Before making the first step into the waiting room of the North Railroad Station … i did not felt any special vibe … and now 10 minutes later … Sofia changed with her song the vibration of everyone from there. They were filming and photographing.
Some started to applause her.
Sofia … change their vibe … with her amazing voice.
I suddenly felt a great happiness … in there.
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I was looking at the volunteers … and i saw them satisfied of all what they were doing for the ukrainian refugees. Sofia made them feel … heroes.
And i bet not even the president of our country could make them feel like Sofia …. succeeded with her charm and that beautiful song.
I smiled … seeing such a great way of saying … “Thank you!”
and it’s too bad we … the adults …. don’t have the same ability as this little angel.
And i know that all of us … want to feel like a hero … and maybe sometimes we really are heroes …. but there is no Sofia around to … whisper that to us.
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In doubt …
I'm in doubt as always.....
I'm in doubt .....
Do I.....
Don't I.......
Should I......
Why won't I......
Why I......
Why shouldn't I........
(Arij Emaan)
The human being has always been dominated … by contradictory thoughts and emotions.
Maybe one of the worst diseases from the history of the world … worst even as cancer … sometimes without any possible treatment is the … doubt.
And is funny, cause the Universe is playing around with us … giving us so, so many contradictory … options.
I am laughing … going back in time and seeing myself in this weird situation of not being able to decide what to do … what to choose.
Today i somehow believe that it’s better to have … no option …. or just one option, cause each time when i had 2 or more
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options … everything was too complicated.
I had to think too much.
… to meditate on and on and on.
And when i decided i was still overwhelmed by …. doubt.
Instead of being happy for the life i had, i was unhappy …. In
fact somehow ruined emotionally and mentally of all what was going on with me.
Everything was sometimes so amplified that i could not … continue the life itself.
The Universe letted me decide what to do … but i was not capable of seeing the path … the real one.
I was hearing into my head all the time … “What to do?! What to decide?! What should be the best?!”
But i did not know what to do … what to decide … and instead of being happy for having so many opportunities … my vibe was always fucked up.
And everything was like that cause i did not know how to close my eyes and connect to myself … asking to my intuition for guidance.
The undecided version of myself, was a result of the fact that i did not know anything about my soul … and how to be in total harmony with this inner self.
I did not know how to listen to all those voices … to my intuition … and keep the right balance between the inner and the outer world.
And instead of being happy and a soul dominated by joy … i was in this silly emotional balance … dominated by a non ending indecision.
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I should name it today … the negative amplifier … and all what i want is just get rid of it. Nothing more.
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Near the sea, watching the waves
we see the gateway of connecting to the Universe.
And we feel a weird joy … almost defined as a nonsense …. but the inner
feeling is … amazing
I see more and more people loving to connect to the Universe, by using the nature.
It is probably one of the easiest way of doing it.
And i see most of my friends … the ones that are already following a spiritual path in parallel with the normal life … that post all the time images from nature.
I personally knew the trick … and knew that it works so, so easy …. but i feel i still need guidance in that direction.
And all what i did…. to start connecting myself to the
Universe … was to watch all those people from the timeline of my life.
Same as them … having enough with my bad vibes …. I
wanted a change … one inside of my inner self.
I simple wanted to close my eyes and feel … happiness, but i was looking for a supreme … non ending happiness.
I mean … i had enough of having the illusory belief that happiness can come from achieving different goals or
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material goods … cause i know that it might come, but it’s so volatile …. same as a balance between happiness and
unhappiness …. cause i always ended being unsatisfied of my
life.
Yesterday …. 2 of the people i knew sent me pictures and
movies from the sea.
One … a good friend … a lady in a very good spiritual position … was looking for a great vibe again.
The other one …. Marina … a beautiful young lady, ukrainian
refugee … being in exile at the Black Sea in Albena, Bulgaria … was walking on the beach for hours and hours.
She was sad about everything happened in her country … but the calmness of the sea … made her feel great again. The sea itself … became kind of a therapy.
One lady was 44 … and the other one … 19 and i had the chance to see in the same time them acting …. but searching for the same direction.
And it was lovely to measure their vibes before and after the meeting with the … sea.
It almost looks as a … nonsense … all what i am writing … but who tried the trick … knows what i am talking about.
The impression … given by the sea … combined with the horizontal line between the sky and the water … simple opens the gateway to the … Infinite.
And we forget about the real life … which is always weird, complicated and maybe also … ugly … by seeing the beauty of connection …while admiring the the non ending dance of the waves.
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Suddenly … the vibe from the inner self … change … and the feeling is amazing.
Everything is amplified on and on and on.
And … life is beautiful again … we feel it .. and we really believe it.
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“It is not your war”
One day …. I had the chance to meet a young girl … of 12
years old, from Kiev.
After staying with her mother and grandmother for 5 weeks in a bunker she came to Bucharest.
I’ve met her in the train station and took them to an apartment we’ve prepared for all the ones that came from Ukraine and needed support from us.
The studio was in a commercial building and its destination was to host people that came in visit to the companies from there.
It was small and not so clean, even if we did our best for arranging everything well.
It maybe needed a renovation for few days but it was not the time for that.
I apologized to them that maybe is not the right place to live, but instead of what i thought might be their reaction … they said “Wow! We don’t really know how to thank you. You are so kind to us.”
They hugged me … and said me so many times thank you … that i did not really knew what to say.
I could not believe it … but then they showed me pictures from the bunker where they lived for 5 weeks.
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My small unclean studio was looking as the palace of a king comparing to the bunker.
I could not really feel their emotions, but i could read on their faces … that they were happy cause they had a place to stay just for them.
At home … because of the war …. they lost the beautiful life
from Kiev.
Now … after realizing that everything changed in their lives
as long as they don’t hear the alarms and the bombs from Ukraine … life was beautiful.
Everything was looking perfect and could even be defined as … amazing … even if i could not see things as that.
A perspective … totally different as the one of the normal people.
But … same as the others around me … i was blind, not seeing the perfectness of all the things from the timeline of my life.
Is weird …. how the war is redefining … the perspectives of the human being.
And i have a much weird question … why we need to see the war so that we change our views about life … instead of following the path of change by our own?!
Sofia was singing this beautiful song … “It is not my war”… having on the background images with the ruins made by the russian bombs … and i was keep wondering myself … on and on and on …why do we need worst case scenarios in our lives … as we to be able to see the world with different eyes?!
… and maybe it is “our war” … the one with the inner self.
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The outer war … is just the help for redefining our lives … and see everything differently.
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Closing her eyes …. she was always
remembering their love story …. and that
was the anchor that allowed her to feel that great joy again and again and again
Reading few of my books about love … Anastasia, a lady of about 30 … wrote me few times … telling me her love story … but asking also an advice for getting out forever from something that was a weird cocktail of happiness and unhappiness.
And i define it as weird … cause it was a total nonsense to be happy, but also unhappy in the same time.
For a while i did not even understood the story.
The balance between contradictory emotions was ruining both of them … on and on and on. Without him … she felt unhappy.
Closing her eyes and remembering about their love … she always dreamed to be one more time into his arms.
And got back to him … again and again and again …. but
somehow they destroyed their story all the time … living a non ending weird story of loving and hating each other. No one could understand them.
And … neither do i … but i was listening to her all the time ….
loving her beautiful words, but also the way she was saying the story … which looked to be like a cocktail of fairytale
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mixed with a nightmare.
Listening more and more to her … i suddenly realized that Anastasia was using the love story as a vibe amplifier … exactly what i was studying now.
The story itself … was a great love story.
The connection … amazing.
The only problem was that they were acting as idiots …. not
really understanding that a great love story has nothing to do with … hate.
And she used the story as an anchor … as it is named in psychology …. but on the scene of life …. acting in fact as 2
idiots …. they ended each episide all the time in a … silly way.
The Universe gave them everything … the love from both sides, the connection …. the perfect circumstances … but not
knowing what love is really about … even if the story gave them a great vibe most of the times … it all became … a ruin. And instead of being a vibe amplifier … the story started to make them unhappy in the end.
So … we might know the theory about how to be happy … and can use the anchor to induce happiness … but maybe that is not really enough.
Maybe is time to know … how to act on the stage of life …. In
a beautiful way … or at least to try it.
Otherwise … we will end up in a non ending weird balance of being happy and unhappy.
And one day …. she realized that she is only an … option … or
even worse … not even an option.
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Getting old is just an
option … not a must
A good friend of mine wants to write a book together about how to … not allow ourselves to get old.
We talked a lot about it … but we not even wrote few lines on the subject.
Somehow …. maybe i am not on the same frequency with my
friend … even if we are so much alike … and we really have lots of things in common.
But recently i had to chance my id.
It’s been 10 years since i have it … and when i got the new one, allowing me to also keep the old one …. I had a shock.
Comparing the 2 pictures i realized that i look younger today … but i said to myself … no … it’s just an illusion.
Then i sent the 2 pictures to some of my friends … and they agree that somehow … i really look younger.
But everything has an explanation … cause 10 years ago, just after making the id … i stoped eating meat …. becoming vegetarian.
Today … it’s also more than one year since i don’t drink alcohol …. so probably 10 years from now …. I will look younger than i look today.
… i am laughing … while writing that.
Yes …. sounds as a nonsense what i am saying … but i am
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still not convinced to start writing that book with my friend. In my opinion … he pays too much attention to what we eat
drink etc … and even if i saw the effect of being a vegetarian … i believe the most important issue that we should have in mind when it comes to our health … is our vibe.
So … instead of listening to my dear friend, which is today 60 years old … about how important is to be actually … vegan … not just vegetarian … i would say that we should ignore all those things.
We should eat … meat … if we love doing it … but of course … not in large quantities.
We should … smoke anything we like … including weed …. If this is what we believe that is relaxing us.
We should also drink … alcohol … and maybe keep in mind just to not get drunk.
Everything i see important today is … always analyze our vibes …. define if something is destroying the pleasure of being alive … and if something wrong … just redefine everything in the next second.
It happens that i saw over the years lots of people becoming even 20 years younger.
Might look that i over react … but … no … it’s a real trick. Beautiful vibes make us always look younger … feel younger
