(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
It is no matter
how much
beautiful you are....
how much
worthy you are....
how much
sensible you are....
how much
wise you are....
how much
decent you are .....
No matter ....
The only matter is
how much " HAPPY "
you are....
In several cases people are trying to find
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The path of happiness ....
But they don't know one thing that … happiness itself a path... make sure to live a happy life , don't need to find circumstances
or paths.....
( Arij Emaan)
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The best path for you … has its uniqueness.
Just … enjoy it!
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
We should learn self
compassion.....
So we don't have need to be
too hard to ourselves ....
Sometimes we need
a loving hug ....
an little embrace ....
and also forgiveness
for ourselves .....
We should own things in which we are intrested......
We should enjoy the life
In every step ....
Don't need to follow the
Others timeline
or things in which
other people are
Intrested.....
Order of things doesn't matter
because...
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We are made different
and unique....
(Arij Emaan)
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From previous experiences … I conclude I have no volume...
In my thoughts and in my words.
(Arij Emaan)
My dear Arij is always over reacting when it comes about her philosophical ideas.
More precisely … of expressing that.
Comparing to her … i write 1000 words to define something … and Arij is expressing everything only in 2 lines.
I simple can’t believe how powerful are her words … but guess what?!
Many times, she lives with the illusion that the absence of volume … might be a handicap. … but why?!
I sometimes read what i wrote long time before and not being connected to the subject anymore … i just laugh of the emotional dance from my essays with so, so many contradictory ideas.
I could be defined even … as antagonistic.
But why?!
Then Arij appears again … in my life … and i somehow start to understand that i should conclude much easier what i have to say … and stop writing so many damn perspectives about
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the same thing … on and on and on.
I am smiling looking at myself how i define the same object as white, then black … as in the end to finally conclude that in fact … it’s pink.
So … should Arij be mad on the fact that her philosophical ideas are having … no volume?!
Or i should stop analyzing and defining from so many perspective … the same object … or idea?!
I start to laugh of myself … realizing how lucky Arij is today
cause she has the ability to express her feelings, emotions and thoughts … in such an easy way … just with few words. Cause there is nothing else to do … but just laugh … of myself.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
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I love when … you give attention … to me …
(Arij Emaan)
We delayed everything so … much.
Maybe … cause she is a little bit lazy … but she is a philosopher in the end … so being late … or being in time … is indeed a total nonsense.
I was whispering to her … “Should we continue my dear?!” And … she was smiling.
She always loved to give attention to her.
But … she was doing the same with me.
Somehow … we felt connected … by such a long time … and we remained connected.
Giving attention to each other … meant probably a confirmation of this connection which was … so damn real. I closed my eyes … connected to her … and asked myself … why don’t i do this with everybody?!
What if i should give the same attention .. at least to all the important people from my life?! But maybe … that’s not possible.
Maybe … the connection i have with Arij … it’s different … special … unique …. and that’s the real reason why we
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remain connected and give attention to each other … all the time.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
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I don't need a lonely house …
Or empty spaces …
I can merge myself in you
Even in crowds ….
(Arij Emaan)
With the right person besides you … being in the right connection … i do believe that life can be beautiful … or at least looks like that.
But too bad … cause so, so many people from all around the world … live in the same place with partners that looks like … strangers.
With no connection at all … everything being fucked up … the house itself looks so damn … empty. But why?!
Why bother to stay in such places … with such a partner?! Why what my dear Arij describes … looks just like a fantasy
to so many of us?! Why?! Just … why?!
Most probably … cause we don’t know how to not get lost … one of the other … in the crowds.
And when we leave society and come back home … being again near what we used to define, maybe not so long
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timeago as … a soulmate … we analyze the connection ….
and wonder … why it does not exists anymore?
The lucky ones … remain connected … living the joy of being together.
The other ones …. well … just live together … the loneliness
….
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
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Whenever I fail …
It starts brainstorming into my mind …
My mistakes always enjoin me …
To think
To analyze things …
It is the perfect way to step …
On the path ….
(Arij Emaan)
So …. failing means the start of analyzing if we are or not on
the right path.
Which actually means … that it’s revealing the real truth about where we are in life … and …
Failing … gives us the chance … to redefine … Somehow .. has its part of positivity.
We dislike it … i know … but we should not dislike the truth. Never …
Analyzing things … we actually understand who we are, where we are … and … what we need to change to be on that path that we dream about.
And we start thinking … meditating on and on and on … till … the mistakes are pushing us … to totally disconnect of the actual reality.
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What we dislike so much … becomes a blessing … but just for the ones who know to listen to what the Universe is whispering us.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
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Many of us lives in prisions with … invisible walls.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Seeing that i can’t find that great happiness
the one that i was searching for years I suddenly realize that i actually live In a prison with invisible walls
But i still had a hope inside of my soul And asked the Universe … let me taste That amazing vibe i was chasing for At least from a moment … in a while So … am i asking too much?!
To be allowed to taste … life?!
Just like i would taste a cake from time to time Or a magic pill … that should allow me
to feel the happiness.
And even if it’s all illusory i should still … want to try it
At least from time to time.
(Arij Emaan)
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I'm stupid once again …
Nothing had changed.
(Arij Emaan)
How our lives should look like if after every mistake … we should admit that we took the wrong decision?!
I mean … analyze what we’ve done … and have the guts to say that stupidity defines our daily behavior. But would the Ego let us do that?!
Can we really admit and say … “i’m stupid once again … “?! Most probably …. not.
Maybe not seeing the change … but wanting it so, so much … that’s the only moment when stupidity is accepted … as part of us and the barrier that is not allowing any positive step … seeing the new worlds that we dream about. But it’s too difficult to see … the real truth.
Life continues …and nothing is changing
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
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We all know there are 5 senses in our bodies
Taste
Smell
Touch
Sight
Hearing …
(Arij Emaan)
I am listening to Arij … and i smile.
I see behind her words … so much wisdom.
But it’s funny cause i know all these theories ... and still … my life is not the way i am dreaming about.
In fact i started to ignore by such a long time all those things … and i wonder myself … why?!
I look at Arij … and the meaning of her words becomes so relevant today.
I start … one more time to see things differently.
So i finally see why my dear friend appeared on the timeline of my life … to make me realize about the senses of my soul. I forgot that i should see …. beyond reality.
From there starts everything … and maybe it’s not that i forgot … but … i ignored it.
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It’s because that is a world that i can’t connected properly. I can’t touch anything from there … all being so damn abstract.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
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You are …
You are compulsion to please me You are …
My sign of life …
You are …
I take joy from you …
You are …
You are illume againts
… any elude …
(Arij Emaan)
They met again.
One more time.
… the last one … they promised to each other.
In fact he lied to her … one more time … but even if she knew the whole scenario … let him do whatever he had in mind.
I could even say that they hate each other …. but meeting
again is the only real trick that makes them feel alive.
Nothing else … works.
No matter how much i would analyze them … everything is behind my understanding.
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I simple can’t have the power to see what happens behind the scene of that story.
Maybe … it’s a love from another life time and all this dance of energies that i see … looking at this couple … it’s a mix of the good and the bad side of us.
It’s the first time when i somehow have to admit that they are beyond any theoretical concept …. that i heard about. And still … they are not together …
Or they are together …. just from time to time for short
moments.
I could almost say …. that should be impossible to define the
nonsense of this weird beautiful love story.
But i love … watching their connection … that no matter what … always remains so, so beautiful.
Too bad … cause i am the only one …. seeing that.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
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I'm bored of my ordinary life …
I' m dreaming extra
I'm escaping from it …
(Arij Emaan)
I had this illusion that Arij is telling me about … many, many times.
In fact …. everything was defined by calmness, but i saw in
that … a boring … ordinary life.
And i was dreaming of something totally … different.
I wanted … indeed … to escape from that reality … but … Later on … living a nightmare scenario … i realized i am not a wise person.
At least … not anymore.
I was escaping from an Universe defined by calmness … finding it boring and believing it is useless to live like that … and i entered into a world where everything was so, so different.
I could not recognize the calmness … in anything.
I was actually jumping from being a state of feeling bored … to a nightmare.
So … i was not bored … anymore.
But i did … what?!
Escaped by …. what?!
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Then i was meditating … analyzing the nightmare …but also what i wanted to escape of … and ..
I thought life is ordinary … boring … but what is then … the nightmare?!
I compare the 2 Universes … and ask again for … calmness. But it is funny … cause everything is … not taking so much as we might think.
Or maybe … we can’t adapt ourselves to a state of calmness.
It’s probably … a handicap of the human being.
And the nightmare itself … makes sense.
Makes us realize the meaning of … calmness … and why we should want to remain there.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
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We need a partner with the same mindset …
Not only in bed …
But also on everywhere …
(Arij Emaan)
I see over the years so many people … dreaming.
They were dreaming of a perfect case scenario … or maybe i should say more precisely … of a fairy tale.
one that could be real … but we let the outside world interfere too much in our lives.
