could do something like that to me. A reply should be useless.
I had many moments in life when … i saw revenge as an option … but not this time.
I still don’t know if i am karmic for George … or he is karmic for me …. but my final decision is to let the Universe decide
all what is going to happen next.
Anyway … it’s all … an illusion … so …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
46
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Change your inner values …. and everything will change
I had many moments when i was afraid of the next second of my life.
I had so, so many negative scenarios into my mind …. that i
was waking up into the morning asking myself … “What the hell is going to happen today?!”
I was in a kind of a … karmic storm … for such a long time … and all i wanted was … just to see the end of this ugly scenario that i was living.
But no real change was happening.
I was looking for a magic trick … but … Nothing worked.
I was even praying …. not understanding at all what was
going on.
Could not even improve a little bit the situations.
It was indeed … a nightmare.
Until one day when i accepted that this story … it’s a karmic one … and i knew by such a long time the meaning of the word … karmic.
I had to pass the exams that life wanted me to have … but i was annoyed of that.
… and even worst …. I felt like a victim.
Days were passing … then weeks … then months … and
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
47
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
nothing.
My life was … horrible.
I was living … karmic times … and even if slowly … i started to realize that the change … had to come from my inner self. I had to make a deep change.
and it was so damn simple … but i could not accept the solution.
I simple had to change my inner values … and become a better person on the stage of life.
I had to smile in front of the karmic storm … and redefine my whole being.
Think of all the aspects i’ve done wrong in life …. accept the past as a life lesson, see the present moment as a way of connecting with the real truth about me … and try to be the best version i could be.
I started the process of what i name … self therapy … and slowly … i changed lots of wrong things that defined my personality.
And you might ask now … did the karmic stormed stoped?! Did your life looked better?!
Hmm …. slowly things improved.
I am living now a time when i am not afraid anymore of what is going to happen today.
I simple smile … no matter what is going on … and accept that the things that annoys me so much are things that reveals important issues and i should meditate on them.
I not afraid anymore of the … karmic lessons i have to deal with.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
48
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
The process of self therapy … continues …
I am still annoyed of different things all the time, but … i am not afraid anymore.
Changing my inner values … became my main objective.
It will probably take a long, long time … but … i’m still young … and i live with the hope in my soul.
Hmm … i got no idea what i had to do … or better said … i
only had the idea that i have to make a huge change with
myself … and nothing more.
A huge inner change …
Most probably the message was about removing my inner garbage … and i was pretending that i was not seeing that. And the message was repeated on and on and on.
I had to understand … that I had to accept myself however i was … but wish to become a better soul … with totally different inner values.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
49
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Betrayal it’s sometimes
just part of the plan. … the karmic plan
Every time when i see betrayal on the scene of my life … i start … smiling.
But not long time ago … i saw things totally different.
I felt annoyed … and a victim of circumstances.
I could not understand the karmic values of all those events … and the hidden message behind that …
I felt myself dominated by negative emotions … feeling all kinds of weird things.
It was all so … so … unfair.
But it’s all so damn funny … cause i knew the meaning of … karma.
I knew very well … its definition.
I could even write a book about it … but somehow i could not see the analogy with my own life.
I also knew that all what i see on the scene of life … it’s a reflection of my actions or feelings … but … all those ideas had only theoretical value for me.
Most probably … i could analyze the karmic events for anyone from this world … but i’ve been so, so blind when it came to myself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
50
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Well … until one day … when i realized i need to stop lying to myself … on and on and on … defining me as a victim.
The karma was whispering me … almost everyday … powerful messages that i was ignoring.
In one point i even started to believe that i am fighting with some weird ghosts … but … all those ghosts were in fact my own self …. from the past.
I was waking up everyday … asking myself … what the hell is going to happen today.
All worst case scenarios became … so damn real … and i could not stop this plan.
Well … until one day when i woke up … taking to decision to simple smile …. in front of everything. See in all those events … a message.
Maybe a weird … abstract …. message … but an important
lesson for my life.
And instead of believing that someone was fucking my vibe
and my whole life … i realized that someone was teaching me … a lesson … and i had to meditate more about why karma is so present on my life.
It all looked as representation of hell … but it was all kind of an illusion … a karmic one.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
51
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
I always look at the message behind the message, but had no idea why so much non sense into my life
Into the real life … my actual occupation is to rent houses. I know … it sounds as a great job, but you see … as all the things from the real life … it’s not how it looks life.
When i started to think about building this business … i defined it as a model of financial independence. But today … smiling … i define it as a … crap.
I invested so much money … but also so much time and energy … as in the end to be profoundly disappointed.
I felt like Sisyphus… cause tenants were coming ant leaving.
At the end …. the houses were … a total mess.
After 6 months … new houses were looking like houses built 15-20 years ago … and never renovated. Garbage … everywhere.
Yes …. all the time … at the end i was seeing lots, lots of
garbage.
I was frustrated and … annoyed.
What i defined as the best model of financial independence … was actually a nightmare.
But one day … while meditating why am i so unlucky … i remember about my book “Analyze. Define. Redefine” … I realized it’s all a karmic message.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
52
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
I define it as karmic … cause it was repeated on and on and on …. but i was suffering of a spiritual blindness which was not allowing me to see … the hidden message.
Hmm … why so much garbage?!
What was the message?!
… the hidden message … i mean …
Each time … i had to clean the garbage… the tenants were doing into my houses.
So …. It was all about … garbage.
Hahaha …. but maybe …. inner garbage?!
I was already started the process of self therapy, but … i was not honest enough with myself. Yes … i was lying myself … a lot.
It was a lot of spiritual garbage into my soul … generated by me, but also by the exchange of energy i was having in my interaction with the others.
I ignored it by years …. but today was appearing to me into a
… weird form.
I disliked it so, so much … but i could not ignore it anymore. … and really had to do … something …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
53
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
One of the most important things in life is that … we should accept and even embrace whatever happens on the scene of life
Many times in life … we end up defining reality as one that we don’t like it anymore … cause we simple had enough of it. Some repetitive annoying events … or some people that became …. a pain in the ass … are destroying the whole harmony that is needed.
We can’t even realize what is going on.
Why does it happen?!
What is the whole meaning of everything?!
Why this nonsense is dominating life …. on and on and on?!
Should we oppose to those situation?!
no.
Nooo?!
How the hell no?!
I wondered myself one million times this questions … but … Well … most probably i could never accept the karmic values of those events … but also could not see its illusory form.
someone that is testing our patience for example .. is someone that in fact is teaching us … a lesson.
Has an illusory form of doing it … not reading a book to us … not being a motivational speaker … but …. still … forcing us to
understand that getting annoyed on and on and on … is
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
54
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
simple useless …. and the real message is to realize what is
actually … the patience.
We could be forced to understand … compassion.
or forgiveness … by living the lesson of betrayal on and on and on.
The lesson itself appears into an abstract way … being desquished into somethings that annoys or hurts us … but … Well … we suffer of a weird … blindness that is not allowing us to see the message behind the message.
We end up defining karma … a bitch … instead of seeing a lesson behind all of that.
And still …. we can’t find the inner strength to smile … accept and embrace reality.
I keep sending the same message … to all around myself … that it’s all an illusion … a karmic one … but we should simple smile in front of it … and always look at the lesson of life … and nothing more.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
55
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Be aware where you
ask help from ….
We always tend to believe that our lives can be improved ….
by asking the help from the exterior world.
We ask help from family members, from close friends … or even from strangers.
But no matter what … we don’t ask the help from the inner self.
In my own case …. I do probably the same.
Sometimes when i see all collapsing around myself …. feeling
incapable of seeing any escape … i go to the church.
But that is probably happening once at 5-10 years ….
In most of the other cases … i never realized that instead of going and asking the help into the exterior world … i could simple connect to my inner self, which is actually the gateway to the Infinite … and ask .. at least for guidance … And again and again and again … even if i know the theory … on the scene of the real life … i ignore those concepts.
I … totally …. ignore them.
Acting … as a very naive person … i ask and even beg for the
needed help … around myself.
And yes … the help comes.
But it’s do damn illusory … coming from people that are not really connected to ourselves … and can’t really feel … the
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
56
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
real paths that we should follow.
And … we believe them.
We believe in the guidance they tell us about.
We believe in this wisdom of others … disregarding our own intuition … and the connection that we could have with the Infinite.
Today … i simple smile in front of this illusory help that could come to us from so, so many directions …. realizing my
ignorance when i understand that i should count only and only on myself.
Totally ignore the exterior world … and even disconnect from this trend of asking the help from … the others.
But i write again and again and again … about those theoretical concepts that i never apply on the scene of my own life.
I ignore ….my real self.
I don’t even see it as … an option.
But the Universe is laughing behind my back … on and on and on …. sending into my life people that are guiding me to … pathless paths.
Maybe hoping that one day … i’ll change this trend of asking help from the others …. Instead of believing in the connection that i could have with my soul.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
57
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
It’s so damn difficult to
understand the human being …
As a rentier … i had lots … lots of problems.
With the tenants … but also with my buildings.
And there were times when … every day meant … another … and another problem.
Before planning how could i get more and more money from this business … and actually … start …. I was dreaming that
this will going to be my ticket to …. financial independence.
But guess what?!
As many times in life … things run totally different as we planed … and what i thought it might be an amazing plan so that i get enough money … and simple stay and relax …. proved to be … in the end … a nightmare.
Problems ….
Problems …
And only …. problems.
I could not even enjoy a penny from all the money i was doing.
I started to ask myself … why the hell …. things are totally
different as i planned?!
What did i did wrong to deserve that?!
Maybe the money i had to build these properties … were not coming from good things.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
58
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Maybe the people i worked with … were people that were not having good energies …
Maybe ….
Maybe …
Today i found for example a bottle of coca cola into the sewage pipes …. In a new building.
We found it … by accident … and maybe there are also other problems as that.
Problems that could generate me … huge problems.
An idiot … in a moment of supreme stupidity … was fucking my business.
Recently an electric problem generated a … fire …. to a new
building.
And problems were still coming.
I suddenly realized the influence of all those idiots into my life.
People dominated by such ugly energies … were ruining my … peace.
Today … i won’t even dare to suggest to anyone to dream at the financial independence of becoming … a rentier. For me personally … it all became … an illusion.
Maybe it’s something karmic … and i need to understand a life lesson …. but … i came into a point when ….so
disappointed by the humans from the scene of my life …. I
could simple say … that i am incapable of understanding … the human species.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
59
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Disappointment is … useless. We should just … smile … and treat everything as an illusory experience
I talk almost everyday with a close friend from high school… and as any other men over 40 … from anywhere in the world ….we lose lots of time chatting about money .. and ladies.
I had many moments in life when … i saw revenge as an option … but not this time.
I still don’t know if i am karmic for George … or he is karmic for me …. but my final decision is to let the Universe decide
all what is going to happen next.
Anyway … it’s all … an illusion … so …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
46
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Change your inner values …. and everything will change
I had many moments when i was afraid of the next second of my life.
I had so, so many negative scenarios into my mind …. that i
was waking up into the morning asking myself … “What the hell is going to happen today?!”
I was in a kind of a … karmic storm … for such a long time … and all i wanted was … just to see the end of this ugly scenario that i was living.
But no real change was happening.
I was looking for a magic trick … but … Nothing worked.
I was even praying …. not understanding at all what was
going on.
Could not even improve a little bit the situations.
It was indeed … a nightmare.
Until one day when i accepted that this story … it’s a karmic one … and i knew by such a long time the meaning of the word … karmic.
I had to pass the exams that life wanted me to have … but i was annoyed of that.
… and even worst …. I felt like a victim.
Days were passing … then weeks … then months … and
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
47
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
nothing.
My life was … horrible.
I was living … karmic times … and even if slowly … i started to realize that the change … had to come from my inner self. I had to make a deep change.
and it was so damn simple … but i could not accept the solution.
I simple had to change my inner values … and become a better person on the stage of life.
I had to smile in front of the karmic storm … and redefine my whole being.
Think of all the aspects i’ve done wrong in life …. accept the past as a life lesson, see the present moment as a way of connecting with the real truth about me … and try to be the best version i could be.
I started the process of what i name … self therapy … and slowly … i changed lots of wrong things that defined my personality.
And you might ask now … did the karmic stormed stoped?! Did your life looked better?!
Hmm …. slowly things improved.
I am living now a time when i am not afraid anymore of what is going to happen today.
I simple smile … no matter what is going on … and accept that the things that annoys me so much are things that reveals important issues and i should meditate on them.
I not afraid anymore of the … karmic lessons i have to deal with.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
48
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
The process of self therapy … continues …
I am still annoyed of different things all the time, but … i am not afraid anymore.
Changing my inner values … became my main objective.
It will probably take a long, long time … but … i’m still young … and i live with the hope in my soul.
Hmm … i got no idea what i had to do … or better said … i
only had the idea that i have to make a huge change with
myself … and nothing more.
A huge inner change …
Most probably the message was about removing my inner garbage … and i was pretending that i was not seeing that. And the message was repeated on and on and on.
I had to understand … that I had to accept myself however i was … but wish to become a better soul … with totally different inner values.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
49
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Betrayal it’s sometimes
just part of the plan. … the karmic plan
Every time when i see betrayal on the scene of my life … i start … smiling.
But not long time ago … i saw things totally different.
I felt annoyed … and a victim of circumstances.
I could not understand the karmic values of all those events … and the hidden message behind that …
I felt myself dominated by negative emotions … feeling all kinds of weird things.
It was all so … so … unfair.
But it’s all so damn funny … cause i knew the meaning of … karma.
I knew very well … its definition.
I could even write a book about it … but somehow i could not see the analogy with my own life.
I also knew that all what i see on the scene of life … it’s a reflection of my actions or feelings … but … all those ideas had only theoretical value for me.
Most probably … i could analyze the karmic events for anyone from this world … but i’ve been so, so blind when it came to myself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
50
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Well … until one day … when i realized i need to stop lying to myself … on and on and on … defining me as a victim.
The karma was whispering me … almost everyday … powerful messages that i was ignoring.
In one point i even started to believe that i am fighting with some weird ghosts … but … all those ghosts were in fact my own self …. from the past.
I was waking up everyday … asking myself … what the hell is going to happen today.
All worst case scenarios became … so damn real … and i could not stop this plan.
Well … until one day when i woke up … taking to decision to simple smile …. in front of everything. See in all those events … a message.
Maybe a weird … abstract …. message … but an important
lesson for my life.
And instead of believing that someone was fucking my vibe
and my whole life … i realized that someone was teaching me … a lesson … and i had to meditate more about why karma is so present on my life.
It all looked as representation of hell … but it was all kind of an illusion … a karmic one.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
51
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
I always look at the message behind the message, but had no idea why so much non sense into my life
Into the real life … my actual occupation is to rent houses. I know … it sounds as a great job, but you see … as all the things from the real life … it’s not how it looks life.
When i started to think about building this business … i defined it as a model of financial independence. But today … smiling … i define it as a … crap.
I invested so much money … but also so much time and energy … as in the end to be profoundly disappointed.
I felt like Sisyphus… cause tenants were coming ant leaving.
At the end …. the houses were … a total mess.
After 6 months … new houses were looking like houses built 15-20 years ago … and never renovated. Garbage … everywhere.
Yes …. all the time … at the end i was seeing lots, lots of
garbage.
I was frustrated and … annoyed.
What i defined as the best model of financial independence … was actually a nightmare.
But one day … while meditating why am i so unlucky … i remember about my book “Analyze. Define. Redefine” … I realized it’s all a karmic message.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
52
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
I define it as karmic … cause it was repeated on and on and on …. but i was suffering of a spiritual blindness which was not allowing me to see … the hidden message.
Hmm … why so much garbage?!
What was the message?!
… the hidden message … i mean …
Each time … i had to clean the garbage… the tenants were doing into my houses.
So …. It was all about … garbage.
Hahaha …. but maybe …. inner garbage?!
I was already started the process of self therapy, but … i was not honest enough with myself. Yes … i was lying myself … a lot.
It was a lot of spiritual garbage into my soul … generated by me, but also by the exchange of energy i was having in my interaction with the others.
I ignored it by years …. but today was appearing to me into a
… weird form.
I disliked it so, so much … but i could not ignore it anymore. … and really had to do … something …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
53
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
One of the most important things in life is that … we should accept and even embrace whatever happens on the scene of life
Many times in life … we end up defining reality as one that we don’t like it anymore … cause we simple had enough of it. Some repetitive annoying events … or some people that became …. a pain in the ass … are destroying the whole harmony that is needed.
We can’t even realize what is going on.
Why does it happen?!
What is the whole meaning of everything?!
Why this nonsense is dominating life …. on and on and on?!
Should we oppose to those situation?!
no.
Nooo?!
How the hell no?!
I wondered myself one million times this questions … but … Well … most probably i could never accept the karmic values of those events … but also could not see its illusory form.
someone that is testing our patience for example .. is someone that in fact is teaching us … a lesson.
Has an illusory form of doing it … not reading a book to us … not being a motivational speaker … but …. still … forcing us to
understand that getting annoyed on and on and on … is
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
54
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
simple useless …. and the real message is to realize what is
actually … the patience.
We could be forced to understand … compassion.
or forgiveness … by living the lesson of betrayal on and on and on.
The lesson itself appears into an abstract way … being desquished into somethings that annoys or hurts us … but … Well … we suffer of a weird … blindness that is not allowing us to see the message behind the message.
We end up defining karma … a bitch … instead of seeing a lesson behind all of that.
And still …. we can’t find the inner strength to smile … accept and embrace reality.
I keep sending the same message … to all around myself … that it’s all an illusion … a karmic one … but we should simple smile in front of it … and always look at the lesson of life … and nothing more.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
55
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Be aware where you
ask help from ….
We always tend to believe that our lives can be improved ….
by asking the help from the exterior world.
We ask help from family members, from close friends … or even from strangers.
But no matter what … we don’t ask the help from the inner self.
In my own case …. I do probably the same.
Sometimes when i see all collapsing around myself …. feeling
incapable of seeing any escape … i go to the church.
But that is probably happening once at 5-10 years ….
In most of the other cases … i never realized that instead of going and asking the help into the exterior world … i could simple connect to my inner self, which is actually the gateway to the Infinite … and ask .. at least for guidance … And again and again and again … even if i know the theory … on the scene of the real life … i ignore those concepts.
I … totally …. ignore them.
Acting … as a very naive person … i ask and even beg for the
needed help … around myself.
And yes … the help comes.
But it’s do damn illusory … coming from people that are not really connected to ourselves … and can’t really feel … the
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
56
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
real paths that we should follow.
And … we believe them.
We believe in the guidance they tell us about.
We believe in this wisdom of others … disregarding our own intuition … and the connection that we could have with the Infinite.
Today … i simple smile in front of this illusory help that could come to us from so, so many directions …. realizing my
ignorance when i understand that i should count only and only on myself.
Totally ignore the exterior world … and even disconnect from this trend of asking the help from … the others.
But i write again and again and again … about those theoretical concepts that i never apply on the scene of my own life.
I ignore ….my real self.
I don’t even see it as … an option.
But the Universe is laughing behind my back … on and on and on …. sending into my life people that are guiding me to … pathless paths.
Maybe hoping that one day … i’ll change this trend of asking help from the others …. Instead of believing in the connection that i could have with my soul.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
57
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
It’s so damn difficult to
understand the human being …
As a rentier … i had lots … lots of problems.
With the tenants … but also with my buildings.
And there were times when … every day meant … another … and another problem.
Before planning how could i get more and more money from this business … and actually … start …. I was dreaming that
this will going to be my ticket to …. financial independence.
But guess what?!
As many times in life … things run totally different as we planed … and what i thought it might be an amazing plan so that i get enough money … and simple stay and relax …. proved to be … in the end … a nightmare.
Problems ….
Problems …
And only …. problems.
I could not even enjoy a penny from all the money i was doing.
I started to ask myself … why the hell …. things are totally
different as i planned?!
What did i did wrong to deserve that?!
Maybe the money i had to build these properties … were not coming from good things.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
58
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Maybe the people i worked with … were people that were not having good energies …
Maybe ….
Maybe …
Today i found for example a bottle of coca cola into the sewage pipes …. In a new building.
We found it … by accident … and maybe there are also other problems as that.
Problems that could generate me … huge problems.
An idiot … in a moment of supreme stupidity … was fucking my business.
Recently an electric problem generated a … fire …. to a new
building.
And problems were still coming.
I suddenly realized the influence of all those idiots into my life.
People dominated by such ugly energies … were ruining my … peace.
Today … i won’t even dare to suggest to anyone to dream at the financial independence of becoming … a rentier. For me personally … it all became … an illusion.
Maybe it’s something karmic … and i need to understand a life lesson …. but … i came into a point when ….so
disappointed by the humans from the scene of my life …. I
could simple say … that i am incapable of understanding … the human species.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
59
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Disappointment is … useless. We should just … smile … and treat everything as an illusory experience
I talk almost everyday with a close friend from high school… and as any other men over 40 … from anywhere in the world ….we lose lots of time chatting about money .. and ladies.
