Nothing more ... nothing less.
A normal reply ... i considered being useless.
It was clear that he was afraid of death.
Such a powerful person, totally lost his minds ... and instead of exploring and defining what is going on in his soul, that the cancer appeared in his life ... he started to act as a silly boy.
Even if he lost everything few times in his life, now he was afraid that he will lose the life itself.
But all what i could see for the moment was that he was losing his mind ... not his life.
I was amazed that a man with such an experience of life, that i could define as my guru ... he was so afraid of ... death.
Casanova ... started to look as an old person ... and act weird with everybody around ... not understanding that behind the cancer there is a spiritual reason why it appears ... and that actually ... cancer is a disease of the soul.
I was unhappy for him .... cause he did not know how to act
in front of death ... but i didn’t dare to tell him that the concept of death is just an illusory one and we should just smile in front of it.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... we will understand what life is about
Everyone of us ... have our own lessons to understand ... and a karma that is guiding us in this journey ... so maybe ... he will see in my reply at those silly emails ... “it’s ok!” ... the answer to his situation.
We should explore the difficult situations, define them ... but also embrace the present moment, no matter what that means ... even if it is about cancer ... or death.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... we will understand what life is about
Life should be amazing
with an angel behind your back
Few years ago a new customer came to my company.
He needed some advertising services for a company where the CEO was a lady that he liked a lot. He was about 65, but looked of 85.
The lady was 60, but she looked of 40 and acted as one of 30.
For a second i almost defined him as a sugar daddy, but the difference between them was 5 years ... and in my opinion the difference in such cases are at least of 20-25 years.
Even if i am usually very polite and not so curious i’ve asked him if they own the company together ... and he smile, while replying:
“No. I am just her business angel ... nothing more”.
The guy was a very wealthy person ... but still i was amazed of the concept ... business angel.
He was behind her back whenever she needed something. She just had to mention ... and he was taking care of everything.
Then for a second ... i asked myself, while trying to explore
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... we will understand what life is about
the idea ... what if, all of us should have a real angel, in the real life ... that should help us with anything we would need?!
But ... then ... i realized ... this is not what i should have in mind for myself, but how could i act as an angel for all the people from my life ... same as the guy was the angel of that lucky lady.
But what if all of us should have such a mentality?!
How the world would look like?!
Well ... maybe a much better place ... but probably the concept itself is too utopian.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... we will understand what life is about
The night should reset ...
everything
The greatest scientists came to the conclusion that the Universe and its laws, in the way it is ... is actually perfect. Whoever created it ... did everything in an amazing way ... and there is nothing at all to be changed.
But this is not what we ... believe.
There are many, many moments when we just believe we need something else ... and that reality should look totally different as the one from today.
No one ever told us to embrace reality the way it is ... and that somehow embrace does not mean ... accept.
You see ... when you embrace someone .... most of the times
we do it with pleasure.
Embracing is ... hold (someone) closely in one's arms, especially as a sign of affection.
And in the same way we should do it with the present moment, but unfortunately we believe we know better what is best for us.
And i had been wondering many times, while trying to understand the meaning of life ... why do we have the night?!
Why do we have this repetitive process ... live in different
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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EXPLORING OURSELVES
... we will understand what life is about
places and events and then, we stop everything just to ...
sleep.
What is the meaning of night and sleep?!
Why don’t we sleep only once a week?!
Might sound as a silly ... childish question, but i always saw that whatever is important in life ... keeps appearing on and on and on.
Today ... i somehow believe that night should just ... reset everything and lets us meditate more if it is the best path, the one that we are following.
But the next day looks the same with today and the day before ... and the days from 2 weeks ago.
No change at all, because before going to bed we don’t know to re visualize everything ... and meditate on how we could actually reset everything was wrong so that ... we should simple live in a beautiful way all the time. Explore again the past.
Define it.
Analyze everything was good or bad.
... then just reset everything and re define the whole scene as one that should be dominated by positive energies all the time.
Is like we have the chance to re write the whole script ... but only if we know to guide the story of our lives on the path of positivity ... otherwise everything will be the same story repeated on and on ... and the pleasure of being alive will not be part of your life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... we will understand what life is about
Everything is possible if that is a path for you
Some of us believe in motivation.
Some ... don’t even discovered it yet, but maybe one day they will understand its meaning and why is so important at least ... to explore it.
The word ...”explore” should be a must in our lives, but also accept the fact that in this process we will experience good and bad things ... sometimes even in the same time.
It says that the meaning of life is to evolve as souls ... and for many of us, experiencing is the only way to have the lessons.
Probably ... for only few, as monks for example ... the way of evolving is totally different, but for the rest of us, the only method of doing is is by .... exploring.
And we start life with everything that means.
... having experiences becomes a way of feeling the taste of being alive.
We have happy moments and ugly ones ... but all together is defining our experience in here.
And one day, some of us feel that can’t live anymore without what we name motivation.
We even become addicted to it ... but we forget that in this
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... we will understand what life is about
lifetime we need to follow some certain paths ... and some of them we should just ignore.
The image of labyrinth... defines the best everything is going on ... and we keep wondering how we should have the clarity about the real path.
Motivation always tells us that ... everything is possible ... but the great philosophical question is ... how do we keep the right balance between our desires and what the Universe prepared for us?!
Well ... i believe ... that indeed everything is possible, but only and only ... if that is a path for us and we should never forget that in one point we should accept the concept of destiny and karma ... as the lessons of life that we need to understand during this lifetime.
So ... keep the right balance ... and the real path will be revealed to you!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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EXPLORING OURSELVES
... we will understand what life is about
Dealing with energies around. An art ... or a lesson of life?!
Everything i write ... i write with the purpose of clearly defining for myself what is life about.
And there are times when i believe ... i found the answers ... then i smile cause other lessons of life appear and i need to pass other tests also.
I should define all those tests as ... illusions ... and by a while i started to understand that learning in fact to deal with all the energies around me is one of the most important thing from life.
While exploring my life and everything that means ... i realized that i am usually impressed only by very beautiful or very bad things that appears on my timeline. For the rest ... i really don’t care so much.
But i still get annoyed by years of different silly things ... and can’t find a real answer for that.
When it comes to beautiful things ... i am difficult to be impressed, but i still smile all the time when i see the beauty of positive elements in the scene.
I continue my path ... even if i am not easily impressed, but i pay attention to all around.
I just don’t let all i see to influence my life ... but still ... i am happy and nervous few times a day ... which actually means
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... we will understand what life is about
that i am still dominated by the outside world.
And more i try to fix that ... more useless becomes the whole process.
I see myself becoming a ... Don Quixote that is fighting with the windmills.
And i start living like ... "Once upon a time in a land far away...".
I believe i clearly see the story and the characters of the story ... and on that timeline ... in the course of their travels, the protagonists meet innkeepers, prostitutes, goat-herders, soldiers, priests, escaped convicts and scorned lovers. The aforementioned characters sometimes tell tales that incorporate events from the real world.
Their encounters are magnified by Don Quixote's imagination into chivalrous quests. Don Quixote's tendency to intervene violently in matters irrelevant to himself, and his habit of not paying debts, result in privations, injuries, and humiliations (with Sancho often the victim).
And even if I realize while exploring that everything is an illusion ... i keep acting as Don Quixote.
... but i also have good days when i believe i should decide to understand something from those lessons of life ... and start to practice the art of interacting with all the energies around. And then ... i see the balance again ... reality on one side and the illusion on the other side. Or maybe .. is the same thing.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... we will understand what life is about
Some of the ghosts you can see in the real world ... but some are hidden deep in your soul.
One of the first things we learn to do in life is to protect ourselves ... but not in a physical way, cause most probably ... today ... the danger comes in a different way to us.
And you see more and more people in the company of their pets, especially dogs, cause animals love them in an unconditional way.
All of us have disappointments and if we should explore the life of a king or one of a pauper we could see the same things on the list of disappointments.
And if you’ll have the chance to chat about this subject with the king, but also with the pauper ... they will speak for hours about the elements from that list ... elements that made them see life ... in a negative way.
You see ... all those disappointments from the past become for us ... kind of a ghost ... and not let us enjoy life in the proper way.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... we will understand what life is about
The ghost can be the memory of an unhappy childhood, generated by a parent that did not know to offer us the love we needed at that time ... or a love story that ended, but without being consumed etc etc.
The ghost ... is a time from the past that touched our soul. And just seeing in the inner or outside world something that reminds us of that ... i believe is enough to make us feel again those times.
Is not that you experience again a meeting with the ghost from your own past, but it will not disappear .... unless you speak with it.
Ignoring ... the hidden ghost will let the agony ... continue. But you see ... there are things we can avoid in life and also situations that are so powerful that are touching us for a life time.
The auto protective mode ... it will not work and should make no sense to work.
Just explore and analyze why that something touched your inner soul so damm much ... and them re define your life a little bit ... going much deeper in that direction.
You won’t be able to run forever ... cause the ghost will keep reappearing on and on and on.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... we will understand what life is about
If you can’t be the real you near that person ... means that’s not the soulmate
We want to be in one million ways during our lifetime.
We have lots of ideas about how we should act on the stage of our own lives ... and we also care too much about the way people expect us to be.
But the funny thing is that when we look at the list with how we should be ... we don’t find ... “just be yourself”. And what that actually means?!
Well ... that means that we should only care about what we really want in life and be authentic in everything we do, without really caring about other’s opinions ... not even the ones of friends, brothers, sisters, spouses ... and not even parents.
I know we sometimes spent a long time with them ... and the influences on both sides exist, but should we care about that so much?!
Well ... in one point, after an age we will spend a lot of time with the spouse ... and the problem will be that little by little we lose ourselves.
We start acting in a way ... so that we please the partner,
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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... we will understand what life is about
ignoring that in fact we betrayal our inner self by becoming someone that we don’t really want to be.
Some ... smarter... act in a certain way at home and when they leave the house .... are becoming the way they really want to be.
The ones that are introverts ... they probably do the opposite
.... they try to please all the people from their lives and at
home ... sometimes they have the courage to be .... that
person they want to be.
So ... in fact we carry all types of masks and we actually have just short periods when we act in the way we’d love to act.
But ... now i wonder myself ... why is this happening and we are not letting be ourselves all the time?!
