The rest ... what you need to receive during this lifetime ... it will come to you anyway at the right time ... even if you mention it or not.
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...still dreaming about freedom
One life indeed ... but can we have multiple realities?!
I wonder myself if a human being can handle multiple realities.
Not very often i meet someone that is satisfied completely by the life she or he has.
Something does not satisfy them.
Is not that they would totally change their life ... they would just taste something else also.
I believe that this is the reason why people are cheating.
They would like something new in their lives, but not change the actual partner, cause they are used like that.
This is the moment when they realize that they have only one life, but they want to live it ... and the idea of multiple realities appears as an amazing solution.
The “prisoner” ... escapes for a short time, but gets back to the reality right away ... after “tasting” ... something else. I know lots of people that are doing that today.
A lady i recently met told me that she had a relationship with a gentleman for 9 years and she did not realized he is married. When she found out ... she asked herself ... what is reality?! How she could live for 9 years ... without seeing the signs ... She was blind.
She could not believe how powerful he was for such a long time ...
and she not even thought about that.
He mastered the art of switching multiple realities ... without any problem, but i think he was not totally satisfied of what is going on with none of the 2 ladies.
But 9 years ... is a very long time.
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
So .. should we learn the art of switching realities?!
Just to be happy from time to time ... or learn the art of enjoying the present moment ... no matter of what this present moment means?! Is difficult to answer.
The story i told you about is only one story ... but too many people dislike reality.
The art of switching realities is kind of a trick. .. used by lots of people today.
Unhappy people ... take drugs ... some of them only at home, in the night, so as nobody should know ... just to be happy for a short period of time.
Some are just drinking alcohol ... without anyone to know.
Same as the ones that are cheating.
All of them are unhappy and if they can be honest, they would
say ...”i believe i have only one life! ... and it’s my right to be happy.
Even for a short time”.
Is it immoral?!
Well ... in general happiness should not be defined as immoral ... but the illusion of happiness still exists in every soul. We should not blame them.
Or judge then.
Understanding the abstract concept of multiple realities ... will let you understand the connection between happiness and freedom. But even .. the concept of freedom becomes an illusion.
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
“I'm not with someone
I'm in relationship with myself”
I’ve just visited last night a close friend.
He was very unhappy.
He wife left him.
He believes that she was cheating on him and this is the reason why she left.
I could tell him ... “I am sorry! I am really sorry for what is happening to you!” ... but i decided to be a little bit funny. Enter the house and said:
“So ... you are home alone.
Basically we can invite some ladies and give a party.
Pff ... i wish i could be in your position!
Divorced ... in my opinion as a man ... means free .... released from
the prison of marriage.
My God ... you are so lucky!”
He could not believe what i was saying, but he started to smile listening to me.
The moment he was opening the door he was very unhappy and now he was ... smiling.
A very successful guy ... very wealthy ... but he was feeling that he lost everything.
Being alone at home ... almost destroyed him.
His vibe was saying that he is close to losing his mind.
There was not so much to say, cause his wife decided to leave the house after 35 years of marriage.
Most probably she will not come back ... at least not during this life time.
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
After i finished my jokes ... i explained him that somehow the Universe knows better what is the best for him.
Another closed friend was recently telling me that “I'm not with someone. I'm in relationship with myself” ... when i asked her about her love life.
She is a young girl ... but my friend was not so young anymore. Truth be told marriages makes us feel that we live in a prison. I felt for years the same, but the walls of this invisible prison disappeared in the next second i had the guts to tell this to my wife. I felt released.
Maybe the wife of my friend felt also that she was living in a prison and needed to escape and become a free person.
Or maybe ... it was the time for my friend to meet with himself.
Coming home and see he is alone ... and the only companion he could
speak with ... should be his soul.
It was hard.
I am sure of that ... but we should always trust the Universe.
We would never receive lessons that we can’t really handle ... but we need to believe ... in the fact that everything looks really bad ... will end excellent.
This might be the key.
Now i wonder myself ... what is much difficult ... to live with the
wife ... or stay in a prison room you ... with you ... and your thoughts.
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
The to do list of the day:
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
Yesterday, a friend called me at 10:30 am and asked ... “Hey! What are you doing?!”
“I am reading a book” ... i answered.
“You are reading a book??!! It’s 10:30 in the morning ... and today is
wednesday ... not sunday!”
“So...?!”
“I can’t believe it ... you lost your mind! That’s for sure”.
I was smiling and continued our nonsense conversation.
Reading a book was the equivalent of doing ... NOTHING ... and losing my mind.
But my friend just started a new business and i don’t blame him.
He is today in the matrix of “to do list”.
You know, i read lots of books about how to organize our time, about to do lists ... the way we should split tasks, but i also remember a good book that had a chapter called ... “not to do list”.
Of course ... we can place in there ... don’t smoke, don’t drink too much, etc etc ... but the author forget the essential in his examples. What about ... “Don’t forget to live your life?!”
Is that something important or is important as in the morning to write 3 pages of the different things we need to do ... because we need to do?!
What if you say ... today i refuse to do all the things i need to do ...
and i will do ... nothing.
The to do list of the day is ... nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing.
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
So ... i dare to wonder myself what is the difference between a free person and a prisoner.
A prisoner ... does ... nothing.
He is just living his days in prison.
But why a free person becomes the prisoner of his to do list?!
Why we can’t find a formula to just enjoy life everyday?!
I mean ... what is the real life?!
The one from the week end?!
Why do we live in the prison of 9 to 5, monday to friday?!
Why we can’t be happy everyday?!
Just to enjoy the present moment.
Maybe we should keep an excel sheet with all the days when we gave us the liberty to get out of the prison of doing only what we need to do and meditate and the end of the year, in the winter vacation ...
staying in front of the excel and define the year ... but also program a better next year.
One ... of feeling alive all the time!
Adrian G Dumitru
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
Are we allowed to change their thinking?!
You really think so?!
Everyone has a lesson to learn in life.
I somehow always thought that is not correct that the Bible is written without a clear message ... but in the end the abstract lets us believe whatever we chose to believe.
I once read a book, written by George Soros ... where he defined himself as a loser when it comes about his abilities of philosopher.
A guy who influenced the world in lots of ways, in many occasions ...
had the power to write this about him.
On the other hand, i see all around lots of people that believe that they found the meaning and the secret of life.
They try to influence, asking for likes and applauses from the ones that are listening to them.
My question is today ... are we allowed to influence the world with our believes?!
I see an inflation of philosophers ... but not so many people that should send us good vibes all the time. I am somehow doing the same.
I practice kind of an exercise of thinking ... defining ... and still asking myself ... what is the meaning of life ... why are we here for?! Somehow ... i play around as many others.
I am still inside of a mental prison ... defined by all the books i’ve read, all the discussions i had or the things happened to me over the years.
Yes ... i am in process of believing that i still have a chance, doing this exercise ... of becoming a free person ... or at least not staying in a north korean philosophical prison.
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...still dreaming about freedom
Many times ... i even laugh of myself, cause i realize i am my own dictator ... but also the prison itself.
Identifying ourselves with our thinking ... i believe is a pathless path. Telling to the others that we found the path ... and they should follow us ... is ... just funny.
Maybe ... we only found a path in the labyrinth.
Everyone should listen ... have idea of as many things as possible, but in the end ... just connect to the inner soul and feel the direction of the own life.
The real answers are inside ... not outside!
Just let them decide their own path ... not by changing their thinking ... but by teaching them how to connect to the inner soul. That should be a better decision ... for influencing the world.
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
The disease of more ... ruins he beauty of enjoying life
Truth be told we are the slaves of our desires.
And the more we will get ... we will start to believe that we deserve even more and more.
We will travel on a path to nowhere ... chasing for an illusion ... but the blindness will never disappear ... maybe not even in the last moment of being alive.
But what is the disease for more?!
Well ... i suffered and still suffer of it in the last 20 years ... and i have an idea about it.
First of all i believe ... is kind of a way of feeding your mind ... with a drug that gives you all the necessary energy to fight for getting whatever you want in life.
I study today lots of motivational pages and i wonder myself if they keep the right balance between empowering people and not sending them on the path of ... more.
Success is being defined as having everything a human being can have on this plannet.
In fact the best model is ... just have the life of a king ... or at least of a prince.
And we follow the guidance ... taking for granted these dogmatic believes ... that they are the best paths to follow in life.
Then, after 20 or even 30 years of work, realizing one day that no one of those things that you accomplished make you happy ... you suddenly see one day ... the pleasure of painting ...or writing a poem ... singing with friends ... enjoying a walk in the forest ... reading a book …
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
For all of those things you don’t need any kind of success ... and not even any money to do it.
Is something you could also do 20- 30 years ago ... when you started to work for your dream of having a huge success.
At the end of the road ...after all kinds of strange episodes .. fighting for years ... you discover that ... everything was useless.
You got everything ... but can’t find happiness inside your soul. You’re been lied ... and you realize you followed a path that was not the right one destined to you ... but one that society whispered you to follow.
And maybe you start writing.
And you publish a book .. and you are so happy about that ... then another one and another one and another one.
Then you start dreaming about success as a writer ... and ... you become blind again ... having the same illness of more.
Wanting more ... is just a disease generated by the Ego ... that dreams of having everything a king has ... forcing you to stay in a prison ... which is kind of a gallery of art ... that has on the walls the paintings of all your desires.
But ... maybe keeping the right balance ... in everything life has to offer us ... should be the real key for accomplishing happiness. Just think about it ... and be aware of all your dreams and goals ... cause at the end ... after succeeding everything we wanted so
much ... we might see that we only followed the path to .... nowhere.
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MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
...still dreaming about freedom
“Te quiero” or “Te amo”?!
What is the real truth?!
Every time when i think of “how do i see” ... i remember that usually
my thinking defines my limits .... and the limits are the walls of the
mental prison i live in.
Maybe i should better ask ... do we have the guts to say the truth
about the truth and that means is not ... “te amo!” ... but ... “te
quero!”?!
Everything is related with what we want ... and nothing more.
So ... even when we say we love ... we prove that we have limits.
But love should be infinite ... and infinite means without limits. And the human being shows one more time ... the limited thinking when comes of understanding what life is about.
So ... maybe ... the key of understanding what is life ... is by understanding what is love about.
Loving with an open heart, without expectations ... without asking anything in return ... not even love ... might be a path.
“I love you because...” should be forbidden from our vocabulary.
Just ... “I love you!”.
