I define ... and then i try to redefine, but still i get the same results.
And i keep wondering why the things are the way they are ... but i
find no good answer.
Life is beautiful.
I know i should enjoy it ... and nothing more.
Even live without any plan at all ... just connect with the moment and be happy cause i am alive.
I know the theory ... and i sometimes believe i know how to redefine the script of my life in a perfect way ... but i keep failing.
But it looks like i missed one thing ... when i studied the theory of the perfect life for a human being ... and that is the fact that failing is just part of the script.
It’s ok to define ... it’s ok even to believe that you try to redefine ... but maybe we should start by embracing the ... failing itself. We believe that ... failing brings unhappiness ... but failing is a teacher ... the one that explains you that the meaning of life is not to be perfect, but to understand what is the message behind the message.
You see something ... but sometimes it is about something else ... an encrypted message ... that could make you see the philosophical view
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
52
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
in a totally different way.
But maybe it’s time for me to decide that i should just ... stop wondering.
Maybe it’s time to understand that the answer regarding the essence of life will never come ... from my thinking ... but from my soul.
I know is hard to believe that just by stop thinking ... the real answer will come ... when we are so attached by our thinking ... but maybe it’s a good moment to accept that we failed only because we are too attached by what it means ... “myself” ... and in fact “i” ... “myself” ... does not exists ... being just part of ... everything.
So ... stop wondering!
Connect to the inner self ... and you’ll find in there everything you are looking for!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
53
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
What could a “bedroom town” mean?!
... what about “the house where i use to sleep”?!
I had a political discussion with a guy ... involved in the local politics from my area.
The guy looks like a real gentleman, but in fact is a thief that was arrested few times in the past.
He looks like a philosopher of the modern political theory ... but in the end ... trying to hide the conflict we had ... we both became polite and started to discuss different common subjects.
This is how i heard for the first time the expression ... “bedroom town”.
It almost looked like a non sense, but this is how he defined our place.
People were working in the capital and only sleeping in our town ... so this was the reason the guy was calling like this the place.
But suddenly i remembered that i used to say about my house that is .... “the house where i use to sleep”. So?! What was behind those definitions?!
What was the real message of what the guy was saying ... but also my sayings?!
Well ... most probably ... the house ... your house ... should be as a temple.
A place ... not where you only sleep, but a place where you disconnect from the world ... and allows you to stay relaxed ... mainly in your energy field.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
54
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
Home ... must be like a magic place.
Could be a tiny house, or a palace ... but must have a magic vibe ...
that you feel when you are there.
In the real world i build houses and rent them ... so i am kind of a businessman.
I pay attention to all the details ... but in the last years i mostly pay attention to the vibe of the area and of the house.
It’s important ... to have beautiful feelings being in there ... while cooking, relaxing, taking a bath, meditating, sleeping etc etc ... doing only things related to you.
So ... i believe that if you see the area where you live, or the house where you stay ... just as a place where you sleep ... i think is too much and you are not in a good position. People are a little bit different than animals.
We need special vibrational places only for us ... places where we can recharge our batteries ... so that when we go again into the world, to be ready to show them our beautiful side.
There are already too many showing us their dark side ... so ...
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
55
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
The perfect case scenario
... versus the real case scenario.
Does the concept of
happy marriage ... really exists?!
I was reading the writings of my dear lovely friend Arij ... and i was meditating:
“There is a beauty in being empty ...
In being unfound ...
In being lost ...
Being in illusion ...
But we have silly demands ...
And fancy dreams ...
That naturally evolve ...
In Overthinking ...
Fantasizing ...
Imagining ...
Expecting ...
Worrying ...
Doubting ...”
(Arij Emaan)
While politely asking another new friend if she is happy in her marriage ... she suddenly replied: “Does the concept of happy marriage exists for real?!”
My mind was starting to meditate.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
56
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
I was thinking at what I recently read at Arij and what the lady i just met few months ago ... asked me. Arij is a young lady ... that is in love.
My new friend ... i believe that was in love long time ago ... but maybe too disappointed by the real case scenario ... from the real world.
Arij is a little bit more than 20 and the other lady ... close to 30. I believe both of them in one point from the timeline of life were looking like 2 sisters.
But in almost 10 years everything changed.
Life revealed the difference between the perfect case scenario and the real case scenario.
The love story became ... the marriage.
I met thousands of people but only once ... about 25 years ago ... i met an old couple that ... in a magical way ... they were still in love. After a marriage of 50 years they were in love.
I was 18 at that age ... and i was laughing of them ... not knowing that years later i will fail in my marriage ... just because i was not asking them the secret of a long happy marriage.
I could ... just ask and i am sure they would have told me what was the secret ... but i believed i was too smart to ask that.
At more than 40 ... i smile ... with love ... thinking about what Arij is writing ... laugh at the philosophical questions regarding marriage ...
came from my new friend ... and only ask myself why i don’t see the message behind the fact that so many marriages are failing.
But ... being just a simple human being ... being in the statistical data of the humans ... being the same as all the others ... all is left for me to do is ... just continue asking myself philosophical questions.
... and no answer is coming to me ... at least not a good one, cause i am still too blind to see the message behind the unhappy marriages. And life continues ... just in the statistical data!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
57
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
The best of your times
“The best of times ...
The period of mistakes ...
The age of foolishness ...
The season of light ...
The spring of hope ...
The epoch of belief ...
The epoch in incredulity ...
The disappear of anxiety ...
I had nothing before that ...
I had nothing before ...”
(Arij Emaan)
What is the best times from your life?!
Had you succeeded everything you’ve asked to the Universe?!
Well ... if yes ... you already know that you were lucky cause you was on that timeline ... and not because you succeeded.
You made all kinds of mistakes, but the anxiety disappeared all the time ... cause you had in your soul the belief ... the incredulity. The path of success was in fact a lesson for understanding how we can connect to the Universe through our souls. And it was so, so simple.
Before that ... you had nothing ... but nothing meant ... not the success itself ... but the connection with the inner self.
You had ... the best of your times ... and had no idea about that. You were enjoying the path ... and the Universe was on your side, watching your back.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
58
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
Then one day ... the success came.
It was the end of the path.
You did not knew what to do ... to be happy and grateful that the desire became real ... or unhappy because this story came to an end. You had nothing before that ... and again ...you are in the position of having ... nothing ... one more time.
But you have a moment of enlightenment ... understanding that life is not about success and failing ... but about enjoying both of them ... while living the scenario the Universe prepared you.
The message?!
.... just enjoy life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
59
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
It does not need to be perfect.
It needs to be real!
I had so many times when i was looking for perfection in my life ...
and nothing happened.
I was only delaying everything for months or even for years ....
looking for the best case scenario ... that in fact never came.
I was trying to touch the horizon line ... lying myself that i look for perfection, but in fact i was afraid to start the new chapter. The perfection became a great ... excuse.
And it was never the best time to start ... cause there was always something to add, change etc etc.
I was convincing myself that this is the professional way of doing the things ... and it was the perfect decision.
Once, not so long time ago, i prepared the things so that i can open kind of a senior village.
I had a big lot, many houses in there, a small restaurant, kitchen, etc etc.
It was a perfect plan ... but the electricity company delayed everything ... then other things appeared and we decided in the end just to rent the houses and nothing else. The project was abandoned.
After a very long time, lots of energy and money invested ... we decided just to closed the project.
Basically everything was ready ... but we never started and if you ask me now ... i believe we just delayed everything not as things to be
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
60
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
perfect ... but because we were afraid of really opening the project.
And yes ... the perfection was the perfect excuse.
Now i want again to open the same business.
I own a house with 23 rooms that is going to be kind of a hotel for seniors.
People that leave in vacation can let in here their elders for 1-2 weeks or they can stay even for long terms at us.
But this time ... i promised myself i will not be so idiot as the last time.
I will just open the hotel ... with only few rooms first and then the next module and ... in the end the 3rd one.
I will see how the business runs ... i will make money and reinvest everything in the same business.
I understood after ... losing lots of time, energy and money ... that the perfect scenario ... simple does not exists.
Or if it exists ... it is the one where you are now and you should just enjoy it ... the way it is.
Will i succeed to do what i am saying?!
Have no idea .. i sometimes believe in me ... and sometimes i just ...
don’t, but at least today i see my huge mistakes from the past.
I don’t regret anything ... but i want to be the best version of myself and i know i can do that only by doing real things and not by making plans ... plans and plans.
The perfect plan ... is the real one!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
61
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
I prefer to spend my time only with the people i am connecting with.
Is that wrong?!
Today i went to a river ...into the mountains.
10 years ago ... no one knew that place.
You could go there and be just you ... and the nature.
We were there in the morning.
Only few people around and it was the perfect atmosphere to connect with the nature.
If you know the result of this ... actually ... the therapy of connecting with the nature ..: i am sure you have this trip in your mind all the time.
I left my family in there and went for one hour to walk on a path parallel with the river.
But when i came back i was totally surprised.
The area became very crowed, lots of people listening loud music ...
and my desire of connecting to the nature ... became mission impossible.
I totally disliked what i saw around.
A crowd of people that came to the mountains to eat, drink alcohol and listen loud music.
The funny thing is that 15 years ago i was doing that too with my friends ... but maybe something changed inside of me ... and i started to hate doing that.
I became more selective.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
62
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
The message was simple for me ... wherever the crowd is ... i must not be in there.
In fact i became too selective.
I started to like to spend my time only with the people that i am connecting with ... and avoid all the people that i do not like. I actually ... even started to practice ... the solitude.
And now ... even if i like what i had decided ... i have moments when i wonder myself if i am wrong ... thinking and acting as that?!
Maybe it’s a new chapter of my life ... and no one should judge this tendency of mine ... but in the end ... it’s my life, my decisions and i will pay the price for those decisions.
Life has many paths that ... i should follow ... and this one ... maybe is a good one.
All i want is to spend time with people that i define as ... beautiful people.
People with good vibes.
People that have good intentions.
When i use the word “beautiful” ... i am speaking of their souls ... and i see the connections we have together. So ... is it wrong to be selective?!
Well ... i just believe is difficult to stop drinking alcohol ... if you can’t forget about your friends and their unhealthy habits ... that spend all their time in the bars from your area.
At one point ... we just follow different paths.
Nothing more ... it’s quite a simple message even if is difficult to explain to all the ones around you ... that feel you don’t like them anymore.
And it might be true.
... but the message behind the message is just that you want a change in your life ... and even a big one ... and you need another environment for that.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
63
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
And i keep wondering why the things are the way they are ... but i
find no good answer.
Life is beautiful.
I know i should enjoy it ... and nothing more.
Even live without any plan at all ... just connect with the moment and be happy cause i am alive.
I know the theory ... and i sometimes believe i know how to redefine the script of my life in a perfect way ... but i keep failing.
But it looks like i missed one thing ... when i studied the theory of the perfect life for a human being ... and that is the fact that failing is just part of the script.
It’s ok to define ... it’s ok even to believe that you try to redefine ... but maybe we should start by embracing the ... failing itself. We believe that ... failing brings unhappiness ... but failing is a teacher ... the one that explains you that the meaning of life is not to be perfect, but to understand what is the message behind the message.
You see something ... but sometimes it is about something else ... an encrypted message ... that could make you see the philosophical view
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
52
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
in a totally different way.
But maybe it’s time for me to decide that i should just ... stop wondering.
Maybe it’s time to understand that the answer regarding the essence of life will never come ... from my thinking ... but from my soul.
I know is hard to believe that just by stop thinking ... the real answer will come ... when we are so attached by our thinking ... but maybe it’s a good moment to accept that we failed only because we are too attached by what it means ... “myself” ... and in fact “i” ... “myself” ... does not exists ... being just part of ... everything.
So ... stop wondering!
Connect to the inner self ... and you’ll find in there everything you are looking for!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
53
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
What could a “bedroom town” mean?!
... what about “the house where i use to sleep”?!
I had a political discussion with a guy ... involved in the local politics from my area.
The guy looks like a real gentleman, but in fact is a thief that was arrested few times in the past.
He looks like a philosopher of the modern political theory ... but in the end ... trying to hide the conflict we had ... we both became polite and started to discuss different common subjects.
This is how i heard for the first time the expression ... “bedroom town”.
It almost looked like a non sense, but this is how he defined our place.
People were working in the capital and only sleeping in our town ... so this was the reason the guy was calling like this the place.
But suddenly i remembered that i used to say about my house that is .... “the house where i use to sleep”. So?! What was behind those definitions?!
What was the real message of what the guy was saying ... but also my sayings?!
Well ... most probably ... the house ... your house ... should be as a temple.
A place ... not where you only sleep, but a place where you disconnect from the world ... and allows you to stay relaxed ... mainly in your energy field.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
54
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
Home ... must be like a magic place.
Could be a tiny house, or a palace ... but must have a magic vibe ...
that you feel when you are there.
In the real world i build houses and rent them ... so i am kind of a businessman.
I pay attention to all the details ... but in the last years i mostly pay attention to the vibe of the area and of the house.
It’s important ... to have beautiful feelings being in there ... while cooking, relaxing, taking a bath, meditating, sleeping etc etc ... doing only things related to you.
So ... i believe that if you see the area where you live, or the house where you stay ... just as a place where you sleep ... i think is too much and you are not in a good position. People are a little bit different than animals.
We need special vibrational places only for us ... places where we can recharge our batteries ... so that when we go again into the world, to be ready to show them our beautiful side.
There are already too many showing us their dark side ... so ...
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
55
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
The perfect case scenario
... versus the real case scenario.
Does the concept of
happy marriage ... really exists?!
I was reading the writings of my dear lovely friend Arij ... and i was meditating:
“There is a beauty in being empty ...
In being unfound ...
In being lost ...
Being in illusion ...
But we have silly demands ...
And fancy dreams ...
That naturally evolve ...
In Overthinking ...
Fantasizing ...
Imagining ...
Expecting ...
Worrying ...
Doubting ...”
(Arij Emaan)
While politely asking another new friend if she is happy in her marriage ... she suddenly replied: “Does the concept of happy marriage exists for real?!”
My mind was starting to meditate.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
56
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
I was thinking at what I recently read at Arij and what the lady i just met few months ago ... asked me. Arij is a young lady ... that is in love.
My new friend ... i believe that was in love long time ago ... but maybe too disappointed by the real case scenario ... from the real world.
Arij is a little bit more than 20 and the other lady ... close to 30. I believe both of them in one point from the timeline of life were looking like 2 sisters.
But in almost 10 years everything changed.
Life revealed the difference between the perfect case scenario and the real case scenario.
The love story became ... the marriage.
I met thousands of people but only once ... about 25 years ago ... i met an old couple that ... in a magical way ... they were still in love. After a marriage of 50 years they were in love.
I was 18 at that age ... and i was laughing of them ... not knowing that years later i will fail in my marriage ... just because i was not asking them the secret of a long happy marriage.
I could ... just ask and i am sure they would have told me what was the secret ... but i believed i was too smart to ask that.
At more than 40 ... i smile ... with love ... thinking about what Arij is writing ... laugh at the philosophical questions regarding marriage ...
came from my new friend ... and only ask myself why i don’t see the message behind the fact that so many marriages are failing.
But ... being just a simple human being ... being in the statistical data of the humans ... being the same as all the others ... all is left for me to do is ... just continue asking myself philosophical questions.
... and no answer is coming to me ... at least not a good one, cause i am still too blind to see the message behind the unhappy marriages. And life continues ... just in the statistical data!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
57
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
The best of your times
“The best of times ...
The period of mistakes ...
The age of foolishness ...
The season of light ...
The spring of hope ...
The epoch of belief ...
The epoch in incredulity ...
The disappear of anxiety ...
I had nothing before that ...
I had nothing before ...”
(Arij Emaan)
What is the best times from your life?!
Had you succeeded everything you’ve asked to the Universe?!
Well ... if yes ... you already know that you were lucky cause you was on that timeline ... and not because you succeeded.
You made all kinds of mistakes, but the anxiety disappeared all the time ... cause you had in your soul the belief ... the incredulity. The path of success was in fact a lesson for understanding how we can connect to the Universe through our souls. And it was so, so simple.
Before that ... you had nothing ... but nothing meant ... not the success itself ... but the connection with the inner self.
You had ... the best of your times ... and had no idea about that. You were enjoying the path ... and the Universe was on your side, watching your back.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
58
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
Then one day ... the success came.
It was the end of the path.
You did not knew what to do ... to be happy and grateful that the desire became real ... or unhappy because this story came to an end. You had nothing before that ... and again ...you are in the position of having ... nothing ... one more time.
But you have a moment of enlightenment ... understanding that life is not about success and failing ... but about enjoying both of them ... while living the scenario the Universe prepared you.
The message?!
.... just enjoy life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
59
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
It does not need to be perfect.
It needs to be real!
I had so many times when i was looking for perfection in my life ...
and nothing happened.
I was only delaying everything for months or even for years ....
looking for the best case scenario ... that in fact never came.
I was trying to touch the horizon line ... lying myself that i look for perfection, but in fact i was afraid to start the new chapter. The perfection became a great ... excuse.
And it was never the best time to start ... cause there was always something to add, change etc etc.
I was convincing myself that this is the professional way of doing the things ... and it was the perfect decision.
Once, not so long time ago, i prepared the things so that i can open kind of a senior village.
I had a big lot, many houses in there, a small restaurant, kitchen, etc etc.
It was a perfect plan ... but the electricity company delayed everything ... then other things appeared and we decided in the end just to rent the houses and nothing else. The project was abandoned.
After a very long time, lots of energy and money invested ... we decided just to closed the project.
Basically everything was ready ... but we never started and if you ask me now ... i believe we just delayed everything not as things to be
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
60
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
perfect ... but because we were afraid of really opening the project.
And yes ... the perfection was the perfect excuse.
Now i want again to open the same business.
I own a house with 23 rooms that is going to be kind of a hotel for seniors.
People that leave in vacation can let in here their elders for 1-2 weeks or they can stay even for long terms at us.
But this time ... i promised myself i will not be so idiot as the last time.
I will just open the hotel ... with only few rooms first and then the next module and ... in the end the 3rd one.
I will see how the business runs ... i will make money and reinvest everything in the same business.
I understood after ... losing lots of time, energy and money ... that the perfect scenario ... simple does not exists.
Or if it exists ... it is the one where you are now and you should just enjoy it ... the way it is.
Will i succeed to do what i am saying?!
Have no idea .. i sometimes believe in me ... and sometimes i just ...
don’t, but at least today i see my huge mistakes from the past.
I don’t regret anything ... but i want to be the best version of myself and i know i can do that only by doing real things and not by making plans ... plans and plans.
The perfect plan ... is the real one!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
61
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
I prefer to spend my time only with the people i am connecting with.
Is that wrong?!
Today i went to a river ...into the mountains.
10 years ago ... no one knew that place.
You could go there and be just you ... and the nature.
We were there in the morning.
Only few people around and it was the perfect atmosphere to connect with the nature.
If you know the result of this ... actually ... the therapy of connecting with the nature ..: i am sure you have this trip in your mind all the time.
I left my family in there and went for one hour to walk on a path parallel with the river.
But when i came back i was totally surprised.
The area became very crowed, lots of people listening loud music ...
and my desire of connecting to the nature ... became mission impossible.
I totally disliked what i saw around.
A crowd of people that came to the mountains to eat, drink alcohol and listen loud music.
The funny thing is that 15 years ago i was doing that too with my friends ... but maybe something changed inside of me ... and i started to hate doing that.
I became more selective.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
62
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
The message was simple for me ... wherever the crowd is ... i must not be in there.
In fact i became too selective.
I started to like to spend my time only with the people that i am connecting with ... and avoid all the people that i do not like. I actually ... even started to practice ... the solitude.
And now ... even if i like what i had decided ... i have moments when i wonder myself if i am wrong ... thinking and acting as that?!
Maybe it’s a new chapter of my life ... and no one should judge this tendency of mine ... but in the end ... it’s my life, my decisions and i will pay the price for those decisions.
Life has many paths that ... i should follow ... and this one ... maybe is a good one.
All i want is to spend time with people that i define as ... beautiful people.
People with good vibes.
People that have good intentions.
When i use the word “beautiful” ... i am speaking of their souls ... and i see the connections we have together. So ... is it wrong to be selective?!
Well ... i just believe is difficult to stop drinking alcohol ... if you can’t forget about your friends and their unhealthy habits ... that spend all their time in the bars from your area.
At one point ... we just follow different paths.
Nothing more ... it’s quite a simple message even if is difficult to explain to all the ones around you ... that feel you don’t like them anymore.
And it might be true.
... but the message behind the message is just that you want a change in your life ... and even a big one ... and you need another environment for that.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
63
BEHIND THE ABSTRACT
... there is always a message
