THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION
philosophical essays
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF AN ILLUSION
philosophical essays
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION philosophical essays
ADRIAN GABRIEL DUMITRU
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF AN ILLUSION
philosophical essays
Year: 2022
Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION
philosophical essays
To all the ones that
influenced me to follow so many … illusory paths
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION
philosophical essays
In front of the illusion … you can only smile or even laugh.
everything else is … useless. Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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philosophical essays
INTRODUCTION
Identifying this e illusion is not enough.
But smiling is sometimes the only … option.
You see … when we connect to people, we also connect to their inner worlds.
And we see so, so many ideas, emotions, perceptions … such a large spectrum … that we don’t really understand most of the times.
Sometimes … we ignore them.
Sometimes .. we connect to those universes .. believing they are real and we somehow become part of them.
No one ever told us … that we don’t have to believe that something is … real.
We could simple look at the image from the front of our eyes
just as we look at a beautiful painting, asking ourselves what is the meaning that the artist had in mind when created that scene?!
And now the question is …. who is the artist behind the illusion?!
What is the meaning of the illusion?!
How do we recognize this illusion if it said that all we see it’s an illusion?!
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How can we get out of such stories, repeated on and on and on?!
Is there any theory that we should know regarding the illusions?!
What do we understand seeing and connecting to the human
being spectrum?!
Well … i simple smile.
I used to analyze and define a lot my life and everything that happened around myself, until the day when i realized i am a prisoner …
But it was all so weird … cause i was the prisoner, the guardian of the prison, but also the prison itself. I was all … so how could i get rid of that?!
And all the time i was remembering … that it’s all and illusion.
That is the moment when i had the power to smile again … but being so silly, it all took such a long time to realize it. I was spending my life in a prison with invisible walls, jumping from my illusions to other’s people illusory worlds. I was simple replacing an illusion with another illusion … believing i escaped from the illusion.
And still …
I was having a weird feeling … that i was living the illusion of
being part of an illusion.
Each time a new story.
And a new one.
… and another one.
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I felt my vision blured for all things …
(Arij Emaan)
We hear lots of perceptions.
And then another ones.
But … such contradictory ideas.
so many ideas, emotions, believes … and we treat them as real.
We analyze them.
We start to believe we are so smart … that we define everything.
All becomes … multiplied.
Suddenly we realized we are surrounded by millions of … perceptions.
But it’s even … worst.
We believe they are our own perceptions and we can’t realize it’s all so illusory.
Our vision about life was blurred by everything … by all that means this Universe.
The influence was … huge. We somehow … got lost.
But we got lost of the inner self … and the outer world became so, so … dominant.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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The funny thing is that
… she was an amazing … illusion
I was on the street … walking and enjoying the evening … and suddenly i see a beautiful lady coming and dancing on arabic music to the clients from the coffee shop.
All the people around … watched, but also admired her.
I could even say … that they were hypnotized by her dance, but also of her beauty.
Somehow the music started and she appeared from … nowhere … but i loved looking at her … while dancing. It all induced me a weird … feeling, but it was … nice. She was so illusory and still …. so beautiful. Hahaha! So … so funny.
Everyone enjoyed her dance … including myself … but it was all just … an illusion.
And we loved … the show.
Then i start to ask myself … what if i would love any illusion from the timeline of my life?!
Should not be … so difficult … and i could try it.
I filmed her … then later on … at home i’ve watched the movie on and on and on.
Yes …. I loved her … dancing.
And i also had to admit that i loved the beautiful illusions …
I loved being in the illusion induced by this amazing dancer … and i did not mind anything at all.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Apart from being a part of a family and profession, you're an individual too and it very much makes you entitled to hold an opinion, have a certain lifestyle and do what you want as a person. There's no harm in owning your individuality.
(Arij Emaan)
Yes … it’s true.
I usually don’t agree the others so easily, but i always say … yes … to my dear Arij.
And even if we have different ages, live thousands of miles away one from another … we always enjoy … having this philosophical dance together.
I love her individuality … and most probably she likes mine too.
One day … i looked at the clouds and realized that i will never find 2 of them having exactly the same shape.
Then i looked at Arij … and even if we think the same in many of our perceptions about life … still …. we are different. But as i said … i love her individuality.
Yes … we are defined by our thoughts, ideas, perceptions ….
our way of acting on the stage of life etc.
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Our uniquenesses create so many universes in this world … that the philosophers are trying to understand by thousands of years.
It all appears … as a spectrum.
Each individual carries inside a whole universe … and i smile looking around and seeing that i live in so many … worlds. Cause … each person i meet … each connection induces me the illusion of a reality defined in one million ways … making me believe … it’s real.
But … there’s no harm in owning your individuality … so we should have a certain type of respect for every connection. You see … a world … or maybe i could say a certain reality … even if it is illusory or not … carries a message to us.
And sometimes it is so damn abstract …. that we need to
stay in that world on and on and on … till we see the message behind the message.
Those … individualities … reveal us the philosophy behind the world were we live in.
Connecting with all these people … that are so different in many cases … respecting the concept of individuality … we somehow realize it’s useless to bother reading philosophy books… cause everything is in front of our eyes.
The connection … no matter how illusory might be … or might appear … becomes the key of understanding … the life itself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Disconnecting … a nice trick for a beautiful life
I believed so many times that life is … real … not really understanding the lessons behind the illusory facts i was involved in.
And i spent my days being sad, mad … annoyed … and never being happy.
It was the same scenario repeated on and on and on …. until
one day when i realized i need to make a switch and … and being happy also.
But …. I saw no path for that.
No matter what …. unhappiness was like an eternal feeling
that was dominating me.
One day …. I was in a pack, staying in a hammock.
I was looking at the trees and admired the ski.
I somehow became … relax.
I disconnected from all my problems and forgot the fact that i was … unhappy.
But a lady near me … about 60 … staying in a hammock also
was talking on the phone with a friend of her … telling her all her problems.
Not even realizing … I unconsciously starting to compare myself with her.
I realized i was doing what she was doing all the time … except today when i felt a little bit different … cause i
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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succeeded to disconnect of everything.
Listening to what the lady was speaking on the phone … i almost started to laugh.
Being connected with the nature, feeling so calmed … i saw the illusion of living a silly life … letting ourselves overwhelmed by problems.
I am sure that the lady believed that all her problems were real …. and i was smiling behind her back … finally understanding that it’s all so, so illusory.
The trick of connecting to the nature and disconnecting from everything … was an amazing one.
I just loved … this partial awakening from the park. Or maybe … i was just experiencing the illusion of recognizing the fact that i was living the illusion.
But i continued relaxing … staying in the hammock … and admiring the ski.
Whatever it was …. this whole experience … disconnecting
from everything i defined as my life …. was amazing.
I was actually forgetting for a short period of time that i was … unhappy.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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And my question was
are we looking for a certain person … or a certain experience?!
Sheila was … married.
Frank … the same.
You see … i know both of them, their families … and their full story.
No matter if it was all an illusion or not, their love story, which was in fact … a love affair … is actually a story about the fact that most of the time … even if might look that we have everything … we are still looking for something else for our lives.
The story of Sheila and Frank …. looked like a hollywoodian
love story … but so damn real.
Today … Sheila has a different perspective, feeling disappointed by Frank by so, so many times. And Frank … well …
Few days ago … went out with him at a beautiful coffee shop. I was trying … as a writer … to convince him write a book about their love story … but i was not lucky. Somehow Frank … was mad.
“I was looking for a certain profile … and she appeared from no where.
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She was whispering me the exactly words that i wanted to hear …
It was like i’ve been writing the script of the love story … and then i lived the full story … exactly how i was imagining it. But … the truth is … even if today you see me so disappointed… it was all … an amazing experience.” I was smiling listening to him.
“But … Frank …. do you miss Sheila … or that experience?!
Today … i feel you are so disappointed… that you don’t even want to hear her name … but i am sure you miss that story from your life.”
“Hmm! You see … we had an amazing love story … and we’ve fucked up everything.
Today … i see everything as an illusion and actually the disillusion … of my life.
But …. I had other experiences after Sheila … and probably
she had other experiences too … and … i could not feel anymore what i felt with her. Damn it … it was so, so beautiful!”
I felt his disappointment… but also the regret that the story … ended.
Too bad i could not invite Sheila also to a coffee and chat with her about this amazing love story.
And still …. my philosophical question was … do we look in
life for a certain person … or a certain experience?!
Or maybe the connection itself with a certain person … induces a certain unbelievable… experience.
So …. probably the best is to ask the Universe for a certain
type of … connection and then just enjoy the experiences life has to offer us.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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Immoral … illicit love story …. but so damn beautiful that
Frank could not forget it.
And i was so curious what Sheila was … thinking …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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You cannot totally lose yourself in a relationship. Exploring the connection is the reason for a beautiful relationship but you can never allow lose yourself totally … is all I'm saying
(Stacey)
One day … i’ve met Tom again.
We used to be friends in high school … then we haven’t met for years.
He was a little bit sad that day, but i’ve asked him to join me to a coffee shop.
I was glad i’ve met him again.
Somehow i’ve got back in time and remember all those beautiful days from high school.
It was great to feel those vibes again.
But Tom did not care about those memories i told him about. He was just obsessed about something … that i could not easily understand.
But … talking and talking …. he started to tell me about … his
depression.
He just got out of what he defined today as the … illusion of his life.
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Almost crying he was telling me … “For so, so many years i was dreaming of her.
I dreamed about our love story … and one day it just happened … and she appeared in my life. I started to think just about her.
We had such an amazing connection, that we actually became only one soul.
We were day and night together and all … it was so damn beautiful.
But you see … somehow i lost myself.
She was dominating my mind and my being.
I was living … just to feel the connection with her …. on and
on and on.
But somehow i felt … i lost myself little by little.
I was focused only on the connection and i could not see nothing else around myself.
I was indeed … totally lost in that relationship.” I smiled listening to Tom.
I did not asked and he did not say it … but i was sure they broke up.
philosophical essays
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF AN ILLUSION
philosophical essays
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
1
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION philosophical essays
ADRIAN GABRIEL DUMITRU
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF AN ILLUSION
philosophical essays
Year: 2022
Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION
philosophical essays
To all the ones that
influenced me to follow so many … illusory paths
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
3
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION
philosophical essays
In front of the illusion … you can only smile or even laugh.
everything else is … useless. Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
4
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION
philosophical essays
INTRODUCTION
Identifying this e illusion is not enough.
But smiling is sometimes the only … option.
You see … when we connect to people, we also connect to their inner worlds.
And we see so, so many ideas, emotions, perceptions … such a large spectrum … that we don’t really understand most of the times.
Sometimes … we ignore them.
Sometimes .. we connect to those universes .. believing they are real and we somehow become part of them.
No one ever told us … that we don’t have to believe that something is … real.
We could simple look at the image from the front of our eyes
just as we look at a beautiful painting, asking ourselves what is the meaning that the artist had in mind when created that scene?!
And now the question is …. who is the artist behind the illusion?!
What is the meaning of the illusion?!
How do we recognize this illusion if it said that all we see it’s an illusion?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
5
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION
philosophical essays
How can we get out of such stories, repeated on and on and on?!
Is there any theory that we should know regarding the illusions?!
What do we understand seeing and connecting to the human
being spectrum?!
Well … i simple smile.
I used to analyze and define a lot my life and everything that happened around myself, until the day when i realized i am a prisoner …
But it was all so weird … cause i was the prisoner, the guardian of the prison, but also the prison itself. I was all … so how could i get rid of that?!
And all the time i was remembering … that it’s all and illusion.
That is the moment when i had the power to smile again … but being so silly, it all took such a long time to realize it. I was spending my life in a prison with invisible walls, jumping from my illusions to other’s people illusory worlds. I was simple replacing an illusion with another illusion … believing i escaped from the illusion.
And still …
I was having a weird feeling … that i was living the illusion of
being part of an illusion.
Each time a new story.
And a new one.
… and another one.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
6
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION
philosophical essays
I felt my vision blured for all things …
(Arij Emaan)
We hear lots of perceptions.
And then another ones.
But … such contradictory ideas.
so many ideas, emotions, believes … and we treat them as real.
We analyze them.
We start to believe we are so smart … that we define everything.
All becomes … multiplied.
Suddenly we realized we are surrounded by millions of … perceptions.
But it’s even … worst.
We believe they are our own perceptions and we can’t realize it’s all so illusory.
Our vision about life was blurred by everything … by all that means this Universe.
The influence was … huge. We somehow … got lost.
But we got lost of the inner self … and the outer world became so, so … dominant.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
7
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION
philosophical essays
The funny thing is that
… she was an amazing … illusion
I was on the street … walking and enjoying the evening … and suddenly i see a beautiful lady coming and dancing on arabic music to the clients from the coffee shop.
All the people around … watched, but also admired her.
I could even say … that they were hypnotized by her dance, but also of her beauty.
Somehow the music started and she appeared from … nowhere … but i loved looking at her … while dancing. It all induced me a weird … feeling, but it was … nice. She was so illusory and still …. so beautiful. Hahaha! So … so funny.
Everyone enjoyed her dance … including myself … but it was all just … an illusion.
And we loved … the show.
Then i start to ask myself … what if i would love any illusion from the timeline of my life?!
Should not be … so difficult … and i could try it.
I filmed her … then later on … at home i’ve watched the movie on and on and on.
Yes …. I loved her … dancing.
And i also had to admit that i loved the beautiful illusions …
I loved being in the illusion induced by this amazing dancer … and i did not mind anything at all.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
8
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION
philosophical essays
Apart from being a part of a family and profession, you're an individual too and it very much makes you entitled to hold an opinion, have a certain lifestyle and do what you want as a person. There's no harm in owning your individuality.
(Arij Emaan)
Yes … it’s true.
I usually don’t agree the others so easily, but i always say … yes … to my dear Arij.
And even if we have different ages, live thousands of miles away one from another … we always enjoy … having this philosophical dance together.
I love her individuality … and most probably she likes mine too.
One day … i looked at the clouds and realized that i will never find 2 of them having exactly the same shape.
Then i looked at Arij … and even if we think the same in many of our perceptions about life … still …. we are different. But as i said … i love her individuality.
Yes … we are defined by our thoughts, ideas, perceptions ….
our way of acting on the stage of life etc.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
9
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION philosophical essays
Our uniquenesses create so many universes in this world … that the philosophers are trying to understand by thousands of years.
It all appears … as a spectrum.
Each individual carries inside a whole universe … and i smile looking around and seeing that i live in so many … worlds. Cause … each person i meet … each connection induces me the illusion of a reality defined in one million ways … making me believe … it’s real.
But … there’s no harm in owning your individuality … so we should have a certain type of respect for every connection. You see … a world … or maybe i could say a certain reality … even if it is illusory or not … carries a message to us.
And sometimes it is so damn abstract …. that we need to
stay in that world on and on and on … till we see the message behind the message.
Those … individualities … reveal us the philosophy behind the world were we live in.
Connecting with all these people … that are so different in many cases … respecting the concept of individuality … we somehow realize it’s useless to bother reading philosophy books… cause everything is in front of our eyes.
The connection … no matter how illusory might be … or might appear … becomes the key of understanding … the life itself.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
10
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION
philosophical essays
Disconnecting … a nice trick for a beautiful life
I believed so many times that life is … real … not really understanding the lessons behind the illusory facts i was involved in.
And i spent my days being sad, mad … annoyed … and never being happy.
It was the same scenario repeated on and on and on …. until
one day when i realized i need to make a switch and … and being happy also.
But …. I saw no path for that.
No matter what …. unhappiness was like an eternal feeling
that was dominating me.
One day …. I was in a pack, staying in a hammock.
I was looking at the trees and admired the ski.
I somehow became … relax.
I disconnected from all my problems and forgot the fact that i was … unhappy.
But a lady near me … about 60 … staying in a hammock also
was talking on the phone with a friend of her … telling her all her problems.
Not even realizing … I unconsciously starting to compare myself with her.
I realized i was doing what she was doing all the time … except today when i felt a little bit different … cause i
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
11
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION philosophical essays
succeeded to disconnect of everything.
Listening to what the lady was speaking on the phone … i almost started to laugh.
Being connected with the nature, feeling so calmed … i saw the illusion of living a silly life … letting ourselves overwhelmed by problems.
I am sure that the lady believed that all her problems were real …. and i was smiling behind her back … finally understanding that it’s all so, so illusory.
The trick of connecting to the nature and disconnecting from everything … was an amazing one.
I just loved … this partial awakening from the park. Or maybe … i was just experiencing the illusion of recognizing the fact that i was living the illusion.
But i continued relaxing … staying in the hammock … and admiring the ski.
Whatever it was …. this whole experience … disconnecting
from everything i defined as my life …. was amazing.
I was actually forgetting for a short period of time that i was … unhappy.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
12
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philosophical essays
And my question was
are we looking for a certain person … or a certain experience?!
Sheila was … married.
Frank … the same.
You see … i know both of them, their families … and their full story.
No matter if it was all an illusion or not, their love story, which was in fact … a love affair … is actually a story about the fact that most of the time … even if might look that we have everything … we are still looking for something else for our lives.
The story of Sheila and Frank …. looked like a hollywoodian
love story … but so damn real.
Today … Sheila has a different perspective, feeling disappointed by Frank by so, so many times. And Frank … well …
Few days ago … went out with him at a beautiful coffee shop. I was trying … as a writer … to convince him write a book about their love story … but i was not lucky. Somehow Frank … was mad.
“I was looking for a certain profile … and she appeared from no where.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
13
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION philosophical essays
She was whispering me the exactly words that i wanted to hear …
It was like i’ve been writing the script of the love story … and then i lived the full story … exactly how i was imagining it. But … the truth is … even if today you see me so disappointed… it was all … an amazing experience.” I was smiling listening to him.
“But … Frank …. do you miss Sheila … or that experience?!
Today … i feel you are so disappointed… that you don’t even want to hear her name … but i am sure you miss that story from your life.”
“Hmm! You see … we had an amazing love story … and we’ve fucked up everything.
Today … i see everything as an illusion and actually the disillusion … of my life.
But …. I had other experiences after Sheila … and probably
she had other experiences too … and … i could not feel anymore what i felt with her. Damn it … it was so, so beautiful!”
I felt his disappointment… but also the regret that the story … ended.
Too bad i could not invite Sheila also to a coffee and chat with her about this amazing love story.
And still …. my philosophical question was … do we look in
life for a certain person … or a certain experience?!
Or maybe the connection itself with a certain person … induces a certain unbelievable… experience.
So …. probably the best is to ask the Universe for a certain
type of … connection and then just enjoy the experiences life has to offer us.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
14
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Immoral … illicit love story …. but so damn beautiful that
Frank could not forget it.
And i was so curious what Sheila was … thinking …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
15
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION
philosophical essays
You cannot totally lose yourself in a relationship. Exploring the connection is the reason for a beautiful relationship but you can never allow lose yourself totally … is all I'm saying
(Stacey)
One day … i’ve met Tom again.
We used to be friends in high school … then we haven’t met for years.
He was a little bit sad that day, but i’ve asked him to join me to a coffee shop.
I was glad i’ve met him again.
Somehow i’ve got back in time and remember all those beautiful days from high school.
It was great to feel those vibes again.
But Tom did not care about those memories i told him about. He was just obsessed about something … that i could not easily understand.
But … talking and talking …. he started to tell me about … his
depression.
He just got out of what he defined today as the … illusion of his life.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
16
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF THE ILLUSION philosophical essays
Almost crying he was telling me … “For so, so many years i was dreaming of her.
I dreamed about our love story … and one day it just happened … and she appeared in my life. I started to think just about her.
We had such an amazing connection, that we actually became only one soul.
We were day and night together and all … it was so damn beautiful.
But you see … somehow i lost myself.
She was dominating my mind and my being.
I was living … just to feel the connection with her …. on and
on and on.
But somehow i felt … i lost myself little by little.
I was focused only on the connection and i could not see nothing else around myself.
I was indeed … totally lost in that relationship.” I smiled listening to Tom.
I did not asked and he did not say it … but i was sure they broke up.
