MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
MY LIFE IN A
PRISON WITH
INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
ADRIAN G DUMITRU
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
Year: 2021
Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian G Dumitru
2
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
When the prison doors are opened, the real dragon will fly out.
Ho Chi Minh
Adrian G Dumitru
3
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
INTRODUCTION
Still dreaming to be free
If you ask a school boy about the ideal life ... that is one without homework and very long vacations.
The summer vacation is the ideal time for them ... but still one day the autumn is coming.
If you ask an employe in a corporation about the ideal life ... he will say that he would love as the working week to have 2 days of work a day instead of 5.
The school boy, no matter the age ... is not feeling free.
Years ago ... when he was not in school ... he felt the freedom of doing only what he wanted to do.
The employee from the corporation, even if he knows that he is paid very, very well ... he is not feeling free either. But why?!
Well ... cause the society is teaching us ... somehow by force ... to live in ... “prisons”.
Now let me give you another example.
Let’s assume the case of a businessman, that already had success, has a beautiful house, has money, a good company, a wife, beautiful kids .... basically everything.
And ... still ... if you ask him if he is happy ... he will only reply that a piece from the puzzle is missing.
I know lots of businessmen that have a great success ... and even if they have everything ... almost all of them have a mistress that is completing their lives.
It’s a non sense ... i know ... cause most of them have the perfect life scenario.
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
An amazing house.
A amazing car ... or cars.
A beautiful wife.
Very nice children.
... and?!
Why this nonsense?!
Why does a person look for something else when already has the perfect life?!
Well ... cause what we call ... perfection ... is only a dogmatic way of seeing life.
The missing piece from the puzzle is the mistress ... that makes him feel loved in a totally different way. She makes him be ... a free person.
A hobby would make the school boy and even the employee from the corporation ... to love what is doing ... and also feel free ... enjoying the present activity.
You see ... no matter what path we chose in life ... the moment when we forget about the dogmatic path of living ... we feel the freedom. We feel alive.
Our actions ... will look like a total nonsense to the others ... but we will be happy.
The human being is looking for perfection ... but the happiness is not found in there.
The dogmatism will never help us to ... be us.
But ... on the path of discovering ... the real path ... at least we will have the guts to ... dream ... about the real freedom.
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
... and one day ... you realize you’ve become a robot
How many of you ... realized that somehow ... we’ve become simple robots, doing repetitive actions that don’t bring us any happiness at all?!
How many of you have the guts to meditate over this theory?! Well ... we all know it ... and by a long time, but just don’t want to talk about it.
Things are the way they are ... and is useless to believe that the whole situation will be different one day soon.
I’ve even been accused that i am having sex in a robotic way ... and i wonder why?!
Years ago a friend of mine told me that he was having robotic sex with his wife from that time ... and then he divorced.
He was not happy in the marriage by years ... and the marriage itself became a robotic one.
But what means ... robotic?!
How we should define that?!
Today i believe that we do in a robotic way ... the things we don’t like to do ... but we do them anyway because we know we ... need ... to do them.
We are not really forced by others ... but by us ... because we don’t allow ourselves to be free ... to act just as we should like to act. You see ... we should permit ourselves to do whatever we want to do ... and also not to do ... what we don’t like to do.
I mean the principle is quite simple ... but just don’t have the guts to do it.
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
We act like people from concentration camps ... but there is no nazy soldiers around to tell us what to do or not to do.
Or if there is any nazy around ... that is you ... talking to you ...
ordering by force what you are allowed to do ... or not to do.
We have a robotic mental software ... easy to be defined, but difficult to be understood ... even by us.
And we continue as this ... on and on and on ... lying ourselves ...
that tomorrow we will do it in the proper way.
But that day never comes ... because we don’t dare to act in a way that might look ... wild ... undogmatic.
The robotic mental software is the way we accept to live our lives ...
not having the courage to say ... “It’s enough! I want a different life! ... starting from now!”
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
So ... so ... so many philosophers and all of them are hiding the truth
Have you ever thought what is behind the concept of freedom?!
I studied lots of books about personal growth ... and i really believed for many years in this concept.
2-3 years ago ... i read over social media, for the first time that personal growth is a crap ... and i could not believe i was reading this. It was like someone was telling me ... there is no God ... all you heard is a lie.
I continued reading ... without stoping ... but still from time to time ...
i was remembering ... “Personal growth is a lie”.
Later on ... i was speaking with a philosopher friend at a coffee shop about the theory of affirmations ... and she replies ... “Affirmations ... are just crap”.
Again ... i could not believe it.
Another close friend ... that is very spiritual and very well connected to the Universe ... knowing that i read a lot ... repeated me few times ... “Reading is a crap. You read all kind of things ... without admitting that this is actually not the truth ... but what other people thought”.
I knew that the great philosopher Osho read 100.000 books and then
he stoped reading anything at all ... so it might be true what my
spiritual friend was saying.
But what is the truth?!
What is the best path that we should follow in life?!
Well ... first of all i believe we all come with a lesson to learn during this lifetime and my lesson is not necessary your lesson.
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
I also believe that today there is an inflation of philosophers and too many people are thinking that they are actually helping with their ideas.
The only thing that we should do is just connect to the Universe.
Ask for freedom ... but in a beautiful way.
You see ... people are talking ... but they are just hiding the truth in an amazing way.
And it sounds so great ... that i laugh of everything i read.
Maybe is time for all of us to think about finding the real truth inside of us ... connecting to the soul.
Everything you need is in the inner world ... not in what you see outside ... and you call reality.
Stop being dominated by thoughts that comes from so, so many directions ... and listen to the messages from the Universe. Freedom means first of all ... not being dominated ... and one of the strongest forces from the world is the power of thoughts.
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
Be yourself!
Cut the energetic cords to all the ones that try to dominate you
Have you ever thought why you heard that men over 40 are losing their minds?!
For a man ... the age of 40 is probably the best one.
I believed that 30 is better, but at that age we get lost too often.
After 40 ... a man ... knows what actually wants ... and most of all ...
he wants freedom.
But freedom in a beautiful way ... a kind of special freedom for the soul.
And many men of that age ... even fall in love ... and many others around them ... define the situation ... as losing their minds.
But the problem is that on the path to freedom, being naive as so, so many times in the past ... just replaces one domination with another one.
Years ago ... he was in love with the wife.
Now is in love with someone else’s wife.
And the man does not know what to think anymore.
Again ... and again ... and again ... the same question ... “what path should i follow?!”
Instead of deciding that is the perfect time for being himself ... the man is again dominated by a new story ... a love story. The man of 40 ... is not finding himself.
... cause being yourself ... means to find yourself first of all! But the man of 40 does not know the simple trick of cutting the energetic cords with all the ones that try to dominate him.
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
Succeeded maybe with all the ones from the professional life ... but not with the ones from the personal life.
Continuing being so, so naive ... the life with the mistress becomes even much miserable than the one ... he used to have with the wife. The man ... changed the prison ... with another one ... but still does not understand what is really going on.
Too bad ... we were not taught tricks to avoid the domination ... but in the end after the end of the story “losing your mind” ... called “the love story” ... you have only one strong message into the mind ... “Start being yourself!”.
And even if it looks like is a little bit too late ... you should try it. But never forget ... that all people are connected with energetic cords ... and you are allowed to cut them ... if those persons try to dominate yourself.
Is just a decision ... the right one!
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
Sometimes “too late” means ... it’s time for a new chapter from your life
Slavery is defined as the condition in which a human being is owned by another.
Theoretically ... slavery does not exists anymore, but you can actually find it everywhere in the world ... especially in different kind of relationships.
Love should actually be a union of souls ...seen in the end as one soul living in 2 bodies, but the truth is that in many cases it becomes a relationship of 2 people that don’t like each other anymore. In fact they hate each other.
Jumping from love to hate is only one step ... cause no one taught us what is love about and especially of the theory of union.
And everything goes into the direction of domination ... love being destroyed little by little.
If you look around you ... won’t find so many happy couples ... but if you know their story ... you know that long time ago it was a love story.
So ... something doesn’t make sense.
Fights, breaking things, ugly words that hurt a lot ... this is the way you should define them in the present moment.
You see ... the opposite of domination should be accepting the freedom ... the freedom of doing different things, of thinking in a different way as you do ... the freedom as the partner should be in society that individual personality also.
Souls can have a union ... personalities can remain different ... but still ... we have no clue of why something amazing becames something that hurts us so much.
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
We even begin to show our wild side... when we don’t like what is going on ... and we start feeling like we are caged in something that we totally dislike.
Seneca used to say that even possessing the wild animals in a cage ... is dangerous, cause while giving them to eat ... they might try to kill you.
The same ... our wild side ... will kill ... not in a physically way, but spiritually ... the person that probably we loved the most during this life time.
And everything happens only cause we don’t understand that slavery should not be a concept associated with the relationship at home. Re evaluating the concept of freedom ... is the way of saving the things ... if there is something to save ... and if there is too late ...
maybe is time to understand that a new chapter is waiting for you. Just embrace anything happens ... and treat with love ... even that “enemy” that you used to love so much in the past.
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
And one day he discovered that all the prisoners ... just disappeared. Unfortunately ... a real story
In the morning, a close friend called me saying that he wants to talk to me right away.
I start late my day, cause i need to write and drink 2-3 coffees before i leave home.
I’ve invited him to come to my house ... and he started telling me his pain ... his wife left him.
He needed a private detective ... and wanted to help him to find one over the internet.
I did not knew what to say, cause i knew his wife and i don’t really know if everything was a huge misunderstanding ... or she was really having a love affair.
She is today 53 and she is close to 60 ... but i guess there is no certain rules for the age when you can have a love affair.
At one point ... i considered, listening to my friend ... that he is only a little bit paranoia.
But still ... she was not living with him anymore.
His sons also left the house where all of them were staying ... with their wives and little sons.
...still dreaming about freedom
MY LIFE IN A
PRISON WITH
INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
ADRIAN G DUMITRU
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
Year: 2021
Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian G Dumitru
2
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
When the prison doors are opened, the real dragon will fly out.
Ho Chi Minh
Adrian G Dumitru
3
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
INTRODUCTION
Still dreaming to be free
If you ask a school boy about the ideal life ... that is one without homework and very long vacations.
The summer vacation is the ideal time for them ... but still one day the autumn is coming.
If you ask an employe in a corporation about the ideal life ... he will say that he would love as the working week to have 2 days of work a day instead of 5.
The school boy, no matter the age ... is not feeling free.
Years ago ... when he was not in school ... he felt the freedom of doing only what he wanted to do.
The employee from the corporation, even if he knows that he is paid very, very well ... he is not feeling free either. But why?!
Well ... cause the society is teaching us ... somehow by force ... to live in ... “prisons”.
Now let me give you another example.
Let’s assume the case of a businessman, that already had success, has a beautiful house, has money, a good company, a wife, beautiful kids .... basically everything.
And ... still ... if you ask him if he is happy ... he will only reply that a piece from the puzzle is missing.
I know lots of businessmen that have a great success ... and even if they have everything ... almost all of them have a mistress that is completing their lives.
It’s a non sense ... i know ... cause most of them have the perfect life scenario.
Adrian G Dumitru
4
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
An amazing house.
A amazing car ... or cars.
A beautiful wife.
Very nice children.
... and?!
Why this nonsense?!
Why does a person look for something else when already has the perfect life?!
Well ... cause what we call ... perfection ... is only a dogmatic way of seeing life.
The missing piece from the puzzle is the mistress ... that makes him feel loved in a totally different way. She makes him be ... a free person.
A hobby would make the school boy and even the employee from the corporation ... to love what is doing ... and also feel free ... enjoying the present activity.
You see ... no matter what path we chose in life ... the moment when we forget about the dogmatic path of living ... we feel the freedom. We feel alive.
Our actions ... will look like a total nonsense to the others ... but we will be happy.
The human being is looking for perfection ... but the happiness is not found in there.
The dogmatism will never help us to ... be us.
But ... on the path of discovering ... the real path ... at least we will have the guts to ... dream ... about the real freedom.
Adrian G Dumitru
5
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
... and one day ... you realize you’ve become a robot
How many of you ... realized that somehow ... we’ve become simple robots, doing repetitive actions that don’t bring us any happiness at all?!
How many of you have the guts to meditate over this theory?! Well ... we all know it ... and by a long time, but just don’t want to talk about it.
Things are the way they are ... and is useless to believe that the whole situation will be different one day soon.
I’ve even been accused that i am having sex in a robotic way ... and i wonder why?!
Years ago a friend of mine told me that he was having robotic sex with his wife from that time ... and then he divorced.
He was not happy in the marriage by years ... and the marriage itself became a robotic one.
But what means ... robotic?!
How we should define that?!
Today i believe that we do in a robotic way ... the things we don’t like to do ... but we do them anyway because we know we ... need ... to do them.
We are not really forced by others ... but by us ... because we don’t allow ourselves to be free ... to act just as we should like to act. You see ... we should permit ourselves to do whatever we want to do ... and also not to do ... what we don’t like to do.
I mean the principle is quite simple ... but just don’t have the guts to do it.
Adrian G Dumitru
6
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
We act like people from concentration camps ... but there is no nazy soldiers around to tell us what to do or not to do.
Or if there is any nazy around ... that is you ... talking to you ...
ordering by force what you are allowed to do ... or not to do.
We have a robotic mental software ... easy to be defined, but difficult to be understood ... even by us.
And we continue as this ... on and on and on ... lying ourselves ...
that tomorrow we will do it in the proper way.
But that day never comes ... because we don’t dare to act in a way that might look ... wild ... undogmatic.
The robotic mental software is the way we accept to live our lives ...
not having the courage to say ... “It’s enough! I want a different life! ... starting from now!”
Adrian G Dumitru
7
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
So ... so ... so many philosophers and all of them are hiding the truth
Have you ever thought what is behind the concept of freedom?!
I studied lots of books about personal growth ... and i really believed for many years in this concept.
2-3 years ago ... i read over social media, for the first time that personal growth is a crap ... and i could not believe i was reading this. It was like someone was telling me ... there is no God ... all you heard is a lie.
I continued reading ... without stoping ... but still from time to time ...
i was remembering ... “Personal growth is a lie”.
Later on ... i was speaking with a philosopher friend at a coffee shop about the theory of affirmations ... and she replies ... “Affirmations ... are just crap”.
Again ... i could not believe it.
Another close friend ... that is very spiritual and very well connected to the Universe ... knowing that i read a lot ... repeated me few times ... “Reading is a crap. You read all kind of things ... without admitting that this is actually not the truth ... but what other people thought”.
I knew that the great philosopher Osho read 100.000 books and then
he stoped reading anything at all ... so it might be true what my
spiritual friend was saying.
But what is the truth?!
What is the best path that we should follow in life?!
Well ... first of all i believe we all come with a lesson to learn during this lifetime and my lesson is not necessary your lesson.
Adrian G Dumitru
8
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
I also believe that today there is an inflation of philosophers and too many people are thinking that they are actually helping with their ideas.
The only thing that we should do is just connect to the Universe.
Ask for freedom ... but in a beautiful way.
You see ... people are talking ... but they are just hiding the truth in an amazing way.
And it sounds so great ... that i laugh of everything i read.
Maybe is time for all of us to think about finding the real truth inside of us ... connecting to the soul.
Everything you need is in the inner world ... not in what you see outside ... and you call reality.
Stop being dominated by thoughts that comes from so, so many directions ... and listen to the messages from the Universe. Freedom means first of all ... not being dominated ... and one of the strongest forces from the world is the power of thoughts.
Adrian G Dumitru
9
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
Be yourself!
Cut the energetic cords to all the ones that try to dominate you
Have you ever thought why you heard that men over 40 are losing their minds?!
For a man ... the age of 40 is probably the best one.
I believed that 30 is better, but at that age we get lost too often.
After 40 ... a man ... knows what actually wants ... and most of all ...
he wants freedom.
But freedom in a beautiful way ... a kind of special freedom for the soul.
And many men of that age ... even fall in love ... and many others around them ... define the situation ... as losing their minds.
But the problem is that on the path to freedom, being naive as so, so many times in the past ... just replaces one domination with another one.
Years ago ... he was in love with the wife.
Now is in love with someone else’s wife.
And the man does not know what to think anymore.
Again ... and again ... and again ... the same question ... “what path should i follow?!”
Instead of deciding that is the perfect time for being himself ... the man is again dominated by a new story ... a love story. The man of 40 ... is not finding himself.
... cause being yourself ... means to find yourself first of all! But the man of 40 does not know the simple trick of cutting the energetic cords with all the ones that try to dominate him.
Adrian G Dumitru
10
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
Succeeded maybe with all the ones from the professional life ... but not with the ones from the personal life.
Continuing being so, so naive ... the life with the mistress becomes even much miserable than the one ... he used to have with the wife. The man ... changed the prison ... with another one ... but still does not understand what is really going on.
Too bad ... we were not taught tricks to avoid the domination ... but in the end after the end of the story “losing your mind” ... called “the love story” ... you have only one strong message into the mind ... “Start being yourself!”.
And even if it looks like is a little bit too late ... you should try it. But never forget ... that all people are connected with energetic cords ... and you are allowed to cut them ... if those persons try to dominate yourself.
Is just a decision ... the right one!
Adrian G Dumitru
11
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
Sometimes “too late” means ... it’s time for a new chapter from your life
Slavery is defined as the condition in which a human being is owned by another.
Theoretically ... slavery does not exists anymore, but you can actually find it everywhere in the world ... especially in different kind of relationships.
Love should actually be a union of souls ...seen in the end as one soul living in 2 bodies, but the truth is that in many cases it becomes a relationship of 2 people that don’t like each other anymore. In fact they hate each other.
Jumping from love to hate is only one step ... cause no one taught us what is love about and especially of the theory of union.
And everything goes into the direction of domination ... love being destroyed little by little.
If you look around you ... won’t find so many happy couples ... but if you know their story ... you know that long time ago it was a love story.
So ... something doesn’t make sense.
Fights, breaking things, ugly words that hurt a lot ... this is the way you should define them in the present moment.
You see ... the opposite of domination should be accepting the freedom ... the freedom of doing different things, of thinking in a different way as you do ... the freedom as the partner should be in society that individual personality also.
Souls can have a union ... personalities can remain different ... but still ... we have no clue of why something amazing becames something that hurts us so much.
Adrian G Dumitru
12
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
We even begin to show our wild side... when we don’t like what is going on ... and we start feeling like we are caged in something that we totally dislike.
Seneca used to say that even possessing the wild animals in a cage ... is dangerous, cause while giving them to eat ... they might try to kill you.
The same ... our wild side ... will kill ... not in a physically way, but spiritually ... the person that probably we loved the most during this life time.
And everything happens only cause we don’t understand that slavery should not be a concept associated with the relationship at home. Re evaluating the concept of freedom ... is the way of saving the things ... if there is something to save ... and if there is too late ...
maybe is time to understand that a new chapter is waiting for you. Just embrace anything happens ... and treat with love ... even that “enemy” that you used to love so much in the past.
Adrian G Dumitru
13
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
And one day he discovered that all the prisoners ... just disappeared. Unfortunately ... a real story
In the morning, a close friend called me saying that he wants to talk to me right away.
I start late my day, cause i need to write and drink 2-3 coffees before i leave home.
I’ve invited him to come to my house ... and he started telling me his pain ... his wife left him.
He needed a private detective ... and wanted to help him to find one over the internet.
I did not knew what to say, cause i knew his wife and i don’t really know if everything was a huge misunderstanding ... or she was really having a love affair.
She is today 53 and she is close to 60 ... but i guess there is no certain rules for the age when you can have a love affair.
At one point ... i considered, listening to my friend ... that he is only a little bit paranoia.
But still ... she was not living with him anymore.
His sons also left the house where all of them were staying ... with their wives and little sons.
