believe …. Tim concluded …. “Yes! I an flying somewhere …
but it’s into that world of fantasies … related so much with the connection with her.
I am actually …. getting rid of all my thoughts …. like i am
simple resetting my mind.
I connect to the vibes … of love.
And i jump from being a non stop thinker to … stop being connected to any type of thoughts.
I fly into an universe of feelings and emotions … that have nothing to do with … my mind.
I actually let myself be dominated and guided by my soul …
not by my brain.
I stop thinking.
I stop being anchored into this desire of … finding the meaning of life … with all those thoughts i had in my mind. My heart is guiding me to some paths … i’ve never seen before.
But only and only … when she comes to me … hugs me … kiss me … and resets this stupid habit if thinking and thinking again.”
I was listening to Tim and i was smiling …
Like always when i am realizing that spending so much time … being a thinker …. It’s maybe useless.
I could simple decide … same as my friend to let myself guided to the beautiful paths … that my soul are telling me about.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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But you see … i was not so lucky to have a love teacher … to whisper me about that.
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Lonely … living in the world of fantasies … maybe a much better scenario than living into … the real world.
But not everybody … understands that.
I was analyzing her by … a long, long time.
And to tell you the truth … i liked her.
But … she was on Brian’s list of … future seductions.
He wanted to … “attack” her …. by almost a year … but he
could not find a way of … connecting to her.
Yes … she was so … wild … and no trick worked finding the path to … her soul.
Not wanting to offend my dear friend … i’ve decided just to admire her … in secret.
And everyday … i was looking to meet her … at least one more time …
I’ve analyzed her soul from 100 perspectives …. and ended
up laughing of the desire of my friend … of having her.
Masha loved … being alone.
She actually lived in a world of fantasies … into an ideal world
where everything was … perfect … somehow in total contradiction with the real life.
She …. enjoyed staying there.
But remembering about Brian … and his desire of having a love story with Masha … i’ve realized the mistakes we do …. so, so often.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
71
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You see … we always want what we cannot have … and maybe this desire that i was seeing at my friend, by such a long time … was a reflection of the fact …. that us … the men
are so idiots … and don’t really know to connect to what a woman … really is … deep inside her soul.
I was actually analyzing into the same time Masha … but also Brian … trying in fact to understand the meaning of the connection between a man and a woman … and the mistakes we do … while trying to discover this way of connecting to the soul of the person we like.
I was 100% that Brian did not cared of that inner world …. that Masha was dreaming about all the time.
He just … wanting her … and nothing more.
And i wonder if all men are so, so idiots … like my friend … Maybe i’ve done the same mistake over the years.
I was looking many times … just at the body of a woman … not really caring about … her soul … and that inner world … fulfilled with fantasies.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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You need to understand the values of the
loved person so that you could really remain connected with that person
One of the greatest idiot i’ve ever met is my friend Tim … which i know by a long, long time.
I discussed with him over the years a lot about the illusion of life …the life itself … but also what it really means the illusion of the self.
But same as all the other thinkers i know … when it came about his own life … Tim was blind.
On the stage of the real life he forgot about … all his philosophical concepts.
But one day … recently … we’ve accidentally met and i see him … so, so disappointed.
I look at him and say … “Listen … i never saw you like that! …. and i know you by a long, long time.
But as you remember all we’ve discussed so many times … all we see in this life … it’s just an illusion.” Tim was too … serious.
but replied … “Listen! You remember about that lady i told you about.
I really can say …. that i love her.
She was married … and by 2 months … she finally divorced of her husband … telling me that she wants to be with me for a life time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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But you see … after defining her ex husband in front of me …
in lots of negative terms …and i believed all her words like an
idiot … today i saw her extremely happy cause the guy gave
her an expensive perfume …
I could not believe him.
That Devil … made her happy …. just buying a present of 100
dollars … and i can’t believe i got involved so, so deep with such a person …. that is forgetting so, so easy some important details … for an expensive gift.”
I was looking at my friend … at his disappointment … and could not believe it.
The same person that knew so much about the illusion of the self … was in fact blind when it came about his own life.
He decided to enter into a love story … that he believed was real … with a partner that had very poor values. But maybe the Universe was laughing of Tim.
Of his philosophical concepts … that were so, so illusory … when it came to the real life.
It was all … just theory … and nothing more.
I could say to Tim one million things, but he could not listen to me.
And it was indeed ridiculous as a philosopher to be so, so blind …. In front of the illusion.
Today … the illusion itself …. was the disappointment of my
friend.
Not the love story … but his disappointment.
I was laughing of him … but i also knew that i would probably act into the same way on the scene of the real life.
But … the Universe … to really help us understand the concept of the illusion of the self …. not only of the illusion of
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life … gives us such circumstances.
And beyond the disappointment…. we realize the illusion in
so, so many forms.
Indeed …. it’s so easy for me to talk about Tim … which was
so sad …. and i really don’t blame him for that … but …
maybe the illusion itself started just from the fact that we pretend we can’t see the real truth.
Tim stayed with that lady a long time … and made a huge mistake cause he had accepted to enter into a love story with a person having poor values … just because he dreamed of an amazing story …
I smiled to my friend.
Maybe at the right time he will understand the connection with theory … all those philosophical concepts we talked so much … and … the real life … whatever that means.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
75
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Dare to act crazy.
It gives a lots of value to … the story.
One of the biggest problem in life is that we don’t allow ourselves to act as free persons.
We keep in mind all the time that we should act into a certain way … but ….
Well … time is passing and …
We don’t really live our lives.
… we just exist … and nothing more.
Weeks, months, years are gone … and the way we act remains the same.
on and on and on .. absolutely no change.
we just don’t see anything special in our lives.
Until one day … when we dare to do something … crazy.
And we … just love it.
… we feel so, so alive.
We even dare to think … we should do it one more time.
Yes … we think … we should do it … but ….
Well … maybe that moment of daring to act crazy … was just an accident.
And life continues … being boring … having absolutely … nothing special.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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To be something really special … needs to be about unconditional love. Otherwise … it’s just a simple connection … and nothing more
Every time we start a new relationship … we believe in its importance.
and also in its uniqueness. We believe in a new beginning. We believe … it will be different. Unfortunately… it’s all like smoking a cigarette.
We enjoy the pleasure of doing that … but it’s just a new cigarette all the time … and nothing more.
I wondered many times why we fail so easy into our relationships … and i just can’t get it.
Looks impossible to understand why we act like enjoying a cigarette …. and then a new one … and a new one.
Why we can’t stop … being just in one connection … enjoy that … and make it be special?!
…. and maybe eternal?! What we do wrong?!
Why even if we know a lot about relationships … and we follow all the rules … the tricks and the advices from specialists into the subject … why can’t we do it work … into a great way?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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We say … “I love you!” … but it’s more an arrangement … a detail that needs to be said … and nothing more.
All those love advices … do that and that and that … become … useless.
We had the thinking from a business … follow certain rules … invest time and energy … and then the benefits will appear. But … it was not like that.
That greatness we expected …. was not present there ….
We can’t really know what to think anymore.
Why the hell …. ?!
But yes …. analyzing my case … i finally understand that 1+1
is not equal 2.
No …. no … no …
I have to learn to offer … without expecting anything back in return.
A love story …. to become special …. needs to be about
unconditional love …
Like the love … for a kid.
Needs to have that purity.
Otherwise … it’s just a connection …. and nothing more.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Angel and Devil … 2 totally different masks which we carry randomly. But it’s so difficult to understand … the
decision of why we act like that …. and also
this balancing behavior which we have … on and on and on.
I have many moments in life when i act in a way in which … i prove to be … out of my statistics.
And there are indeed moments when i’m a real good person … but also moments when i act as a … real bad boy.
But what it’s really funny is that i can’t control this balance between being an angel … or a devil.
I also … can’t understand why i take the decision of being in a certain way.
I try to understand myself … but i fail … I find no … logical explanation.
I also analyze the way i’ve acted into the past in all the relationships i had … and still … i can’t understand myself. I try to analyze the people i see around myself and the dynamic of my relationships …. but still … no idea is revealed to me.
I act … as an angel.
…. then as a devil.
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I kept balancing like that … having this stupid behavior … for years.
A total nonsense … but …
The question is repeated into my mind.
And i keep wondering myself … why i can’t control the decision of carrying …. just a certain mask … maybe the positive one.
Well … probably being a devil … is just a reaction to the ugly energies i feel.
a normal reaction ….so that the partner should understand
a change needs to be done.
And then … when all gets back to normal .. i can become normal again … and why not … even an angel.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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When you feel you had enough
… whatever that means … just leave
There’re many moments when we are in relationships and feel that we simple can’t continue anymore.
All looks fine … but there is something … which we cannot even define … that is making us run away from the partner. It’s the moment when we say … “You are an amazing person
and i really appreciate all what we had together … but i just can’t continue anymore … “
It all look as a nonsense …
Anyone around is amazed … cause all looked ok, but ….. Yes … no one can understand the decision of stoping a relationship … that looks ok … and not even the person doing that … but …
It’s all so, so … illogical.
Well …. maybe beyond the scene … there is a dance of energies … which we once liked … but not anymore. In fact … we dislike it …. all.
The same things we liked …. now we dislike.
And we dislike them a lot … but it’s so damn weird that … we can’t really define what is going on.
We can only say … it’s enough … and we want to simple run away.
Feeling we have this fundamental right … we actually … start to act like ghosts.
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We appear and disappear.
cause we don’t really understand the energies beyond the scene.
We are blinds.
We don’t understand that even if we try it … our energies … can’t be synchronized anymore.
But the moment of realizing it … comes …. hided so well in this ugly feeling of … having enough.
And there is nothing to do … to remove that feeling …. but simple leave.
We balance between leaving and coming back … until … all is fucked up … and we have to admit that energies can’t be synchronized anymore.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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The prelude is an art … and has so, so many weird forms of representation
Truth be told … people simple don’t know to enjoy life.
We had been programmed to do things in a dogmatic way … and nobody bothered to tell us that … one of the most important things we have to do while we are into this world … is to enjoy it.
Or maybe we knew to enjoy life …. when we were kids …. but
then we totally forgot.
Today … most probably … only this episode from life …. called
sex …. making love etc etc …. might be the only trick people
but it’s into that world of fantasies … related so much with the connection with her.
I am actually …. getting rid of all my thoughts …. like i am
simple resetting my mind.
I connect to the vibes … of love.
And i jump from being a non stop thinker to … stop being connected to any type of thoughts.
I fly into an universe of feelings and emotions … that have nothing to do with … my mind.
I actually let myself be dominated and guided by my soul …
not by my brain.
I stop thinking.
I stop being anchored into this desire of … finding the meaning of life … with all those thoughts i had in my mind. My heart is guiding me to some paths … i’ve never seen before.
But only and only … when she comes to me … hugs me … kiss me … and resets this stupid habit if thinking and thinking again.”
I was listening to Tim and i was smiling …
Like always when i am realizing that spending so much time … being a thinker …. It’s maybe useless.
I could simple decide … same as my friend to let myself guided to the beautiful paths … that my soul are telling me about.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
69
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But you see … i was not so lucky to have a love teacher … to whisper me about that.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
70
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Lonely … living in the world of fantasies … maybe a much better scenario than living into … the real world.
But not everybody … understands that.
I was analyzing her by … a long, long time.
And to tell you the truth … i liked her.
But … she was on Brian’s list of … future seductions.
He wanted to … “attack” her …. by almost a year … but he
could not find a way of … connecting to her.
Yes … she was so … wild … and no trick worked finding the path to … her soul.
Not wanting to offend my dear friend … i’ve decided just to admire her … in secret.
And everyday … i was looking to meet her … at least one more time …
I’ve analyzed her soul from 100 perspectives …. and ended
up laughing of the desire of my friend … of having her.
Masha loved … being alone.
She actually lived in a world of fantasies … into an ideal world
where everything was … perfect … somehow in total contradiction with the real life.
She …. enjoyed staying there.
But remembering about Brian … and his desire of having a love story with Masha … i’ve realized the mistakes we do …. so, so often.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
71
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You see … we always want what we cannot have … and maybe this desire that i was seeing at my friend, by such a long time … was a reflection of the fact …. that us … the men
are so idiots … and don’t really know to connect to what a woman … really is … deep inside her soul.
I was actually analyzing into the same time Masha … but also Brian … trying in fact to understand the meaning of the connection between a man and a woman … and the mistakes we do … while trying to discover this way of connecting to the soul of the person we like.
I was 100% that Brian did not cared of that inner world …. that Masha was dreaming about all the time.
He just … wanting her … and nothing more.
And i wonder if all men are so, so idiots … like my friend … Maybe i’ve done the same mistake over the years.
I was looking many times … just at the body of a woman … not really caring about … her soul … and that inner world … fulfilled with fantasies.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
72
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You need to understand the values of the
loved person so that you could really remain connected with that person
One of the greatest idiot i’ve ever met is my friend Tim … which i know by a long, long time.
I discussed with him over the years a lot about the illusion of life …the life itself … but also what it really means the illusion of the self.
But same as all the other thinkers i know … when it came about his own life … Tim was blind.
On the stage of the real life he forgot about … all his philosophical concepts.
But one day … recently … we’ve accidentally met and i see him … so, so disappointed.
I look at him and say … “Listen … i never saw you like that! …. and i know you by a long, long time.
But as you remember all we’ve discussed so many times … all we see in this life … it’s just an illusion.” Tim was too … serious.
but replied … “Listen! You remember about that lady i told you about.
I really can say …. that i love her.
She was married … and by 2 months … she finally divorced of her husband … telling me that she wants to be with me for a life time.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
73
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But you see … after defining her ex husband in front of me …
in lots of negative terms …and i believed all her words like an
idiot … today i saw her extremely happy cause the guy gave
her an expensive perfume …
I could not believe him.
That Devil … made her happy …. just buying a present of 100
dollars … and i can’t believe i got involved so, so deep with such a person …. that is forgetting so, so easy some important details … for an expensive gift.”
I was looking at my friend … at his disappointment … and could not believe it.
The same person that knew so much about the illusion of the self … was in fact blind when it came about his own life.
He decided to enter into a love story … that he believed was real … with a partner that had very poor values. But maybe the Universe was laughing of Tim.
Of his philosophical concepts … that were so, so illusory … when it came to the real life.
It was all … just theory … and nothing more.
I could say to Tim one million things, but he could not listen to me.
And it was indeed ridiculous as a philosopher to be so, so blind …. In front of the illusion.
Today … the illusion itself …. was the disappointment of my
friend.
Not the love story … but his disappointment.
I was laughing of him … but i also knew that i would probably act into the same way on the scene of the real life.
But … the Universe … to really help us understand the concept of the illusion of the self …. not only of the illusion of
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
74
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... essays
life … gives us such circumstances.
And beyond the disappointment…. we realize the illusion in
so, so many forms.
Indeed …. it’s so easy for me to talk about Tim … which was
so sad …. and i really don’t blame him for that … but …
maybe the illusion itself started just from the fact that we pretend we can’t see the real truth.
Tim stayed with that lady a long time … and made a huge mistake cause he had accepted to enter into a love story with a person having poor values … just because he dreamed of an amazing story …
I smiled to my friend.
Maybe at the right time he will understand the connection with theory … all those philosophical concepts we talked so much … and … the real life … whatever that means.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
75
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... essays
Dare to act crazy.
It gives a lots of value to … the story.
One of the biggest problem in life is that we don’t allow ourselves to act as free persons.
We keep in mind all the time that we should act into a certain way … but ….
Well … time is passing and …
We don’t really live our lives.
… we just exist … and nothing more.
Weeks, months, years are gone … and the way we act remains the same.
on and on and on .. absolutely no change.
we just don’t see anything special in our lives.
Until one day … when we dare to do something … crazy.
And we … just love it.
… we feel so, so alive.
We even dare to think … we should do it one more time.
Yes … we think … we should do it … but ….
Well … maybe that moment of daring to act crazy … was just an accident.
And life continues … being boring … having absolutely … nothing special.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
76
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To be something really special … needs to be about unconditional love. Otherwise … it’s just a simple connection … and nothing more
Every time we start a new relationship … we believe in its importance.
and also in its uniqueness. We believe in a new beginning. We believe … it will be different. Unfortunately… it’s all like smoking a cigarette.
We enjoy the pleasure of doing that … but it’s just a new cigarette all the time … and nothing more.
I wondered many times why we fail so easy into our relationships … and i just can’t get it.
Looks impossible to understand why we act like enjoying a cigarette …. and then a new one … and a new one.
Why we can’t stop … being just in one connection … enjoy that … and make it be special?!
…. and maybe eternal?! What we do wrong?!
Why even if we know a lot about relationships … and we follow all the rules … the tricks and the advices from specialists into the subject … why can’t we do it work … into a great way?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
77
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We say … “I love you!” … but it’s more an arrangement … a detail that needs to be said … and nothing more.
All those love advices … do that and that and that … become … useless.
We had the thinking from a business … follow certain rules … invest time and energy … and then the benefits will appear. But … it was not like that.
That greatness we expected …. was not present there ….
We can’t really know what to think anymore.
Why the hell …. ?!
But yes …. analyzing my case … i finally understand that 1+1
is not equal 2.
No …. no … no …
I have to learn to offer … without expecting anything back in return.
A love story …. to become special …. needs to be about
unconditional love …
Like the love … for a kid.
Needs to have that purity.
Otherwise … it’s just a connection …. and nothing more.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
78
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... essays
Angel and Devil … 2 totally different masks which we carry randomly. But it’s so difficult to understand … the
decision of why we act like that …. and also
this balancing behavior which we have … on and on and on.
I have many moments in life when i act in a way in which … i prove to be … out of my statistics.
And there are indeed moments when i’m a real good person … but also moments when i act as a … real bad boy.
But what it’s really funny is that i can’t control this balance between being an angel … or a devil.
I also … can’t understand why i take the decision of being in a certain way.
I try to understand myself … but i fail … I find no … logical explanation.
I also analyze the way i’ve acted into the past in all the relationships i had … and still … i can’t understand myself. I try to analyze the people i see around myself and the dynamic of my relationships …. but still … no idea is revealed to me.
I act … as an angel.
…. then as a devil.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
79
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I kept balancing like that … having this stupid behavior … for years.
A total nonsense … but …
The question is repeated into my mind.
And i keep wondering myself … why i can’t control the decision of carrying …. just a certain mask … maybe the positive one.
Well … probably being a devil … is just a reaction to the ugly energies i feel.
a normal reaction ….so that the partner should understand
a change needs to be done.
And then … when all gets back to normal .. i can become normal again … and why not … even an angel.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
80
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When you feel you had enough
… whatever that means … just leave
There’re many moments when we are in relationships and feel that we simple can’t continue anymore.
All looks fine … but there is something … which we cannot even define … that is making us run away from the partner. It’s the moment when we say … “You are an amazing person
and i really appreciate all what we had together … but i just can’t continue anymore … “
It all look as a nonsense …
Anyone around is amazed … cause all looked ok, but ….. Yes … no one can understand the decision of stoping a relationship … that looks ok … and not even the person doing that … but …
It’s all so, so … illogical.
Well …. maybe beyond the scene … there is a dance of energies … which we once liked … but not anymore. In fact … we dislike it …. all.
The same things we liked …. now we dislike.
And we dislike them a lot … but it’s so damn weird that … we can’t really define what is going on.
We can only say … it’s enough … and we want to simple run away.
Feeling we have this fundamental right … we actually … start to act like ghosts.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
81
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We appear and disappear.
cause we don’t really understand the energies beyond the scene.
We are blinds.
We don’t understand that even if we try it … our energies … can’t be synchronized anymore.
But the moment of realizing it … comes …. hided so well in this ugly feeling of … having enough.
And there is nothing to do … to remove that feeling …. but simple leave.
We balance between leaving and coming back … until … all is fucked up … and we have to admit that energies can’t be synchronized anymore.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
82
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The prelude is an art … and has so, so many weird forms of representation
Truth be told … people simple don’t know to enjoy life.
We had been programmed to do things in a dogmatic way … and nobody bothered to tell us that … one of the most important things we have to do while we are into this world … is to enjoy it.
Or maybe we knew to enjoy life …. when we were kids …. but
then we totally forgot.
Today … most probably … only this episode from life …. called
sex …. making love etc etc …. might be the only trick people
