Meditation over important subjects ... made me understand that i was wrong seeing the scene of life ... or i was only seeing part of it.
Balancing from one idea to another ... and not even knowing
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
67
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
what is the real truth ... was happening all the time. One day ... i said ... “It’s enough! I need to accept that i have the right to change my thoughts!” ... i felt a huge released.
Was nothing wrong to have a totally different perspective after analyzing and defining reality ... and it was no reason to be ashamed of my thoughts.
Acceptance was the key ... acceptance of myself ... my behavior and in fact ... of my way of being.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
68
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Knowing the theory is great. Forgetting that we should also practice what we talk about is just ... silly.
Not so many people are familiar with the concept of sex mates.
Maybe it’s considered as a new one ... and even if it looks as a non sense or something immoral, those people are actually good friends that accepted the truth about their connection ... that they will always be friends, but they will never have a love story together ... even if they like each other a lot ... and the connection itself is great.
So ... what they actually do ... is that they are feeling good together ... without having any expectation one from another
... which again is weird ... not being in the dogmatic standards of life.
It happens i have a fried Levi ... which is an essayist that lives in the country side, near Amsterdam.
Elena, a family friend ... which likes him a lot was visiting him from time to time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
69
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
They were good friends .... but also occasional sex mates,
both of the being married.
Elena was not happy in her marriage, but wanted to experience something new all the time.
She believed in the concept of ... the energy of beginning ...
and also taught Levi about this amazing trick. Somehow they stoped seeing each other for a while, but seeing him 2 years later ... they started to chat again. “So my dear how are you?! How’s things?!”
Levi smiles and tells about his books of essays that he published ... but Elena started to laugh: “Hahaha! So ... you still lose your time writing!
I remember you are an expert when it comes about theory ... and i believe you still write about love stories ...
but how the hell you are writing about that ... if you don’t experience it?!
I know what kind of relationship you have with your wife ...
and you have no new mistress”.
Levi smiles ... agreeing his dear friend ... replying ...”Yes my dear! We need to remember the past we had together and do it one more time!”
But the truth is that Levi did not know how to open his heart ... and became a great theoretician that forgot that in life ... practice is also important.
We should experience everything ... not just live life by connecting with the imaginary world from reading or writing books.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
70
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Elena opened his views about sexuality, the connection with the feminine sex, the beautiful friendship with a lady ... then she left from his life.
Later ... he forgot this episode and continued writing and reading books ... without experiencing anything else.
He was ... afraid ... but was hoping that writing and reading will help him enter in the world of those amazing feelings. Elena said the truth ... and he knew it ... but still ... he could not start the life ... for real.
She was a teacher for him ... but later on he could not continue to experience life.
Probably today she could write a best seller about her experiences ... but she does not have Levi’s talent to write. Levi could write much better books ... but he does not know to connect to the present moment as Elena is doing ... so in the end the books are about an illusory world ... something he still remembers when she opened his eyes.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
71
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Divorce is not the end of the world ... but a new start in life ... and
sometimes the best choice you could have
Not so far from Moscow, in a beautiful town ... which was
kind of a motivational place of success you could see lots of
beautiful houses, amazing cars, gorgeous ladies, lots of rich
guys ... and actually it was all a story about the fact that
success is real and everyone can have it ... if really wants it.
There were lots of young couples in there that had absolutely
all they wanted ... but still ... they were not happy together.
On the path to success ... because of too much stress ... the
vibes from home totally changed ... and both husbands and
wives started to search for happiness ... somewhere else.
And is really funny ... that what they actually did was
exchanging their partners.
The wife ... became mistress.
The husband became ... the lover.
And still .... happiness did not appeared in there.
They had everything ... and actually nothing ... so they
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
72
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
thought of a new change.
The lover became then ... the lover of the mistress of someone else.
The mistress became ... the mistress of someone else ... and it all became a complicated story difficult to be understood ... or even defined.
The place was surrounded by all kinds of contradictory energies ... of happiness and unhappiness .. of good and bad vibes.
Was a weird .... balance of emotions ... but still the town was
a great place where you could study success.
Soon ... the people from there started to realize that success does not bring happiness ... and a mistress is keeping a great vibe just for a while ... or the lover of her best friend ...
that she wanted to also taste few times is not what she actually expected from a good partner.
In the end ... everybody found out that all the people from town .... including men and women were actually having love affairs ... but divorce was not seen as an option.
Divorce was about the real change in life.
Financial success came ... but it was not everything they really needed in life.
Actually blinded by success .... they lost the real values ...
and they remained lost ... not understanding what else they could do ... to go in a beautiful direction.
Maybe just the divorce could be a real solution, but many of them saw it as the end of the world ... not understanding that on the path to success they fucked their lives.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
73
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Many people from all around the world ... especially the ones that are studying motivation should go and visit that place close to Moscow to understand that we can have everything we want in life ... but maybe we should not want also the things and people that don’t belong to us.
But in the end ... life is a collection of experiences ... and we should enjoy everything happens to us and for us.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
74
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Be aware at negative people.
Negativity is a virus.
I’ve read about all kind of theories when it comes about motivation ... but i believe that even if we start following that path and actually understand that it’s very important to focus on positivity ... whatever you are doing in life ... the environment and the people around might perturb us most of the times.
So ... at least in my vision ... motivation has a price ... and to afford paying it ... means that you will need to disconnect from many people from your life.
That might refer to good friends, brothers or sisters, cousins, parents ... in fact anyone who might actually stop you following the path to an amazing change for your life. Whatever we will do, even if we might have the desire of changing the world ... negativity will not disappear from this world.
We need to accept that is part from this Universe where we were born.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
75
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Negativity is kind of a virus and what we actually do is ... balance between good and bad vibes ... not seeing the fact that motivation can somehow re soft us ... so that we connect only to the beauty of life.
So ... what we do with all the negative people that we interact with?!
Can we totally remove them from our timeline?!
Well ... might be easy to avoid and ignore a neighbor ... but not a brother or a mother ... so?! What is the trick?!
Well ... maybe disconnecting from them ... is the real trick for not interfere with energies that we don’t like anymore. We can interact with all those persons, but don’t let them influence us ... with anything at all.
Basically ... ignore negativity ... cause it is just an illusion that is meant to ruin our souls.
The world can be changed by disconnecting from its dogmatism ... a philosophy created just to stop us from connecting to the beauty of being alive.
We can smile to anyone around ... no matter who they are ...
and the virus will not affect us.
The smile ... which is actually a reflection of love ... becomes the perfect weapon against evil.
There is no other trick ... and if there is something else you could do ... is that the smile for them to be authentic ... and really come from your heart.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
76
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
“I am not a writer.
I am a therapist.
My own therapist.”
He was smiling.
They were talking and walking into the park.
She liked some of his writings, but some of them ... she even finds them depressives.
“Listen ... i was reading some of your posts and ... i like them in general ... but still in some of them i find a little bit of negativity ... difficult to be defined.
I know you are a writer ... but did you ever had any depression ... or something similar?!”
Henry was looking to Susan and ... loving the walk ... he
replies ... smiling:
“I am not a writer.
I am a therapist.
My own therapist.
It’s not about depression.
I just try to analyze and define my soul.”
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
77
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Henry started already by a long time to understand the world
... but he ended realizing that in fact he needed to understand his own soul.
He was accepting everything he was seeing inside of him, no matter if it was positive or negative.
In fact ... Henry was accepting this balance between positivity and negativity ... both of them being part of his being.
He was accepting all thoughts, all ideas ... and all the
vibes ... but later on ... Henry succeeded to control all those attributes that were defining him.
Actually realized that everything was a simple decision ... and he decided to take the best decisions for himself. And the most important, after understanding that even if negativity can be part of the script of his life ... it was important to accept the focus of his mind just on the things that defines life in a beautiful way.
Everything else is secondary ... and unimportant.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
78
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
One day you’ll need to accept that some things are just an illusion from your mind ...
and is never going to really happen. The mind ... was playing around with yourself.
I love socializing and because today i don’t socialize so much as i did in the past ... i became deeper in the relationships that i have with the people from the timeline of my life. Being involved in the renting business i deal with all kinds of people ... from simple workers that works in constructions to art directors.
I always tried to be friendly with all of them and make them feel as at home in my houses.
Benjamin was also staying at me ... by already half an year and i knew that i could count on him if something urgent was going to happen at my complex.
He was involved in constructions business and one day he was renting from me another house ... for some friends of
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
79
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
him ... that were going to be his new business partners.
Soon after ... i gave them a connection with a guy i knew ....
which signed a contract with their company ... of $30k ... and guess want?!
They started to fight who is actually the boss of the team and how they going to split the money.
Benjamin was suffering of depression ... many years ago when he was in UK ... but now he looked ok to me ... till the moment when he calls .. saying that he is going to call police, because he thought that the other guys were going to come into the night to his house ... brake the door and then kill him.
I did not know the other guys so well to agree or disagree with him ... but i started to ask myself what was going on. I let them stay in my houses, gave them a contract of $30k ... he tells me that his new partners were his friends and is happy to be in the same team with them ... then he comes with the scenario that those guys were going to kill him.
Quite ... contradictory and i was not understanding this balance of his emotions, so i’ve asked:
“Are those guys your friends or your worst enemies?! ... i really don’t understand the story!”
But Benjamin was overwhelmed by his emotions and it was almost useless to talk to him.
He leaves the complex and goes for few days to his parents that were living far away from us.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
80
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
I agreed with him ... that this is the best choice cause things will calm down during this time.
But on Sunday ... Clara ... Benjamin’s wife calls me at the first hour ... telling that she has a sewage problem at the house ... and i need to help her urgently.
I said ... “Fuck it! Who will i find at 7 am ... Sunday ... to help me to solve the problem?!”
Balancing from one idea to another ... and not even knowing
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
67
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
what is the real truth ... was happening all the time. One day ... i said ... “It’s enough! I need to accept that i have the right to change my thoughts!” ... i felt a huge released.
Was nothing wrong to have a totally different perspective after analyzing and defining reality ... and it was no reason to be ashamed of my thoughts.
Acceptance was the key ... acceptance of myself ... my behavior and in fact ... of my way of being.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
68
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Knowing the theory is great. Forgetting that we should also practice what we talk about is just ... silly.
Not so many people are familiar with the concept of sex mates.
Maybe it’s considered as a new one ... and even if it looks as a non sense or something immoral, those people are actually good friends that accepted the truth about their connection ... that they will always be friends, but they will never have a love story together ... even if they like each other a lot ... and the connection itself is great.
So ... what they actually do ... is that they are feeling good together ... without having any expectation one from another
... which again is weird ... not being in the dogmatic standards of life.
It happens i have a fried Levi ... which is an essayist that lives in the country side, near Amsterdam.
Elena, a family friend ... which likes him a lot was visiting him from time to time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
69
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
They were good friends .... but also occasional sex mates,
both of the being married.
Elena was not happy in her marriage, but wanted to experience something new all the time.
She believed in the concept of ... the energy of beginning ...
and also taught Levi about this amazing trick. Somehow they stoped seeing each other for a while, but seeing him 2 years later ... they started to chat again. “So my dear how are you?! How’s things?!”
Levi smiles and tells about his books of essays that he published ... but Elena started to laugh: “Hahaha! So ... you still lose your time writing!
I remember you are an expert when it comes about theory ... and i believe you still write about love stories ...
but how the hell you are writing about that ... if you don’t experience it?!
I know what kind of relationship you have with your wife ...
and you have no new mistress”.
Levi smiles ... agreeing his dear friend ... replying ...”Yes my dear! We need to remember the past we had together and do it one more time!”
But the truth is that Levi did not know how to open his heart ... and became a great theoretician that forgot that in life ... practice is also important.
We should experience everything ... not just live life by connecting with the imaginary world from reading or writing books.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
70
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Elena opened his views about sexuality, the connection with the feminine sex, the beautiful friendship with a lady ... then she left from his life.
Later ... he forgot this episode and continued writing and reading books ... without experiencing anything else.
He was ... afraid ... but was hoping that writing and reading will help him enter in the world of those amazing feelings. Elena said the truth ... and he knew it ... but still ... he could not start the life ... for real.
She was a teacher for him ... but later on he could not continue to experience life.
Probably today she could write a best seller about her experiences ... but she does not have Levi’s talent to write. Levi could write much better books ... but he does not know to connect to the present moment as Elena is doing ... so in the end the books are about an illusory world ... something he still remembers when she opened his eyes.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
71
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Divorce is not the end of the world ... but a new start in life ... and
sometimes the best choice you could have
Not so far from Moscow, in a beautiful town ... which was
kind of a motivational place of success you could see lots of
beautiful houses, amazing cars, gorgeous ladies, lots of rich
guys ... and actually it was all a story about the fact that
success is real and everyone can have it ... if really wants it.
There were lots of young couples in there that had absolutely
all they wanted ... but still ... they were not happy together.
On the path to success ... because of too much stress ... the
vibes from home totally changed ... and both husbands and
wives started to search for happiness ... somewhere else.
And is really funny ... that what they actually did was
exchanging their partners.
The wife ... became mistress.
The husband became ... the lover.
And still .... happiness did not appeared in there.
They had everything ... and actually nothing ... so they
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
72
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
thought of a new change.
The lover became then ... the lover of the mistress of someone else.
The mistress became ... the mistress of someone else ... and it all became a complicated story difficult to be understood ... or even defined.
The place was surrounded by all kinds of contradictory energies ... of happiness and unhappiness .. of good and bad vibes.
Was a weird .... balance of emotions ... but still the town was
a great place where you could study success.
Soon ... the people from there started to realize that success does not bring happiness ... and a mistress is keeping a great vibe just for a while ... or the lover of her best friend ...
that she wanted to also taste few times is not what she actually expected from a good partner.
In the end ... everybody found out that all the people from town .... including men and women were actually having love affairs ... but divorce was not seen as an option.
Divorce was about the real change in life.
Financial success came ... but it was not everything they really needed in life.
Actually blinded by success .... they lost the real values ...
and they remained lost ... not understanding what else they could do ... to go in a beautiful direction.
Maybe just the divorce could be a real solution, but many of them saw it as the end of the world ... not understanding that on the path to success they fucked their lives.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
73
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Many people from all around the world ... especially the ones that are studying motivation should go and visit that place close to Moscow to understand that we can have everything we want in life ... but maybe we should not want also the things and people that don’t belong to us.
But in the end ... life is a collection of experiences ... and we should enjoy everything happens to us and for us.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
74
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Be aware at negative people.
Negativity is a virus.
I’ve read about all kind of theories when it comes about motivation ... but i believe that even if we start following that path and actually understand that it’s very important to focus on positivity ... whatever you are doing in life ... the environment and the people around might perturb us most of the times.
So ... at least in my vision ... motivation has a price ... and to afford paying it ... means that you will need to disconnect from many people from your life.
That might refer to good friends, brothers or sisters, cousins, parents ... in fact anyone who might actually stop you following the path to an amazing change for your life. Whatever we will do, even if we might have the desire of changing the world ... negativity will not disappear from this world.
We need to accept that is part from this Universe where we were born.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
75
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Negativity is kind of a virus and what we actually do is ... balance between good and bad vibes ... not seeing the fact that motivation can somehow re soft us ... so that we connect only to the beauty of life.
So ... what we do with all the negative people that we interact with?!
Can we totally remove them from our timeline?!
Well ... might be easy to avoid and ignore a neighbor ... but not a brother or a mother ... so?! What is the trick?!
Well ... maybe disconnecting from them ... is the real trick for not interfere with energies that we don’t like anymore. We can interact with all those persons, but don’t let them influence us ... with anything at all.
Basically ... ignore negativity ... cause it is just an illusion that is meant to ruin our souls.
The world can be changed by disconnecting from its dogmatism ... a philosophy created just to stop us from connecting to the beauty of being alive.
We can smile to anyone around ... no matter who they are ...
and the virus will not affect us.
The smile ... which is actually a reflection of love ... becomes the perfect weapon against evil.
There is no other trick ... and if there is something else you could do ... is that the smile for them to be authentic ... and really come from your heart.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
76
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
“I am not a writer.
I am a therapist.
My own therapist.”
He was smiling.
They were talking and walking into the park.
She liked some of his writings, but some of them ... she even finds them depressives.
“Listen ... i was reading some of your posts and ... i like them in general ... but still in some of them i find a little bit of negativity ... difficult to be defined.
I know you are a writer ... but did you ever had any depression ... or something similar?!”
Henry was looking to Susan and ... loving the walk ... he
replies ... smiling:
“I am not a writer.
I am a therapist.
My own therapist.
It’s not about depression.
I just try to analyze and define my soul.”
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
77
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
Henry started already by a long time to understand the world
... but he ended realizing that in fact he needed to understand his own soul.
He was accepting everything he was seeing inside of him, no matter if it was positive or negative.
In fact ... Henry was accepting this balance between positivity and negativity ... both of them being part of his being.
He was accepting all thoughts, all ideas ... and all the
vibes ... but later on ... Henry succeeded to control all those attributes that were defining him.
Actually realized that everything was a simple decision ... and he decided to take the best decisions for himself. And the most important, after understanding that even if negativity can be part of the script of his life ... it was important to accept the focus of his mind just on the things that defines life in a beautiful way.
Everything else is secondary ... and unimportant.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
78
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
One day you’ll need to accept that some things are just an illusion from your mind ...
and is never going to really happen. The mind ... was playing around with yourself.
I love socializing and because today i don’t socialize so much as i did in the past ... i became deeper in the relationships that i have with the people from the timeline of my life. Being involved in the renting business i deal with all kinds of people ... from simple workers that works in constructions to art directors.
I always tried to be friendly with all of them and make them feel as at home in my houses.
Benjamin was also staying at me ... by already half an year and i knew that i could count on him if something urgent was going to happen at my complex.
He was involved in constructions business and one day he was renting from me another house ... for some friends of
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
79
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
him ... that were going to be his new business partners.
Soon after ... i gave them a connection with a guy i knew ....
which signed a contract with their company ... of $30k ... and guess want?!
They started to fight who is actually the boss of the team and how they going to split the money.
Benjamin was suffering of depression ... many years ago when he was in UK ... but now he looked ok to me ... till the moment when he calls .. saying that he is going to call police, because he thought that the other guys were going to come into the night to his house ... brake the door and then kill him.
I did not know the other guys so well to agree or disagree with him ... but i started to ask myself what was going on. I let them stay in my houses, gave them a contract of $30k ... he tells me that his new partners were his friends and is happy to be in the same team with them ... then he comes with the scenario that those guys were going to kill him.
Quite ... contradictory and i was not understanding this balance of his emotions, so i’ve asked:
“Are those guys your friends or your worst enemies?! ... i really don’t understand the story!”
But Benjamin was overwhelmed by his emotions and it was almost useless to talk to him.
He leaves the complex and goes for few days to his parents that were living far away from us.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
80
The dance of our emotions is a
... nonsense ... but a main part of our lives
I agreed with him ... that this is the best choice cause things will calm down during this time.
But on Sunday ... Clara ... Benjamin’s wife calls me at the first hour ... telling that she has a sewage problem at the house ... and i need to help her urgently.
I said ... “Fuck it! Who will i find at 7 am ... Sunday ... to help me to solve the problem?!”
