So … the path itself it was not about taking to the left or right, which basically meant to continue staying near those annoying karmic people or … just get rid of them.
Yes … i was really annoyed … cause i did not knew what to do
but … i was still hoping that the solution will be revealed to me.
Time was passing.
Days, weeks … then months …. and even years.
Little by little i started to realize that karmic meant … lessons of life … and the only thing i had to do was to embrace those experience and understand their meaning.
It was … so damn illusory.
“Hmm” … i said in my mind all the time … “Why the hell it needs to be like that? I can’t really understand … “
Well … my life was not what it looked like … but i could not really understand that.
But the Universe was loving me … and little by little … that weird voice was saying to me … “Embrace those people and all those experiences with them … and when you’ll understand the karmic message … they will just disappear.” And it was so damn funny …. cause other people, with other karmic messages were appearing ….
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Sometimes we realize that behind reality there are invisible forces with very abstract behaviors. So … what should we understand from that?!
All the time something bad happened … i’ve become annoyed.
… really, really annoyed.
I could even write a book with the title … “One million ways of being annoyed”.
But why i was annoyed?!
Who made me feel like that?!
If i would tell you those stories … you would start laughing … without stopping.
But i was so annoyed all the time.
On and on and on.
I could find no medicine to heal me … and actually save me of living so horrible episodes.
Until … one day when i realized that it’s all an illusion and
some karmic forces … that are beyond reality is testing me
all the time.
The purpose?!
Well … to understand the concept of …illusory.
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To realize that it’s not what it looked like … and i always had to see the message behind the message if i would ever dream of … spiritual evolution.
I was meditating… but still … i was daily annoyed by different things.
On and on and on … which meant it was all a powerful karmic
situation.
So … ?!
What did i had to do?!
What did i had to change?!
What was the most powerful message of all that?! Well … it was so damn simple..
Even a 5 years kid would see that … but i was so … blind … spiritually speaking.
I was living the test of illusions … and i believed it was all …
so damn real.
I was so … silly.
Ah no … not silly … maybe i could say … stupid.
I did not understood this game of illusions and it’s meaning … for getting out of the illusion of the self … which probably is the most import purpose we should have in life.
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Always prepare yourself for the stage of life …no matter how long it takes … or how you do it.
Just try to be … ready.
Long time ago … i saw a great movie.
A young guy falls in love with a beautiful lady, but the problem was that he was at the moment … virgin. In fact even worst … he never kissed a lady before.
So he is thinking … and thinking.
In the end he decides to hire an escort to teach her how to kiss, have sex and everything a man has to do for having a beautiful relationship with a lady.
The escort was a very expensive one … but for Jay it was absolutely no problem cause his father was very rich.
The funny thing is that somehow … the escort starts to like him …. even if he was much younger and … they fall in love. So … Jay started to feel his heart splitted in … 2 parts.
He liked Melinda …. the girl from school, but also Tunde, the
beautiful escort that had to teach him the art of …. loving …
Melinda.
It was a little bit funny seeing how we understand in one point that we need to prepare ourselves for some directions for life … we actually change the direction we are following. So … how should we define this story?!
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Illusory?!
A stupid way of acting?!
Should we say that Jay is actually a smart guy that is preparing himself for the real scene of life?!
Well … we could define the situation in one million ways, including as an immoral fact … but … first of all we should learn the art of enjoying the experiences offered by life. Of course … with any possible risks.
Just listen to the song of life, try to connect to it … and dance.
Life is beautiful … no matter what path we should follow. And when you are ready to act in the proper way on the real scene … then … it’s perfect.
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Life is short.
Try something new everyday.
I simple smile while analyzing the majority of people around myself.
Most probably we don’t know how to act on the stage of our own lives …
But it’s even worst … we don’t even try it.
We believe we have plenty of time … and tomorrow will be different.
And … guess what … tomorrow is the same.
We ignore the fact that we should try new things …. and
maybe new tricks for a beautiful life.
Recently saw a short motivational parody about the fact that life is short and we should do something new everyday … and
smiled. Again …
But truth be told … i understand life only into a theoretical way.
On the stage of my own life … i don’t really embrace the term … new …
I like staying in my confort zone. And …
Well … my life looks as a parody … and i just don’t do anything to change it.
Now the Universe is smiling … behind my back …
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“Analyzing and defining her spirit … i somehow realized that i am in front of … the perfect case scenario …. but i refused to act on the stage of life”
Seeing that i write mainly about illusions …. and in fact about
our illusory way of acting in the real life … Tom, a university professor from Mexico … wrote me a long message, defining his life … and …
You see … Tom was a young professor, teaching arts at an university where 90% of the students were … young ladies. Short story with Tom is that he was living in fact 2 contradictory scenarios in the same time.
One … an unhappy marriage, with a lady that from outside was looking as the perfect wife.
And … the second one … a life lived at university surrounded by young ladies … that liked him … a lot.
While teaching his students about art … he always enjoyed it … cause all was inducing him a feeling of … a weird … happiness.
But you see … Tom … was looking at both scenarios as … illusory … this being the reason why he wrote me … asking kind of a philosophical question … “Should i bother to continue this way … knowing that those 2 scenarios that i am living … are so damn … illusory?!
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Analyzing and defining everything … i somehow realized that i am in front of … the perfect case scenario …. but i refuse to act on the stage of life.”
Well …. to be honest … first i thought that Tom is a guy that
is suffering of depression, but later on … i totally redefined my thoughts regarding him.
Somehow i realized that he is living between 2 contradictory worlds … an unhappy marriage, near a lady that was hating him … and an amazing job where he was surrounded all the time by beautiful girls.
He could easily start … a love affair, but something was stopping him … and i could not see the real meaning of his thoughts, actions and … emotions.
If he was so unhappy and he had one million chances to be happy … why the hell he was not even moving a finger … in any direction?!
Well … maybe Tom decided to simple … not act anymore on the stage of his own life?!
Or maybe he thought that this weird concepts of happiness and unhappiness are so damn … illusory … that he should not even bother to follow or unfollow any of those paths?!
To tell you the truth … i was really curious what was in his mind.
He looked like an intelligent person to me, but i could not understand him.
Or maybe Tom … decided to be a simple spectator on the stage of his life … and actually cut this connection and also dependency between his soul … and the feeling and the decision of being happy or unhappy.
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We are dominated by our desires and we always chase for things … that we don’t have in that moment. Well … until …
It happens i have a nice retro mobil … which i like a lot. I bought it as a present for my son, but also as an investment, cause the price was … a very good one.
From time to time … i drive it in the city and it’s really funny seeing so many people having …. very, very expensive cars, of more than 100k dollars … looking at us.
Even my 2 boys are laughing all the time saying … “That idiot having the most expensive Mercedes in the world is looking at us … probably envying on us …. for our old Mercedes …. that costed so, so little money”.
Most probably … for my sons it’s a lesson about what … an illusion … means.
One day, a great journalist … which happens to be also a very wealthy guy, driving a Bentley … was also looking at us …. while staying in the traffic jam.
My youngest son smiles saying … “I can’t believe this guy is also … idiot. Look what car he has and he is looking at our car.”
But i somehow realized that it’s all a representation of the fact, that no matter what we have in life … being dominated
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by our desires, we always end up wanting more and more and more … in fact all that we don’t have in the present moment.
And the only way in how i could define this situation is just … funny …
So … should we pay more attention at our desires?! Should we analyze why we act as the little children, that no matter how many toys they have … somehow …. they always want the toys belonging to the other children.
So … illusory … minds.
I smile defining us … as humans … then i start to laugh … so, so … loud and i can’t stop myself doing that.
Yes … indeed … as my kids are saying … we are just … idiots.
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Depression … a reflection of illusory thoughts
I started to see so, so many people around myself … dominated by … depression.
And i smile … realizing that the door that could get them out from that environment … is so close by them.
Today … when i really want to connect with someone, i just ask them … what do they think of the concept of … illusion. And … guess what?!
With many of them … it’s like i start a conversation about … devils.
They totally dislike it.
The smiles, the beautiful vibes of the conversations … suddenly .. stops.
It’s like i said something really … impolite.
So … what it’s really wrong … talking about illusions?!
Why do they reject so strongly … those discussions?!
And they start having those … unhappy faces.
Depression … starts to be revealed.
They are so afraid of it.
But not me.
I accepted and embraced it … long time ago, as part of this
process of being alive …
Know why?!
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Well … i somehow understood that the depression itself was generated by all my illusory thoughts … and all i need to do was to simple … get rid of them.
Or … just ignore all those … perceptions.
I understood the term of illusion.
I accepted it as … part of life.
But i don’t allow myself anymore to be dominated by those illusory thoughts which come into my mind … so often. You see … depression is just … part of the process of understanding the life itself.
Once the concept of illusion becomes clear … and we accept that our perceptions don’t have absolute values … well … things change.
The depression itself is metamorphosed into an illusion … and we can smile in front of it.
The thoughts become simple …. thoughts.
Emotions … just something volatile that define us … usually … for a very short time.
The impact just … decrease …. and depression becomes so …
unimportant.
We simple … ignore it.
But it took so much time to understand the concepts about … illusions.
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Vandalizing things and even … lives … could probably be defined as …. an art. An abstract one …
I was near an old abandoned building from a park.
I use to go to that place from time to time … even if it is so far from my house.
Looking at the building, today vandalized by some guys that love this art of painting grafitti … a philosophical question came into my mind … how could i define the people which are vandalizing things or lives?!
Are those people … negative characters?!
Are they karmic characters?!
Are they people sending a powerful message about a ruin?! They are indeed one million ways of vandalizing things and lives …. and if i would be honest … i vandalized others
people’s lives … and i had moments when i felt that my life had been vandalized.
Everything had become up side down.
It was all … so …. Illusory.
But walking near the vandalized building from the park … i suddenly realized that those people painting grafitti … were only trying to create a new image for an abandoned building. It was something that sooner or later would become a ruin … anyway.
The graffiti had given life to it … into an abstract way.
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So … was i on the way of becoming a ruin anyway …. when
someone vandalized my life?!
Was i a bad person … with a huge negative impact when i vandalized others people’s life?!
And if i would be honest again …. I would admit the fact that
i loved to do it, same as those artists that painted graffiti on the building from my favorite parc … loved to do that. It was an artistic fact.
Abstract … but artistic.
We find it so illusory … but we don’t understand that whatever does not have life … will somehow be metamorphosed with … or without our acceptance.
