We somehow like that we can help them … but we dislike that this is the only way in how we can interact to them.
My tendency of writing about self therapy …. and how we can
do it by analyzing and defining our lives … put me in position of being contacted with many people.
And i don’t want to lie … but i just love when i receive messages from ladies.
Recently Emma wrote me telling me her love story.
You see … Emma is married … but having a love affair with another man.
She is very beautiful and i could say that she looks like a … diva … and i am not over reacting saying that.
Everything was fine for a while … and they lived a real love story together … which gave her great vibes all the time. She was living for that story.
She made one million plans … until one day when she understood that…. she became only an option for him.
But you see … the funny thing is that when people come to
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me they tell me only their perspectives.
To practice self therapy you must be extremely honest with yourself … when you analyze and define all the details.
I felt Emma is telling me … just part of the truth … but i was only smiling listening to her.
How the hell … such a beautiful lady be treated just as an … option?!
I thought …. It’s a total nonsense …. but more i was talking
to her … more i realized she wanted as everything to happen in a certain way, to control and actually manipulate everything … being obsessed of the fact that things should happen in a certain way.
I had to be polite with her … but i was starting to think that she was not even an option anymore for her lover.
Emma did not realized the importance … of letting everything come by itself … and was a long way to convince her that the philosophy she had … will never bring her good vibes for long term … but i was sorry for her blindness .
Who knows … maybe she will understand the message … later on … but certainly … not in the near future.
We all search for beautiful vibes … but a little bit a morality maybe helps more on getting long term results.
Till then … we remain … simple options … or not even that.
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All you need is push
the … restart button
She was mad … on him.
Could not believe that he was acting like that … but also that the history was repeated.
Another love story … defined one more time as the … “love story of my life”… ended in the same time way as the last one.
“… i cannot believe i am such an idiot.
I love this jerk … as i loved the other one also … but i don’t know what’s wrong with me … that i deserve to suffer so much.”
“I laugh hearing that …cause last time you told me exactly the same thing.
It’s like you tell me the same story on and on … but the lover is a new one … each time.
And i laugh … cause you can’t really understand what is going on.”
“But i was so happy … and then everything was fucked up. I’m destroyed … again and again and again.”
“You use exactly the same words … in fact you even said you became a ruin … but i see you younger … and even more beautiful.”
And the question is … why is the Universe allowing … as
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those scenarios to be repeated?!
I mean … why the hell we get the most amazing vibes a human being can experience … and then everything ends is such a silly way .. remaining unhappy for a long, long time after we brake up?!
What is the meaning of all that?!
Why something we define … as amazing … one day is metamorphosing us into … such an ugly emotional state?! Why the history is repeated?!
Why can’t we see the message behind the message?!
Is the price of great vibes … paid with unhappiness all the time?!
What is the Universe trying to whisper us … sending us in such stories?!
Well … i try to control myself … while speaking with Vanessa
cause she is really a dear friend of mine … “Hey! I just wanted to make you smile … laughing of you.
You know i always care about you … and you also know that no matter what you will hear from anyone from this world … the only real thing you can do now is press your emotional restart button …. and continue your life.
You are young … and you have the whole life in front of you … so just smile …. and allow the Universe to introduce yourself into other stories that you must experience.
It looks like the end of the world … one more time … but if you force yourself a little bit … that restart button will allow other beautiful vibes to come to your soul.”
“Hmmm … you always try to be motivational … but i simple can’t stand anymore those ugly vibes from the present
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moment.
I need a magic trick to remove them.” “Well … push the restart button.”
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She was looking like the … perfect woman. But still … something was … missing. Yes … damn it … it was the connection. I knew it.
Paul sent me a movie with what i would certainly define … as the perfect lady.
The movies was only of few seconds and i watched it on and on and on.
I loved … watching her.
It was like … i was tasting from her greatness …. and i
adored to do it.
Then … an inner message came to me.
It was whispering … “It’s all an illusion. She is not perfect … even if she looks as that.”
I could not understand the meaning of this nonsense message.
She was looking as … a diva.
How could someone say … she is not perfect … when i felt such a great joy … just by admiring her.
Then i closed my eyes and asked me again … what is really missing … and i don’t really understand?!
Why i feel the presence of what we name … illusion?!
Well … i kept my eyes closed … and she appeared again and again in front of my eyes … but i was still searching for that
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weird answer.
After a while … i almost lost my hope that the answer will come … but a voice whispered me again … “What is missing is the connection. You need to connect for real with her … and she needs a real connection also to have that great vibe she is searching by such a long time.”
I was practicing … the non action … and i had to wake up and be more realistic.
I had to touch with my hands … that diva …. not just admire
her.
It was useless to act like that and most certainly i will never feel alive if i am not doing it.
But the other side of myself … told me … “Hahaha! You want to touch … the illusion!”
I did not realized the sense of that remark… so i closed my eyes again and asked for the courage… to meet her in person and connect to her self, to her body … to her everything. And i believe it’s a chance that i might do it ….cause i really
have a unbelievable hungriness for … feeling alive … at least … one time during this life time.
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Truth be told … the Universe is knocking on the door on and on and on …. but being in a state of deafness … we never hear that
Mark had been obsessed about the law of attraction.
He read lots of books and watched hundreds of motivational movies about the subject.
But all this search for mastering the law of attraction … had only one real purpose … and that was finding a path for feeling … alive and happy.
And Mark was searching … for years.
But guess what?!
Obsessed of why the Universe is not manifesting our desires right away … one day he realized the meaning of that delay it was … a required time for … meditation. We actually ask and ask … and ask again.
But do we really want … that desire to become real?! Realizing that he does not understand something he takes a vacation to India and makes the arrangements so that he can stay with a spiritual guru for a while.
In fact …. Mark understood the law of attraction, but not its
meaning for the human souls.
He tells his life to the guru and the guy teaches him to practice the art of detachment.
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Ask … believe … receive … was not enough.
Detachment was a detail that Mark forgot about …. but it’s
ok, cause he was young anyway and he had the whole life in front of his eyes.
But what was funny and i forgot to tell you is that Mark was involved in an unhappy marriage … and his concept about happiness was a princess from a fairy tale that will come and hypnotize him with her charm … saying to him … “I really want you Mark! Our connection will reveal you the gateway to Infinity.
I know to make you happy.
Come into my world.
I want you … Mark!”
But you know … sometimes the Universe is laughing behind our back … giving us exactly what we’ve asked. And one lady appeared in Mark’s life.
And another one.
and one more … but … Mark proved to not be ready. Rejected the offers … coming up with so many childishly excuses.
Not believing what is going on, feeling that all is kind of a conspiracy … Mark goes again at his guru from India.
Guru smiles … “Well … my dear friend! America is the land of desires … but also the one of opportunities.
You asked to be happy.
You defined happiness …. in your way. But … when it happened … you did what?!
You came back at home .. at your wife that you say so often that makes you feel miserable all the time.
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You ignored that the Universe is knocking on your door and you don’t allow those doors to be opened. Why?!
Maybe living in that luxurious home, having a wife that is more a slave than a wife ….and in fact living like in a 5 stars
hotel …. Is probably more important for you.
You just pretended you were looking for happiness.
You confort zone … your home … is all you need.
Searching all those years … was just illusory.”
Mark was mad …. listening to the guru.
Maybe … he was right … who the hell knows.
Feeling his reality invaded by all those ladies … he realized that he needs to redefine his concepts about happiness … so that next time when the Universe is knocking on the door saying … “Here is your desire, sir! Enjoy it!” …. he might be able to embrace those gifts from his illusory dreams.
but who knows what Mark we do. And most probably … we all act as him.
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A great vibe … is all you need in life.
And it all comes from your attitude.
So … what is the meaning of life?!
How should we spend it?!
What values … we should follow?!
What path … is the best one?!
Why do we let ourselves overwhelmed by the negative side of life … and we just can’t always remain on a great vibe?! What is the secret of a non ending happiness?!
Is it really possible… as no matter what … we could be always happy?!
Is it possible to avoid unhappiness?!
Why we are not taught from an early age … the art of being happy?!
A great vibe … is it a decision … or something that comes from a parallel Universe … and can’t be controlled by us?!
So many questions … but i can’t see the real answer.
Maybe i should simple change my attitude.
Pretend i am ok … and … that i have a good vibe .. and why not a great one.
Well … my sunglasses will help me pretend better.
My attitude will look fabulous … and why not the vibe itself … will be the one i dream about by such a long time.
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It’s time to try that … at least as an experiment.
… and truth be told, i have no other choice.
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Sometimes the perfect place
is helping a lot to induce the perfect connection
Have you ever wondered why people pay huge amounts of money to specific destinations from the world?!
I mean … not everybody is rich … but everybody goes today in amazing vacations all over the world. And no one goes … alone.
Many go as couples and they try to re discover the love story they used to have.
In the beginning … it was perfect … anywhere.
Even walking on the streets … in a village that no one heard about and never will … was amazing.
Now each time they want to feel that great vibe again … they need to come with a fabulous destination …. to induce those feelings again.
But why?!
Why we need to induce the vibe?!
Why can’t it be like in the beginning?!
Well … who the hell knows.
All we know today is that a beautiful place … and always a different place … helps a lot.
Drinking the coffee, while eating the breakfast …. watching
the ocean from the top of the mountain … looking again into
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her eyes …. makes you feel amazing.
You feel that great vibe again … and the connection itself. You are in the perfect place, with the perfect partner … and … life is beautiful again.
At least … for a short moment.
The trick with the vacation … works … but the question is what was the trick in the beginning that you could feel with that person amazing …. absolutely everywhere you was in her presence?!
Why can’t it be like the first time when you met her?! Damn it … the beauty of the energy of that beginning … is not present anymore.
And it all can be recreated … just in special conditions … But who cares … if it works … let’s continue using this trick.
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Give me a penny …. and i will
give back … a great vibe
I was in a beautiful park.
The place has at least 200 years and most probably it was long time ago … maybe a forest.
And still the vibe of the park … is weird.
I walk and i feel excellent …. then few more steps away …
the energy is not good anymore.
Usually … you can feel the energy of such a place from the early beginning … but here is totally different.
It’s a mix of energies and i was keep wondering myself … why?!
Later on, seeing so many people around i understood that the place became a mix of energies of nature … with the ones of humans.
