PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
PERCEPTIONS
...philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
1
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
ADRIAN GABRIEL DUMITRU
PERCEPTIONS
...philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Year: 2022
Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
2
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
I am highly thankful to my perceptions and dreams that make possibility for me to see things which have been gone or the peoples who've lost to me ....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
3
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
This is a book for all the ones that started the journey of … understanding life. The ones that believe in the need of analyzing our perceptions … but also the ones that try to find the answer to what is the nonsense … and what is the connection between that and … the illusion of the self. We just tried to write in our own style … following the same line … but also guiding all which are interested about the question
what is life?! Enjoy the reading!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
4
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
INTRODUCTION
It’s all just … a perception
Me and Arij … try to define life.
We do it … almost … as a hobby.
We became without even realizing … what some people would define as … philosophers.
But we feel more … just … ordinary persons … that simple can’t stop thinking of the meaning of life. Our own lives … but also of life in general.
And all we write … it’s kind of a philosophical dance.
A mix of perceptions …. very well synchronized.
The perceptions of an … ordinary man … and the one of an amazing … young … feminine spirit.
And the question that might come into your mind … could probably be … what it’s the purpose of this book?! Why did you bothered to write it?!
Well … first of all … cause we love talking about philosophy … but also give the others the impulse of realizing anyone has the right and the power to talk about the existence of the human being.
Starting the philosophical journey … talking about contradictory issues …. might be … weird … difficult … but also … annoying.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
5
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
But time will pass … and continuing walking into this path … we get used …
We start enjoying it …
And then …. we believe … we found the absolute truth.
I smile … cause i did that one million times.
On and on … and on.
Later … changing my perceptions … into a totally contradictory direction … i realized the illusion of all those thoughts and believes.
Today … all i am doing with Arij … it’s almost for fun.
It’s like we would tell you that we decided to go fishing and enjoy the day … but …. our hobby it’s not about fishing, but about … philosophy.
It’s about a path … that we believe that will reveal us the meaning … of life.
All we write about … are simple … perceptions.
our own perceptions… from a certain period of our lives. Nothing more …
nothing less.
But … we continue doing it.
Nobody could judge us … cause it’s all about a hobby of ours. And you all … have this fundamental right of analyzing and defining the world too.
No one is allowed to … judge you.
Express your self …
Dare to do it … in silence or … very load.
Even Kant’s ideas … or Rumi’s ideas … and all the other great thinkers … were just … perceptions.
So ….
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
6
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Join us … on this philosophical path … and ….
Who knows?!
Maybe the real secrets will be revealed to you … quite soon.
Much sooner as you might expect ….
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
7
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Trust me....
Our past is an interpretation ....
And
Future ??
Future is …
an illusion ... So for eternal illumination We must …
We need to stay in …
Present .....
(Arij Emaan)
I wrote in many of my books about analyzing and defining our lives … but most probably it’s also important to keep the right balance between living the life itself … no matter how it is … and paying attention to all our perceptions.
And the question that comes in my mind is … should we allow all those perceptions to dominate our present moment?!
I have many moments when i actually define the concept of perception … as illusory, but … i still can’t see a way in how i could actually keep the right balance between living for real on the stage of my life and spending so much time meditating about all we see around us today. Also the past is present.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
8
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
The future … always is intriguing us.
So …. ?!
Well … after writing so much … i still have a feeling that something is wrong.
I probably did not mentioned that the perceptions are … so … illusory and it will always be like that.
And what is the trick …. for living ok … or even having a
beautiful life?!
I smile … somehow accepting that life … the present moment itseld … must be … simple enjoyed.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
9
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Our Perceptions ...
Our perceptions defines the paths that we actually follow in life. It’s difficult to accept it …. but once we meditate more …
and define everything related to us … looking deeper and deeper … we understand that somehow we need to allow ourselves to metamorphose all those … perceptions … that are just a reflection of the illusory self.
and simple continue the journey … with an open heart. (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
To hurt people
To hurt souls....
You all need to allow
continual progress
in happiness......
You all need to allow
confidence ......
You need to allow
appreciations ....
You all need to allow
acceptance ......
You all need to allow
unison.....
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
10
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
You all need to allow
healings.....
You all need to allow
compassions.....
You all need to allow
genuine
Connection ......
You all need to allow
Wellbeing .....
You all need to allow
to forget the rest.....
You all need to allow
joy to joy to joy.....
And...
You all need to deny your
dark periods .....
You all need to deny to be
sadden ....
to be sadden....to be sadden....
To be sadden
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
11
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Need ...
Only need ...
Only ecstasy is
the receiving and giving
of pleasure .....
(Arij Emaan)
Why so many people like that?!
Well … to be more precise … if it’s a young person … that will tell me about how amazing is to consume drugs … i would say that …
and if it’s older than 35-40 … they will ask me … “why the hell you don’t drink alcohol anymore … cause it’s so damn … good.” …. I would smile all the time.
… i simple laugh seeing this … need of illusory joy.
The story with alcohol i understood it long time ago, but the one with the drugs … well …
Or maybe i am too old to understand it.
But i smile again … in front of those illusory habits … of chasing for great vibes.
Well … there are so, so many ways of finding the real joy of being alive … but we simple can’t understand anything about the art of connecting to the present moment.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
12
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
It’s probably easier to consume those substances that we name … drugs … of any kind …
Nobody bothered to teach us this art … of understanding what the real joy and happiness is.
Can we take a “magic” pill and feel alive?!
Or maybe a bottle of whiskey?!
Hmm …
Today i see that as a … primitive perception.
But it’s probably just … my perception … and nothing more … cause so, so many are whispering me this theory that the joy of being alive is so related with those weird substances.
Well … i continue to find it … illusory …and actually continue my life journey …. hoping that one day i’ll find the path to the real joy of being alive.
So … am i smarter than all the ones around me?!
Hell … noooo …
I just stoped being and acting … silly … looking for something else …
But it’s funny, cause i don’t know what i am looking for … (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
13
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Imperfect souls ...
If we are imperfect souls ...
Then we should not worry
being wrong .....
But we should analyse
our willingness .....
(Arij Emaan)
Should be really boring to talk about our imperfections.
It would probably be a non ending philosophical talk.
I always analyze myself and the world.
Arij … does the same.
I express myself in on million words, not understanding Arij’s style of writing and telling the perspective in just … few words.
But we both … continue to write … defining this world we live in.
I personally started to ignore my imperfections, cause i know that once one it’s fixed … another one will appear in front of my eyes.
I wrote so much about analyzing, defining … and then redefining everything we do not like …. but … i started to
believe that the process itself … becomes useless in one point.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
14
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Too many … imperfections.
And i stoped thinking about … the real change of my life.
I see the others doing the same.
We somehow lost our … willingness for redefining … our souls.
The only real problem is that we continue … being wrong. But maybe this is just a perspective … and the real path of becoming good souls is to continue …. being wrong until we start to see the positive path we need to follow.
I know … it’s like we go in the circle … but most of our lives looks like that.
So … i just smile in front of my mistakes, knowing that one day the real path will appear to me, even if today i follow so, so many … pathless paths.
But again … i repeat myself … maybe it’s all just a perspective.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
15
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Keep doing that ...
Keep taunting me
please....
It polishes my mind
always .....
(Arij Emaan)
Truth be told … analyzing and defining myself into an honest way … many, many times … probably too many times … i was paying too much attention to the people which were trying to … annoy me.
And every time i was doing it … i became annoyed more and more.
Actually being annoyed became a … way of being.
But … to be honest … i had enough of that.
I wanted to get rid of those weird feelings of … frustration. And i started to make different tests with myself … trying in fact to change my behavior in front of those illusory episodes from my life.
And it really started to be … funny.
For example recently a guy …. wrote me over internet that
he wants to make an exchange between his car and the car i was selling.
It was 100% an unfair exchange and i could define it even as an impolite proposal, but …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
16
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
I smiled and replied
“+5k”
“?”
“An extra payment of 5000 dollars”
“”
“So … i succeeded to make you laugh, same as you made me
laugh.”
“You’re weird”
“Why?! You misunderstood…. I wanted to pay you 5000
dollars for this unfair exchange” “Fuck you”
Hahaha. I really laughed having this conversation with these rude guy.
Before … such an episode would probably ruin my day. Today … with a totally different perception about reality and the way we should react in certain situations on the stage of our own lives … i found the power and actually the wisdom to simple … smile.
Those episodes just polish … my mind.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
17
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Stillness ...
Maybe … we have stillness and sanctuary within us
that help to
retreat us
and
we can be us .
(Arij Emaan)
I recently understood that i run away of being with myself.
I prefer everything is contradictory with … silence … cause it
forces me stay with … myself.
I somehow dislike that.
It’s like being in front of a spiritual mirror … and i could almost say that … i hate it.
If you ask me why … i can’t tell you … at least not yet.
I was in love for years of … chaos … and i dislike the concept of … stillness … until i started to feel that something is … wrong.
I had to treat myself … or at least to begin this process … but i was pretending i did not had time and it was a total nonsense to lose any second … trying to understand who i really was.
So … i ignored … what i should do …
Arij whispered me about … stillness … but i was not listening
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
18
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
to her.
I was not even listening to my intuition that told me just to
stop … chasing for chaos … and follow the path of …
calmness.
The result?!
Hmm … i was actually ignoring even the fact that i was not … feeling ok.
I was in fact running away of connecting with myself and become … that real … me.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
19
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
PERCEPTIONS
...philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
1
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
ADRIAN GABRIEL DUMITRU
PERCEPTIONS
...philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Year: 2022
Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
2
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
I am highly thankful to my perceptions and dreams that make possibility for me to see things which have been gone or the peoples who've lost to me ....
Arij Emaan
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
3
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
This is a book for all the ones that started the journey of … understanding life. The ones that believe in the need of analyzing our perceptions … but also the ones that try to find the answer to what is the nonsense … and what is the connection between that and … the illusion of the self. We just tried to write in our own style … following the same line … but also guiding all which are interested about the question
what is life?! Enjoy the reading!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
4
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
INTRODUCTION
It’s all just … a perception
Me and Arij … try to define life.
We do it … almost … as a hobby.
We became without even realizing … what some people would define as … philosophers.
But we feel more … just … ordinary persons … that simple can’t stop thinking of the meaning of life. Our own lives … but also of life in general.
And all we write … it’s kind of a philosophical dance.
A mix of perceptions …. very well synchronized.
The perceptions of an … ordinary man … and the one of an amazing … young … feminine spirit.
And the question that might come into your mind … could probably be … what it’s the purpose of this book?! Why did you bothered to write it?!
Well … first of all … cause we love talking about philosophy … but also give the others the impulse of realizing anyone has the right and the power to talk about the existence of the human being.
Starting the philosophical journey … talking about contradictory issues …. might be … weird … difficult … but also … annoying.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
5
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
But time will pass … and continuing walking into this path … we get used …
We start enjoying it …
And then …. we believe … we found the absolute truth.
I smile … cause i did that one million times.
On and on … and on.
Later … changing my perceptions … into a totally contradictory direction … i realized the illusion of all those thoughts and believes.
Today … all i am doing with Arij … it’s almost for fun.
It’s like we would tell you that we decided to go fishing and enjoy the day … but …. our hobby it’s not about fishing, but about … philosophy.
It’s about a path … that we believe that will reveal us the meaning … of life.
All we write about … are simple … perceptions.
our own perceptions… from a certain period of our lives. Nothing more …
nothing less.
But … we continue doing it.
Nobody could judge us … cause it’s all about a hobby of ours. And you all … have this fundamental right of analyzing and defining the world too.
No one is allowed to … judge you.
Express your self …
Dare to do it … in silence or … very load.
Even Kant’s ideas … or Rumi’s ideas … and all the other great thinkers … were just … perceptions.
So ….
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
6
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Join us … on this philosophical path … and ….
Who knows?!
Maybe the real secrets will be revealed to you … quite soon.
Much sooner as you might expect ….
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
7
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Trust me....
Our past is an interpretation ....
And
Future ??
Future is …
an illusion ... So for eternal illumination We must …
We need to stay in …
Present .....
(Arij Emaan)
I wrote in many of my books about analyzing and defining our lives … but most probably it’s also important to keep the right balance between living the life itself … no matter how it is … and paying attention to all our perceptions.
And the question that comes in my mind is … should we allow all those perceptions to dominate our present moment?!
I have many moments when i actually define the concept of perception … as illusory, but … i still can’t see a way in how i could actually keep the right balance between living for real on the stage of my life and spending so much time meditating about all we see around us today. Also the past is present.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
8
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
The future … always is intriguing us.
So …. ?!
Well … after writing so much … i still have a feeling that something is wrong.
I probably did not mentioned that the perceptions are … so … illusory and it will always be like that.
And what is the trick …. for living ok … or even having a
beautiful life?!
I smile … somehow accepting that life … the present moment itseld … must be … simple enjoyed.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
9
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Our Perceptions ...
Our perceptions defines the paths that we actually follow in life. It’s difficult to accept it …. but once we meditate more …
and define everything related to us … looking deeper and deeper … we understand that somehow we need to allow ourselves to metamorphose all those … perceptions … that are just a reflection of the illusory self.
and simple continue the journey … with an open heart. (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
To hurt people
To hurt souls....
You all need to allow
continual progress
in happiness......
You all need to allow
confidence ......
You need to allow
appreciations ....
You all need to allow
acceptance ......
You all need to allow
unison.....
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
10
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
You all need to allow
healings.....
You all need to allow
compassions.....
You all need to allow
genuine
Connection ......
You all need to allow
Wellbeing .....
You all need to allow
to forget the rest.....
You all need to allow
joy to joy to joy.....
And...
You all need to deny your
dark periods .....
You all need to deny to be
sadden ....
to be sadden....to be sadden....
To be sadden
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
11
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Need ...
Only need ...
Only ecstasy is
the receiving and giving
of pleasure .....
(Arij Emaan)
Why so many people like that?!
Well … to be more precise … if it’s a young person … that will tell me about how amazing is to consume drugs … i would say that …
and if it’s older than 35-40 … they will ask me … “why the hell you don’t drink alcohol anymore … cause it’s so damn … good.” …. I would smile all the time.
… i simple laugh seeing this … need of illusory joy.
The story with alcohol i understood it long time ago, but the one with the drugs … well …
Or maybe i am too old to understand it.
But i smile again … in front of those illusory habits … of chasing for great vibes.
Well … there are so, so many ways of finding the real joy of being alive … but we simple can’t understand anything about the art of connecting to the present moment.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
12
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
It’s probably easier to consume those substances that we name … drugs … of any kind …
Nobody bothered to teach us this art … of understanding what the real joy and happiness is.
Can we take a “magic” pill and feel alive?!
Or maybe a bottle of whiskey?!
Hmm …
Today i see that as a … primitive perception.
But it’s probably just … my perception … and nothing more … cause so, so many are whispering me this theory that the joy of being alive is so related with those weird substances.
Well … i continue to find it … illusory …and actually continue my life journey …. hoping that one day i’ll find the path to the real joy of being alive.
So … am i smarter than all the ones around me?!
Hell … noooo …
I just stoped being and acting … silly … looking for something else …
But it’s funny, cause i don’t know what i am looking for … (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
13
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Imperfect souls ...
If we are imperfect souls ...
Then we should not worry
being wrong .....
But we should analyse
our willingness .....
(Arij Emaan)
Should be really boring to talk about our imperfections.
It would probably be a non ending philosophical talk.
I always analyze myself and the world.
Arij … does the same.
I express myself in on million words, not understanding Arij’s style of writing and telling the perspective in just … few words.
But we both … continue to write … defining this world we live in.
I personally started to ignore my imperfections, cause i know that once one it’s fixed … another one will appear in front of my eyes.
I wrote so much about analyzing, defining … and then redefining everything we do not like …. but … i started to
believe that the process itself … becomes useless in one point.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
14
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Too many … imperfections.
And i stoped thinking about … the real change of my life.
I see the others doing the same.
We somehow lost our … willingness for redefining … our souls.
The only real problem is that we continue … being wrong. But maybe this is just a perspective … and the real path of becoming good souls is to continue …. being wrong until we start to see the positive path we need to follow.
I know … it’s like we go in the circle … but most of our lives looks like that.
So … i just smile in front of my mistakes, knowing that one day the real path will appear to me, even if today i follow so, so many … pathless paths.
But again … i repeat myself … maybe it’s all just a perspective.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
15
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Keep doing that ...
Keep taunting me
please....
It polishes my mind
always .....
(Arij Emaan)
Truth be told … analyzing and defining myself into an honest way … many, many times … probably too many times … i was paying too much attention to the people which were trying to … annoy me.
And every time i was doing it … i became annoyed more and more.
Actually being annoyed became a … way of being.
But … to be honest … i had enough of that.
I wanted to get rid of those weird feelings of … frustration. And i started to make different tests with myself … trying in fact to change my behavior in front of those illusory episodes from my life.
And it really started to be … funny.
For example recently a guy …. wrote me over internet that
he wants to make an exchange between his car and the car i was selling.
It was 100% an unfair exchange and i could define it even as an impolite proposal, but …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
16
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
I smiled and replied
“+5k”
“?”
“An extra payment of 5000 dollars”
“”
“So … i succeeded to make you laugh, same as you made me
laugh.”
“You’re weird”
“Why?! You misunderstood…. I wanted to pay you 5000
dollars for this unfair exchange” “Fuck you”
Hahaha. I really laughed having this conversation with these rude guy.
Before … such an episode would probably ruin my day. Today … with a totally different perception about reality and the way we should react in certain situations on the stage of our own lives … i found the power and actually the wisdom to simple … smile.
Those episodes just polish … my mind.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
17
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Stillness ...
Maybe … we have stillness and sanctuary within us
that help to
retreat us
and
we can be us .
(Arij Emaan)
I recently understood that i run away of being with myself.
I prefer everything is contradictory with … silence … cause it
forces me stay with … myself.
I somehow dislike that.
It’s like being in front of a spiritual mirror … and i could almost say that … i hate it.
If you ask me why … i can’t tell you … at least not yet.
I was in love for years of … chaos … and i dislike the concept of … stillness … until i started to feel that something is … wrong.
I had to treat myself … or at least to begin this process … but i was pretending i did not had time and it was a total nonsense to lose any second … trying to understand who i really was.
So … i ignored … what i should do …
Arij whispered me about … stillness … but i was not listening
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
18
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
to her.
I was not even listening to my intuition that told me just to
stop … chasing for chaos … and follow the path of …
calmness.
The result?!
Hmm … i was actually ignoring even the fact that i was not … feeling ok.
I was in fact running away of connecting with myself and become … that real … me.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
19
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
