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Admiring the feminine spirit … seen as an art
One of my friends is keep sending me amazing videos with gorgeous ladies.
And to tell you the truth …. I found it stupid in the beginning
… to end up … adoring watching those clips.
But … as always … i’ve started to analyze … why the hell we do that?!
Of course … being over 40 … is absolutely normal at a man to do that … but … still i had to find the logical explanation behind this silly illogical behavior.
And analyzing myself … but also my friend … i’ve realized that we came to a point when we almost considered that ….
admiring the feminine spirit is an art … and somehow we could also be defined as … artists.
We went deeper and deeper … with all those analyzes of the feminine soul and body …. but i still did not had an answer of why we paid so much attention for such activity.
I could not understand … the reasons of why men are so, so interested in … ladies.
But time was passing … and even if we started to invest more and more time into that … and it looked like it almost became … an addiction … i finally realized that we were
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analyzing in fact … the perfection of the feminine spirit … but also dreaming of meeting and connecting to those persons. It all became … an obsession … but we were already in the position of really understanding what we were looking for. Yes … we were chasing for … perfection.
But … for amazing souls … that were living in gorgeous bodies.
And even if it sounded as cliche … we already knew what we wanted.
We were dreaming day … and night … and all those analyzes … were guiding us in our … searches.
People were … of course … judging us … but we ignored all of them.
We simple did not cared of anyone’s opinion…
Our main objective … became to study much closer those feminine souls … and experience the connection with them. We dared to define it … an art.
And we continued … loving what we were doing …. giving us
the freedom to do what others were defining as … stupid.
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Acting as the perfect partner … but also looking at everything as a show … a nice way of enjoying reality
My friend Brian …. which i use as inspiration in many of my
essays … recently told me about an experiment that he’s doing with our common friend Sheila.
They meet once a week and play a game … called … in a love story with the perfect partner.
They define one for the other … everything means … an amazing love story, what their expectations are in such a relationship … but also try to act … as into a hollywoodian love movie.
It’s like they train themselves to be great actors into a love story.
She is …. his love teacher.
He is … her love teacher … too.
They made the understanding… to not get in love with each other … but also to do all their best for 2-3 hours … once a week … to act like being into an amazing story.
Brian said … that last week … she was dancing for him … trying to seduce him … and he feeling amazing.
Of course … it was all an illusion … and it all looked like a stupid game … but what was interesting to see … both at
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Brian, but also at Sheila …. cause she was also telling me
from time to time what they were doing … was that they adored ... this game.
They both … made efforts to satisfy the partner in the best possible way … and were acting indeed as … great actors. And all had a … clear purpose.
… to train themselves to be …. amazing.
I smile … in front of such a story … but i vote it as a great idea.
I do not judge them … anymore … as i did in the beginning … when hearing about the experiment.
Actually … i trend to believe that i need such a partner as Sheila too.
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The emptiness looks so much … similar with a … nonsense …. but ….
I was listening the words of the song … and i smile … listening all … on and on and on. Then i found the translation …
“I'll look into your soul, but it's so empty And you talk about spirituality so often
Life is like a song on repeat, everything will pass, but it will hurt, and only wounds will remain” And … i am amazed.
My soul was indeed empty and it had lots of wounds … I’ve connected with the song …. not really understanding a word … but realizing it’s all about me.
Then … i dared to ask … who the hell is that lady from the clip?!
What is she doing there … in the scene?!
I started to see all … as an abstract representation of my life
and all became so damn clear. I smiled.
My intuition still works … and the signs with all sorts of messages … were everywhere.
the empty soul.
the wounds.
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… that beautiful lady.
I was reading the words of the song … again and again.
I was actually trying to realize … what i need to clarify … or maybe to accept as clear for my present moment.
Well … it now made total sense why so many lost souls … listen those amazing songs … like this one. Before … i found that … so stupid.
But now … i see beyond reality … and i finally accept that …
music is kind of a … therapy.
… a very nice one.
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So often we see beautiful people becoming … something that we would compare with … ruins.
But all was just a decision that continued on and on and on … until it became too late.
From time to time i see people that i did not saw by many, many years.
I recently started to go to a supermarket, close to the house where i grew up … and i was amazed seeing lots of people which i knew from my childhood.
Some gorgeous girls from 20 - 30 years ago … are now 40-45-50 years old … and i realize that there is no connection anymore between what they used to be … and the present moment.
And with all the respect … to the feminine spirit … i still can’t can’t explain to myself … what the hell happened to those people.
But i also see some men … that were close friends of mine from middle school …. and can’t realize what the hell happened to them also.
white hair … many of them are very fat … and look 15-20 years much older as they are.
They really look like … ruins.
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And it’s even worst.
They look so, so … unhappy.
I keep having into my mind the question … what the hell happened to them?!
How they could be metamorphosed from amazing people into
being … what they are today?!
It all looks … unexplainable.
But more and more … i am meditating … i realize that it was all … a decision.
A stupid thing … that took them away from being on the path of … greatness.
All looked amazing in front of them many years ago … but … something changed in time.
It all became … worst and worst …
Well … until this point when I personally have a shock ….
looking at what i should define now as … ruins.
Maybe i am wrong … maybe i am not …
But … still … what i see … looks stupid.
In the end … i only ask myself one more question … who am i to judge those people?!
cause in fact … i was judging their journey of life. So …
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There are many moments in life when someone needs to remind us … we are … stupids. And still …. we avoid the truth.
My friend Henry … happens to have a cousin that sees beyond reality … and also into the future.
I sometimes go out with 2 of them at the coffee shop … and i am amazed of Emily’s clarity to see things.
And sometimes … it’s somehow really embarrassing… finding out so many details that i had no idea about.
One month ago … staying at the table with the 2 of them ….
but also with my friend Paul … Henry started again telling us about Victoria.
how amazing she is, how in love he is of her, how a great connection they have …. and others blablablas.
But suddenly i hear Emily … totally annoyed …. “Stop it! Just stop it! Stop telling us on and on and on about this crap … story.
The girl is a prostitute. Noo … it’s worst!
She is a totally stupid thing for your life …. and worst than she would be a prostitute … cause she is cheating you by a
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long, long time …. with an amazing joy into her heart.
So … stop telling us this crap with your … hollywoodian love story.”
We were all … shocked.
I could not believe what Emily was saying … but i was shocked because most probably she was right … like always. In 100% of the other cases Emily told her opinion .. she was …. right.
So … Paul is asking …. “Emily … should we really believe what
you are saying?!”
“… unfortunately… yes”
Suddenly … Paul looks at Henry and says … “My friend … by an accident i found our few weeks ago that Victoria is also dating with John.
You know John … the guy from the other coffee shop where we use to go …
And when i told to John that it’s not fair what he is doing ….
he simple replied that they are just sex mates … and in fact Victoria is cheating on you with many other guys.
I know it sounds horrible …. all what i am saying … but …”
It was all so … fucking embarrassing…
But i smile … trying to calm Henry … saying … “My dear friend … maybe this weird situation is just a karmic fact.
It sounds totally humiliating… all what Paul and your cousin just said … but …
As far as i remember … you also dated with other women. Somehow … it’s all a karmic response … and we should see that … but we just don’t … see this perspective… And we should not be so … amazed.”
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Emily … still annoyed of those stories coming from Henry … complaining again of her cousin … says … “I’ve always told you are stupid … and act stupid on the scene of life. Please reconsider … a change.
Try to change your values … and life will change.
It’s not a drama that Victoria acted like that.
And second of all .. you deserved it.”
I was … smiling.
It was a little bit ridiculous… but indeed a story about karma and its effects.
And the fact that we act so stupid on the scene of life … but expect to get amazing response from the Universe.
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We always forget of the … mirror effect
Long time a ago … a young guy that just finished his studies … balancing between becoming a priest and a businessman … started to talk to me about the philosophy of life.
With a little bit of arrogance … smiling … i dare to ask him …
“ what the hell they taught you about life at this university for … priests?! “
Smiling … having a nice charisma … he replies:
“Well … the main idea that they kept repeating us … was that everything into this life is a … mirror of our souls.”
I liked … the answer.
And we continued chatting.
We were at his home … in his nice living room, with his wife … but also with my friend Brian.
In fact we visited our young friend … cause Brian wanted to ask him a favor for …. his mistress … not telling him that the lady he was talking about was in love with him.
The next future priest …. had to help Maria for something related with her studies.
John … listened to us … and smiled.
He assured us that for a beautiful lady as Maria … he would do it with a real pleasure … anytime.
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But i dared to asked him … looking at Brian … and also at John’s wife … “Do you think your wife will mind if you help Maria with this favor?!
You’ll need to go with her at university … stay with her … Maybe your lovely wife … will be a little bit jealous … and will misunderstand the help we ask from you.”
John smiled again … and assured us his wife will not have anything against this fact … and looked really happy cause we ask him such a favor.
I was looking at him …. at his wife … but also smiled to Brian.
It was just me … the one that knew that Maria was Brian’s mistress … but i could not understand such a silly behavior from John.
He was acting like we’ve put him in contact with a beautiful lady … for dating with her.
… and his wife was there … listening to us.
But i knew Brian was not jealous anymore … by years … and this whole episode had a funny meaning for himself.
and i was also sure that he will not feel offended by the next future priest.
Time was passing … and unfortunately John did not helped Maria so much … but what was funny was that Brian called me one day … being totally surprised… and saying to me … “You remember John and his wife?! That funny guy that thought that I will probably deliver Maria to him … so that he can have a love affair with her?!
Well … his wife is keep sending me messages and i think she’s flirting with me… “
I could not believe it … seeing the dynamic of the whole story.
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It all became into the end a reflection of John’s behavior.
In his silly young mind …. John had the amazing idea that he
will start a love affair with Maria … not really paying attention at all of anything … me and Brian were saying.
Indeed John .. was acting stupid … even if as future priest he should act more as a person … having strong moral values. And the reverse … of everything … of those stupid intentions … appeared at the end of the story.
I look at Brian and ask … “So what reply you gave to John’s wife?!”
“Hmm! …. I was just pretending i am stupid … and i don’t
really understand what she is doing.
Same as i did with … John.”
Well … indeed … what the hell could we do in such a situation?!
seeing the dynamic of the whole story … pretending we don’t see how stupid people act on the stage of life …. even if they know the theory that life itself it’s a reflection of our inners souls … but also of our actions … i smiled.
