Quixote’ style … not understanding that we can’t fight with … illusions.
I study the concept of illusions by a long, long time … but what it’s really funny is that when i’m usually on the scene of my life … and it happens … most of the times … i fail the tests.
Again and again … and … again.
And recently … the Universe laughed of me one more time.
I woke up … took my telephone and i see missed phone calls, lots of sms messages and lots of people that wrote me on whatsapp … about a conflict that took place at my residential complex.
What it’s more funny is that i thought it was a fire in there … or something similar … cause i could not see any logical reason why they should call and write me at that hour in the night.
But … reading all they wrote me … i quickly realized it was a fight between few men that lived there … and could not stand themselves.
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I dress myself …. and go there right away.
And guess what?!
It was so damn quite in the complex.
There was nobody outside … and probably all slept … cause it was Saturday morning.
I knock at the door of the house where stay the guys that usually disturb everybody …. and someone opened the door surprised … believing probably it’s the police …
And … i start my show … showing how angry and annoyed i am because of their presence in there.
They all come out …. and in one point i realize that they don’t
understand what it’s really going on.
In fact i realized that i’m a little bit ridiculous … looking at their surprised faces.
They were looking all at me … and i believe that they were asking themselves if i lost my mind.
But … they were letting me continue my show.
Suddenly … in a short moment of awakening i realized that all the others from the complex that wrote me or called … were trying to create for me a false image of the whole situation.
They all over reacted … so that i would be so annoyed … and finally stop the contract with the people that they disliked so much, by such a long time.
I realized that they tried to create me an illusion … over reacting on and on and on.
But instead of stopping myself … i continued the show.
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So … i started to … over react too … doing the same thing as those silly tenants … creating the illusion i am on their side. I hated people that were trying to induce me illusions … but i also knew that i was acting as Don Quixote … one million times in my life.
The guys were looking at me …. not believing all what i was
saying … and in fact could not believe that i trusted so much the other side.
I finished the show … and left.
The tenants that tried to induce me the illusion were really happy … seeing my show.
Later on i spoke with all of them and saw satisfaction on their faces.
They somehow believed i trusted them and i thought the illusory image they created to me was real.
And i really trusted them … but … So …. smiling … i did the same thing.
I started to create them the illusion … i am by their side and i will take out the other tenants that they disliked so much.
I even promised that latest on Monday … they will not be in
that house anymore.
And i kept my word.
Monday evening … they were not in that house anymore … but i moved them in another house from the same complex. … even a better house.
I come back Tuesday … and nobody did not bothered not even to salute me … which was probably a reaction …. that i had to accept.
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Now the other group was … annoyed … cause those people they disliked so much were still there.
But you see …. I was on their side also.
I dislike those tenants too … but i knew they were karmic characters for me … and i will get rid of them only at the right time … not because some other people wanted that.
Indeed … those karmic characters from my life … were eating my energy …. making me lose my focus …. and the real paths i thought i had to follow for a beautiful life.
But karma is part of life.
Fighting with illusions is typically for us … the humans.
The only real solution was to smile … and stop letting myself dominated by all those karmic characters from my life. And stop acting like Don Quixote …
Most probably … many times in my life … i let myself being influenced of lots of people around myself.
On and on and on … believing that their perceptions are real … and i should care of those perceptions.
But i always forgot … it’s all an illusion and i should try to understand better the dance of energies induced by all those people from the scene of my life.
Being and acting as Don Quixote …. was stupid of me …
cause being on someone’s side was so, so silly.
I had first of all to feel the music of that karmic dance ….
understand the influences came to me from all sides …
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Teaching life lessons to the others … such a huge loss of energy
I tried many times to be correct in life.
I also tried to teach others to be like that.
But i ended all the time … arguing.
Losing my energy explaining … things that some people simple can’t understand.
I had probably kind of a weird desire of becoming sort of a teacher … a karmic one.
And i made the mistake of trying to convince them that my perceptions are true and real … not realizing that it was all an illusory war between some non sense … ideas.
I was indeed living with the illusion that i was … karmic … and today i just smile realizing how idiot i was.
I tried to convince people … with my thoughts about how we should live our lives … instead of simple writing those ideas
as material for my books … and connect only with the people that are searching for … new philosophical paths.
… and i lost so, so much energy … not realizing my real path in life.
I could even define myself as … Don Quijote … but still … i could not find the power and the arguments to …. understand myself … and this need of teaching life lessons to the others.
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Maybe today it’s the perfect moment … to simple stop …. and
just write my feelings and thoughts and … nothing more. And at the right time … i’ll connect just with the ones that want to listen .. or even talk to me. But … no argue … anymore.
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The devil is a … teacher
In the mythology of many cultures the Devil it’s a negative character with tremendous powers … usually having the meaning to destroy us.
And i also agreed with this theory for a long, long time … until … i’ve actually met … the Devil.
The representation of all that … was that my life became kind of a … hell.
The Devil … became … the Devils … and they were everywhere.
Even describing such a scenario … might look like i am a person that lost his mind … but … analyzing and defining myself into a honest way … became for me … a must.
Bottomline … the world i was living in … became … an Universe of horror … with non ending ugly stories that kept repeating on and on and on.
I was living in hell … and i was totally convinced of that … but what it was more funnier … was the fact that i was writing books after books about the illusions from our lives.
On one hand … i knew that all what it’s going on it’s an illusion … but on the scene of life … i believed the illusions are real.
I balanced … believing both scenarios … but still my life … was a total mess.
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Nothing changed into my reality … even if i defined for such a long time … the concepts of illusions … coming to the final conclusions that it’s all related with the karmic illusions of life.
One day … simple having enough … i started to ask myself … how could i leave this reality with ugly stories?! How the hell … could i leave from hell?!
The answers were probably in my books, but i could not mix my own life with the theoretical concepts i wrote about.
And the ugly stories continued and i believed more and more that some devils were controlling… behind the scene …. my whole life.
So … it was all related with the Devil … and i had nothing to do with the fact … the things were the way they were. Hmmm …
I was such an idiot.
And i call myself idiot cause i somehow believed in those old stories and theories about devils and ugly spirits that sometimes are dominating our lives.
I was simple … not on the right vibrational frequency … and those so called devils that were revealing me … non ending ugly illusory stories … had actually the meaning to force me …get out from there.
But i still not realized how the hell i could get out of hell ….
I started to meditate more … and more … and more.
And one day … my perceptions changed.
I realized that those annoying devils … were teachers that were revealing me … the fact that i should stop being trapped
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in the illusion of the self.
cause without being in that position …. i would not believe in the power of any illusion … and i would become … fearless. So …. my new theories were metamorphosing the devil itself
into a teacher … which in the end is always … a positive character.
And i was so idiot …. believing in those dogmatic concepts … Understanding the illusions … going throw those ugly karmic stories … i started to understand the real values that i should follow.
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Sometimes life looks like a … cartoon movie and Mickie Mouse is playing around with us
I said it few times … that in the real life … i became what it’s called … rentier.
I build houses … and then i rent them.
I already do that by many years … but realized in the end … that even if this was the model of financial independence for me … it was all an illusion.
I had so, so many problems with the tenants that in the end … i would not recommend to anyone this kind of business … even if it looks so damn attractive.
The smallest problem a house could have … could make the tenant be so annoyed that will just become in the end … a pain in the ass.
Little by little … my dreams about financial independence were … spoiled.
I was actually chasing for an illusion … for so, so many years in a row … not realizing what path i am actually following. And after hundreds of silly episodes … having so, so many problems … i finally understood … it’s all an illusion.
Indeed … i could define it as a … karmic one … but … guess what?!
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I continued the path.
What else could i do?!
Get rid of the houses?!
Hell nooo … cause i was in love with all those houses.
I could not admit … such scenario … so ….
I had to continue … dealing with all those annoying tenants that were ruining me emotionally all the time.
Somehow i thought i could … change something … until one day … when few of them told me that they have little mouses in the house …. and they expect i should come … and solve the problem.
Hmm ….
The Universe was laughing behind my back … after years and years of work.
I was indeed in a cartoon movie … and i’ve been invited to
fight with Mickie Mouse.
Was this a joke?!
I believe that the term …. karmic illusion is a much
appropriate one …. but i was still not accepting that.
In fact … i could not accept that i followed such a stupid path
for so, so many years in a row … to end up being invited to deal with Mickey Mouse.
But … guess what?!
I promised … i’ll buy them a cat …. to do the job for me. And started … to laugh … in front of them …
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Learn to accept and embrace all the karmic characters from the stage of the real life
The stories from my real life influence me a lot into my writings.
All my experiences … and all the people.
Sometimes i even believe that all i live in the present moment … it’s a karmic fact.
For example … George … is a guy … that i could define as a karmic character for myself.
After i finished a big real estate project … while opening the champagne … the neighbor across the street came and told me that he wants to do there … a car graveyard.
It was totally ridiculous… after investing lots of money and 5 years of my existence … as something like that to happen. It all became a total nonsense …. and i could not believe it’s true.
I argued a lot with the guy … as in the end … seeing that i am so determined… he sold the land to George … which was a successful real estate investor …
I decided to help George … as he wanted to build into that place .. 3 new villas.
I found a good team of workers for him.
I also helped him with water and electricity for them … so
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that they have everything needed … as things to go in the right direction.
For me … it was all nice … cause some new beautiful villas across the street … would increase the price of my properties.
For George … it was also quite ok .. all this help that i was offering to him.
And one day i decided to help him even more … cause he sold one of the houses … and he did not succeeded to instal electricity in there.
Not knowing how to really act with the people i put him in contact with … we ended into the position of not being able anymore to help him with electricity and water. George became annoyed.
… really annoyed.
He could not even found the strength to … salute me. In fact … most probably he started to hate me … and everyday he came there … i could see on his face … his unhappiness of seeing me.
And because i helped him … one day … George decided to give me an abstract reply.
He made a complain at the authorities… regarding my septic from the complex.
Then … another one for the garbage … and so on.
But i started to wonder myself … what the hell is going on?!
Should i do the same thing to him?!
You see … not being able to solve the problem with the electric company … George decided to steal electricity …
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and…
Well … what should i do?!
Should i make a complain to authorities too?!
George would probably be arrested for that … but …
Would George understand how silly he is?!
I honestly… don’t think so.
I am a little bit amazed of the fact that a guy which i helped
