Just as Antoaneta said ... “vibes never lie” ... so letting them send us the right decision ... might be the key for a beautiful life.
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Man’s search for ... love ... or illusions?!
There is a nice book, in fact a best seller ... “Man’s search for meaning”, written by Viktor Frankl ... and i wonder if there is any book with the title “Man’s search for ... love”.
I have a dear friend that is laughing of me sometimes when i write about love.
He has a fabulous “hahahaha”.
It’s an amazing reply to my essays.
Hollywood would pay him 1 million dollars for this, in the movie ...
“The Universe is laughing of you”.
But i also laugh a little bit of him, when i see that he still remembers a beautiful girl that he liked a lot years ago.
That girl disappeared by almost 2 years, but i believe that she touched his heart and he did not let her go away from his soul. You see ... all of us are searching for ... love.
It looks like we search for illusions ... but in fact we are looking for someone that could connect to our souls.
We dream of meeting someone that is seeing the beauty from inside of us .. and dare to live with us a dance of emotions ... till the moment when we understand that if we want the union between the souls ... we just need to focus more on the concept of “us”.
It happens that we meet a person that we have “chemistry” with ...
and we also like a lot that person.
It looks like that it is the end of the path of searching for love.
.... and then we miss the chance.
That person disappears from the real life and remains forever into our memories.
But is nothing wrong.
It’s a weird .... but a beautiful chapter of life.
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The exploring of love.
And i am wondering ... as any thief of beautiful illusions ... if we could just repeat that chapter ... with the new “us”.
Same “hollywoodian movie” from the real life ... PART 2 ... “In love with the MUSE ... one more time”.
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The love story
Connect - disconnect — reconnect
Sometimes the love story runs excellent ... but in time things change. It can happen as one of the partners to be overwhelm by negativity, in some ways difficult to be understood ... but it happens.
You still like that person ... and you still want to be togheter ... but the new story has today nothing to do with the love story that you liked so much.
So ... you do what?!
You resign from the story?!
Or you just continue the story ... hoping that one day soon things will change?!
Sometimes is easy to abandon the battle ... but when you love someone a lot ... it’s difficult to believe that this could be the right path.
And on the other hand negativity just ruins the beauty of being togheter, but also the beauty of life.
When we know to smile, to enjoy the relationship itself ... life is amazing.
When negativity overwhelm us ... well ... it’s just not a nice path.
But you can’t just disappear.
You see ... when you fall in love ... it means you connect with the loved one.
What if ... just for a while ... you just spiritually disconnect from the partner?! ... and wait as things to change.
And when things change again, in a positive way ... you just
reconnect again.
Connect - disconnect - reconnect.
A key for saving the love story.
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So ... can this process easily be done?
Do we have a spiritual button for connecting and disconnecting, as an on / off button?!
I believe is just a choise to accept in our life only positive things, but also if we saw that the beautiful side of the partner exists ... we should invest some time and energy ... and wait as things to change.
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Finding the adventure
... of a love story
“I'm not into the idea of loving without you ...
So ...
Let us find the adventure ...
Let’s make a laugh ...
Let’s love ...
Let’s keep each other ...
Let’s make it more wonder ...
Let’s worry less ...
Let us promise!!!!
That we will be together until forever ...
Lets find the adventure”
(Arij Emaan)
Why people look for adventures?!
Why should we look for dangerous things and situations?!
... or maybe dangerous persons for the soul?!
Yesss ... being in love is dangerous .. but amazing in the same time.
It’s a real adventure ... and you could lose your soul ... on the path of
this adventure.
You laugh .. you worry less ... you love each other ... and want to promise that it will all be an adventure until forever. And all it will happen ... you will love it.
Finding the adventure ... of a love story is a life experience difficult to define, but also to forget.
It’s an adventure for the soul ... and maybe a test for the Ego ... so
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that it should understand what “us” means.
Does it worth to look for this adventure?!
Well ... if you are not looking for a boring life ... you should try it. Why?!
Cause ... it’s amazing.
An amazing illusion.
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Perfect love story ... but only in special conditions and ... in the perfect environment
How should you define the perfect love story?!
Does it need a perfect environment for that?!
It happens i know a lady and a gentleman ... that looks for me as the perfect couple.
He thinks the same as i do.
She used to think the same as well ... but not anymore.
In fact ... she feels they are the perfect couple but only in a perfect environment ... that has nothing to do with the real life.
She sees that they are great togheter ... but only in that hotel room ... and then ... their life goes in different directions.
The love story exists ... and it’s a great one ... but they just can’t make it be part of reality.
Beautiful words ... amazing moments spent togheter ... but even they have such a long time since they first met ... their story ... it’s just a story.
So ... is the concept of a love story, strictly related ... with the perfect atmosphere?!
Or maybe one of them is just refusing as them ... as a couple ... to come to reality?!
The beauty of being in love ... enjoying the perfect scene ... and saying ... “I refuse to live the boring reality, but only enjoy the amazing moments spent togheter ... and nothing more!” So ... is she right when she complains about him?!
Is she right ... cause she is not seeing them as the perfect couple anymore ... only because he prefers to stay only into the love story?! But ... i wonder if perfection can exists into the real life.
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What if the truth is ... that we need a special environment for that?!
Well .... who knows.
Maybe there is no ... truth.
Maybe we should enjoy the story ... just as it is.
And maybe if we see it is beautiful ... in certain conditions ... we should just use that trick.
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Why is she feeling so ... sad?!
“I'm deeply Depressed....
And can't take it anyMore,
My heart consists of emptyness...
Just emptyness......”
(Arij Emaan)
She used to be joyful, but today she is totally different. Used to love her a lot ... but why she changed so much?! Everything she says today is only related to issues that ... have so much negativity.
But i feel positive everyday ... and everything was amazing not so long time ago.
So ... what is really going on?!
I still wonder why she changed so much?!
How can you jump from being happy to a state of total unhappiness ... that looks like will never disappears?!
I had days ... when i thought it just makes no sense at all ... then one day .... i understood i became the source of all her negative emotions.
Even if i had been all the time ... joyful, happy of having her, in positive vibe ... i disappointed her so much ... that instead of being someone that makes her feel amazing ... i started be become toxic for her life.
So .... in other words ... even if i am positive person and that i
strongly believe in the power of positive thinking ... i because the source of negativity for the person i love the most. And again ... it does not make sense.
But it’s just ... the real scene of life.
So ... why she changed so much?!
Why she feels ... so sad?!
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Well ... my vanity will never accept that i am the negative character from the story ... cause is much easier to see her responsible of everything.
But i still love her ... and she still loves me.
The story continues ... but on parallel path.
... and most probably it will never be what it used to be.
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The love letter from the beautiful mistress
... that used to be his muse for such a long time
“My dear lover,
My heart ached when you said at the hotel that I needed a lot of
money and sex.
Really?
He didn't give me what I needed, and you can't either ... because your place is there ... and you have to let go of that stubbornness. The more we whine, the more we suffer. We must accept the situation as it is.
That's why I came out of a marriage of 15 years, because I didn't
want to be the 2nd person.
I don't want that anymore.
Today I am and I feel exactly like when I was with him.
I know what it sounds like but this is what i feel.
Please stop being selfish and analyze everything ... to make a wise decision, as you did with your family.
Yes ... you are not made to thank 2 people.
And the fact that you want to be there means that there is still something to be done and something between the 2 of you. You just have to work harder
I really want to hear that you're happy with them ... cause i believe that everything happens for a reason! Your love”
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Having enough of being just a muse ... she resigns again. But is it something bad to be a muse?!
A friend of mine that is a writer, had a huge headache not so long time again ... with his muse.
You see ... all poets and writers ... have what we call a muse ... a beautiful lady that inspires their writings.
A successful businessman ... would call her ... his mistress ... but all writers prefer the term “muse” ... which i find ... a beautiful name. My friend was involved in the love story with that lady for a very long time.
She inspired him for years and she wrote many books .... where the
main character of the stories was the muse.
She knew about that ... and she liked sometimes that he writes about her ... but not always.
But, you know ... there is a saying ... spend time with wise people and you will become wise ... spend time with idiots and you will become an idiot.
And being for such a long time in the love story with the writer ... the muse changed a lot.
She even became more philosophical ... and the writer came with a brilliant idea ... to let her come on the stage with her own words and not the ones filtered by him.
Without letting her know ... he started to publish her love letters ... but when she found out ... she became very, very ... angry ... and even aggressive.
And she just resigned from being a muse ... sending him the following letter ...
“I can’t believe it!!
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How the hell do you write what I told you???
You kidding me????
Do you let them know what really happened ... to make them laugh of me?
You exceeded any common sense limit with the last post.
If you think it's a game and it's worth exposing all my words there ... it means you have no respect for me for what I say ... and privacy is gone.
I don't think you could do that.
I am socked!!
It’s all a joke ... that's it.
Please never bother me again!!
Never!!!!
I don't want to hear about you in my life, how many more days I have
on this earth.
Shame on you!”
I read the letter for about 9-10 times and i am still smiling and if i am laughing of someone is not about the lady ... but about my friend. You see ... even if the writer was a wise philosopher .... he did not
understood yet ... as many, many other mature men ... that the whole world can be ... the so called “muse”.
A beautiful lady that you see on the street, the cleaning lady from the building where you live, the medical nurse that you meet when you go to a private clinic ... any woman ... can be your muse.
Exploring and understanding the woman ... without asking her to come on the stage and act in front of the others ... should be much wiser.
But my friend ... was in love with the muse ... and had an obsession for her.
He was in fact exploring his obsession ... not the world.
Too bad ... he did not understood yet that we live in such a beautiful infinite Universe.
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Moments today
Memories tomorrow
Years ago a young guy was very deep in love with a very beautiful girl.
He used to say her all the time beautiful words, about how much he loves her.
She was laughing of him saying ... “One day, after many years from now, we will meet on streets and you will not even remember my name ... and now you say me that you love me one million times a day”.
He never agreed with her, cause he was honestly loving her and could not believe such a scenario.
But as things happen in life, later on, their love story came to an end and they just forgot one of another.
And one day, many years later, they accidentally meet and guess what?!
It’s not that he could not remember her name, but he could not remember who she was.
