.
or should i say … her slave!
So … Arij was somehow … right!
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
33
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Don't like to run away …
I try to find the new remedy for inside ache ….
(Arij Emaan)
I do believe in the concept of self therapy.
Is the easiest one … but to be able to do it … you must study a lot … and also be ready to connect with your inner self. We need to meditate.
Let our contradictory thoughts …. come out of us … but also
accept and embrace them.
Actually … smile seeing our beautiful side … but also … the dark one.
the shine of her eyes ....
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
18
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Then I felt shame on my confusion ....and I got surprise .....
The lady with dark circles, with worn dress, with old shoes, with her all imperfections ….
she was in love .....
And she was …. a pure soul.... involved in an amazing non
ending love story.
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
19
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
If you are enjoying your present .... and
you have the capacity to accept things as they are …. you are
not running just for your desires....
(Arij Emaan)
But i continue chasing great vibes
Even if i find just illusory paths
And i live with the hope that … one day
I’ll find out the real trick for enjoying life
in fact my life … my own life Being detached of everything
but accepting and embracing all around myself
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
20
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Maybe it’s time to see perfection and imperfection as part of the same…. inner soul.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
I'm imperfect ....although I don't admit it ...but i'm.....
And one more thing that I felt about imperfect being like
me..... they always search their own flaws in others ...
In case of perfect imperfect, like dislike, good bad, wrong right …. they lost many more ..... they couldn't get thier own
inner happiness..... they always defunct.... they can't accept
things as they are … they just run for thier desires...... they
aren't accepting alternate, they just accept what they
want.....
I'm also one of them so today l just talk about me...
I want my all around perfect.....perfection is my
weakness ....you know, i look perfection in every aspect of
my life... I want a perfect home with perfect family ..... I also
want perfection in my personality, in my look, in my gossip, in my choice ... even I dream of a perfect partner .....from
my childhood to becoming an adult I always dreamed for a perfect partner.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
21
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I never liked ordinary people or things .... and I have rejected many more proposel ....in wait of perfect one...
I always ignore good in the hope of better.... sometimes it
stickup me to lost my good sense...... I never act normally ...
my mind set thousand directions for me, but in choosing the perfect one I always lost my actual and it make me wayless.....so when when things aren't happen according to
my plan I get anxious.... cause these are all my
imperfections ... but …. to be very honest I can't accept my
imperfections.....
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
22
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
In this world … for a beautiful life …. maybe it’s all about
knowing to connect with the souls around us …. but just with
the right ones.
And some connections … are really special.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
I always care for you....if we are together or not......if we are
far from each other or not..... i have no control on my
own .....you are dominant all over me always.....i was
unaware from that truth still yesterday....... when it was
reveal a heavy secret on me .....
Yesterday I have received a message from one of my oldest scool mate .....he said, he still remembers me....and now he
wants to marry me....
It was a great opportunity for me .. he is handsome ....he is
10 times richer than my guy ....he is well settle in "Dubai
"...therefore, has all what I had dreamed .....
So when he asked … “Would you… ??”
I wanted to type "yes"....but suddenly something had
happened inside myself.
....I felt tremulousness in my hand ......I have received a
message from my inside ....how can I do it?
How can I choose someone else ?
How ?......
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
23
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Can I ?
No .....
I can't ....
I can't ....
And I wrote "No".... After a while I blocked him … and my
soul was happy for that action...
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
24
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I'm bound in bonding with you …
I'm merging into my wholeness … from illusion to separateness ….
(Arij Emaan)
Being egocentric means many, many times being blind ….
from the spiritual point of view.
And this silly blindness you will see at almost all the people from the timeline of you life.
It is the one that creates the border between souls … this illusory line of separateness.
But at the right time … the blindness disappears… little by little.
And i saw people like that …
The path itself is a little bit funny … and might look like as a total nonsense …. all what i am writing.
You see … while writing my 10 books with love essays … i had the chance to connect with lots of people … men and women … from all around the world … people that were really in love by a person who was always defined as … a soul mate.
But … unfortunately i saw that most of all those stories … had always an … end.
I changed many thoughts with all those people … while being
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
25
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
in love … but also after the love story did not existed anymore.
They told me about the concept of … us … and how amazing is to be in love …. but later on … i heard so, so many times … “it was all an illusion!”
But a question came into my mind on and on and on …. why
the normal life stoped as the love story to totally dominate us for a while?!
What is the meaning of all that?!
Being in love …. Is it a total nonsense?!
Or … what we define at the end of the love story …. a chapter
of life about the illusion of being alive … is actually an introduction about something else …. much, much deeper.
And i saw few people … including myself … that realized that the concept of …. us … from the love story is somehow
metamorphosed into … a love story with all the people from the timeline of life.
I saw them being in love … of everybody … enjoying the moment … spent with anyone.
A total change … at 180 degrees.
The concept of … us … includes now every person that we actually meet and the love story … is actually a love story with anything means … a soul.
And even the concept of soul mates …. becomes deeper …
cause anyone can be seen as a soul mate.
The illusion of separateness … disappears.
And in fact … the illusion itself … disappears.
So … it all makes sense now … even if it looked so illogical.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
26
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
The day when we find out that there is nothing more important than the heart …. and that all is actually a gateway to the inner soul … that is a lucky day.
Awakening … the real one …. Is quite close.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
I have found the soul and heart.....
Now I just have the need to find the structure........
Yesterday, i saw an old man.
He was siting on the corner of the street … wore dusty
tattered clothes .....
He was playing with mud and was disinterested about the
world .....
He was devoted of feelings....
He was happy in himself, any type of beauty wasn't
impressing him....
He was touching the last limit of indifferently ......
I observed him for an hour … now I wish....
I wish I could take this look … i wish I could adopt this
structure ….
I wish I could be unaware of my surroundings .....
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
27
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
We’ll never be again the same person
we once thought we were.....
(Arij Emaan)
We define ourselves in a certain way most of the times, believing that we will remain as that forever.
But the time proves that we lose the child we used to be, we lose the teenager we used to be … we lose that young personality that had so many dreams regarding the future … In fact … we lose all those versions of ourselves …. the good or the bad ones.
So …. one day we simple realize that we are not anymore the
ones that we used to be … the ones that we thought we are. Time change everything … or maybe i should say … redefines the whole inner structures from ourselves.
And there are times when we like that … and times when we
dislike it … but the things are the way they are … and the only real things we are allow to do by the Universe is … to accept the new version we became …. or come on with a plan of reseting everything … and redefine ourselves.
But still ….we never get back to what we use to think we are. The time itself has a tremendous power … that is not allowing us to … get back that past version.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
28
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
And the real question is … should we care so much about the past, or who we used to be?!
Or?! … maybe we should let the time flow in its unique style
and look just into the present moment and the near future. Acceptance might be the key.
In fact … embracing and trying to understand, but also love any version of ourselves …. not really caring so much about the ones that we used to be … becomes a wiser decision.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
29
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Maybe another script … my dear?!
Hmm …
U can rewrite
U can recheck
U can correct
U can reject
never never never mind......
(Arij Emaan)
Imagine that you are in love … and you can write the script of your love story.
Let’s say you write all the details.
But .. still …. something appears in an unexpected way
between the 2 of you … and the connection is broken.
She loses her hope … and you might do the same.
In the end … seeing this cycle of loving and hating each other on and on and on … she agrees with any possible theory that you might come with … including the one … of a script … a new one.
You actually have the perfect case scenario … the feelings make you follow the right path you have to follow … but you thoughts …
Well … in a moment of awakening … you finally realize that ….the thoughts … are always braking the connection you
have together.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
30
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Not letting the feelings make the right guidance … and allowing contradictory thoughts to ruin you emotionally … is quite silly.
You know it …. but you allow it to happen.
And somehow that’s why the idea of re writing the script of the love story …. makes sense.
Even if …. yeeesss … it’s a total nonsense.
But we don’t really understand all what is going on.
The balance of contradictory emotions … being more a
balance between you thoughts and feelings … is not allowing
you to enjoy the story.
Same as Arij was saying …
“U can rewrite
U can recheck
U can correct
U can reject”
… but .. still …. is not enough.
Ruined emotionally … seeing that you love her so, so much … and can’t live in the story … but neither out of the love story
you understand that the only thing left to do … and that is to let your feelings control the emotional dance you 2 have together.
and totally forget your thoughts!
Somehow … you see that everything is perfect …. in a love
story … but also in any other important chapter of your life … as long as you follow the heart … not the mind.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
31
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I have met a man who has heavy
Personality .....
But he is so wobbler in front of her lady.....
So I got conclusion ....
Sensually men are the slaves of women.....
(Arij Emaan)
It’s very interesting seeing the perspective of the opposite sex.
Chatting with my dear Arij … i smile … somehow understanding the views of the feminine spirit. Don’t get me wrong … cause i am not sarcastic. I really am … not.
But i still smile … and then laugh … when Arij is defining the sensuality of a man … as kind of a slavery. So … is it true or not?!
Maybe it’s just a trick so that we connect to the feminine spirit.
Or maybe … we really become dominated by them … and the only real option is to show our sensitive side … to remain in that connection.
And indeed i saw many men … acting like that.
It’s not my case … but … maybe i am not yet capable of showing the sensual part of my soul.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
32
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
I prefer … a heavy personality … even if it’s a total nonsense acting like this in life.
So … should i make a change with myself?!
Should i care of what Arij has to say?!
What really means …. sensuality?!
well … probably i simple don’t want to try that. Not yet.
Or maybe the past … reminds me of my illusory emotions that made me become the slave … of a love story that i don’t even want to talk about.
or should i say … her slave!
So … Arij was somehow … right!
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
33
UNDERSTANDING OUR THOUGHTS
...an amazing way for discovering who we really are
Don't like to run away …
I try to find the new remedy for inside ache ….
(Arij Emaan)
I do believe in the concept of self therapy.
Is the easiest one … but to be able to do it … you must study a lot … and also be ready to connect with your inner self. We need to meditate.
Let our contradictory thoughts …. come out of us … but also
accept and embrace them.
Actually … smile seeing our beautiful side … but also … the dark one.
