And there are times when we are simple surrounded by lots of energies … that somehow start to dominate our beings. When i say that …. I say it from my own experiences … after analyzing and defining a lot my life.
I saw how an idea … repeated by someone on and on and on
becomes a truth … and then starts to dominates with obsession … my own reality.
And it’s not that i saw it one … two times … but lots … lots of times.
I allowed myself to be dominated by everything. One day … the weather ruined my vibe.
Next day … a driver from the road back to home.
to realize in the end that i hate all the people that were driving around me at that moment.
Then … my friends.
and also my family.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Well …. until one day when I’ve understood that i can’t avoid
the interference with the influences … but i could … ignore them.
It was only a decision.
Ignoring … staying disconnected from all the energies that try to induce us influences … as in the end to see the trend of dominance … might be … the key.
But it’s so … so easy to say that … when you stay away from the stage of life … and you analyze all not like an actor … but like a spectator.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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When they finally realize that domination is impossible …
they just … leave.
And … never … come back.
I see many people not liking where they are in life.
And when i realize how good they define all …. with so, so
many details why they don’t like that reality … i even start to laugh.
It’s all the time about a scene where things not happen into the way they wanted it to happen.
Yes … i say that i laugh cause they are just … ridiculous. I want to ask them … “Today it’s raining. Would you do something to bring the sun back to us?!” … but they don’t hear me … and none of my messages. Suddenly i realize it’s all about … domination.
They simple want … like little kids … as things to happen into a certain way …. just because they want that. They want to control … everything.
The events … the people … all.
The script is written into their minds and no matter if it is a good or a bad script …. it’s very important for them … as
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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everything to happen that way.
I stop laughing.
Realize somehow … that is useless … but i still allow myself to … smile … and not say a word about my perceptions.
Into the past …. I was arguing with all those people a lot …
trying to convince them that it’s wrong such a type of behavior.
Now … after realizing it’s all useless … i smile and keep practicing ignorance with them.
But i still see them trying … and trying and trying.
Until one day …. when realizing they failed … they simple
disappear.
And never … come back.
Unfortunately…. later on i start to see others.
Maybe it’s all a message that is repeated to me on and on … to realize something.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
50
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We use to define people as good or bad … but maybe it’s all about the energies they are anchored in …. and they are not like that.
Analyzing the people around is so damn easy.
Anyone from this plannet that love gossiping… could probably prove that have great psychological knowledge. And they do it so … so good.
But what is weird is that when it comes by ourselves … we simple don’t have the same ability of seeing and understanding the meaning of our behavior on the stage of life.
We simple can’t see clear enough … and even if everything is so obvious… we just find an explanation that hides pretty well the truth.
But my spiritual question is … how can we really define ourselves?!
Good … bad … so, so?!
Well … if i would have the ability to define myself with real honesty … i would tell about myself that i’ve done lots of good things … but also lots … lots of bad things.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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I proved myself that i am a person without any real values, but also a person with … great values. So … what type of person am i?!
Could i be defined as a good person?!
or a bad person?! Or … so, so?
Should i make a balance of my actions and if i’ve done more good things …. i could declare myself as good … and if i’ve done more bad things, i could declare myself as a bad person?!
I find the idea … a little bit ridiculous.
even this trend of defining myself into a certain way.
but also doing that with the others.
So?!
Is this a stupid subject we are debating?!
… or a difficult one.
Does it worth to wonder what is going on?!
Well … i think yes.
I somehow believe that in life … we are not really conscious of what we are doing.
We are probably anchored in good or bad energies that dominates our life.
And indeed duality is part of us.
Today we might act in a good way … but the next day … we might simple act totally different.
And have a balancing behavior between positivity and negativity.
So … we are in fact dominated by the duality of life … and the only good thing we could do is to become aware of how we act on the stage of life?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
52
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100% we will keep doing mistakes.
Probably we’ll keep doing that on and on and on … but making always an introspection of all what is going on ….
acting as people that are conscious of the activity from the scene of life …. we might still have a chance to become better souls.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
53
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
Doing everything perfect … but not getting the result we’ve wanted … so damn annoying
A very simple way of dominating the scene of the real life is to do … or at least try to do … everything … perfect. When we are 20 … it’s almost impossible.
At 30 … it all starts to go … into a trend that reminds us of … perfection.
But … close to 40 … after having lots of life experiences… it all becomes much clearer of what we have to do. And we start to act better and better.
We might even say …. that the tremendous determination of
having that perfect reality which we defined by such a long, long time … made us act as … amazing actors.
And yes … we act perfect on the stage of life … but what it’s funny is that even in the situation of such a great interpretation of our roles … things don’t get into the direction we want.
That perfect reality … delays to be the way we want it to be. Even if all started with shy influences… it all becomes into the end … an obsession.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
54
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the one of dominating every detail … so that we finally get
that projection we dream by such a long, long time. Analyzing all … we realize that indeed we do everything perfect … but … we simple just not get the result we’ve wanted.
and it’s so damn annoying.
But … we continue acting perfect … being dominated of the desire of getting what we want … and … Well … nothing improves.
All remains the same … and even if it looks like we are close of what we wanted … we realize it’s all so … so illusory.
We start to admit that acting perfect … it’s not enough … and it’s really bad if all becomes an obsession.
… the story continues … and still … no change.
It’s all similar with touching the horizontal line …. but we just
don’t want to admit it.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
55
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
Fucking connections … kind of a hobby
An amazing relation is firstly defined by the connection between the 2 souls.
But unfortunately … the connection is not everything.
Life … real life i mean … has many, many components.
and we don’t really pay attention at all the details. And we continue … doing mistakes.
Today one …. tomorrow another one … and so on ….
After a while … we declare ourselves surprised that the things are not anymore what they used to be.
That amazing connection is not defined anymore … as amazing.
It’s probably … a good connection … simple ruined by all the mistakes we do in time.
I could even say that … fucking the connection is almost … a hobby … which we subconsciously practice … as idiots.
And the beauty of that amazing relationship… just fade. Little … by little …
Day … by day ….
We are sorry … but somehow we can’t stop this process … of ruining the connection.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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We think … and we meditate more and more with regret ….
cause indeed the Universe offered us a great story … but all it’s useless.
We simple could not act … as good actors.
And we fail all the time.
Great connection … beautiful persons on the stage of our lives …. but ….
Yes … unfortunately… this fucking “but”… exists … and we can’t get rid of it.
It looks like a ridiculous … hobby.
And … well …
Time makes as beautiful stories to fade … or even going to an end.
Then we start … other stories … and again we act stupid.
Again and again and again.
No sign … of wisdom by our side …
It’s all like we don’t learn anything from all our life experiences.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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We should be always aware of the energies that dominate … reality …. but also our own souls
One of the most difficult things to accept about the human being is that … being dominated by a certain type of energy
we begin to dominate the scene of life … inducing probably the same vibes as the one from inside our souls.
We want things to happen into a certain way … almost as a must …. and dominating reality becomes an obsession.
Of course … we could also be in front of a person that tries to change the world … for being a better place …. but this is …. unfortunately… a very rarely case.
And i will not bother to tell you about … those cases. Reality is somehow different.
I see everything … dominated by … nonsense.
I ask myself … for my own case … what if i should meditate more … and try to find out why i want to dominate everything around myself?
Is this a reflection of that weird energy that i’ve connected at
and dominates me by such a long time?!
Why everything …. became an obsession?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
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Why this behavior … is so related with dominance?!
What really makes us act like that?!
Maybe it’s time to … simple stop … look in the mirror and analyze why we are dominated by obsession… and invest so much time and energy as things to happen into a certain way?!
The concept … that i am keep talking about … dominating and being dominated … makes sense.
At least …. to waste my time and talk about it.
To analyze it … as a need to understand the human being. To define all …. with real honesty … as in the end to realize we need to redefine ourselves.
And stop … everything is related to … dominance.
Not allow … to be dominated … but also stop this silly desire of dominating everything around.
Understand the nonsense … and … make a change …
You see … life is short … and we should be aware … how we use this time here.
A little bit of wisdom … could be a nice idea into this scenario.
and probably our obsession should be to redefine … the nonsense … and nothing more.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
59
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Sometimes the addiction for perfect love stories ….
dominates our lives
I look around myself … and see lots … lots of people being in relationships… that don’t give them any good vibe.
So many …. but no one would really do anything to change
this ugly scenario.
Ofcourse except of the ones that love to taste from time to time … illicit love stories.
During the years … i’ve wrote a lot about the subject … but not really saying the real truth.
I’ve wrote so many stories … but not defined it … as an addiction.
… which it really is.
But i was writing … nice stories.
I wanted to actually paint all … in beautiful colors … giving life and value to those episodes. And i continued writing.
Is like i try to be the lawyer of those people … trying to justify … their immoral behavior … and i was writing and writing and writing.
Until one day … when i’ve asked myself … is this addiction …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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a representation of the fact that we still dream of the perfect love story?!
Is this a negative idea …. that is ruining our lives, or just
gives us energy to survive into the ugly reality?!
And i try … to be honest … while analyzing and defining all. … this chase … for happiness … in such an abstract form … metamorphosed into the end into … an addiction. I smile … seeing the real truth.
Looking at those parallel realities … continuing being or not being the lawyer that is justifying those illicit love stories ….
from parallel worlds … i conclude the sense itself … of all … is just for survival …. into a world we dislike.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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We should always be more aware of the impact of influences. And also … not allow all those energies become dominant
for our souls.
It’s very difficult to understand the impact of energies to our lives.
Sometimes things happen so slow … and it’s no clear evidence that … something is really wrong.
Life continues … but when we look back in time … we see that things really changed … and can’t really understand what happened.
We simple did not paid attention to details.
All those influences… changed the path of life … till they actually became so dominant … that all was finally clear …. even for us.
I saw how an idea … repeated by someone on and on and on
becomes a truth … and then starts to dominates with obsession … my own reality.
And it’s not that i saw it one … two times … but lots … lots of times.
I allowed myself to be dominated by everything. One day … the weather ruined my vibe.
Next day … a driver from the road back to home.
to realize in the end that i hate all the people that were driving around me at that moment.
Then … my friends.
and also my family.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
47
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philosophical essays
Well …. until one day when I’ve understood that i can’t avoid
the interference with the influences … but i could … ignore them.
It was only a decision.
Ignoring … staying disconnected from all the energies that try to induce us influences … as in the end to see the trend of dominance … might be … the key.
But it’s so … so easy to say that … when you stay away from the stage of life … and you analyze all not like an actor … but like a spectator.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
48
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When they finally realize that domination is impossible …
they just … leave.
And … never … come back.
I see many people not liking where they are in life.
And when i realize how good they define all …. with so, so
many details why they don’t like that reality … i even start to laugh.
It’s all the time about a scene where things not happen into the way they wanted it to happen.
Yes … i say that i laugh cause they are just … ridiculous. I want to ask them … “Today it’s raining. Would you do something to bring the sun back to us?!” … but they don’t hear me … and none of my messages. Suddenly i realize it’s all about … domination.
They simple want … like little kids … as things to happen into a certain way …. just because they want that. They want to control … everything.
The events … the people … all.
The script is written into their minds and no matter if it is a good or a bad script …. it’s very important for them … as
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
49
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
everything to happen that way.
I stop laughing.
Realize somehow … that is useless … but i still allow myself to … smile … and not say a word about my perceptions.
Into the past …. I was arguing with all those people a lot …
trying to convince them that it’s wrong such a type of behavior.
Now … after realizing it’s all useless … i smile and keep practicing ignorance with them.
But i still see them trying … and trying and trying.
Until one day …. when realizing they failed … they simple
disappear.
And never … come back.
Unfortunately…. later on i start to see others.
Maybe it’s all a message that is repeated to me on and on … to realize something.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
50
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
We use to define people as good or bad … but maybe it’s all about the energies they are anchored in …. and they are not like that.
Analyzing the people around is so damn easy.
Anyone from this plannet that love gossiping… could probably prove that have great psychological knowledge. And they do it so … so good.
But what is weird is that when it comes by ourselves … we simple don’t have the same ability of seeing and understanding the meaning of our behavior on the stage of life.
We simple can’t see clear enough … and even if everything is so obvious… we just find an explanation that hides pretty well the truth.
But my spiritual question is … how can we really define ourselves?!
Good … bad … so, so?!
Well … if i would have the ability to define myself with real honesty … i would tell about myself that i’ve done lots of good things … but also lots … lots of bad things.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
51
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philosophical essays
I proved myself that i am a person without any real values, but also a person with … great values. So … what type of person am i?!
Could i be defined as a good person?!
or a bad person?! Or … so, so?
Should i make a balance of my actions and if i’ve done more good things …. i could declare myself as good … and if i’ve done more bad things, i could declare myself as a bad person?!
I find the idea … a little bit ridiculous.
even this trend of defining myself into a certain way.
but also doing that with the others.
So?!
Is this a stupid subject we are debating?!
… or a difficult one.
Does it worth to wonder what is going on?!
Well … i think yes.
I somehow believe that in life … we are not really conscious of what we are doing.
We are probably anchored in good or bad energies that dominates our life.
And indeed duality is part of us.
Today we might act in a good way … but the next day … we might simple act totally different.
And have a balancing behavior between positivity and negativity.
So … we are in fact dominated by the duality of life … and the only good thing we could do is to become aware of how we act on the stage of life?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
52
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
100% we will keep doing mistakes.
Probably we’ll keep doing that on and on and on … but making always an introspection of all what is going on ….
acting as people that are conscious of the activity from the scene of life …. we might still have a chance to become better souls.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
53
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
Doing everything perfect … but not getting the result we’ve wanted … so damn annoying
A very simple way of dominating the scene of the real life is to do … or at least try to do … everything … perfect. When we are 20 … it’s almost impossible.
At 30 … it all starts to go … into a trend that reminds us of … perfection.
But … close to 40 … after having lots of life experiences… it all becomes much clearer of what we have to do. And we start to act better and better.
We might even say …. that the tremendous determination of
having that perfect reality which we defined by such a long, long time … made us act as … amazing actors.
And yes … we act perfect on the stage of life … but what it’s funny is that even in the situation of such a great interpretation of our roles … things don’t get into the direction we want.
That perfect reality … delays to be the way we want it to be. Even if all started with shy influences… it all becomes into the end … an obsession.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
54
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
the one of dominating every detail … so that we finally get
that projection we dream by such a long, long time. Analyzing all … we realize that indeed we do everything perfect … but … we simple just not get the result we’ve wanted.
and it’s so damn annoying.
But … we continue acting perfect … being dominated of the desire of getting what we want … and … Well … nothing improves.
All remains the same … and even if it looks like we are close of what we wanted … we realize it’s all so … so illusory.
We start to admit that acting perfect … it’s not enough … and it’s really bad if all becomes an obsession.
… the story continues … and still … no change.
It’s all similar with touching the horizontal line …. but we just
don’t want to admit it.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
55
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
Fucking connections … kind of a hobby
An amazing relation is firstly defined by the connection between the 2 souls.
But unfortunately … the connection is not everything.
Life … real life i mean … has many, many components.
and we don’t really pay attention at all the details. And we continue … doing mistakes.
Today one …. tomorrow another one … and so on ….
After a while … we declare ourselves surprised that the things are not anymore what they used to be.
That amazing connection is not defined anymore … as amazing.
It’s probably … a good connection … simple ruined by all the mistakes we do in time.
I could even say that … fucking the connection is almost … a hobby … which we subconsciously practice … as idiots.
And the beauty of that amazing relationship… just fade. Little … by little …
Day … by day ….
We are sorry … but somehow we can’t stop this process … of ruining the connection.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
56
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
We think … and we meditate more and more with regret ….
cause indeed the Universe offered us a great story … but all it’s useless.
We simple could not act … as good actors.
And we fail all the time.
Great connection … beautiful persons on the stage of our lives …. but ….
Yes … unfortunately… this fucking “but”… exists … and we can’t get rid of it.
It looks like a ridiculous … hobby.
And … well …
Time makes as beautiful stories to fade … or even going to an end.
Then we start … other stories … and again we act stupid.
Again and again and again.
No sign … of wisdom by our side …
It’s all like we don’t learn anything from all our life experiences.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
57
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
We should be always aware of the energies that dominate … reality …. but also our own souls
One of the most difficult things to accept about the human being is that … being dominated by a certain type of energy
we begin to dominate the scene of life … inducing probably the same vibes as the one from inside our souls.
We want things to happen into a certain way … almost as a must …. and dominating reality becomes an obsession.
Of course … we could also be in front of a person that tries to change the world … for being a better place …. but this is …. unfortunately… a very rarely case.
And i will not bother to tell you about … those cases. Reality is somehow different.
I see everything … dominated by … nonsense.
I ask myself … for my own case … what if i should meditate more … and try to find out why i want to dominate everything around myself?
Is this a reflection of that weird energy that i’ve connected at
and dominates me by such a long time?!
Why everything …. became an obsession?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
58
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
Why this behavior … is so related with dominance?!
What really makes us act like that?!
Maybe it’s time to … simple stop … look in the mirror and analyze why we are dominated by obsession… and invest so much time and energy as things to happen into a certain way?!
The concept … that i am keep talking about … dominating and being dominated … makes sense.
At least …. to waste my time and talk about it.
To analyze it … as a need to understand the human being. To define all …. with real honesty … as in the end to realize we need to redefine ourselves.
And stop … everything is related to … dominance.
Not allow … to be dominated … but also stop this silly desire of dominating everything around.
Understand the nonsense … and … make a change …
You see … life is short … and we should be aware … how we use this time here.
A little bit of wisdom … could be a nice idea into this scenario.
and probably our obsession should be to redefine … the nonsense … and nothing more.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
59
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
Sometimes the addiction for perfect love stories ….
dominates our lives
I look around myself … and see lots … lots of people being in relationships… that don’t give them any good vibe.
So many …. but no one would really do anything to change
this ugly scenario.
Ofcourse except of the ones that love to taste from time to time … illicit love stories.
During the years … i’ve wrote a lot about the subject … but not really saying the real truth.
I’ve wrote so many stories … but not defined it … as an addiction.
… which it really is.
But i was writing … nice stories.
I wanted to actually paint all … in beautiful colors … giving life and value to those episodes. And i continued writing.
Is like i try to be the lawyer of those people … trying to justify … their immoral behavior … and i was writing and writing and writing.
Until one day … when i’ve asked myself … is this addiction …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
60
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philosophical essays
a representation of the fact that we still dream of the perfect love story?!
Is this a negative idea …. that is ruining our lives, or just
gives us energy to survive into the ugly reality?!
And i try … to be honest … while analyzing and defining all. … this chase … for happiness … in such an abstract form … metamorphosed into the end into … an addiction. I smile … seeing the real truth.
Looking at those parallel realities … continuing being or not being the lawyer that is justifying those illicit love stories ….
from parallel worlds … i conclude the sense itself … of all … is just for survival …. into a world we dislike.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
61
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED … A WAY OF WASTING OUR LIVES
philosophical essays
We should always be more aware of the impact of influences. And also … not allow all those energies become dominant
for our souls.
It’s very difficult to understand the impact of energies to our lives.
Sometimes things happen so slow … and it’s no clear evidence that … something is really wrong.
Life continues … but when we look back in time … we see that things really changed … and can’t really understand what happened.
We simple did not paid attention to details.
All those influences… changed the path of life … till they actually became so dominant … that all was finally clear …. even for us.
