LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
1
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
ADRIAN GABRIEL DUMITRU / ARIJ EMAAN
LOVING
… but not understanding where the path goes
Year: 2021
Authors: Adrian G Dumitru / Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
2
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
LOVE IS THE CHILD OF ILLUSION AND THE PARENT OF DESILLUSION.
Miguel de Unamuno
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
3
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
INTRODUCTION
Not understanding where the path goes
He had ... kind of a perfect life.
At least this is how it looked from outside, but something was missing.
Well ... it was her again.
He was missing seeing her ... touching her ... whispering her beautiful words.
But who was ... her?!
The wife?!
The mistress?!
The mistress of that guy that hates him?!
The lady from the shop ... that is always smiling to him?!
That lady ... the client ... that he is walking with her in park from time
to time?!
No ...
Maybe that lady, from an unknown country ... that he chats with him
when she feels really depressed?!
No, no, no.
It’s just that beautiful lady from a past life, that keeps appearing on and on and on.
She disappears ... says it is forever ... then she’s changing her mind ... thinking again how it should be ... to try it one more time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
4
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Well ... It was the perfect love story.
Strong feelings on both sides.
Perfect chemistry.
Maybe even the moment when they met was perfect ... even if it was not looking as that.
But ... they were on a pathless path ... from the early beginning to the end that actually never came.
Nobody around understood what is really going on.
Not even the 2 of them.
He wanted her ... in his life ... one more time.
... and she wanted the same.
The path?!
Well ... there is no real path or if it is one ... that path actually goes in a direction we don’t really know about. But ... this is the beauty of the real life.
No plan.
Spontaneity.
Connection.
... and expect having great experiences together ... without expecting in fact anything at all from the partner.
The love story ... should be ... a dance in 2, under the moon, a bottle of champagne, 2 glasses ... whispering “i love you” all the time ... and nothing much.
A path ... of joy ... the joy of being together ... one more time. #adriangdumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
5
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
If you feel too tired
To speak ...
Then no worry about ...
Just sit next to me ...
I'm fluent in silence …
#arijemaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
6
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Truth be told ... sometimes
we don’t look for a partner, but
someone to guide us to happiness
She was still remembering of everything they had together. With her smile ... somehow without saying a word, she was remembering that to him also.
And the accident of meeting and meeting again and again .... just
happened daily.
But they knew that it was not a path ... to be together.
It was like touching the horizontal line.
Looks like ... quite possible ... but in the end it was proved so often that it was impossible.
So ... what they should do?!
Be again together?!
Try one more time?!
They always remembered the beauty of the connection and had moments when they ignored the past ... and still want not to try again ... but to taste again the joy of being together.
Life is beautiful ... but not without her.
Yes ... life is beautiful .. she had also moments when she was thinking the same ... but not without his love. But what really stopped them?!
... and most important ... what really makes them still want to be together?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
7
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
You see ... long time ago ... they were on the path of happiness. The impossible love story ... the way everything happened, the conditions of the story ... but also the desire of being ... just one more time together ... was totally redefining the script of their love story.
It was a balance between wanting to be together, being together and realizing the impossible character of the story itself.
Or maybe ... it was not the partner that they were searching ... but
someone to guide them from time to time ... to the supreme
happiness.
So?? ...
Well ... the way things are ... in the real life ... is not that they accepted them, but there are moments when they remember about that path.
Maybe it was not the path of happiness, but just being there ...
walking ... with no real direction it was a real joy.
They were ... one for another ... the guide to a state of absolute happiness.
Always comparing reality with ... that magical story ... and this dance of emotions was actually ruin them emotionally.
... but the desire of tasting one more time ... was there ... hidden deep, deep inside!
#adriangdumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
8
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
If I don't have good
hopes from him ...
And I don't consider him good ...
Then how can I criticize
him for being bad ...???
#arijemaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
9
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Friends, lovers ... or sex mates?!
Why everything is so related to sexuality?!
He was not finding any path that should satisfy him.
All the paths ... and he’s been walking on many paths ... were looking like a pathless path.
She ... on the other hand ... wanted everything amazing the world can offer to her.
She wanted the best ... from everything.
And the Universe ... laughing behind her back ... gave her everything. So she had all she ever wanted ... but in the end she was understanding that a piece from the puzzle was missing.
Was looking around ... searching all over ... but could not find that “something” ... that should take her by hand to the journey of ... happiness.
She was thinking that needed a friend ... to guide her to such a path ... or maybe a lover ... or even a sex mate. Something needed to be changed.
She needed something to bring fresh air to her soul.
In the end ... she lost her hope.
She was not expecting of anything else ... or if there was a hope it was only in a parallel universe ... and he was doing the same.
He wanted someone in his life to present to him ... other values that the ones he needed to follow for so, so many years.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
10
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
By an accident ... the connection was done.
They could not define if they are friends, lovers or ... just sex mates ... but they adored the new universe induced by their love story.
It was ... the beginning of something that could not tell where it will take.
The friendship ... was there.
They were lovers also.
Sexuality taught them about connecting ... without a spoken word. It was so damm good ... that could not imagine any other script for their lives.
Trapped ... in the world related so much with sexuality, raising vibration just by watching one to another ... the pathless path started.
Everything was so visible ... that the elements of the love story could not be hided anymore.
One day ... an explosion redefine everything in the scene of their timeline.
All was found out.
But instead of continuing in the inner world ... in that common universe induced by love ... they paid too much attention to the outside world.
They somehow needed to decide is they were going to be friends, lovers ... or just sex mates.
It was like a test, but in the end ... anything that they should choose ... that parallel world of them ... was remaining there. Sexuality defined the absence of borders.
The long love letters ... defined their story in such a great way.
But as 2 young persons ... the friendship was there also ... no matter what was going on. They were still ... friends, lovers but also sex mates.
They had nothing ... walking in an undefined direction ... but they started to not care anymore.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
11
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Just wanted to enjoy the love story ... no matter how that should be defined in the real world.
And there were many moments when all it looked too much related by sexuality ... but it was more than that.
It was ... connection ... chemistry ... the infinite.
#adriangdumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
12
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
You are the best ....
You are my comfort zone ....
You have control over
my own space ...
I can't compete you
with anything else ...
You just win me ....
#arijemaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
13
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
The lady .. that loves ... the pink
Why someone should be allowed to be perfect ... but not allowed to have the perfect life.
She was in love with the pink color.
I saw her for the first time 25 years ago.
Then i saw her ... for a moment ... about few years ago.
If i would see her again, on streets ... i would not even recognize her. Maybe the pink color will betray her ... otherwise i would not know that i missed the chance to spend few moments with her. I look for her from time to time ... into the traffic.
Sometimes ... i believe i see her ... sometimes i understand it’s just an illusion of my mind.
It’s not that i’m in love with her ... or maybe i am ... but she became for me the concept of the perfect woman.
And i wonder myself why i can’t change the circumstances so that i can start ... something for real with her. We have the connection.
We have the chemistry.
Why we can’t start, at least for a while, have a walk on the path of a love story in the real world?!
Then i start wondering myself ... why the Universe sends in our lives such persons ... but in the end we can’t really start being for real with
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
14
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
those person?!
So ... as usual ... too many questions.
But i still see her as the perfect woman ... the one that i would love to have her in my life.
She is perfect ... but i know she is not having the perfect life.
So ... once again ... i wonder myself ... what is this person doing in my life if i can’t have her?!
Well ... not all the paths go in the directions we know about. There is nothing to understand ... but enjoy the presence of that beautiful soul!
Nothing more ... that’s it!
#adriangdumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
15
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Sometimes I think ...
We imperfect people
never get along with perfect people ...
As much as we try ...
And stay with them as
long as we want ...
We look different ...
There is a sign of imperfection ...
Which becomes prominent in the
environment ....
#arijemaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
16
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Betrayal in a love story
... seen just as part of the script
I believe that the greatest test for a love story is ... betrayal.
I recently advised a dear friend of mine ... as next time when she is going to meet her soul mate ... to forget about betrayal.
She replied to me in a honest way ... and i really believed her ... “I betray .... only when i am betrayed”.
But i wonder myself why we dislike so much being betrayed ... and on the other hand love to betray.
What is behind the concept of betrayal?!
Why it looks like a coin with 2 sides ... that are sending so powerful, but also so different messages?!
Yes ... unfortunately ... even if it looks like a virus, it can be part of the script of the love story.
But, on the other hand, if you are wise enough ... you will understand the message behind this weird phenomenon. And you will even accept it.
You see ... from the outside is quite easy to see that ... no one, smart enough, will ever betray if has the partner that dreamed about. Something is missing ... from that relationship and actually the person that is practicing the betrayal is looking for that piece which is missing from the puzzle ... actually ... that key to the supreme happiness ... is searching for it ... somewhere else.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
17
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
But the fact that we follow others paths means ... nothing. Judging those kind of persons is ... silly, cause they are 2 kinds of persons that practice betrayal ... the ones that just do it, and the ones that think a lot about doing it, but actually ... don’t have the gut to do it.
Once you practice betrayal one time ... you will love it.
You will actually understand that is just a test, for you ... but also for the connection that you believe that is your soul mate.
Betrayal ... is a pathless path ... that goes in a direction that we actually have no idea about.
Sometimes ... heals something inside of us.
We understand that we had been betrayed because we are not so great as partners ... or we betrayed because that great love story is not anymore what is used to be ... and we just need some ... fresh air for the soul.
Great connection, the real soul mates ... realize that even betrayal can’t break the construction and the uniqueness of their story.
#adriangdumitru
... but not understanding where the path goes
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
1
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
ADRIAN GABRIEL DUMITRU / ARIJ EMAAN
LOVING
… but not understanding where the path goes
Year: 2021
Authors: Adrian G Dumitru / Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
2
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
LOVE IS THE CHILD OF ILLUSION AND THE PARENT OF DESILLUSION.
Miguel de Unamuno
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
3
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
INTRODUCTION
Not understanding where the path goes
He had ... kind of a perfect life.
At least this is how it looked from outside, but something was missing.
Well ... it was her again.
He was missing seeing her ... touching her ... whispering her beautiful words.
But who was ... her?!
The wife?!
The mistress?!
The mistress of that guy that hates him?!
The lady from the shop ... that is always smiling to him?!
That lady ... the client ... that he is walking with her in park from time
to time?!
No ...
Maybe that lady, from an unknown country ... that he chats with him
when she feels really depressed?!
No, no, no.
It’s just that beautiful lady from a past life, that keeps appearing on and on and on.
She disappears ... says it is forever ... then she’s changing her mind ... thinking again how it should be ... to try it one more time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
4
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Well ... It was the perfect love story.
Strong feelings on both sides.
Perfect chemistry.
Maybe even the moment when they met was perfect ... even if it was not looking as that.
But ... they were on a pathless path ... from the early beginning to the end that actually never came.
Nobody around understood what is really going on.
Not even the 2 of them.
He wanted her ... in his life ... one more time.
... and she wanted the same.
The path?!
Well ... there is no real path or if it is one ... that path actually goes in a direction we don’t really know about. But ... this is the beauty of the real life.
No plan.
Spontaneity.
Connection.
... and expect having great experiences together ... without expecting in fact anything at all from the partner.
The love story ... should be ... a dance in 2, under the moon, a bottle of champagne, 2 glasses ... whispering “i love you” all the time ... and nothing much.
A path ... of joy ... the joy of being together ... one more time. #adriangdumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
5
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
If you feel too tired
To speak ...
Then no worry about ...
Just sit next to me ...
I'm fluent in silence …
#arijemaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
6
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Truth be told ... sometimes
we don’t look for a partner, but
someone to guide us to happiness
She was still remembering of everything they had together. With her smile ... somehow without saying a word, she was remembering that to him also.
And the accident of meeting and meeting again and again .... just
happened daily.
But they knew that it was not a path ... to be together.
It was like touching the horizontal line.
Looks like ... quite possible ... but in the end it was proved so often that it was impossible.
So ... what they should do?!
Be again together?!
Try one more time?!
They always remembered the beauty of the connection and had moments when they ignored the past ... and still want not to try again ... but to taste again the joy of being together.
Life is beautiful ... but not without her.
Yes ... life is beautiful .. she had also moments when she was thinking the same ... but not without his love. But what really stopped them?!
... and most important ... what really makes them still want to be together?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
7
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
You see ... long time ago ... they were on the path of happiness. The impossible love story ... the way everything happened, the conditions of the story ... but also the desire of being ... just one more time together ... was totally redefining the script of their love story.
It was a balance between wanting to be together, being together and realizing the impossible character of the story itself.
Or maybe ... it was not the partner that they were searching ... but
someone to guide them from time to time ... to the supreme
happiness.
So?? ...
Well ... the way things are ... in the real life ... is not that they accepted them, but there are moments when they remember about that path.
Maybe it was not the path of happiness, but just being there ...
walking ... with no real direction it was a real joy.
They were ... one for another ... the guide to a state of absolute happiness.
Always comparing reality with ... that magical story ... and this dance of emotions was actually ruin them emotionally.
... but the desire of tasting one more time ... was there ... hidden deep, deep inside!
#adriangdumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
8
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
If I don't have good
hopes from him ...
And I don't consider him good ...
Then how can I criticize
him for being bad ...???
#arijemaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
9
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Friends, lovers ... or sex mates?!
Why everything is so related to sexuality?!
He was not finding any path that should satisfy him.
All the paths ... and he’s been walking on many paths ... were looking like a pathless path.
She ... on the other hand ... wanted everything amazing the world can offer to her.
She wanted the best ... from everything.
And the Universe ... laughing behind her back ... gave her everything. So she had all she ever wanted ... but in the end she was understanding that a piece from the puzzle was missing.
Was looking around ... searching all over ... but could not find that “something” ... that should take her by hand to the journey of ... happiness.
She was thinking that needed a friend ... to guide her to such a path ... or maybe a lover ... or even a sex mate. Something needed to be changed.
She needed something to bring fresh air to her soul.
In the end ... she lost her hope.
She was not expecting of anything else ... or if there was a hope it was only in a parallel universe ... and he was doing the same.
He wanted someone in his life to present to him ... other values that the ones he needed to follow for so, so many years.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
10
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
By an accident ... the connection was done.
They could not define if they are friends, lovers or ... just sex mates ... but they adored the new universe induced by their love story.
It was ... the beginning of something that could not tell where it will take.
The friendship ... was there.
They were lovers also.
Sexuality taught them about connecting ... without a spoken word. It was so damm good ... that could not imagine any other script for their lives.
Trapped ... in the world related so much with sexuality, raising vibration just by watching one to another ... the pathless path started.
Everything was so visible ... that the elements of the love story could not be hided anymore.
One day ... an explosion redefine everything in the scene of their timeline.
All was found out.
But instead of continuing in the inner world ... in that common universe induced by love ... they paid too much attention to the outside world.
They somehow needed to decide is they were going to be friends, lovers ... or just sex mates.
It was like a test, but in the end ... anything that they should choose ... that parallel world of them ... was remaining there. Sexuality defined the absence of borders.
The long love letters ... defined their story in such a great way.
But as 2 young persons ... the friendship was there also ... no matter what was going on. They were still ... friends, lovers but also sex mates.
They had nothing ... walking in an undefined direction ... but they started to not care anymore.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
11
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Just wanted to enjoy the love story ... no matter how that should be defined in the real world.
And there were many moments when all it looked too much related by sexuality ... but it was more than that.
It was ... connection ... chemistry ... the infinite.
#adriangdumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
12
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
You are the best ....
You are my comfort zone ....
You have control over
my own space ...
I can't compete you
with anything else ...
You just win me ....
#arijemaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
13
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
The lady .. that loves ... the pink
Why someone should be allowed to be perfect ... but not allowed to have the perfect life.
She was in love with the pink color.
I saw her for the first time 25 years ago.
Then i saw her ... for a moment ... about few years ago.
If i would see her again, on streets ... i would not even recognize her. Maybe the pink color will betray her ... otherwise i would not know that i missed the chance to spend few moments with her. I look for her from time to time ... into the traffic.
Sometimes ... i believe i see her ... sometimes i understand it’s just an illusion of my mind.
It’s not that i’m in love with her ... or maybe i am ... but she became for me the concept of the perfect woman.
And i wonder myself why i can’t change the circumstances so that i can start ... something for real with her. We have the connection.
We have the chemistry.
Why we can’t start, at least for a while, have a walk on the path of a love story in the real world?!
Then i start wondering myself ... why the Universe sends in our lives such persons ... but in the end we can’t really start being for real with
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
14
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
those person?!
So ... as usual ... too many questions.
But i still see her as the perfect woman ... the one that i would love to have her in my life.
She is perfect ... but i know she is not having the perfect life.
So ... once again ... i wonder myself ... what is this person doing in my life if i can’t have her?!
Well ... not all the paths go in the directions we know about. There is nothing to understand ... but enjoy the presence of that beautiful soul!
Nothing more ... that’s it!
#adriangdumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
15
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Sometimes I think ...
We imperfect people
never get along with perfect people ...
As much as we try ...
And stay with them as
long as we want ...
We look different ...
There is a sign of imperfection ...
Which becomes prominent in the
environment ....
#arijemaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
16
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
Betrayal in a love story
... seen just as part of the script
I believe that the greatest test for a love story is ... betrayal.
I recently advised a dear friend of mine ... as next time when she is going to meet her soul mate ... to forget about betrayal.
She replied to me in a honest way ... and i really believed her ... “I betray .... only when i am betrayed”.
But i wonder myself why we dislike so much being betrayed ... and on the other hand love to betray.
What is behind the concept of betrayal?!
Why it looks like a coin with 2 sides ... that are sending so powerful, but also so different messages?!
Yes ... unfortunately ... even if it looks like a virus, it can be part of the script of the love story.
But, on the other hand, if you are wise enough ... you will understand the message behind this weird phenomenon. And you will even accept it.
You see ... from the outside is quite easy to see that ... no one, smart enough, will ever betray if has the partner that dreamed about. Something is missing ... from that relationship and actually the person that is practicing the betrayal is looking for that piece which is missing from the puzzle ... actually ... that key to the supreme happiness ... is searching for it ... somewhere else.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
17
LOVING
... but not understanding where the path goes
But the fact that we follow others paths means ... nothing. Judging those kind of persons is ... silly, cause they are 2 kinds of persons that practice betrayal ... the ones that just do it, and the ones that think a lot about doing it, but actually ... don’t have the gut to do it.
Once you practice betrayal one time ... you will love it.
You will actually understand that is just a test, for you ... but also for the connection that you believe that is your soul mate.
Betrayal ... is a pathless path ... that goes in a direction that we actually have no idea about.
Sometimes ... heals something inside of us.
We understand that we had been betrayed because we are not so great as partners ... or we betrayed because that great love story is not anymore what is used to be ... and we just need some ... fresh air for the soul.
Great connection, the real soul mates ... realize that even betrayal can’t break the construction and the uniqueness of their story.
#adriangdumitru
