I found it weird … all my friend was telling me … but in a short moment of awakening i’ve asked myself … what if i could have the guts to listen to my intuition… and cancel all what i feel is not ok for myself.
What if i would dare to act … weird … but let my intuition … dominate every action from the stage of my life?!
What if i should try to act like that … at least … as a test?! Well … maybe my life would change … realizing i don’t need to really accept so many things … which in fact i don’t like. But … i could not take the risk of … looking like an idiot … doing in fact the right thing … which the intuition is telling me to do.
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When you feel … something is wrong … simple stop … smile … and don’t do anything anymore.
Become a simple spectator of that scene … and disconnect
from that reality. Then … everything will be
revealed … soon …
I experienced lots of things into this life time.
But … I don’t regret any of those experiences … even if in many of them … i was acting very stupid on the stage of life. The only thing i regret is that i was not able to disconnect at the right time from … some karmic stories that were in the fact …. redefining my life.
I was .. delaying everything.
I continued …. as an idiot … stories which i could simple stop
disconnecting from those energies that where dominating the moment.
I felt something was … wrong … but i could not find inside myself … the ability to simple say … “Stop! Stop it! I had
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enough!”.
All i am writing is kind of a self therapy.
I am the patient … but also the therapist.
And i am writing my thoughts … as an ordinary person … wanting to spread a simple message to anyone … and that is the fact that we should meditate more …
Connect to intuition… and …. become indeed a simple
spectator of our lives.
Whenever we feel … something is wrong … and we are on a pathless path … just .. say … “Stop!” … to everything. Disconnect…
Then .. simple run away …
Go … to another scene …
Or remain alone … connect to the inner self … and try to find better paths to follow in life.
Stop … wasting our lives … being in useless stories.
Stop … being and acting … as idiots.
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We all have desires.
Lots of good … but also
stupid desires. And sometimes because
of those desires
we connect to strange energies. And those energies dominate into
the end … the reality itself …
inducing us into the same time … beautiful and ugly vibes … but we are not able to understand why.
All becomes … an emotional dance
of contradictory feelings.
We like it or not … somehow … we are defined but also dominated of our desires.
And the huge problem of the human being is that we have lots … lots of desires.
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We want one thing … then another thing … and another one … and another one.
Studying the dynamic of this addiction for desires … we realize it’s all … a non ending story. But it’s even worst than that.
Time is passing … and we see that nothing really satisfies us. Life itself … became a collection of stories dominated by nonsense.
And all the time … we end up feeling again and again and again … that we are on a pathless path.
We try to hide things … and get rid of such a perceptions… but days are passing … then weeks, then months … and even years and all becomes more and more obvious.
Well … maybe it’s all about the fact that we refuse to analyze
things deeper and deeper.
And define … the truth.
… the real one.
We refuse to do that … cause it’s annoying to accept the fact that accomplishment of our desires will never make us happy.
And we should also start to analyze more … the way in how we want to make those desires become real.
the needed compromises.
the stupid things we need to accept … just to get want we believe we want so … so much.
Today … after wasting so much time and energy on this path of …. accomplishing all my stupid dreams … i finally accept that i’ve allowed myself to connect on lots of energies … that i simple dislike.
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I was not aware of my intentions … and had into my mind ….
just my ambition.
And i paid a huge price ….
I wasted my time and my whole energy … focusing on and on and on … into a journey … to nowhere. Hahaha …
But … the real truth … even if i believed that my spiritual wisdom is real … is that i don’t accept yet … that i still have lots of things to learn … and also that i should not let myself dominated by the desires.
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Influence is many time metamorphosed into … dominance. … just be aware of that!
All my books … are actually a representation of my desire to understand life … but also to find paths to happiness. Unfortunately… many times … i just get lost.
Being surrounded by so many energies … i even forget that i was actually chasing … for happiness.
And i make the mistake of entering into this circle of energies … not even understanding their nature.
That is actually the point when i start to understand that starts the game of influences… from the exterior … but also from my side.
Influences that soon i realize that are metamorphosed into … dominance.
So … we somehow jump at the next level … and we don’t talk anymore about influence … but about dominance. But i ask myself … why?!
Why all that?!
Why i waste my life doing that?! And i ask myself 1000 times … why?! … but no answer comes to me.
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All looks like a game … done by everyone around myself … I see it’s all useless … as many others … but … i allow as everything to continue … until the moment when i feel i dominate my universe .. or end up being dominated. … at least for a while.
Then i see … one day i influence and dominate … and next day the outside world influences and dominates me. The scenario is repeated on and on and on …
My only conclusion is that i’ve accepted to waste my time, my energy and into the end my life … allowing myself to stay into this world defined so, so much by influence and dominance.
I could simple decide … to not participate at this gam … but i am not doing it.
And ….
Well … i know theory … but when it comes about practice … i just ignore all my knowledge.
I continue … this path … instead of trying to find out …. a
way out of such energetic fields.
In fact i am allowing as influence to be metamorphosed into …. dominance.
And … find it almost … normal ….
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Dominating and being dominating … a way of wasting our lives
Maybe life is too short to waste it with … useless things.
Maybe it’s time to start meditating more.
To analyze our behavior … but also the one of the people around us.
To pay attention to the impact of influences over our lives … but also on the lives of others.
Understand that … domination … no matter of its character… positive or negative …. It’s a concept that we should not allow it to become real.
And we should also be aware of how a simple small influence … that is repeated on and on and on … could become … dominance …. without even realizing.
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It should all be a dance … not a stupid desire of dominance
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