Humans are needed.
We have to live with humans.
I don't know why.
(Arij Emaan)
It’s difficult to understand the human being.
I know ….
This weird balance of perceptions defining … the same person in such … contradictory ways.
But you see … even if it is about them … or us … the psychological game of analyzing and defining … looks the same.
So … humans are defined especially of what we name … duality.
They give us pain … but also joy.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
39
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Being honest enough we could probably say that we do the same with them.
I am not a pet lover, but i now understand why so many around us … became owner of dogs and other pets. Those animals will never hurt them.
They might hurt the animals, but those pets will never hurt back … like the humans are doing.
But … even if me and Arij … analyzed all those contradictory perceptions so, so many times …. we still prefer the humans.
We cannot understand why …. and even if we continue
analyzing on and on and on … the weird balance of contradictory perceptions … makes us … Hmm….
Well … no matter of our conclusions … which we already admitted that are simple perceptions … we … live with the hope that we will see on the scene of our own lives … just the beautiful side of the human being.
And we continue accepting the humans … hoping … (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
40
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Nothing ...
Nothing special is needed.
I am also a normal person.
There is nothing special about me that makes me stand out from the crowd.
I am also a part of the same world.
I want what everyone else has.
But it is strange.
My request is only fulfilled by my dreams.
And no one.
(Arij Emaan)
When we were kids … we dreamed a lot.
We had a weird enthusiasm … and nothing could stop us have it.
Then … we became adults … and ….
But still … there’s people as me … or Arij …
We still dream … and we write about those dreams.
We aligned to the standards … that the society forced us to align … and …
Well … we align to everything they asked us … but … we decided in the end to live in 2 worlds. … the outer … and the inner world.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
41
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
And …. only dreams fulfilled us with such an amazing energy
that reminded us of that ideal world that we had in mind in our childhood.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
42
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Pause …
If you want to pause
your love story forever .....
So you should be
kind … kind … kind and Kind....
and just kind....
(Arij Emaan)
My philosophical dance with Arij … continues.
But even if i explained that i don’t want to talk about love … she still continues … telling me about the subject. But this time … she wrote about … the end.
I like it more … and it’s even more acceptable.
But the question is ….why should we be kind when we want
to pause a relationship?!
Well … it usually means … we had enough of that connection and we just want to close it.
Closing a connection … is many times difficult.
Maybe … very … difficult …
So being kind is probably like saying “Good bye!” in a beautiful way …. when it’s more a … “Good bye… forever!”.
The word … pause …. is …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
43
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Hmm … can’t find my words … but maybe the main idea is to know how to exit from a connection that used to be so nice in other times … but does not mean anything today.
And … saying “Good bye!” … smiling one more time became the last thing to do …
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
44
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
That couple ...
They are quarrel ....
They all want separation ...
But at the end they again meet .....
And after some time I hear good news of … (Arij Emaan)
I saw so many couples arguing over the years … and i look back into my past … seeing myself in this position also. Most probably it’s all about a story of not having the same perceptions … or maybe simple about … trying to dominate the other side.
I also saw the … breakup … in so, so many episodes … as in the end to see them together … again.
So what was the meaning of all those things?!
Why … not having the same perceptions … we argue … and we try to dominate the other side?!
Hmm … i would define all that … silly … acting like souls that don’t know anything about … harmony as in the end still … to have the desire of being together …
So … the end is beautiful … all the time.
But how?!
Well … maybe they realized the truth about the volatility of our perceptions … and understood that between the
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
45
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
connection with a soul and our thoughts … we should always choose to have in mind … keeping a beautiful vibe in the couple.
Everything else should be … let’s say … not so important. (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
46
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Chemistry …
If your chemistry doesn't match ....
Just leave .....and run away ...
(Arij Emaan)
A guy i know … keeps repeating me … “Please remember that what it’s not love …. It’s karmic.”
I smiled first when he said that to me … but … later on … realizing it’s true … i wondered myself … what the hell is going on?!
Why do i meet all those people?!
Why i can’t find the chemistry with the people from my life?!
Why i can’t find the chemistry in my private life either?!
Well … difficult to say … but maybe this close friend of mine
that was whispering me on and on and on … about the love
and karmic characters from the stage of my life … was right.
So what could i do?!
Search for chemistry?!
Redefine a connection that will never be a connection … into what?!
What is this nonsense?!
But … same as Arij … our perceptions being similar most of the time … i just try to end any kind of relationship that does
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
47
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
not have … chemistry.
I ask them to … leave … from my life.
But maybe it’s silly of me to do that.
Maybe … i should be the one that is leaving.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
48
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
A story about …
I have cousin ...
He is trying to impress me since 2018...
He does everything which I like ....even he also does for
me ..what he doesn't like ...
He wears my favorite colours, perfumes ,watch ,
Shoes ,
Means he does all what I want ....
He dyes all my desires into his .
But I never inspired ,it's not on my control ..I can't accept it
….I can't approve it, even sometimes I want that I should
surrender now ...but I can't ...
So ...
I have got conclusion ,
No matter how many time we spend together ,
No matter how much close we are ....
Or what we do for others ....
No matter how many sacrifices we have done ,
If we don't like the person,
the soul,
So finally we don't till end .
It's over ...
And if we like a person or soul ,
we'll be impressed ,
we'll be convinced ,
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
49
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
We'll be surrender ,
Although he'll not do single act for us ...
I guess it is the matter of destiny ...
Maybe universe choose for us that souls
which are the most alike for our heart ....
Our heart on them in every situations
and conditions ....
And....
May be some souls are also from universe for us
For our repellent (repel)
from our heart
in every situation
and every condition ....
No matter what they do for us ....
No matter how much time we spend together...
If there is no bonding
So there is not ....
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
50
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
I suggest ...
I suggest to all..
Life is too short ....
Don't ignore the rights of others
Don't do bad things to them ....
But never ….
never let peoples to strip your rights also....
Do what you want … and get what you want
(Arij Emaan)
I always believed in … the middle way.
I always paid attention … to not dominate into a negative way the people around me.
But i also try to get rid of all the ones that want to have such an influence on me.
I came to this wise decision that i should not spent my life dominating … or being dominating. I like to get what i want …
But i always remember that life is to short to spend in such … a stupid way.
Maybe it’s a naive perception … (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
51
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Sometimes …
Sometimes I speak silence
to find out all my answers .....
It is healing ....
When you speak to your self
… to your soul
And when you listen to
your heart .....
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
52
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
My dear …
Writer ....
Do you know glowworm (nightfly) .....?
I think I'm glowworm ....
Little less impressive ,
Less beautiful ,
Less harmful ,
Least beneficial .....
that
I have such dim light
which can't be prove lighten to others and can't
for me as well.....
Like glowworm i am just groping on my ways...
there is no objectpoint of my life....
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
53
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
I'm …
I'm also a glowworm....
I also have glow
But having in little amount .....
(Arij Emaan)
No matter how pessimistic we would be … being in the non ending illusion of the self … we still feel … specials.
We are not what we dreamed so, so much … but ….
Looking inside myself … i see the glow … but indeed it does not have the values i want it to have.
But …. why the hell not?!
Why can’t it be … an amazing glow?!
Maybe i am too shy?!
Maybe i allowed to the others to tell me so, so many times
that i am not so special?!
But … the glow is there …
I hate … i see it like that … and looks like there’s nothing i could do.
And i also see … deep inside myself … this weird balance between optimism and pessimism… and ….
I simple can’t do anything to amplify that glow.
I dreamed so much about that … but no real change
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
54
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
appeared into my life.
Maybe i am not really connected with myself.
Maybe if i would believe in this connection between me and my soul … that glow could be amplified …. and look how i dreamed about it …
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
55
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Illusions …
All my illusions are the
reflections of my own desires
which I have made
once.....
(Arij Emaan)
I recently published a book about the perceptions of a married man about … love.
My wife was so annoyed reading from that book … that she said … she will leave from home … and divorce. I simple smiled … replying … “ok”.
You see … i started somehow to become … a little bit … wild … in my writings.
I try to define my perceptions, being honest … and telling all what i think and feel.
And … that hurts … probably a lot.
But we all need … in one point of life to analyze a little bit more … and define very clear our soul.
Might discover even .. dirty things … or what others define as
dirty things … but that doesn’t mean we are not worthy enough of being … a human being.
We should define …. our perceptions … about how we see or
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
56
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
what we want from life … in the present moment.
Yes …. everything might be … illusory … but most probably all
is just a reflection … of our desires.
From yesterday … from today … and the ones from tomorrow
…
But we should not be ashamed of those desires … or live with
any regret …
It’s useless …
They will keep existing anyway.
The illusion of the self … is part of us … and the reflection of that it’s the way we act on the scene of life …
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
57
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
My writing … my perceptions ...
Man....
Its all newly writings ...
But
Concepts all so old ...
(Arij Emaan)
I read things. I write … things.
So … contradictory … all those perceptions.
Mine… her perceptions … and all of the others.
But it’s funny … cause most probably all what we believe that we discovered … and the things that we write in our books … are so old concepts.
My philosophical perceptions .. are the ones of a person from 100 years ago, or 200 … or 300 years ago.
Looks silly … annoying to find out that but only my perceptions made me not realize i am just discovering something that exists by such a long, long time.
So … should i define them as my personal perceptions … or …. ?!
… just perceptions?!
But i continue reading, meditating … and writing …. maybe
about my thoughts from another life time.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
58
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Seeing …
Each and every time I keep my sense of feel on motion .........
I see nature ,things
We have to live with humans.
I don't know why.
(Arij Emaan)
It’s difficult to understand the human being.
I know ….
This weird balance of perceptions defining … the same person in such … contradictory ways.
But you see … even if it is about them … or us … the psychological game of analyzing and defining … looks the same.
So … humans are defined especially of what we name … duality.
They give us pain … but also joy.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
39
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Being honest enough we could probably say that we do the same with them.
I am not a pet lover, but i now understand why so many around us … became owner of dogs and other pets. Those animals will never hurt them.
They might hurt the animals, but those pets will never hurt back … like the humans are doing.
But … even if me and Arij … analyzed all those contradictory perceptions so, so many times …. we still prefer the humans.
We cannot understand why …. and even if we continue
analyzing on and on and on … the weird balance of contradictory perceptions … makes us … Hmm….
Well … no matter of our conclusions … which we already admitted that are simple perceptions … we … live with the hope that we will see on the scene of our own lives … just the beautiful side of the human being.
And we continue accepting the humans … hoping … (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
40
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Nothing ...
Nothing special is needed.
I am also a normal person.
There is nothing special about me that makes me stand out from the crowd.
I am also a part of the same world.
I want what everyone else has.
But it is strange.
My request is only fulfilled by my dreams.
And no one.
(Arij Emaan)
When we were kids … we dreamed a lot.
We had a weird enthusiasm … and nothing could stop us have it.
Then … we became adults … and ….
But still … there’s people as me … or Arij …
We still dream … and we write about those dreams.
We aligned to the standards … that the society forced us to align … and …
Well … we align to everything they asked us … but … we decided in the end to live in 2 worlds. … the outer … and the inner world.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
41
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
And …. only dreams fulfilled us with such an amazing energy
that reminded us of that ideal world that we had in mind in our childhood.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
42
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Pause …
If you want to pause
your love story forever .....
So you should be
kind … kind … kind and Kind....
and just kind....
(Arij Emaan)
My philosophical dance with Arij … continues.
But even if i explained that i don’t want to talk about love … she still continues … telling me about the subject. But this time … she wrote about … the end.
I like it more … and it’s even more acceptable.
But the question is ….why should we be kind when we want
to pause a relationship?!
Well … it usually means … we had enough of that connection and we just want to close it.
Closing a connection … is many times difficult.
Maybe … very … difficult …
So being kind is probably like saying “Good bye!” in a beautiful way …. when it’s more a … “Good bye… forever!”.
The word … pause …. is …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
43
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Hmm … can’t find my words … but maybe the main idea is to know how to exit from a connection that used to be so nice in other times … but does not mean anything today.
And … saying “Good bye!” … smiling one more time became the last thing to do …
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
44
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
That couple ...
They are quarrel ....
They all want separation ...
But at the end they again meet .....
And after some time I hear good news of … (Arij Emaan)
I saw so many couples arguing over the years … and i look back into my past … seeing myself in this position also. Most probably it’s all about a story of not having the same perceptions … or maybe simple about … trying to dominate the other side.
I also saw the … breakup … in so, so many episodes … as in the end to see them together … again.
So what was the meaning of all those things?!
Why … not having the same perceptions … we argue … and we try to dominate the other side?!
Hmm … i would define all that … silly … acting like souls that don’t know anything about … harmony as in the end still … to have the desire of being together …
So … the end is beautiful … all the time.
But how?!
Well … maybe they realized the truth about the volatility of our perceptions … and understood that between the
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
45
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
connection with a soul and our thoughts … we should always choose to have in mind … keeping a beautiful vibe in the couple.
Everything else should be … let’s say … not so important. (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
46
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Chemistry …
If your chemistry doesn't match ....
Just leave .....and run away ...
(Arij Emaan)
A guy i know … keeps repeating me … “Please remember that what it’s not love …. It’s karmic.”
I smiled first when he said that to me … but … later on … realizing it’s true … i wondered myself … what the hell is going on?!
Why do i meet all those people?!
Why i can’t find the chemistry with the people from my life?!
Why i can’t find the chemistry in my private life either?!
Well … difficult to say … but maybe this close friend of mine
that was whispering me on and on and on … about the love
and karmic characters from the stage of my life … was right.
So what could i do?!
Search for chemistry?!
Redefine a connection that will never be a connection … into what?!
What is this nonsense?!
But … same as Arij … our perceptions being similar most of the time … i just try to end any kind of relationship that does
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
47
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
not have … chemistry.
I ask them to … leave … from my life.
But maybe it’s silly of me to do that.
Maybe … i should be the one that is leaving.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
48
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
A story about …
I have cousin ...
He is trying to impress me since 2018...
He does everything which I like ....even he also does for
me ..what he doesn't like ...
He wears my favorite colours, perfumes ,watch ,
Shoes ,
Means he does all what I want ....
He dyes all my desires into his .
But I never inspired ,it's not on my control ..I can't accept it
….I can't approve it, even sometimes I want that I should
surrender now ...but I can't ...
So ...
I have got conclusion ,
No matter how many time we spend together ,
No matter how much close we are ....
Or what we do for others ....
No matter how many sacrifices we have done ,
If we don't like the person,
the soul,
So finally we don't till end .
It's over ...
And if we like a person or soul ,
we'll be impressed ,
we'll be convinced ,
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
49
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
We'll be surrender ,
Although he'll not do single act for us ...
I guess it is the matter of destiny ...
Maybe universe choose for us that souls
which are the most alike for our heart ....
Our heart on them in every situations
and conditions ....
And....
May be some souls are also from universe for us
For our repellent (repel)
from our heart
in every situation
and every condition ....
No matter what they do for us ....
No matter how much time we spend together...
If there is no bonding
So there is not ....
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
50
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
I suggest ...
I suggest to all..
Life is too short ....
Don't ignore the rights of others
Don't do bad things to them ....
But never ….
never let peoples to strip your rights also....
Do what you want … and get what you want
(Arij Emaan)
I always believed in … the middle way.
I always paid attention … to not dominate into a negative way the people around me.
But i also try to get rid of all the ones that want to have such an influence on me.
I came to this wise decision that i should not spent my life dominating … or being dominating. I like to get what i want …
But i always remember that life is to short to spend in such … a stupid way.
Maybe it’s a naive perception … (Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
51
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Sometimes …
Sometimes I speak silence
to find out all my answers .....
It is healing ....
When you speak to your self
… to your soul
And when you listen to
your heart .....
(Arij Emaan)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
52
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
My dear …
Writer ....
Do you know glowworm (nightfly) .....?
I think I'm glowworm ....
Little less impressive ,
Less beautiful ,
Less harmful ,
Least beneficial .....
that
I have such dim light
which can't be prove lighten to others and can't
for me as well.....
Like glowworm i am just groping on my ways...
there is no objectpoint of my life....
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
53
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
I'm …
I'm also a glowworm....
I also have glow
But having in little amount .....
(Arij Emaan)
No matter how pessimistic we would be … being in the non ending illusion of the self … we still feel … specials.
We are not what we dreamed so, so much … but ….
Looking inside myself … i see the glow … but indeed it does not have the values i want it to have.
But …. why the hell not?!
Why can’t it be … an amazing glow?!
Maybe i am too shy?!
Maybe i allowed to the others to tell me so, so many times
that i am not so special?!
But … the glow is there …
I hate … i see it like that … and looks like there’s nothing i could do.
And i also see … deep inside myself … this weird balance between optimism and pessimism… and ….
I simple can’t do anything to amplify that glow.
I dreamed so much about that … but no real change
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
54
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
appeared into my life.
Maybe i am not really connected with myself.
Maybe if i would believe in this connection between me and my soul … that glow could be amplified …. and look how i dreamed about it …
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
55
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Illusions …
All my illusions are the
reflections of my own desires
which I have made
once.....
(Arij Emaan)
I recently published a book about the perceptions of a married man about … love.
My wife was so annoyed reading from that book … that she said … she will leave from home … and divorce. I simple smiled … replying … “ok”.
You see … i started somehow to become … a little bit … wild … in my writings.
I try to define my perceptions, being honest … and telling all what i think and feel.
And … that hurts … probably a lot.
But we all need … in one point of life to analyze a little bit more … and define very clear our soul.
Might discover even .. dirty things … or what others define as
dirty things … but that doesn’t mean we are not worthy enough of being … a human being.
We should define …. our perceptions … about how we see or
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
56
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
what we want from life … in the present moment.
Yes …. everything might be … illusory … but most probably all
is just a reflection … of our desires.
From yesterday … from today … and the ones from tomorrow
…
But we should not be ashamed of those desires … or live with
any regret …
It’s useless …
They will keep existing anyway.
The illusion of the self … is part of us … and the reflection of that it’s the way we act on the scene of life …
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
57
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
My writing … my perceptions ...
Man....
Its all newly writings ...
But
Concepts all so old ...
(Arij Emaan)
I read things. I write … things.
So … contradictory … all those perceptions.
Mine… her perceptions … and all of the others.
But it’s funny … cause most probably all what we believe that we discovered … and the things that we write in our books … are so old concepts.
My philosophical perceptions .. are the ones of a person from 100 years ago, or 200 … or 300 years ago.
Looks silly … annoying to find out that but only my perceptions made me not realize i am just discovering something that exists by such a long, long time.
So … should i define them as my personal perceptions … or …. ?!
… just perceptions?!
But i continue reading, meditating … and writing …. maybe
about my thoughts from another life time.
(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru / Arij Emaan
58
PERCEPTIONS
… philosophical essays about the illusion of the self
Seeing …
Each and every time I keep my sense of feel on motion .........
I see nature ,things
