THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
THE ILLUSORY DANCE
OF ENERGIES
… BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
1
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
ADRIAN GABRIEL DUMITRU
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Year: 2023
Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
2
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
This book is a dedication to all the idiots that influenced my life into such an ugly way … that i’ve finally decided that my only real escape … of getting rid of them … was to meditate and find out the secret about … what or who … is controlling reality.
It’s not a book about the absolute truth … but one with perceptions… which you might actually find quite interesting. Enjoy it!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
3
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
I simple wanted as my life to look different. I dreamed about a change … continuously living a stupid …. weird … unhappiness that was dominating my being.
But … i did not knew what to do … until i finally realized that the key of getting out of this prison with invisible walls … defined as unhappiness … was to take the conscious decision of disconnecting to all the toxic elements that were around myself … and chase only and only … for beautiful vibes.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
4
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
INTRODUCTION
Into a world where counts a lot … all what is going on the scene of reality … nobody bothers to ask why the hell things are happening the way they are happening.
We just live the scenarios which are happening everyday … and even if are intrigued about many of the things … we don’t dare to ask … who controls all the energies beyond each individual present in there.
We find … almost normal … all what happens … no matter if it is of negative or positive impact … but …
We still have many moments of being annoyed …. of this so
called … life.
We don’t agree with what is happening.
We should even make a strike … or a protest … but again … in front of who?!
Of the people from the stage of our lives?!But we refuse to meditate … on the subject.
We refuse to ask the question … who is controlling reality?!
Why the things happen the way they happen?
Do we have any control … over our lives?!
Can we influence and even dominate reality in any form?! For all the ones that are interested about the subject … i invite you into a spiritual - philosophical journey … for at least asking … what is really going on?! Should we accept reality just as it is?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
5
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Should we try to control it?!
Or … should we look at all like at a play from theater… smiling in front of anything would go on?! Difficult questions …
But at least we have this right … and probably … even the duty … of asking those questions …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
6
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
What is beyond reality?
I started to ask myself what is the meaning of life … around the age of 5 or 6.
The question itself was … so powerful … that i actually found it … annoying.
And years were passing ….
I’ve asked myself the same question again and again and again … and to tell you the truth … i was living with the illusion that i’ve found the absolute truth … few times. Then … i’ve realized …. I was wrong.
I only had some … illusory perceptions… believing … that the simple fact i’ve meditated for years … on and on and on … gives me the chance … to find out why we are here … and what sense does it make … this life.
And … again … time was passing … and i was balancing between believing and not believing i have the answers …. i was looking for.
But the great thing what happened into my mind … after analyzing all around myself … and even tried to find the meaning of the nonsense from my life … was that somehow I’ve understood … that besides of being an actor on the scene of reality … i could also start to be a spectator … and simple … watch the show … called … life.
Suddenly …. all that was annoying me … began to have
another meaning … but also what made me happy … looked
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
7
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
to me … more illusory.
I somehow concluded … that i have indeed … kind of a final conclusion … and unfortunately … that was the fact that … all was an illusion.
And i say … illusion … cause it was not what it looked like … But more i was balancing between being an actor and also a spectator of my life … more i was realizing that all i was seeing around myself was a dance of energies … which were in fact a reflection of my inner world … that universe from my soul.
Whatever i was defining as good or bad … was in fact … stamped with the effect of duality.
Good …. could be good …. but also bad.
All what i was defining as bad … cause looked as bad today … might also be … of positive impact for my future.
So … analyzing and defining all … realizing i only had studied the reality itself … but not really understanding what is controlling all what is going on … i wondered … what if my life … and everything around me … is actually controlled by energies which i have no idea about. I was digging … and digging.
But one day … 2 nice ladies … revealed me something very interesting.
One of them … was liking me … but the other one … for an unknown reason … hated me.
In the same time … i was analyzing them … feeling that they will reveal me … something very interesting.
They were both beautiful … having a magnetism … difficult to be described in words.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
8
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
One of them … was admired by all men from the stage of her life.
The other one … was admired and surrounded by … so many men …
Their partners were just … watching.
One … same as me … became a simple spectator … enjoying the show … but the other one became … a little bit depressive … feeling that he lost the control of his relationship.
But what control could we have into a relationship?! And why do we feel we own the people we are in a relationship with?!
I was smiling … then even started to laugh …. seeing the
dynamic of all what was going on.
I am 100% convinced that … you’ll see all what i am saying as a nonsense … but …
I was continuing watching the show of the 2 ladies …. and i
enjoyed it.
I was analyzing the meaning of the magnetism … of their beauty … but i could not conclude anything yet.
All i was seeing … was that the impact of all what was going on …. existed.
Things happened everyday.
The dynamic of everything … changed in one million directions.
And it was indeed an amazing show.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
9
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
We should be always aware of the energies that dominate … reality …. but also our own souls
One of the most difficult things to accept about the human being is that … being dominated by a certain type of energy
we begin to dominate the scene of life … inducing probably the same vibes as the one from inside our souls.
We want things to happen into a certain way … almost as a must …. and dominating reality becomes an obsession.
Of course … we could also be in front of a person that tries to change the world … for being a better place …. but this is …. unfortunately… a very rarely case.
And i will not bother to tell you about … those cases. Reality is somehow different.
I see everything … dominated by … nonsense.
I ask myself … for my own case … what if i should meditate more … and try to find out why i want to dominate everything around myself?
Is this a reflection of that weird energy that i’ve connected at
and dominates me by such a long time?!
Why everything …. became an obsession?!
Why this behavior … is so related with dominance?!
What really makes us act like that?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
10
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
Maybe it’s time to … simple stop … look in the mirror and analyze why we are dominated by obsession… and invest so much time and energy as things to happen into a certain way?!
The concept … that i am keep talking about … dominating and being dominated … makes sense.
At least …. to waste my time and talk about it.
To analyze it … as a need to understand the human being. To define all …. with real honesty … as in the end to realize we need to redefine ourselves.
And stop … everything is related to … dominance.
Not allow … to be dominated … but also stop this silly desire of dominating everything around.
Understand the nonsense … and … make a change …
You see … life is short … and we should be aware … how we use this time here.
A little bit of wisdom … could be a nice idea into this scenario.
and probably our obsession should be to redefine … the nonsense … and nothing more.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
11
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
We define it as … my energy, your energy, his energy … but it’s in fact about the energies we are anchored … or even worst … the energies that dominate us
It’s very difficult to accept that our lives have a script written by the energies that are in our souls.
But … the question is … what are those energies?!
What defines them?!
Have we accepted them … or they came to us for unknown reasons … as in the end to simple … dominate our souls. Who is really responsible for the fact that the human being is anchored into a certain type of energy … which indeed could be positive … or negative.
Unfortunately… many times … when we define that a soul is possessed of certain vibes … we speak about ugly energies
that we don’t even want to hear about. But … they exist.
They are real …. even if we like it … or not.
And it’s even worst … cause they are the entities that write the scenario … of our lives.
We pretend … we don’t know that.
We even pretend …. we have absolutely no idea about that … Well … until one day.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
12
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
We wake up … and say … “I had enough! I must do something to redefine my life … completely!”
Hmm …. but it’s easy to say it … into a theoretical way …
cause reality is too difficult to be changed.
We understand … that without realizing … we’ve became prisoners of an ugly universe … which is dominated by ugly energies.
The prison itself … has invisible walls … but those walls exist …
We cannot get out anymore … from there … and we feel it so deeply … but the final question remains … who is responsible of such a situation?!
I’ve meditated … a lot… about the subject …. and today i
somehow believe that we are living our lives … into a conscious or unconscious way.
We don’t pay attention at the importance of analyzing … and defining the energies … we are anchored … on that scene beyond reality.
Be honest … in front of ourselves.
Accept the truth … whatever that truth means.
Accept the analysis into a … conscious mode … even if … we lived so much into a unconscious mode.
We understand that … my energy, your energy, his energy etc … is the acceptance into a conscious or unconscious mode
to be into a certain type of vibes. Good… or ugly vibes.
And the impact … is actually … what we see into our daily lives.
A reality … controlled by certain energies … which even if we understand them … or not … are dominating… everything.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
13
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
The only thing that remains to be done … in front of the invisible walls of this ugly prison … defined as life … is only to start being conscious…
That becomes … the first important step … in our spiritual evolution … as later on to decide … simple to disconnect from any type of energy which … we dislike.
And do it … even … into an aggressive way … till we feel deep inside us that being anchored into a certain vibe … is for real … a conscious decision …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
14
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Exploring pathless paths … seen as a way of living
I’ve explored lots of paths during my lifetime.
As an individual…. I am a very active person and had the
illusory belief that this is kind of a …. virtue.
And … i’ve kept exploring … all those paths … that proved to be … many of them … pathless paths.
But … the funny thing was not that i’ve decided to follow those directions…. and i’ve continued to do it … on and on and on.
I simple could not stop doing it … even if i felt that something is … wrong.
Time was passing … and I’ve understood that i had in fact ….
2 lives.
the one from the outside world … defined by lots of mistakes … that i was repeating all the time … and … Well … my second life … was my inner world … that was dominated by everything happened … outside … into the real life.
The inside Universe …. was unfortunately a reflection of the outside Universe … being dominated by all sorts of contradictory feelings.
I was living a contradictory scenario … which was totally different than i found in the books of spirituality.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
15
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
I knew the theory … that the outside world is the reflection of my inner world … but … today i believed … the contrary.
I could not do anything to stop my journey of following pathless paths … and even if i was apparently doing it … i was actually only changing one pathless path with another one.
And this became … a real way of living.
I felt … i was doing something wrong.
I felt … all the time … that something is not ok … but … Well … i’ve started to realize the dance of energies beyond reality … and easily understood that i was … or i was not on the right path.
My life was looking the way it was looking cause …. I’ve
philosophical essays
THE ILLUSORY DANCE
OF ENERGIES
… BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
1
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
ADRIAN GABRIEL DUMITRU
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Year: 2023
Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
2
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
This book is a dedication to all the idiots that influenced my life into such an ugly way … that i’ve finally decided that my only real escape … of getting rid of them … was to meditate and find out the secret about … what or who … is controlling reality.
It’s not a book about the absolute truth … but one with perceptions… which you might actually find quite interesting. Enjoy it!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
3
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
I simple wanted as my life to look different. I dreamed about a change … continuously living a stupid …. weird … unhappiness that was dominating my being.
But … i did not knew what to do … until i finally realized that the key of getting out of this prison with invisible walls … defined as unhappiness … was to take the conscious decision of disconnecting to all the toxic elements that were around myself … and chase only and only … for beautiful vibes.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
4
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
INTRODUCTION
Into a world where counts a lot … all what is going on the scene of reality … nobody bothers to ask why the hell things are happening the way they are happening.
We just live the scenarios which are happening everyday … and even if are intrigued about many of the things … we don’t dare to ask … who controls all the energies beyond each individual present in there.
We find … almost normal … all what happens … no matter if it is of negative or positive impact … but …
We still have many moments of being annoyed …. of this so
called … life.
We don’t agree with what is happening.
We should even make a strike … or a protest … but again … in front of who?!
Of the people from the stage of our lives?!But we refuse to meditate … on the subject.
We refuse to ask the question … who is controlling reality?!
Why the things happen the way they happen?
Do we have any control … over our lives?!
Can we influence and even dominate reality in any form?! For all the ones that are interested about the subject … i invite you into a spiritual - philosophical journey … for at least asking … what is really going on?! Should we accept reality just as it is?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
5
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Should we try to control it?!
Or … should we look at all like at a play from theater… smiling in front of anything would go on?! Difficult questions …
But at least we have this right … and probably … even the duty … of asking those questions …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
6
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
What is beyond reality?
I started to ask myself what is the meaning of life … around the age of 5 or 6.
The question itself was … so powerful … that i actually found it … annoying.
And years were passing ….
I’ve asked myself the same question again and again and again … and to tell you the truth … i was living with the illusion that i’ve found the absolute truth … few times. Then … i’ve realized …. I was wrong.
I only had some … illusory perceptions… believing … that the simple fact i’ve meditated for years … on and on and on … gives me the chance … to find out why we are here … and what sense does it make … this life.
And … again … time was passing … and i was balancing between believing and not believing i have the answers …. i was looking for.
But the great thing what happened into my mind … after analyzing all around myself … and even tried to find the meaning of the nonsense from my life … was that somehow I’ve understood … that besides of being an actor on the scene of reality … i could also start to be a spectator … and simple … watch the show … called … life.
Suddenly …. all that was annoying me … began to have
another meaning … but also what made me happy … looked
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
7
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
to me … more illusory.
I somehow concluded … that i have indeed … kind of a final conclusion … and unfortunately … that was the fact that … all was an illusion.
And i say … illusion … cause it was not what it looked like … But more i was balancing between being an actor and also a spectator of my life … more i was realizing that all i was seeing around myself was a dance of energies … which were in fact a reflection of my inner world … that universe from my soul.
Whatever i was defining as good or bad … was in fact … stamped with the effect of duality.
Good …. could be good …. but also bad.
All what i was defining as bad … cause looked as bad today … might also be … of positive impact for my future.
So … analyzing and defining all … realizing i only had studied the reality itself … but not really understanding what is controlling all what is going on … i wondered … what if my life … and everything around me … is actually controlled by energies which i have no idea about. I was digging … and digging.
But one day … 2 nice ladies … revealed me something very interesting.
One of them … was liking me … but the other one … for an unknown reason … hated me.
In the same time … i was analyzing them … feeling that they will reveal me … something very interesting.
They were both beautiful … having a magnetism … difficult to be described in words.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
8
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
One of them … was admired by all men from the stage of her life.
The other one … was admired and surrounded by … so many men …
Their partners were just … watching.
One … same as me … became a simple spectator … enjoying the show … but the other one became … a little bit depressive … feeling that he lost the control of his relationship.
But what control could we have into a relationship?! And why do we feel we own the people we are in a relationship with?!
I was smiling … then even started to laugh …. seeing the
dynamic of all what was going on.
I am 100% convinced that … you’ll see all what i am saying as a nonsense … but …
I was continuing watching the show of the 2 ladies …. and i
enjoyed it.
I was analyzing the meaning of the magnetism … of their beauty … but i could not conclude anything yet.
All i was seeing … was that the impact of all what was going on …. existed.
Things happened everyday.
The dynamic of everything … changed in one million directions.
And it was indeed an amazing show.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
9
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
We should be always aware of the energies that dominate … reality …. but also our own souls
One of the most difficult things to accept about the human being is that … being dominated by a certain type of energy
we begin to dominate the scene of life … inducing probably the same vibes as the one from inside our souls.
We want things to happen into a certain way … almost as a must …. and dominating reality becomes an obsession.
Of course … we could also be in front of a person that tries to change the world … for being a better place …. but this is …. unfortunately… a very rarely case.
And i will not bother to tell you about … those cases. Reality is somehow different.
I see everything … dominated by … nonsense.
I ask myself … for my own case … what if i should meditate more … and try to find out why i want to dominate everything around myself?
Is this a reflection of that weird energy that i’ve connected at
and dominates me by such a long time?!
Why everything …. became an obsession?!
Why this behavior … is so related with dominance?!
What really makes us act like that?!
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
10
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
Maybe it’s time to … simple stop … look in the mirror and analyze why we are dominated by obsession… and invest so much time and energy as things to happen into a certain way?!
The concept … that i am keep talking about … dominating and being dominated … makes sense.
At least …. to waste my time and talk about it.
To analyze it … as a need to understand the human being. To define all …. with real honesty … as in the end to realize we need to redefine ourselves.
And stop … everything is related to … dominance.
Not allow … to be dominated … but also stop this silly desire of dominating everything around.
Understand the nonsense … and … make a change …
You see … life is short … and we should be aware … how we use this time here.
A little bit of wisdom … could be a nice idea into this scenario.
and probably our obsession should be to redefine … the nonsense … and nothing more.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
11
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
We define it as … my energy, your energy, his energy … but it’s in fact about the energies we are anchored … or even worst … the energies that dominate us
It’s very difficult to accept that our lives have a script written by the energies that are in our souls.
But … the question is … what are those energies?!
What defines them?!
Have we accepted them … or they came to us for unknown reasons … as in the end to simple … dominate our souls. Who is really responsible for the fact that the human being is anchored into a certain type of energy … which indeed could be positive … or negative.
Unfortunately… many times … when we define that a soul is possessed of certain vibes … we speak about ugly energies
that we don’t even want to hear about. But … they exist.
They are real …. even if we like it … or not.
And it’s even worst … cause they are the entities that write the scenario … of our lives.
We pretend … we don’t know that.
We even pretend …. we have absolutely no idea about that … Well … until one day.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
12
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
We wake up … and say … “I had enough! I must do something to redefine my life … completely!”
Hmm …. but it’s easy to say it … into a theoretical way …
cause reality is too difficult to be changed.
We understand … that without realizing … we’ve became prisoners of an ugly universe … which is dominated by ugly energies.
The prison itself … has invisible walls … but those walls exist …
We cannot get out anymore … from there … and we feel it so deeply … but the final question remains … who is responsible of such a situation?!
I’ve meditated … a lot… about the subject …. and today i
somehow believe that we are living our lives … into a conscious or unconscious way.
We don’t pay attention at the importance of analyzing … and defining the energies … we are anchored … on that scene beyond reality.
Be honest … in front of ourselves.
Accept the truth … whatever that truth means.
Accept the analysis into a … conscious mode … even if … we lived so much into a unconscious mode.
We understand that … my energy, your energy, his energy etc … is the acceptance into a conscious or unconscious mode
to be into a certain type of vibes. Good… or ugly vibes.
And the impact … is actually … what we see into our daily lives.
A reality … controlled by certain energies … which even if we understand them … or not … are dominating… everything.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
13
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
The only thing that remains to be done … in front of the invisible walls of this ugly prison … defined as life … is only to start being conscious…
That becomes … the first important step … in our spiritual evolution … as later on to decide … simple to disconnect from any type of energy which … we dislike.
And do it … even … into an aggressive way … till we feel deep inside us that being anchored into a certain vibe … is for real … a conscious decision …
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
14
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Exploring pathless paths … seen as a way of living
I’ve explored lots of paths during my lifetime.
As an individual…. I am a very active person and had the
illusory belief that this is kind of a …. virtue.
And … i’ve kept exploring … all those paths … that proved to be … many of them … pathless paths.
But … the funny thing was not that i’ve decided to follow those directions…. and i’ve continued to do it … on and on and on.
I simple could not stop doing it … even if i felt that something is … wrong.
Time was passing … and I’ve understood that i had in fact ….
2 lives.
the one from the outside world … defined by lots of mistakes … that i was repeating all the time … and … Well … my second life … was my inner world … that was dominated by everything happened … outside … into the real life.
The inside Universe …. was unfortunately a reflection of the outside Universe … being dominated by all sorts of contradictory feelings.
I was living a contradictory scenario … which was totally different than i found in the books of spirituality.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
15
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
I knew the theory … that the outside world is the reflection of my inner world … but … today i believed … the contrary.
I could not do anything to stop my journey of following pathless paths … and even if i was apparently doing it … i was actually only changing one pathless path with another one.
And this became … a real way of living.
I felt … i was doing something wrong.
I felt … all the time … that something is not ok … but … Well … i’ve started to realize the dance of energies beyond reality … and easily understood that i was … or i was not on the right path.
My life was looking the way it was looking cause …. I’ve
