not mean you need to be one with the other side
I am trying to do all my best to become a real observer of my life and of everything happens around me.
I’ve come to the final conclusion that it is the only way to understand the real meaning of why i am here. Philosophy is just a way of playing around.
I have a nice lake at home ... but i never stay in there to fish and relax.
Could be a nice hobby ... but i am not doing it.
I prefer to read and write.
This is the only way in how i become calm.
The moment i am not doing one of those 2 things .... agitation starts
inside of me.
I connect to what i call reality ... and always end up losing my calm. Somehow i connect to all the people from my life ... and i start living a life defined by the energies of the others.
Most probably ... not even in 100 years from now ... i will not see for clear the fact that i could interact with the people from my life ... connect to them ... but not become one with them.
I know the theory ... but when it comes about practice ... i always forget that i should not live in the energy field created by others ... unless i know they are good, but also wise persons.
Today i believe that my number one lesson i need to study during this
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... there is always a message
life time is the human interactions ... the way we exchange
energies ... good connections that raise our vibrations ... but also bad interactions that stop the path of our evolution.
The good news is that i am aware of the fact that i need to pay attention at the way i am interacting with people.
I started to pay attention even if i meet on the street a homeless person ... or how i interact with a person that i defined in the past ... friend ... or even worst ... enemy.
I try to see if i see a message ... behind of all the interactions i have ... and all i hope is that one day i will reach a spiritual level ...
when connecting to the other side, will not mean i need to be one with the other side.
The energy field ... ideally a positive one ... could be defined by my good intentions ... and if i really want to be one with the other person ... like a love story for example ... i should keep in mind that the connection should allway follow a positive path. ... but theory is theory ... practice is practice.
And i continue my life ...
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... there is always a message
Yes ... there is a tear!
But it all looks like a discrepancy.
The most difficult problem in the world is that we don’t even understand ourselves.
We want to know and deeply understand ... what is this society where we live in ... what is the human being ... but we end up having no idea about who we really are as individuals.
As children ... we have the connection with the inner self ... but growing up ... a tear appears and even if it looks as a discrepancy ... we don’t know what to really believe, being in the labyrinth of life.
The adult becomes a lost person.
Philosophy ... personal growth, psychology looks like a logical path to follow, but still ... something is missing. The child was happy.
The adult is not.
He just lost the inner child ... and most probably will never meet again.
... but life continues ... in an unhappy way ... and no matter what path of life we choose ... we remain overwhelmed by discrepancy. One day .... someone pronounces the word ... tear .... and a moment of awakening appears right away.
Suddenly ... you just realize that ... what is really missing is the connection with your own soul ... the one that you had years ago ... as a little child.
Then you see that you don’t need anything at all ... no success, no
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fancy cars, no huge amounts of money in bank ... no nothing.
Just the ... connection ... cause the connection with the inner soul is the connection with the Universe itself.
And being connected with the Universe ... you actually have everything ... the infinite.
But even finding out the message behind the message is useless ...
cause that is not really solving the case of ... the tear.
In the end ... we should hope that time ... will fix all the things ... that also time broke inside of us ... without even noticing.
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... there is always a message
Bipolarity ... a way of surviving
During the time there were many people that told me that i suffer of bipolarity.
Even my wife tells me that all the time.
But i consider that i just don’t hate too much when i have a fight with someone ... cause 5 minutes after the fight i can smile again to that person.
So ... i wonder what should happen if we should have a blockage and would not speak anymore with anyone we argued.
And why i am defined as suffering of bipolarity, because i can easily jump from friends to enemies, but also from enemies to friends?! Even if bipolarity sounds as a bad attribute of the personality, i honestly believe that is the opposite of what it looks like.
Bipolarity can become in this crazy world where we live in ... a way of surviving.
This balance ... is seen from outside as something negative ... without understanding the whole story from our inner soul. We show our dark side.
Then our beautiful side.
Then again the dark side ... but right away we remember to them that inside of us is a beautiful side also.
Bipolarity, defined as a way of surviving ... helps us act better on the stage of life and keep the right balance from our good and bad side. Is a way ... in how we try to redefine ... scenarios that even if are created by us ... we don’t really want them.
Behind the bipolarity ... the message behind the message, as i always
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use to say ... you see a person that doesn’t succeed all the time to act in the perfect way ... but still ... is realizing that ... and tries to be that perfect person that should be.
Bipolarity is weird, difficult to be understood and accepted ... but in fact is this balance from the perfect case scenario to the real one ...
and then another try to make everything perfect ... and on ... and on ... and on.
But in the end ... is a way of surviving ... and be better human beings ... even if we don’t look like this.
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The final stage is ... the silence!
Don’t like what you see around you?!
Don’t like how they treat you?!
Want to change all these ... but you see that anything you should do is useless ... cause you have no chance of really changing the reality?! You are wasting your energy ... and all you succeed is ... lose your temper all the time.
But one day ... you just realize that the energy field where you live ...
that environment of your reality is just the way it is ... and can’t be defined by your energies.
You’ve got no power of influencing what is going on.
The funny thing is that you become stubborn... and you still try and try and try.
And ... no result.
Or maybe i should say that the only result is that you lose your temper.
The path of the energies are remaining the same ... and you have no clue why this is happening to you.
Well ... even if you read so many books ... you realize that no one ever bothered to write that there are only 2 major ways of living in the world.
One is ... when you are so powerful energetically that no matter where you are ... even in an area with very intense negative energies ... like a prison, a hospital etc etc ... you influence them sending powerful positive vibes to all the ones around.
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That is .. for example ... the power of a guru.
But for the rest of us ... the path of spiritual evolution is totally different ... and the scenario is just not the same as for the guru. Changing the frequency ... being in a different spiritual level you just don’t feel comfortable in a reality defined by the others ... by their energies.
Being too many people ... are stronger than you ... which i believe is natural.
And again the path is splitted in another 2 options.
One is to stay with them just like you did it till now ... cause all those people from your life might be the brother, the wife, the sister, the son, the sister in law, a parent, the colleague from work etc etc ... people that are difficult to just remove from your life.
The other option ... of course unless you are a guru and you can simply embrace your reality ... is to start practicing the solitude ... and the silence.
You can still be there ... but actually ignore them ... by staying only in your inner world ... in your own energy field ... defined by the new spiritual level where you are now.
So ... in the end ... the final stage to survive in a world that you don’t like so much ... but on the other hand you can’t change it ... is just practice ... the silence.
Being present ... but absent in the same time.
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There 2 ways ... speaking to you in a nice way or ... by force.
Which one do you prefer in the relationship with the Universe?!
Sometimes the Universe is whispering you ... by sending messages that are somehow encrypted ... and difficult to be understood. An event.
A strange reaction of someone that you don’t even know so well.
A sudden change.
A blockage. Then another one.
The way the messages comes is not even happening in a constant manner.
Everything looks illogical ... but the message is always the same. Sometimes you believe in the intuition ... in the signs .... sometimes you just can’t see the message behind the message.
And you start to believe that life is just the way it is ... and you should take for granted everything you see in the real life. Then ... the Universe is whispering again. But you are so confused.
This balance is killing you little by little ... the balance between believing that life is an illusion ... with a strong message behind the illusion ... or it is real ... and you should take the things just as they are.
It’s quite difficult to be sure if a theory is true .... or the other one.
The Universe continues whispering.
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One message.
Another one.
And ... another one.
But you can’t see that the meaning of life is to understand the truth behind the illusion.
Even the inner self ... becomes a false self.
We proudly call it Ego ... not understanding that this is a not the right path to follow.
And one day ... the way the Universe is sending us the messages ...
suddenly changes.
The method of whispering ... speaking to you in a nice way ... goes to the end.
The other method ... teaching you by force ... introducing yourself in very difficult situations ... becomes the new way of communication. And you have only one chance ... to understand the message behind the message.
If not ... if you keep being connected with the false self, the one defined by the outer world ... and not to the inner self ... the same experiences will be repeated on and on and on.
So ... don’t even bother to ask yourself why life looks so unhappy ... if you continue ignoring the other side of the story.
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It’s not that the change can’t appear
... but it scares you even more
that it will appear
We all have dreams.
Perfect case scenarios ... that we dream for them a lot.
And dream ... and dream ... and dream.
And the funny thing is that one day ... being totally surprised ... the
change appears.
Becomes real.
So real ... that is totally confusing for you ... not knowing how to act in the new circumstances.
Weird ... as the change can’t be accepted.
You asked for the change ... you dreamed for it ... but the scenario that became so real ... scares you.
A real non sense ... but we are not used with what we defined as perfect case scenarios.
We start to sabotage ... the change ... and we do that because we are used with an unhappy life and unhappy circumstances.
We are so scared of perfect situations ... and we act so ... so ... silly. But at least we have the gut to ask ourselves ... why?!
Why we should act so silly on the stage of life, after the Universe accomplished our dreams regarding the change?!
In the end ... us ... as any other human beings ... prove that we can’t connect for real at what we dreamed in life. A dream is just a dream.
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We just want to taste the dreams ... and nothing more.
But what is the message behind this behavior?!
Today ... i believe that what i call ... the message behind the message ... is quite simple ... we know nothing about the art of connecting to a happy life ... and the next second the script is redefined from a grey reality to a beautiful one ... we simple don’t know what to do. And ... we even want to run away.
We love seeing the change ... but we can’t embrace it ... even if we dreamed so much for it.
And we continue life ... continue hoping ... continue dreaming ... and still never be ready.
But what if it happens again for real?!
Well ... the silly balance between the worst case scenario and the perfect one ... will always be there.
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Much better as Casanova
... but still unhappy.
A real story about lost souls.
It looks like the well known Casanova had about 300 women in his life.
But even if it looks as an amazing experience ... Casanova had a huge handicap ... he did not had the support from Tinder at that time ... so nowadays ... i believe that 300 partners in a life time is not so much. But let me tell you a story.
It happens i know 2 guys, that are my friends in the real life.
They used to be businessmen, but they retired and all they do now ...
is just dream about new girls all the time.
One of the guys ... let’s call him Carl ... used to make good amounts of money and because of the business circumstances .... he met thousands of women.
