Don’t run away anymore ... is useless. Just connect with the moment, no matter what the moment means ... and enjoy it!
There are so many philosophers today, that i think is useless daring to define as true statements what i write in my essays.
But i believe we are on the right path if so many people are asking themselves what life is about.
Our philosophical side ... might help us understand the essence, just by simple changing opinions ... at work, as school, with friends ... and even with enemies.
All i know for sure ... is that the method i study now works.
Is about the theory ... that becoming an observer of your own life ... of everything happens around you ... is not that the awakening will come to you ... but you’ll have an idea about what is the meaning of the human being in this strange world.
I study philosophy from an early age, then i stoped for 15 years ... as one day to restart everything ... just because my vibe collapsed.
I needed a change ... but i did not knew for sure what is the vibe. Feeling very uncomfortable i started to read blogs and books, watch motivational movies ... connect with people interested about the subject ... and many other things.
I even tried to change my environment many, many times ... but nothing worked.
I was running of something ... but i was not sure what was it about.
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... there is always a message
It took me years to understand, what i call today ... the message behind the message ... and that was the fact that i was running away by myself.
I was not a dogmatic person, at least in a conscious way ... but i refused the meeting with my soul.
And i continued a pathless path, running away for many, many years in the row.
But one day ... i just decided to stop ... saying that ... it is enough! I started to accept the present moment, whatever that moment was ... connect to it ... and even enjoy it!
I was not doing it with all my heart ... but it was the beginning of the process.
... and there were moments i loved the new scenario of my life ... and moments when i was forcing myself to continue.
But i was continuing on the new path ... the one of accepting the actual reality as the best script for my life.
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... there is always a message
Despite the stubbornness
“Despite our stubbornness ...
We don't get many things ...
Life is so weird ...
It doesn't give us anything when ...
We ask ...”
(Arij Emaan)
The meaning of life is not to accomplish our desires ... and believe me, we have thousands of them ... but to enjoy it as the best script that could be written for yourself.
So, so many informations today about the secret law of attraction ... but too bad that no one tells you that this law will not make you really happy.
It will help you get in life what you want ... but the true happiness will never come to you as that.
We become stubborn ... and still we get so little.
But why?!
The more we study ... the less we get ... which is becoming a total nonsense.
I was keep wondering for years what was the message that i could not understand ... why if i know so much about the law ... the reality doesn’t change at all.
But i could not see that my desires had be transformed into spiritual desires.
The path from the outside world ... had to be a spiritual path ... not a
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path related with materialistic world.
Somehow ... the Universe was loving me ... not letting myself become blinded by my silly desires.
I was still saying ... “i want...”, “my huge desire is ...” and i could not stop ... but the Universe was replying back to me ... “No! ... just No! That is not the path!”.
I’ve started to follow so many paths in life to understand one day that all of them were only simple ... pathless paths. But ... it was very difficult to accept that.
Despite my stubbornness ... the Universe was whispering all the time that the law of attraction can have also ... a weird meaning ... and this is when you shift from materialism to spirituality.
I am not even a philosopher ... but maybe i gave you an idea to meditate over the subject.
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... there is always a message
Let’s sing!
Let’s dance!
... and forget about your silly rules.
I won’t stay for long anyway.
About an year ago, i’ve wrote an essay with the same title.
It was written for someone dear to me at that time.
Today ... i write the essay for someone dear to me in the present moment.
Same me ... but a different version of myself.
Something changed inside of me ... but i can’t define for clear why or what.
I just changed.
My life is like the rotations of seasons.
Today is summer ... tomorrow in autumn ... and on and on and on. I don’t know if the new version of myself is a better one ... but i feel much comfortable me with myself.
I learned to treat with a little bit more love every person from my life ... and the most important change i’ve done is that i see a progress when it comes about living without expectations when it comes about my relationships of any kind.
In the past, i saw a trend of domination on both sides ... now i am looking just for open connections ... and try to see as a dance all my interactions with other people ... no matter who they are.
I always loved to interact with people ... but i did not know how to do it.
I had kind of a blindness ... but i also forget the rule number one of
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any kind of relationship ... and that is ... come with the open heart ...
having no expectations at all.
Just imagine how the world would change, if we would apply this rule.
Should be ... a better world.
To smile to the person next to you in the subway ... to smile to a colleague from work that had a negative impact on your carrier in the past ... to treat with ... love ... everyone we meet. But it sounds as a science fiction scenario ... isn’t it?!
It’s a simple rule ... but too simple to understand and apply it.
Some of our connections ends just in a second ... cause we could just look to each other ... while walking on the street ... and then never meet again.
Some ... last longer ... and some of them ... takes too long maybe. What i don’t understand is why if ... we won’t stay long anyway in here ... in this world that can be defined in a million of ways ... why we can’t see the message behind the message ... and why we don’t pay attention to the connections we have ... and make them great connections.
Is just a decision ... nothing more!
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... there is always a message
And one day i realize that the amazing
pleasure i used to feel in the past
... just disappeared ... and i keep wondering myself ... why?!
Most probably even if you love eating caviar ... if you eat for lots of times that ... one day you will say that is enough ... and probably you are thinking of trying to become a vegetarian.
The story written by Mark Twain ... “The Prince and the Pauper” is an excellent example of how the human being had enough of anything from life ... even of great things.
The price prefers to change his place with the pauper, just to see another kind of life ... the opposite one.
The pauper ... believes also that trying, for a test the life of a prince is also a great idea ... so they just switch the places, cause they had almost the same look ... and was quite easy to do it. In marriage happens the same.
Could have the perfect husband or the perfect wife ... but one day ... you believe that still ... life is too boring and you should try having another partner also ... or at least taste the life with another partner for a short time.
And many people are doing this today.
Cheating had become something ... normal.
But why?!
Truth be told we lose our interest in all the things from the world ...
after a while.
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We enjoy them ... we believe in their greatness ... but one day ... we just want to try something else also. We want a change.
But should we exchange something great ... the best case scenario ...
if we are lucky enough to have it ... with something else?!
What is behind the need of experiencing other things also?!
Well ... i believe that one day the amazing pleasure we used to feel in the past ... just disappear and we feel the need of an understandable ... change.
I recently read again the story of Adam and Eve ... written by a priest and even if i don’t like the style the priests are telling stories ... i believe that was the appearance of that need for change in our mental dna ... eating the apple.
But i continue asking myself ... why?!
Why this need of illusory change?!
And in fact ... yes ... just illusory change ... cause in many cases ...
we prefer the confort zone ... not the change.
Well ... i think the message behind the message is quite simple ... we are looking for tasting the change ... not doing the change.
We prefer ... to taste ... then come back in the old area of confort ...
saying that we tried.
We divorce ... then ... come back to the old partner, we quit smoking then we also try marihuana ... we quit drinking alcohol ... then we also try whisky, cause we drink enough beer and wine etc etc.
So ... maybe i should write a book about the pleasure of ... tasting
things, events ... people.
Why not?!
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... there is always a message
Defining ... a way of amplifying too much
... if we don’t know the art of being detached of everything around
I believe in analyzing in a microscopic way ... even if being so busy, i
prefer the macroscopic way.
I also believe in defining.
And i also believe ... that it helps a lot.
But analyzing and defining what we see in our lives ... is perfect ... if we know to not amplify too much the sensations.
A younger friend of mine ... that believes in the power of
marihuana ... trying to convince me all the time to try it ... explained me fee days ago that i will never understand the essence of life without using drugs.
But i quit even drinking alcohol ... so ... why should i use drugs?!
Is it really necessary?!
First of all ... as a person that is not even smoking ... marihuana sounds as a strange thing to taste.
Is almost like being a man that always enjoyed the company of beautiful ladies and a homosexual friend is explaining about his sexual pleasures ... trying to convince you that you should try it.
I am really sorry for the example ... but is really a great one.
But ... i am sure that probably ... i am not so opened mind as i might look sometimes.
On the other hand ... i want to understand the meaning of life ... so ... what should i do?!
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I believe that drugs are amplifying a lot your sensations ... and some of the things can be seen deeper ... in a microscopic way ... but still ... is this the only path?!
And if i learn the art of defining and i amplify too much what is going on in my life ... what is going to happen?! Something good?!
Something bad?!
But what if we try to change everything ... and just become a simple observer?!
Just be totally detached of everything you see ... even if all is about you ... and about your life?!
Should that be an alternative path?!
What do you really think?!
I personally ... don’t believe in morality anymore.
Find it too ... dogmatic and even worst ... a spiritual barrier ... even if it sounds as a paradox.
I once read an interesting quote ... “Define or be defined” ... but today, i believe only in the concept of detached defining.
You become the observer, but you are never identify yourself with the person observed, analyzed and defined.
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Understanding the other side
... something we just never think about
We are friends and then we become enemies.
We are husband and wife and then we become enemies.
We are brothers and then we become enemies.
But ... sometimes ... we are enemies and we become friends ... even
good ones.
But why?!
How’s that?!
Well ... i believe that most of us are too attached by their own universe .. thinking ... personality ... and there is no time left for seeing something else.
It looks like in the world there are Universities of Medicine that at the beginning ... when the students start the university ... they have kind of a theatre class and the students play the role of the doctor, but also of a patient.
The student that has the role of patient needs to wait, needs to stay in uncomfortable conditions ... and needs in fact to understand the way a patient is being treated in a hospital, but not from the point of view of a doctor.
The student needs to understand the other side ... but to be easier ...
the student is the other side.
And i now wonder ... what if you can somehow view the real position of the friend that you had a fight with ... or the wife / husband .... or
brother / sister .... with who you have the argue.
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... there is always a message
Understanding the other side ... is something we never think about ...
because we just can’t see behind ... us.
Could be a nice trick ... but even as that ... we are too blinds to see it. So ... what is the message behind the message?!
Maybe we are not ready yet to connect to the world ... maybe we can’t see behind our own interests ... or maybe no one ever told us about this trick.
But how’s that people that are friends become enemies and people that are enemies become friends?! What is really going on?!
Well ... i suppose we don’t know so much about how we connect and disconnect from people ... even if we do it so often.
In fact no one ever told us about this art ... and especially that this is actually an art ... the art of understanding and connecting to the other side.
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