Well … in one point following my thoughts …. I came to the
conclusion that i need to start being a little bit more honest with myself.
Define …. the undefined.
And going deeper and deeper i realized that i’ve accepted and even embraced many toxic elements in life … just because of some different interests i’ve had.
I needed some extra money as my business to grow … i’ve accepted some clients that i knew are difficult … and can become toxic for myself.
I wanted to finish an important real estate project … I’ve accepted to work with different types of individuals that i knew that they drunk a lot of alcohol, were not acting as good people … and sooner or later they will create problems for me.
So what was the root of what i defined as a horrible life?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
76
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Could i be honest enough with myself?!
Was i responsible for letting myself being dominated by those toxic energies?!
How could i be so stupid and accept such a compromise?! Well … making the balance between the natural way i should live my life … and accomplishing my desires … i let this not ending chase for all kinds of illusory things … dominate my life.
So ... accepting toxicity as part of the plan was considered by myself … as part of the plan.
Of all this process of getting … all what i wanted.
But the funny thing with myself … and maybe with many, many others … is that even if we accept the fact that the desire itself is quite important for the human being … we simple don’t know to stop chasing for new and new desires. Life becomes a non ending marathon of getting that and that and that and that …
But … analyzing more and more and more … my own private life … i understood that my reality could be defined as a non ending chain of compromises … with a huge toxicity … It was all so damn … silly.
I lived with the illusory belief that for getting things that might give me happiness i had to make sacrifices on and on and on …. and endure toxicity as part of the process.
But …. most probably i was wrong … thinking as that … cause
indeed by life could be define as a non ending horrible scenario …
Maybe it was the time to redefine my thinking.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
77
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Stop chasing for new and new … desires.
Stop accepting toxicity as … part of the process.
Stop believing that i need to pay this huge price of feeling horrible just because i have new and new desires all the time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
78
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
The eyes are observing something.…. but the mind
should always look deeper
The Universe sent over the years into my life such a large spectrum of people … that i started to wonder myself … what the hell is the message i need to understand?
And many of those people started to annoy me more and more ….
It was all looking like a total nonsense … but ….
The clearest thing i knew was that what i was seeing in front of my eyes … had a total different meaning … that i might think ….
All the books i read learnt me to analyze and define … any kind of subject …. and i realized that one of the main reasons
i was into this world was to understand the human being. And i continued looking and analyzing everybody from the scene of life …. not accepting the fact that in fact all what i was seeing was just a reflection of my own soul.
I was looking in fact at the huge number of masks i carried over the years.
And people that were annoying me were appearing on and on and on.
I knew the theory … that life is a mirror … but i could not accept it for my own life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
79
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
My eyes were observing reality, but i could not accept that reality is the representation of my own … soul. I could not … look deeper.
But karma was playing around with me …. cause no matter
what …. i was meeting more and more people ….
Karma was talking to me about my own masks that i carried over the years …. and i was ignoring it.
Ignoring even the fact that the Universe has all the necessary time to repeat me those lessons.
But damn it … there were so, so many people i disliked ….
and …. they were all my own reflection … of who i am … and
who i used to be …
Looking deeper became a must …. but my reaction was to
delay everything.
On and on and on ….
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
80
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Traped in all sorts of stories …. we
sometimes forget the essential of
… why we are here
The title “It’s all an illusion … a karmic one” might sound a little bit weird … but it probably express the best my perceptions about life.
You see …. the scenario of life has a lot to do with that title.
I’ve been involved over the years in lots of stories … which proved to be what could be defined as … pathless paths. In fact i spent lots of time on those pathless paths, but i realized it so damn late.
I was actually kind of a prisoner in stories that did not allowed me to keep the right balance in all the most important areas of my life.
There were … what i should define today as … illusions … but i believed they were real.
I continued like that … for years.
I made the same mistakes on and on and on.
And trapped in those stories … even if i had short moments of awakening, when i was feeling like a prisoner …. I started
to meditate over the concept of … the illusion of life. Somehow … my whole life looked like a nonsense … and if i would tell you those stories, you would understand very easy what a pathless path means.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
81
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
But …. there’s so, so many stories like that … that it will be
boring to write about it.
I ended … in a funny way … realizing that those pathless paths … were in fact … stories that leant me about the illusion.
And it all was so … so … karmic.
Illusory … and karmic.
Like all the others …. dominated by my feelings and
perceptions … i became so damn … blind.
I was indeed a prisoner … in karmic illusory stories that were annoying me in such a horrible way …. and still … even if i
started to realize what is going on … i continued following the pathless paths.
I could not keep the right balance in life with the main things i had to have in mind during this lifetime.
Or ….
Maybe the meaning of life … and also my own life …. was to
experience it … understand better … and go deeper and deeper in the spiritual-philosophical concept of ….illusory … and look beyond that.
I became confused …. having such contradictory perceptions
and maybe i’ll somehow influence you become confused also … but … i continue … exploring.
My intuition … was whispering me that all those pathless paths … made total sense …. not for my life …. but for my evolution.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
82
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Many times the meaning of
karma is to redefine our values
and …. perceptions
Trying to understand the dynamics of all those stories that we live over the years … even if many, many times it all looks like a real nonsense …. i came to the conclusion that … at
least for my case … i am here to live some karmic stories. Maybe it’s all related with previous lives … or … the whole meaning of this life is to … understand the life itself.
But what it’s funny it’s that today i believe something and the next day … i believe something else. Many times … contradictory.
Even the meaning of the term karma … had been redefined. Believing like many others that karma is something horrible happening to us … i ended up …. redefining this belief.
Living all sorts of illusory …. but difficult events … i realized it
was all a lesson.
The moment when i was living horrible stories …. and totally
dislike my reality … i was in fact living karmic lessons of life. They made sense for my spiritual evolution … and easy … easy … i redefined myself from being a victim of circumstances … to …
a student at the school of … life.
Karma was not a bitch … but a teacher.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
83
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
The whole meaning of everything was going on was to redefine my thinking … all my believes … but also my values. Did i did that?!
Hmm ….
No … or not so many times … but … the moment when i became aware of the fact that i am actually living karmic stories … repeated on and on and on …. I started to redefine
my behavior …also trying to understand the message behind the message.
Did i discovered the absolute truth?!
Hmm …
Hell no …
I don’t even really know what the absolute truth is … but i somehow understood that all the lessons of life should create from me … a better self.
I write …. and it all looks a total nonsense … but …..
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
84
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Gossiping … an abstract form
of cannibalism
I see so many people having this silly habit of loving to … gossip.
I used to do it too.
In fact … i still do it … but i try to control this stupid need of doing that.
What i find funny is that i never saw anyone saying something positive … while gossiping … cause i somehow believe that if we analyze other people’s lives … and define them …. we might also see the beautiful sides of those persons.
But no ….
We are just looking at the dark side of the people from the timeline of our lives.
We define that in one million ways with the others … exploring all the negative details, amplifying them … going deeper and deeper … not realizing the nonsense of doing that.
But what many don’t really know is that gossiping is a very powerful form of energetic attack over the people we talk about.
And just a very limited amount of people know that an energetic attack on a certain person can affect that person if
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is on a lower frequency than the person is gossiping.
Otherwise … it will all become … a boomerang.
I find today gossiping … an abstract way of cannibalism … which affect into a negative way our society. And of course … we don’t even realize it.
It’s such an illusory stupid habit … but we do it on and on and on.
Much funnier is that many times in life, when we define the things we dislike to the others … we actually speak into an unconscious way about …. ourselves.
Talking about all those concepts … i realize we run into a weird circle … having a nonsense behavior … but maybe one day … in the end we will understand the fact that life itself is a mirror … and it’s just ridiculous defining the dark side of others … when actually we could take care just of ourselves
analyzing… defining and then redefining what we dislike. But we continue life … acting in the same way.
Gossiping looks like a … pleasure for so, so many.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
86
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
The illusion of life can be probably
translated as living with the fear that there is no God …Allah … Infinite Intelligence … or whatever we name it … and even if it really exists there is no connection between us and this abstract entity … that we don’t know to define
I read when i was young lots of weird books that were talking about parallel universes, the life after death … but also how life from this plannet looks like … seen from the other side.
I found out that people that had clinical death … were seeing the same scene of their lives like a spectator … and smiled … seeing with different eyes all what was going on …. from a totally different perspective.
It all looked like a play … and all the people … were the actors … that not only that were playing a role … but were actually believing that the play was real.
They saw … what we could define as an illusion.
… or an illusory play.
But …. In the end … we all ask … is there a God or no?!
And … is it life … really an illusion?!
Why should this Infinite Intelligence make fun of us …. In
such a silly way?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
87
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
What is the real message we need to understand?!
Could we define life as a karmic illusion?!
But … having what purpose?!
Why we do use the term … illusion?!
Coming back to all those stories about people that had clinical death experiences … that somehow realized that all is completely different of what we thought life is … i start to laugh.
Even on this stage of experience … people can’t confirm that the Infinite Intelligence exists.
Or maybe … we should say to be much clear … that there is no connection between us … as individual souls and the Infinite.
We don’t even know what this entity is… … what purpose has …
And the illusion itself continues ….
We get angry more and more … not understanding a thing. Maybe into a theoretical way we might believe that the Infinite is everything … and that we are part of that infinite … so we are The Infinite too …
But all … it’s on a theoretical level …
On the scene of the real life … we feel no real connection. The fear continues dominating us … and we live into a non ending illusion …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
88
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
You need to know how
to define the pain … for that you find the right medicine
I usually refuse to take any kind of medicine.
After days of pain … i accept 1 or 2 pills … but nothing more.
I do this for years …. and i intent to keep this habit forever.
But last few days … mostly because i got very nervous … i had an incredible stomachache … that was eating my energy for many days in a row.
Finally i decided to go to the pharmacy … and telling to the lady what i wanted … i got the pills for stomach … but … nothing….
The stomachache remained.
Did not stoped … at all.
Not even for 10 minutes.
I remained without energy … not even being able to speak. I was trying to close my eyes … saying to myself on and on and on …. the theory that all i see or feel it’s an illusion in continuous form … but … it did not work.
The pain could not disappear …. and i could not ignore it.
Few days later … talking with my wife … asking me more and more precisely what do i feel … we realized that i took the wrong medicine.
I go again at the pharmacy … i buy some other pills … that
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
89
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
by the way … costed just 3 dollars … and guess what?! Suddenly … the pain disappeared. Damn it!
I stayed for 2 weeks into a pain … that disappeared in 2 minutes … using a medicine that costed just 3 dollars. How could i be such an idiot?!
conclusion that i need to start being a little bit more honest with myself.
Define …. the undefined.
And going deeper and deeper i realized that i’ve accepted and even embraced many toxic elements in life … just because of some different interests i’ve had.
I needed some extra money as my business to grow … i’ve accepted some clients that i knew are difficult … and can become toxic for myself.
I wanted to finish an important real estate project … I’ve accepted to work with different types of individuals that i knew that they drunk a lot of alcohol, were not acting as good people … and sooner or later they will create problems for me.
So what was the root of what i defined as a horrible life?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
76
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Could i be honest enough with myself?!
Was i responsible for letting myself being dominated by those toxic energies?!
How could i be so stupid and accept such a compromise?! Well … making the balance between the natural way i should live my life … and accomplishing my desires … i let this not ending chase for all kinds of illusory things … dominate my life.
So ... accepting toxicity as part of the plan was considered by myself … as part of the plan.
Of all this process of getting … all what i wanted.
But the funny thing with myself … and maybe with many, many others … is that even if we accept the fact that the desire itself is quite important for the human being … we simple don’t know to stop chasing for new and new desires. Life becomes a non ending marathon of getting that and that and that and that …
But … analyzing more and more and more … my own private life … i understood that my reality could be defined as a non ending chain of compromises … with a huge toxicity … It was all so damn … silly.
I lived with the illusory belief that for getting things that might give me happiness i had to make sacrifices on and on and on …. and endure toxicity as part of the process.
But …. most probably i was wrong … thinking as that … cause
indeed by life could be define as a non ending horrible scenario …
Maybe it was the time to redefine my thinking.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
77
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Stop chasing for new and new … desires.
Stop accepting toxicity as … part of the process.
Stop believing that i need to pay this huge price of feeling horrible just because i have new and new desires all the time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
78
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
The eyes are observing something.…. but the mind
should always look deeper
The Universe sent over the years into my life such a large spectrum of people … that i started to wonder myself … what the hell is the message i need to understand?
And many of those people started to annoy me more and more ….
It was all looking like a total nonsense … but ….
The clearest thing i knew was that what i was seeing in front of my eyes … had a total different meaning … that i might think ….
All the books i read learnt me to analyze and define … any kind of subject …. and i realized that one of the main reasons
i was into this world was to understand the human being. And i continued looking and analyzing everybody from the scene of life …. not accepting the fact that in fact all what i was seeing was just a reflection of my own soul.
I was looking in fact at the huge number of masks i carried over the years.
And people that were annoying me were appearing on and on and on.
I knew the theory … that life is a mirror … but i could not accept it for my own life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
79
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
My eyes were observing reality, but i could not accept that reality is the representation of my own … soul. I could not … look deeper.
But karma was playing around with me …. cause no matter
what …. i was meeting more and more people ….
Karma was talking to me about my own masks that i carried over the years …. and i was ignoring it.
Ignoring even the fact that the Universe has all the necessary time to repeat me those lessons.
But damn it … there were so, so many people i disliked ….
and …. they were all my own reflection … of who i am … and
who i used to be …
Looking deeper became a must …. but my reaction was to
delay everything.
On and on and on ….
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
80
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Traped in all sorts of stories …. we
sometimes forget the essential of
… why we are here
The title “It’s all an illusion … a karmic one” might sound a little bit weird … but it probably express the best my perceptions about life.
You see …. the scenario of life has a lot to do with that title.
I’ve been involved over the years in lots of stories … which proved to be what could be defined as … pathless paths. In fact i spent lots of time on those pathless paths, but i realized it so damn late.
I was actually kind of a prisoner in stories that did not allowed me to keep the right balance in all the most important areas of my life.
There were … what i should define today as … illusions … but i believed they were real.
I continued like that … for years.
I made the same mistakes on and on and on.
And trapped in those stories … even if i had short moments of awakening, when i was feeling like a prisoner …. I started
to meditate over the concept of … the illusion of life. Somehow … my whole life looked like a nonsense … and if i would tell you those stories, you would understand very easy what a pathless path means.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
81
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
But …. there’s so, so many stories like that … that it will be
boring to write about it.
I ended … in a funny way … realizing that those pathless paths … were in fact … stories that leant me about the illusion.
And it all was so … so … karmic.
Illusory … and karmic.
Like all the others …. dominated by my feelings and
perceptions … i became so damn … blind.
I was indeed a prisoner … in karmic illusory stories that were annoying me in such a horrible way …. and still … even if i
started to realize what is going on … i continued following the pathless paths.
I could not keep the right balance in life with the main things i had to have in mind during this lifetime.
Or ….
Maybe the meaning of life … and also my own life …. was to
experience it … understand better … and go deeper and deeper in the spiritual-philosophical concept of ….illusory … and look beyond that.
I became confused …. having such contradictory perceptions
and maybe i’ll somehow influence you become confused also … but … i continue … exploring.
My intuition … was whispering me that all those pathless paths … made total sense …. not for my life …. but for my evolution.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
82
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Many times the meaning of
karma is to redefine our values
and …. perceptions
Trying to understand the dynamics of all those stories that we live over the years … even if many, many times it all looks like a real nonsense …. i came to the conclusion that … at
least for my case … i am here to live some karmic stories. Maybe it’s all related with previous lives … or … the whole meaning of this life is to … understand the life itself.
But what it’s funny it’s that today i believe something and the next day … i believe something else. Many times … contradictory.
Even the meaning of the term karma … had been redefined. Believing like many others that karma is something horrible happening to us … i ended up …. redefining this belief.
Living all sorts of illusory …. but difficult events … i realized it
was all a lesson.
The moment when i was living horrible stories …. and totally
dislike my reality … i was in fact living karmic lessons of life. They made sense for my spiritual evolution … and easy … easy … i redefined myself from being a victim of circumstances … to …
a student at the school of … life.
Karma was not a bitch … but a teacher.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
83
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
The whole meaning of everything was going on was to redefine my thinking … all my believes … but also my values. Did i did that?!
Hmm ….
No … or not so many times … but … the moment when i became aware of the fact that i am actually living karmic stories … repeated on and on and on …. I started to redefine
my behavior …also trying to understand the message behind the message.
Did i discovered the absolute truth?!
Hmm …
Hell no …
I don’t even really know what the absolute truth is … but i somehow understood that all the lessons of life should create from me … a better self.
I write …. and it all looks a total nonsense … but …..
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
84
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
Gossiping … an abstract form
of cannibalism
I see so many people having this silly habit of loving to … gossip.
I used to do it too.
In fact … i still do it … but i try to control this stupid need of doing that.
What i find funny is that i never saw anyone saying something positive … while gossiping … cause i somehow believe that if we analyze other people’s lives … and define them …. we might also see the beautiful sides of those persons.
But no ….
We are just looking at the dark side of the people from the timeline of our lives.
We define that in one million ways with the others … exploring all the negative details, amplifying them … going deeper and deeper … not realizing the nonsense of doing that.
But what many don’t really know is that gossiping is a very powerful form of energetic attack over the people we talk about.
And just a very limited amount of people know that an energetic attack on a certain person can affect that person if
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
85
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
is on a lower frequency than the person is gossiping.
Otherwise … it will all become … a boomerang.
I find today gossiping … an abstract way of cannibalism … which affect into a negative way our society. And of course … we don’t even realize it.
It’s such an illusory stupid habit … but we do it on and on and on.
Much funnier is that many times in life, when we define the things we dislike to the others … we actually speak into an unconscious way about …. ourselves.
Talking about all those concepts … i realize we run into a weird circle … having a nonsense behavior … but maybe one day … in the end we will understand the fact that life itself is a mirror … and it’s just ridiculous defining the dark side of others … when actually we could take care just of ourselves
analyzing… defining and then redefining what we dislike. But we continue life … acting in the same way.
Gossiping looks like a … pleasure for so, so many.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
86
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
The illusion of life can be probably
translated as living with the fear that there is no God …Allah … Infinite Intelligence … or whatever we name it … and even if it really exists there is no connection between us and this abstract entity … that we don’t know to define
I read when i was young lots of weird books that were talking about parallel universes, the life after death … but also how life from this plannet looks like … seen from the other side.
I found out that people that had clinical death … were seeing the same scene of their lives like a spectator … and smiled … seeing with different eyes all what was going on …. from a totally different perspective.
It all looked like a play … and all the people … were the actors … that not only that were playing a role … but were actually believing that the play was real.
They saw … what we could define as an illusion.
… or an illusory play.
But …. In the end … we all ask … is there a God or no?!
And … is it life … really an illusion?!
Why should this Infinite Intelligence make fun of us …. In
such a silly way?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
87
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
What is the real message we need to understand?!
Could we define life as a karmic illusion?!
But … having what purpose?!
Why we do use the term … illusion?!
Coming back to all those stories about people that had clinical death experiences … that somehow realized that all is completely different of what we thought life is … i start to laugh.
Even on this stage of experience … people can’t confirm that the Infinite Intelligence exists.
Or maybe … we should say to be much clear … that there is no connection between us … as individual souls and the Infinite.
We don’t even know what this entity is… … what purpose has …
And the illusion itself continues ….
We get angry more and more … not understanding a thing. Maybe into a theoretical way we might believe that the Infinite is everything … and that we are part of that infinite … so we are The Infinite too …
But all … it’s on a theoretical level …
On the scene of the real life … we feel no real connection. The fear continues dominating us … and we live into a non ending illusion …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
88
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
You need to know how
to define the pain … for that you find the right medicine
I usually refuse to take any kind of medicine.
After days of pain … i accept 1 or 2 pills … but nothing more.
I do this for years …. and i intent to keep this habit forever.
But last few days … mostly because i got very nervous … i had an incredible stomachache … that was eating my energy for many days in a row.
Finally i decided to go to the pharmacy … and telling to the lady what i wanted … i got the pills for stomach … but … nothing….
The stomachache remained.
Did not stoped … at all.
Not even for 10 minutes.
I remained without energy … not even being able to speak. I was trying to close my eyes … saying to myself on and on and on …. the theory that all i see or feel it’s an illusion in continuous form … but … it did not work.
The pain could not disappear …. and i could not ignore it.
Few days later … talking with my wife … asking me more and more precisely what do i feel … we realized that i took the wrong medicine.
I go again at the pharmacy … i buy some other pills … that
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
89
IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION … A KARMIC ONE
by the way … costed just 3 dollars … and guess what?! Suddenly … the pain disappeared. Damn it!
I stayed for 2 weeks into a pain … that disappeared in 2 minutes … using a medicine that costed just 3 dollars. How could i be such an idiot?!
