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optimism and other bla, bla, blas.
And Napoleon Bonaparte’s life is indeed a motivational historical example.
short story with him is that even if he was born in an ordinary family … believing a lot in himself … he actually succeeded to become …. a great emperor.
Not the emperor of the world as he wanted … but still one of the most important from the human history.
And his career ended in fact 2 times … alone on an island … showing to us that no matter how great you are … the Universe can end everything for you … not even bothering to ask your opinion.
So … having in mind the movie “Samadhi” … with the illusion of the self, but also studying more and more Napoleon’s life
i smile seeing around me …. so, so many people that have this illusory idea that they are kind of an … emperor … even more important as Napoleon.
You see … a negative effect of studying the personal growth is that …without a little bit of philosophy and spirituality … it will be totally useless to apply all those learnt methods.
Personal growth … having the trend to convince you to connect to the self, believe into the inner powers …it all becomes … toxic.
And indeed it’s kind of illusory toxicity … that poisson our souls …
So …. what shall we do?!
How could we see beyond the self?!
How can we avoid the trap of illusory believing that we are the … emperor of the world?!
And even more difficult … how can we get rid of all those
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types of people from the timeline of our lives?!
Should we accept them?!
Should we avoid them?!
Should we … save them?!
Well … those people are part of the modern society. We will see them … almost everywhere … but there is probably just one thing that we could do … smile …. and ignore them.
Or if we really have to interact with them … just make little jokes from time to time … telling them … “Yes … emperor … you are right. You know what?! I think you look a lot with Napoleon … and i like that.”
And then … just smile … or even laugh in front of these characters, dominated by the illusion of the self.
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Truth be told … we have really high standards today
I look around social media and i see lots of amazing posts with pictures and movies from trips or vacations … from all around the world.
I could even say that if someone would want to study geography … countries, big cities of the world … and all the great places from this plannet … should just follow those people that have this hobby of … traveling. But you see … having a hobby it’s great.
I like all the people that have hobbies, no matter of what they love to do.
My philosophical question is just … what is the connection between all those great places … those love stories … presented to us with such a brilliant marketing …. and money?!
Why personal growth …. with so many, many social media
pages … trying to induce us … those new illusory standards?! Why a great love story needs to happen in a very beautiful place ... which is actually on the other side of the world?! Why we need to spend huge amounts of money … to go in those places and make those stories so … fancy?! Can’t we be happy … anywhere?!
Can’t love survive today …. without money?!
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It is said that the nowadays standards of an ordinary person are much better as the life of a king which lived hundreds of years ago …. which somehow means that many of us have
this deep desire of having a luxurious life style …. and near a
person … whoever that person is … defined as a soul mate … the story itself starts to have hollywoodinan connotations. So … basically … life is beautiful in this new era … when we live our lives.
We believe the statistical studies … and live with this illusion of a life style which is better than kings used to have … but still … i don’t have a clear answer … about this contemporary connection between love and money.
Well … maybe i analyze too much … not having this desire of traveling or i am such a greedy person … that i would never pay for this illusory sensation of being … or feeling … like a king.
Who the hell knows …
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Music is just … amazing.
Helps us forget for a short time … of anything that is destroying our vibe.
I was walking on the streets.
I’ve been annoyed and stressed, by some important things that i could not solve by a long, long time.
Suddenly i started to hear a street concert with drum music.
I go in that direction and stop there for few minutes.
And it’s funny cause without realizing … i somehow totally forgot for a moment … of all my illusory problems.
My ugly vibe was metamorphosed into … a beautiful one … right away.
I connected to that music … and felt great.
Well … such an old and easy trick that i totally forgot about. So damn funny … cause in a moment … i forgot about the fact that i was annoyed, stressed, frustrated …. and my fucked vibe … just disappeared.
I started to wonder myself …. how much money i should pay
to those musicians … for changing my vibe so, so easily.
10 sessions to a psychiatrist …. would not have this effect …
but letting the music dominate my being … connecting to it … was having amazing effects on myself.
Music is actually … real therapy for the soul … helping us forget for a short time … of anything that is destroying ourselves.
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So many destinations … but maybe there is the perfect time to just … stop and simple … enjoy life
Let me tell you a secret about all the men over 40, especially the ones that invested a lot of time and energy in being … successful.
Once the success comes … they start acting like teenagers.
And most of them speak just about …. ladies and money.
… nothing more.
The other day …. Michael sent me a photo with a beautiful
lady from social media … telling me … “You see … with this amazing lady besides me … i should just stop from following the illusory path of … money.
But … still … did not had the chance to meet her.”
I was watching the photo, admired the lady and her vibe … and realized i am not more luckier as Michael.
I was following lots, lots of paths … and i could not simple stop and enjoy life.
In fact i was seeing just a weird common pattern at all the men over 40 … that i knew.
When it came about ladies … they could stop and admire them … just like a person who loves art … would stay in front of an art object … simple adoring to study it.
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Yes … like it or not … it was the only trick that worked … following the pathless path.
Not only for me and my friends, but for all the men i met … during this life time.
It sounds weird i know …. watching this teenager behavior,
but …
I watch again the photo from Michael …. and i suddenly
realize that indeed there are moments … when we stop from all what we are doing, but just if it is the case … of connecting to something … that we believe it might bring us …. other amazing vibes.
Following so, so many directions … becomes … illusory … and just a … nonsense.
And that beautiful moment of stoping, admiring and declaring … “Life is beautiful” … it’s so damn close.
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There is only on purpose of life … to enjoy it
I’ve read so, so many books of personal growth … but i wonder today … how the hell could i be such an idiot to spend such a long time reading all those hundreds of books
when i could search and find ways of connecting … to everything means … real life.
I asked myself for so many, many times about the purpose of life … and also … why does it have to have a purpose …
I thought i will find the answer in books.
Later …. I thought i will find the meaning of everything by analyzing and defining … all what i was observing on the timeline of my own life.
But …
Yes … it was a big …. but …
Smiling annoyed … one day … i just somehow understood … life is the way it is … and we should accept it.
Everyone … had a different scenario … and i was living my own scenario … which many, many times i found it so, so illusory.
One day …. my dear friend Mahima … sent me a song … that reminded me about the fact that life is … wonderful.
And it was such a beautiful song …
So … i asked myself … maybe … the purpose of life is to …
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enjoy it?!
My mind was blurred.
All my thoughts looked so … illusory and contradictory. I continued meditating … almost with no sense … cause i could not find the absolute truth.
It all looked ….
Well …. not like in the song … which was defining me … the
wonderful life ….
But … where i could find this scenario …. of such a life?!
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If there is a hell for real … it is on this world where we live in.
And if heaven really exists … it can also be found somewhere around us.
I was chatting with Tom one day.
In the same day Clara was also writing me.
Tom was in love again … and i felt him as the most happiest person in the world.
Clara was telling me about her sister … that had cancer and was in terrible pain.
I knew Clara and her sister by a very long time but i also knew Tom by more than 20 years … and it was really weird to connect in the same time with both of them and finding about 2 stories coming from totally contradictory worlds. Eveline, Clara’s sister … was indeed living in hell, being in terminal cancer … and nothing could be done for her anymore.
Tom … well … was so in love … and he could not stop himself to describe to me his beautiful love story … and how amazing life can be.
The same world …. totally different stories.
Clara described me the hell and Tom … the paradise …. and i
started to be so … confused.
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My vibe … the one from that day … was somehow … neutral.
I was not living in hell … but neither in paradise.
I was in fact … not seeing very well the world around myself, but realized i need to understand this large spectrum o contradictory situations that life gives to us.
Closing my chat with my 2 friends … i continued asking myself … why we live in such an world that can be … a paradise …. but also a hell?! But … no answer came to me.
And still … somehow i felt … that all it’s just … illusory.
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A great poet … it’s always an unhappy person.
An amazing philosopher … lost his mind by a long, long time.
A spiritual person … is searching on and on and on … his lost soul.
But i wonder why those people are living such an … illusory life?!
I personally … love philosophy.
I tried a little bit poetry … but failed from the first second.
Spirituality … i loved also …. but i was not able to define it.
So … philosophy was … is …. and will always be my preferred
subject.
But one day i’ve asked myself …. why?!
Why was i so damn connected to it?!
Well … i was trying to define life … and its meaning since i was a very little kid.
I became more profound … when i felt that i actually lost my mind.
And it was so damn funny.
More i was chasing for the absolute truth … but seeing so, so many illusory truths in my mind … lost control … on myself. I was mad … annoyed … sad …
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I could not count … on my thoughts.
Maybe i had to try more to reconvert myself … into a poet so that i define… my unhappiness first … and then into a monk that is trying to use spirituality … for obtaining the absolute. But …. losing my mind … so damn often … feeling myself …
that i was walking on a pathless path … i started to be more and more annoyed of …. my illusory life.
And … there was only one more thing to do and that was … to accept the script of life, to embrace all that was happening … and probably smile and enjoy the present moment.
I somehow realized that following this path of philosophy, even if i was what i should name … a lost philosopher … i became a student at the School of Illusions. But it was even … worst.
I had to pass the exams … lots of exams.
The one of … illusion.
So … ?!
Well … after a long time spent being mad, sad, annoyed and unhappy … i realized i can only smile in front of the illusion and search just the message behind the message. Maybe truth is always revealed … but later …
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Get rid of them … or solve the the karmic conflict?! Which is the best version?!
I had so many conflicts with so, so many people over my life time that … i should be by this age a real expert in … conflicts.
But guess what?!
I never understood how i could really stop being conflictual.
Or even worst.
I somehow understood … but … refused to stop doing that … even if i knew it was so damn … wrong.
But something weird happened … few times …while i was acting like such an … idiot.
I started to feel that karmic is not something … wrong … and also that even if something is telling me to end my connections with those people … i also hear a voice that whispers me the fact that i should follow the path … no matter what.
The bad part of the story is that those negative emotions i have with those karmic people that fucked my life, or … i fucked their lives …. were so … overwhelming … that i could not stand living like that.
It was like i had to decide if i need to go to the left of to the right … but … i was so undecided.
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And even if i had to take the decision of getting rid of those people … something happened all the time … and they reappeared on and on and on.
