Brian proved indeed one more time …. to not act stupid … even if i knew that he did one million similar mistakes in his lifetime.
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... philosophical essays
Unfortunately … in life … what we love today … many times … tomorrow … we just hate it
I had the chance to meet during my life time lots … lots of people.
And some of them … i meet … occasionally …from time to time … we chat and i am somehow trying to define with them
the past, the present moment … but also the future. Analyzing all my discussions with them … i can only conclude that i am in front of a nonsense.
What they used to tell me they loved … 3-6-9 months ago … now they explain to me … with lots, lots of details … that they just dislike.
Some of them are even saying that they just … hate everything is going on … the whole discussion being in total contradiction with what they told me … not so long time ago. I meditate … trying to understand the meaning of this nonsense … somehow judging them … but later on i realize … i am not different of those people.
It’s a little bit stupid saying … i love my job, my spouse, my car, my etc … and then say … i just dislike that .. or even worst … i hate it.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
46
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... philosophical essays
So … why this stupid balance of contradictory emotions?!
What sense does it make?!
Unfortunately to really understand … the meaning of that … i’ve finally accepted i need to come back to myself … and study my own behavior … then go deeper and deeper and deeper.
Why we actually …. have enough of tasting a certain type of
energy after a while??
Why we want it so much … then want to run away of it?!
And why … we keep changing our mind saying today … i want this … tomorrow … i want that … and the show continues like that on and on and on …
Until … we finally accept it all became an emotional balance of contradictory emotions … actions … and results.
Maybe … i should start to ask myself … just after saying … i want that and that and that … if in fact …. It’s not an illusion
all what i am saying. And be a little bit … wiser.
Ask myself … 2,3,4 … 10 times … do i really want that … or …. it’s only an illusion that i want it?!
But … truth be told … we are not … wise beings.
We act like we are here to experience … pathless paths … and nothing more …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
47
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... philosophical essays
Reality … a collection of energies … attracted by us
I really believe in the little tricks that i kept writing about … how we can actually understand our lives … and have a better life.
Analyzing … defining with real honesty all what is going on … as in the end to find a solution for redefining all … it’s probably a way in how life itself …. can become what we really want to be.
And it’s so damn easy to apply this concept … looking at the other people from the scene of our lives. I see myself … analyzing so, so clearly.
I am actually amazed of my clarity … of understanding other destinies …. but when it comes to myself … i’m so, so blind.
Actually … i always avoid defining the real truth about my intentions … my desires … and everything it’s related with my unconscious side of my being.
I always forget … or pretend i always forget that all i see around myself … it’s a reflection of my inner world.
of my actions, of my thoughts, of my desires, of my intentions… and pretending … the cause-effect result will not appear … it is totally ridiculous.
It’s like pretending we ignore … gravity.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
48
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... philosophical essays
It’s all a reflection … and what we see in this mirror … called life … can’t be changed … unless we actually … change our inner values … and all the things we want to see in reality … must be created …. in a beautiful way … in mind and soul first.
So … probably … all what i am trying to say is that … most probably … reality itself is created by us … into a conscious and an unconscious way …. all being … a collection of energies … attracted only and only by us.
And it’s all about realizing the balance between our conscious and unconscious … side.
But also accept it … as normal … as part of the journey of being on the stage of life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... philosophical essays
Doing mistakes is part of the journey called … life. Judging that is … useless.
I was recently analyzing with someone a silly mistake that also involved me.
And it had indeed an impact on myself too … but … this time i’ve decided to have a totally different perspective on everything.
I was analyzing all what happened … and defined in front of
her … my perception about it.
She thought … i was mad.
But no … i was not mad.
I’ve been realistic.
Few other people were involved also … and the whole impact on the dynamic of our relationships … was very serious.
We had been friends … but could not know … if we can continue being friends anymore. A silly mistake … changed all.
I was only smiling … defining the whole situation to this dear friend of mine … but she was just listening … with indignation… all.
She realized the mistake … and the impact… but it was … too late.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... philosophical essays
Even our relationship was .. redefined.
But you see … it took me such a long, long time to say the truth … as in the end to realize i could have with this lady a … clean connection.
I was disagreeing her actions … but … accepting all as a test of our friendship … was a positive thing. The mistake existed … anyway.
We pretended we did not saw it … but maybe the only mistake was that … the delay of not admitting the truth that the mistake existed … ruined all.
Not being able to look at each other … and say … stop it …. to
many of the stupid games we’ve do all the time … is simple … ridiculous.
today i felt good … after telling all what i thought … it really happened.
My intuition was … right.
my fears were dominating me … and i allowed all to continue into a way … which i knew was wrong.
I could simple … disappear from that story. Stop doing anything … but simple disappear. Judging was … useless.
Even at that time … and even today.
My mind … was keep thinking and thinking and thinking … and i finally understood that … the acceptance of our mistakes is the key … for great relationships.
And … conclude all our analysis with … a smile.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
51
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... philosophical essays
Karmic money … a way of wasting our time
for collecting more and more …. something that we will never enjoy
There’re lots of influences from everywhere … telling us that money represents the key for a beautiful life … and we are so, so silly that we believe we can actually be even happy … if we would have this.
The time is passing and we start to have an obsession to have more and more and more …. not asking ourselves if this
is a real path to follow in life … or just a pathless path. And I had this focus on money … on and on and on … for almost 25 years.
I could even say …. It was all … an obsession …. having the
illusory belief that money will heal my fears, will bring me relaxation … and in fact the best life could offer to a human being.
So … all what i had in mind was to make more and more money.
I wanted it so, so badly that i forgot about morality … values
or anything relating to a normal attitude. I just wanted money.
I was suffering of a disease of wanting more and more money … continuing having the illusory belief that later …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
52
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
those money will bring me … happiness.
And i continued … believing that this path is the best way i could continue my life … not realizing my naivety.
But money came … more and more and more … and guess what?!
The happiness delayed to appear.
For a while … i thought i am still not ready for that … or i simple had to continue collecting more money … not being enough the level where i was.
I was … so damn silly … acting like a child that is trying to touch the horizon line.
But unfortunately… it was all worst than that.
It was not that i could not enjoy … those money … but ignoring the fact that money are in fact energy … i did not realized that the all those possessions i had … came against me.
I wanted badly something … did not cared how i was getting that something …. so that in the end to be overwhelmed by a
negative impact … all being related with those energies which i would define today as … karmic money.
So … my stupid obsession …. like any obsession … came
against myself.
All became … karmic.
And it was not only that all those money did not brought me anything good … but the impact was huge … and was unfortunately a negative one.
I’ve realized … i’ve wasted my time for almost 25 years … as in the end to see that … in fact … i was following just … pathless paths.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
53
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
It was all an illusion … and i’ve been so, so stupid. Everything i’ve started to ask myself was if it was …. too late
to change anything.
but who the hell …. knows.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
54
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
We carry so, so many
emotional masks ….
People change.
All of us are changing.
Today … we are not the ones we’ve been yesterday … and most probably tomorrow we will not be the ones which we’ve recently been.
But what i see … as funny … is our expectations that people will accept those changes … simple … as part o the journey … called life …. and as evolution.
On the other hand … realizing it could also be a confusion of perspective … i think we miss understand a little bit … the whole process … and instead of clearly defining as carrying different emotional masks … we actually pretended that we’ve changed.
Politely … people told us just that … we’ve changed.
And we continued like that … on and on and on, even if it was so damn obvious that we’re just dominated by certain energies … that make us act like … the weather. Of course … also not so … predictable.
If someone would define us with clarity and honesty … would probably say that we are beings carrying a large spectrum of
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
55
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... philosophical essays
emotional masks … as in the end to actually say the real truth that …. allowed the emotions to be responsible for everything … including … ruining our lives.
And … we smile, we cry, we love … we hate … we ….
Well … simple let those masks dominate our own lives … not really understanding … the long term impact.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... philosophical essays
Truth be told … we can’t stop ourselves adoring more than one person.
She was 24 … and her husband 26.
And … that amazing friend of her husband was 48, same as her mother … but she never knew his age … cause he was looking so, so young.
But … time was passing and Eric understood from her look … that Clara liked him.
In fact … it was so damn clear … that he could just go … hug and kiss her.
She loved her husband … but many times he was away … in his business trips … and that made their relationship too complicated.
And after a while …. it became so, so difficult to control … her
feelings.
It all was … obvious…. but could not understand what is
really going on … cause she really loved her husband.
I could even say … she adored her partner … being together by more than 8 years …. since high school.
And still … this man … made her lost her mind …. and the
control over …. everything.
One day … finding out his age … realizing he has the same age as her mother … she understood one more time that it’s
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... philosophical essays
all so … inappropriate … but …
She could not stop herself … liking him.
In fact …. adoring him.
Clara could not understand… this nonsense that was
dominating her soul.
Why?!
Why?!
Why?!
She kept wondering herself … “Why i adore in the same time … almost with the same intensity … those 2 men?!
I should stop myself … adoring … Eric … but i simple … can’t.” I was smiling … looking at this story … realizing that many times … energies beyond the scene of life … are controlling … everything.
And we define all as a … nonsense.
Maybe Eric and Clara were lovers into a previous life … and seeing their connection as illusory … was actually …. so silly of us.
And … the nonsense continued …
She could not stop herself … to adore him.
… and Eric … simple adored … being adored.
Analyzing them … trying to define all …. I smiled … finally
understanding the dance of energies … beyond reality. …. not even bothered to say anything … anymore …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
58
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... philosophical essays
The illusion of personal marketing can induce nice connections with the people around us … but on long term … it’s useless.
I see more and more people … on the stage of my life … that are investing a lot in … personal marketing.
They buy expensive clothes, fancy cars …. go in exclusive
vacations … and they do all their best to … look amazing.
They see in all those things … attributes that make them ….
be someone …. important.
The power of all the great brands … connected with their own personalities … creates in the end a good marketing for the … individual.
It’s what we could define as a great imagine that makes the people around to see that person into a good way.
And for a while … everyone admires and wants to connect to those people.
It’s indeed a nice way of attracting the people from the stage of life.
Even if it is about creating new business opportunities… or simple … make new friends … or even start a new love relationship …. personal marketing helps a lot. The trick is used by more and more people.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
45
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
Unfortunately … in life … what we love today … many times … tomorrow … we just hate it
I had the chance to meet during my life time lots … lots of people.
And some of them … i meet … occasionally …from time to time … we chat and i am somehow trying to define with them
the past, the present moment … but also the future. Analyzing all my discussions with them … i can only conclude that i am in front of a nonsense.
What they used to tell me they loved … 3-6-9 months ago … now they explain to me … with lots, lots of details … that they just dislike.
Some of them are even saying that they just … hate everything is going on … the whole discussion being in total contradiction with what they told me … not so long time ago. I meditate … trying to understand the meaning of this nonsense … somehow judging them … but later on i realize … i am not different of those people.
It’s a little bit stupid saying … i love my job, my spouse, my car, my etc … and then say … i just dislike that .. or even worst … i hate it.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
46
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
So … why this stupid balance of contradictory emotions?!
What sense does it make?!
Unfortunately to really understand … the meaning of that … i’ve finally accepted i need to come back to myself … and study my own behavior … then go deeper and deeper and deeper.
Why we actually …. have enough of tasting a certain type of
energy after a while??
Why we want it so much … then want to run away of it?!
And why … we keep changing our mind saying today … i want this … tomorrow … i want that … and the show continues like that on and on and on …
Until … we finally accept it all became an emotional balance of contradictory emotions … actions … and results.
Maybe … i should start to ask myself … just after saying … i want that and that and that … if in fact …. It’s not an illusion
all what i am saying. And be a little bit … wiser.
Ask myself … 2,3,4 … 10 times … do i really want that … or …. it’s only an illusion that i want it?!
But … truth be told … we are not … wise beings.
We act like we are here to experience … pathless paths … and nothing more …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
47
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
Reality … a collection of energies … attracted by us
I really believe in the little tricks that i kept writing about … how we can actually understand our lives … and have a better life.
Analyzing … defining with real honesty all what is going on … as in the end to find a solution for redefining all … it’s probably a way in how life itself …. can become what we really want to be.
And it’s so damn easy to apply this concept … looking at the other people from the scene of our lives. I see myself … analyzing so, so clearly.
I am actually amazed of my clarity … of understanding other destinies …. but when it comes to myself … i’m so, so blind.
Actually … i always avoid defining the real truth about my intentions … my desires … and everything it’s related with my unconscious side of my being.
I always forget … or pretend i always forget that all i see around myself … it’s a reflection of my inner world.
of my actions, of my thoughts, of my desires, of my intentions… and pretending … the cause-effect result will not appear … it is totally ridiculous.
It’s like pretending we ignore … gravity.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
48
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
It’s all a reflection … and what we see in this mirror … called life … can’t be changed … unless we actually … change our inner values … and all the things we want to see in reality … must be created …. in a beautiful way … in mind and soul first.
So … probably … all what i am trying to say is that … most probably … reality itself is created by us … into a conscious and an unconscious way …. all being … a collection of energies … attracted only and only by us.
And it’s all about realizing the balance between our conscious and unconscious … side.
But also accept it … as normal … as part of the journey of being on the stage of life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
49
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
Doing mistakes is part of the journey called … life. Judging that is … useless.
I was recently analyzing with someone a silly mistake that also involved me.
And it had indeed an impact on myself too … but … this time i’ve decided to have a totally different perspective on everything.
I was analyzing all what happened … and defined in front of
her … my perception about it.
She thought … i was mad.
But no … i was not mad.
I’ve been realistic.
Few other people were involved also … and the whole impact on the dynamic of our relationships … was very serious.
We had been friends … but could not know … if we can continue being friends anymore. A silly mistake … changed all.
I was only smiling … defining the whole situation to this dear friend of mine … but she was just listening … with indignation… all.
She realized the mistake … and the impact… but it was … too late.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
50
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
Even our relationship was .. redefined.
But you see … it took me such a long, long time to say the truth … as in the end to realize i could have with this lady a … clean connection.
I was disagreeing her actions … but … accepting all as a test of our friendship … was a positive thing. The mistake existed … anyway.
We pretended we did not saw it … but maybe the only mistake was that … the delay of not admitting the truth that the mistake existed … ruined all.
Not being able to look at each other … and say … stop it …. to
many of the stupid games we’ve do all the time … is simple … ridiculous.
today i felt good … after telling all what i thought … it really happened.
My intuition was … right.
my fears were dominating me … and i allowed all to continue into a way … which i knew was wrong.
I could simple … disappear from that story. Stop doing anything … but simple disappear. Judging was … useless.
Even at that time … and even today.
My mind … was keep thinking and thinking and thinking … and i finally understood that … the acceptance of our mistakes is the key … for great relationships.
And … conclude all our analysis with … a smile.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
51
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
Karmic money … a way of wasting our time
for collecting more and more …. something that we will never enjoy
There’re lots of influences from everywhere … telling us that money represents the key for a beautiful life … and we are so, so silly that we believe we can actually be even happy … if we would have this.
The time is passing and we start to have an obsession to have more and more and more …. not asking ourselves if this
is a real path to follow in life … or just a pathless path. And I had this focus on money … on and on and on … for almost 25 years.
I could even say …. It was all … an obsession …. having the
illusory belief that money will heal my fears, will bring me relaxation … and in fact the best life could offer to a human being.
So … all what i had in mind was to make more and more money.
I wanted it so, so badly that i forgot about morality … values
or anything relating to a normal attitude. I just wanted money.
I was suffering of a disease of wanting more and more money … continuing having the illusory belief that later …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
52
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
those money will bring me … happiness.
And i continued … believing that this path is the best way i could continue my life … not realizing my naivety.
But money came … more and more and more … and guess what?!
The happiness delayed to appear.
For a while … i thought i am still not ready for that … or i simple had to continue collecting more money … not being enough the level where i was.
I was … so damn silly … acting like a child that is trying to touch the horizon line.
But unfortunately… it was all worst than that.
It was not that i could not enjoy … those money … but ignoring the fact that money are in fact energy … i did not realized that the all those possessions i had … came against me.
I wanted badly something … did not cared how i was getting that something …. so that in the end to be overwhelmed by a
negative impact … all being related with those energies which i would define today as … karmic money.
So … my stupid obsession …. like any obsession … came
against myself.
All became … karmic.
And it was not only that all those money did not brought me anything good … but the impact was huge … and was unfortunately a negative one.
I’ve realized … i’ve wasted my time for almost 25 years … as in the end to see that … in fact … i was following just … pathless paths.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
53
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
It was all an illusion … and i’ve been so, so stupid. Everything i’ve started to ask myself was if it was …. too late
to change anything.
but who the hell …. knows.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
54
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
We carry so, so many
emotional masks ….
People change.
All of us are changing.
Today … we are not the ones we’ve been yesterday … and most probably tomorrow we will not be the ones which we’ve recently been.
But what i see … as funny … is our expectations that people will accept those changes … simple … as part o the journey … called life …. and as evolution.
On the other hand … realizing it could also be a confusion of perspective … i think we miss understand a little bit … the whole process … and instead of clearly defining as carrying different emotional masks … we actually pretended that we’ve changed.
Politely … people told us just that … we’ve changed.
And we continued like that … on and on and on, even if it was so damn obvious that we’re just dominated by certain energies … that make us act like … the weather. Of course … also not so … predictable.
If someone would define us with clarity and honesty … would probably say that we are beings carrying a large spectrum of
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
55
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
emotional masks … as in the end to actually say the real truth that …. allowed the emotions to be responsible for everything … including … ruining our lives.
And … we smile, we cry, we love … we hate … we ….
Well … simple let those masks dominate our own lives … not really understanding … the long term impact.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
56
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
Truth be told … we can’t stop ourselves adoring more than one person.
She was 24 … and her husband 26.
And … that amazing friend of her husband was 48, same as her mother … but she never knew his age … cause he was looking so, so young.
But … time was passing and Eric understood from her look … that Clara liked him.
In fact … it was so damn clear … that he could just go … hug and kiss her.
She loved her husband … but many times he was away … in his business trips … and that made their relationship too complicated.
And after a while …. it became so, so difficult to control … her
feelings.
It all was … obvious…. but could not understand what is
really going on … cause she really loved her husband.
I could even say … she adored her partner … being together by more than 8 years …. since high school.
And still … this man … made her lost her mind …. and the
control over …. everything.
One day … finding out his age … realizing he has the same age as her mother … she understood one more time that it’s
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
57
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... philosophical essays
all so … inappropriate … but …
She could not stop herself … liking him.
In fact …. adoring him.
Clara could not understand… this nonsense that was
dominating her soul.
Why?!
Why?!
Why?!
She kept wondering herself … “Why i adore in the same time … almost with the same intensity … those 2 men?!
I should stop myself … adoring … Eric … but i simple … can’t.” I was smiling … looking at this story … realizing that many times … energies beyond the scene of life … are controlling … everything.
And we define all as a … nonsense.
Maybe Eric and Clara were lovers into a previous life … and seeing their connection as illusory … was actually …. so silly of us.
And … the nonsense continued …
She could not stop herself … to adore him.
… and Eric … simple adored … being adored.
Analyzing them … trying to define all …. I smiled … finally
understanding the dance of energies … beyond reality. …. not even bothered to say anything … anymore …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
58
DOING STUPID THINGS … AN AMAZING JOURNEY
... philosophical essays
The illusion of personal marketing can induce nice connections with the people around us … but on long term … it’s useless.
I see more and more people … on the stage of my life … that are investing a lot in … personal marketing.
They buy expensive clothes, fancy cars …. go in exclusive
vacations … and they do all their best to … look amazing.
They see in all those things … attributes that make them ….
be someone …. important.
The power of all the great brands … connected with their own personalities … creates in the end a good marketing for the … individual.
It’s what we could define as a great imagine that makes the people around to see that person into a good way.
And for a while … everyone admires and wants to connect to those people.
It’s indeed a nice way of attracting the people from the stage of life.
Even if it is about creating new business opportunities… or simple … make new friends … or even start a new love relationship …. personal marketing helps a lot. The trick is used by more and more people.
